Confession

Lin Xu's memory has not been very good. At the beginning, he was too much stimulated, starting from being bullied by the Internet, and then his parents passed away, and his friends betrayed him. Yang Xiaoling became the last straw that crushed him.

The betrayal caused Lin Xu some mental damage. Although he was rescued after committing suicide, he didn't say a word for more than a month.

Dull, hollow, and numb, Yang Xiaoling was terrified by his state, and kept guarding in front of the bed every step of the way. In the end, the wound on his wrist began to heal, but his soul hadn't returned yet.

Yang Xiaoling had no choice but to take out Lin Xu's audio to see if Jiang Yang's voice could help.

After that, Lin Xu began to receive psychological treatment. He was severely depressed, suffered from severe insomnia, started crying, lost his temper, and threw things for no reason. He also needed to take a lot of medicine every day.

Lin Xu didn't know that there was a problem with his memory at first, he was immersed in his own world, looking at those fragmented pictures, he mistakenly thought that Jiang Yang was a straight man, or he was guarding the voice and face that made his heart move, and he was in the endless In the uninhabited world, dragging his stump and struggling.

It was only after reuniting with Jiang Yang that he realized that there was a problem with his memory. He always thought that his memory loss was a side effect of taking medicine. It turned out that he really forgot a lot of things.

Lin Xu stared blankly at Jiang Yang, searching for the corresponding picture in his mind, but he still had no impression of the memory he mentioned.

"Did you... remember it wrong?" Lin Xu smiled wryly, "Could you have misheard someone as me..."

Jiang Yang has many suitors, and there are countless people on WeChat, and it is not surprising that people call to confess.

Jiang Yang frowned, "Although I was not engaged in sound work at that time, I was very sensitive to timbre. I don't think I heard it wrong. The tone of that voice was exactly the same as that of you crying and calling my name later."

Lin Xu was stunned, fingering the tail of his clothes, "Really...I don't think so."

"Why not?" Jiang Yang said, holding Lin Xu's cold hand, "You like me, so what's the surprise in confessing to me?"

Lin Xu shook his head, a trace of pain flashed in his eyes, "I... If I knew how to confess, I would have said it long ago, and I wouldn't wait until later. Yang Xiaoling is right, I am weak and timid, I dare not... dare not tell you, I... ..."

Lin Xu didn't have this part in his memory, Jiang Yang's narration was very strange to him, he subconsciously accepted his cowardly and timid character, and felt that this would not be like what he did at all.

Bravery is like an untouchable dream, and initiative has become a very long time ago.

When he was in high spirits, he didn't take the initiative to take that step, so why would he cry and call Jiang Yang to confess his love?

No, it's not like something he would do.

He has already become a mouse in the gutter, only in the dead of night, he dares to poke his head out timidly, longing for the short moonlight for a while.

Seeing Lin Xu's flustered look, Jiang Yang didn't say anything, but drove home.

Jiang Yang asked Lin Xu to sit on the sofa, and took out the call records printed out five years ago from his bedroom.

Lin Xu looked at the number circled with a red pen, and his fingers trembled slightly as if it was stuck in his throat.

"Is this your number?" Jiang Yang asked.

Lin Xu swallowed, and forced a tone out of his throat, "...Yes."

When his private number was leaked, his spirit and life were disturbed by the endless harassment, and he started to feel afraid when he heard the phone vibrate.

Later, I changed my mobile phone number, just in case, set up rejecting calls from strangers, and turned off adding friends by searching mobile phone numbers. The mobile phone was temporarily quiet, but the nightmare was still entangled.

In Lin Xu's memory, on the day he broke up with Yang Xiaoling, his cell phone fell to the ground, and it was smashed to pieces, and the new card inside was also cracked.

The only impression he had was that he was crying while walking on the road, had a splitting headache, and almost fainted on the side of the road. It seemed that he was really dizzy for a while, his eyes were dark, and he could only sit on the steps to rest.

When Lin Xu came back to his senses, his face was full of tears, his throat was sore and hoarse, the phone was lying in front of him, and the screen was covered with cobwebs, it was not a tragedy.

At that time, tears had become his normal state, and he would often cry heartbroken without doing anything. His spirit was on the verge of collapse, and any little stimulus could drive him crazy.

Lin Xu stared at the phone on the ground, naturally thinking that he was crying like this because the phone was gone.

In the early morning and night, it was quiet and empty, and the world was as quiet as if he was the only one left. Later, he even forgot how he got back. He woke up again in the hospital, beside Yang Xiaoling who was crying bitterly, with a thick bandage tied on his wrist. The pain tingled his nerves, reminding him of what had happened.

Lin Xu stared at the string of familiar and unfamiliar numbers on the list, tears welled up in his eyes, like an endless spring, his eyes blurred in an instant, and he asked in an unbelievable trembling voice: "Is it me... Really? me……"

He couldn't believe that he had the courage to take that step back then, and confessed his love to Jiang Yang by accident when his mind was so defeated.

"Of course it's you," Jiang Yang hugged Lin Xu, his face pressed against each other, his palms stroking the soft hair, his thick eyelashes covered the obscure and distressed emotions, "I believe I heard correctly, this is indeed you phone number, right?"

Lin Xu hummed, his chest heaved, and he buried his face in Jiang Yang's arms, clutching the call record tightly in his hand, like a life-saving straw, it became the proof that he had bravely approached the warm light.

"Xuxu, you are stronger and braver than I imagined." Jiang Yang said softly and in a low voice, with a textured voice flowing in like spring water, moist and soft, "You have never escaped feelings, you are the one we can Go to the most important part of today."

Lin Xu's breathing trembled, his eyelashes were wet, and he raised his head ignorantly, "You... When did you like me? Five years ago?"

"No," Jiang Yang wiped away Lin Xu's tears, "To be precise, it was the first time I saw you cry."

Lin Xu blinked, his eyes were red, the tears set him off pitifully, he was very obedient in Jiang Yang's arms, he didn't understand what it meant.

"I brought you back from the bar before," Jiang Yang kissed the corner of his eyes, "I saw you crying and struggling helplessly in a nightmare, and my heart hurts, like being splashed with sulfuric acid."

Lin Xu sniffed and listened quietly.

"Since then, I have confirmed that you called me five years ago, and I came up with the idea of ​​taking care of you." Jiang Yang sighed, and rubbed Lin Xu's earlobe, tenderly, "Xu Xu, You're not that bad, you're brave, if it wasn't for the phone call back then, maybe I don't know you like me until now, and I've even almost forgotten your existence."

"Don't deny yourself, and don't push all the responsibilities to yourself. It's all Guo Shule's fault and has nothing to do with you, understand?" Jiang Yang held Lin Xu's wet red cheeks, "The death of your parents, Lele's death It has nothing to do with you, I don't allow you to blame yourself for this matter, promise me, okay?"

Lin Xu's face turned pale when he heard the word "Guo Shule", his expression was different, he couldn't hide the pain, his forehead rested on Jiang Yang's collarbone, panting.

"It's all over, Xu Xu, don't be afraid." Jiang Yang knew that he was taboo about this, but thinking of Zhao Xiwen's words, he tentatively said, "Guo Shule, evil people will be rewarded with evil, and he has experienced everything you have experienced."

Lin Xu had a headache. The three words "Guo Shule" had already caused him physical discomfort. "What did you do?"

"Do you still remember what you said at the entrance of the restaurant that day?" Jiang Yang said, "I recorded the audio."

Lin Xu opened his eyes wide and raised his head. He was too surprised to ignore the discomfort in his body, "Recording? Did you record it? Why?"

Jiang Yang: "Your attitude towards Guo Shule has always puzzled me. The magnetic field between you and him that night was very strange, so when I went to listen to your conversation, I was extra careful and turned on the recording. If you play charades , I plan to listen to it a few times in private to see if I can find the reason for your resistance to him."

Lin Xu felt sour in his heart, "Why didn't you ask me directly?"

"I mentioned that person earlier, you are so abnormal, how dare I?" Jiang Yang smiled and sat with him on his lap, "Xu Xu's mood is the most important thing, I can inquire about other things by myself."

"Jiang Yang..." Lin Xu touched the young man's handsome face with red eyes, "Why are you so kind to me?"

"You are my lover, if I don't treat you well, who will I treat well?" Jiang Yang lowered his voice and coaxed him patiently, "From now on, I will only treat you well."

Lin Xu's nose was sore, and he couldn't control his tears as he always shed tears and kissed Jiang Yang's lips.

Tears wet the lips of the two of them, Lin Xu's mouth was soaked with tears all the time, it was icy and wet, and the kiss was quite salty.

But Jiang Yang didn't dislike it, he kissed his small lips, put his palms into his clothes, and moved up along his soft waist, the hot temperature in his palms spread across Lin Xu's body, slowly warming his cold body. Warm heat.

Lin Xu lay in his arms with his eyes closed, warm and comfortable, his cheek pressed against his chest, his heart beating powerfully.

"Do you want to listen to Guo Shule's follow-up?" Jiang Yang took out a tissue and wiped away the tears on Lin Xu's face.

Lin Xu didn't want to hear anything, and didn't want to know anything about Guo Shule, but Jiang Yang did all this for him, and he couldn't just ignore this maintenance and concern.

"Yeah." Lin Xu made a soft nasal voice, and said without much interest, "Say it."

It began to rain lightly outside, gray-white clouds condensed in mid-air, the sky was dark and dull, the raindrops gradually fell on the glass densely, the sound of the rain became louder, and there was a pattering sound of rain.

After the audio was posted on the Internet, it aroused thousands of waves. Netizens who had scolded and scolded Mo An immediately turned around and scolded Mo An like grass on the wall. After learning the truth, their anger reached its peak. There is nothing less than a grand occasion.

Not only that, someone exposed all of Guo Shule's personal privacy, including his real name, phone number, and all the immoral things he did in life, and his ID photos were also released. There is no privacy at all.

The truth came to light, this incident aroused public outrage, netizens scolded Mo An on the trending searches, and gave Guo Shule all the unsightly words that scolded Lin Xu earlier.

"Your readers are starting to apologize to you," Jiang Yang twirled Lin Xu's hair with his fingertips, and said softly, "The comment section of "Secret Love" you broke up is full of words waiting for you to go back, and your published I couldn't reach you, so I found my Weibo, hoping to contact you to continue talking about the contract."

Lin Xu was lying in Jiang Yang's arms, breathing steadily, and fell asleep at some point, and he didn't know how much he had listened to what he said.

He was hurt too deeply, that's why he avoided conflicts like this. He didn't want to hear anything about this matter. With Jiang Yang holding him, he fell into a dream that he was accustomed to.

With dark eyes, Jiang Yang sighed silently, lowered his head and kissed Lin Xu's forehead, then lay on the sofa with his arms in his arms.

Listening to the sound of rain outside the window, the two embraced and fell asleep.

A house without Lele always lacks vitality.