Confession

"Jiang Yang..." Lin Xu didn't know how to react, his heart was beating fieryly and violently, and there was no rhythmic collision in his chest, which made his chest painful and numb. The blood flow accelerated, igniting the heat in his body, making his body The spirit is in a state of excitement.

"You...why are you back?" Lin Xu heard himself asking, his breathing trembling and his voice unsteady.

Jiang Yang's appearance was a huge surprise that fell from the sky, and he was stunned, unbelievable and excited.

He never asked Jiang Yang to show up. Standing in the position of a friend, he was sensible, caring, and understanding. Jiang Yang's father had an accident. Naturally, it is more important to take care of his relatives at such a time. He even called Jiang Yang to ask for help. I don't even have the courage to give a blessing, afraid that he will be distracted, afraid that he will keep his promise and leave his father behind.

It would be a lie to say that he was not disappointed, after all he had been looking forward to it for a long time.

It's just that Lin Xu really didn't expect Jiang Yang to really come, dusty and sweaty, appearing in front of him at the last moment of his birthday.

He could clearly see the tenderness, warmth and joy in the young man's eyes.

"Today is your birthday. We agreed to spend it together. How can I be absent?" Jiang Yang wanted to smile, but his face changed when the corner of his mouth hurt.

The light in the aisle was not very good, just now Lin Xu was immersed in surprise and didn't pay attention, seeing Jiang Yang's frown and reluctantly noticed his swollen cheeks and a trace of blood around the corners of his mouth.

Lin Xu was taken aback, his joy disappeared immediately, and he asked nervously and eagerly, "What's wrong with your face?"

Jiang Yang licked the corner of his mouth, smiled wryly and said, "Senior, should you let me in first?"

Lin Xu hurriedly let Jiang Yang in, he closed the door, followed closely behind, the room was well lit at the moment, Lin Xu could clearly see Jiang Yang's injuries——

The sharp-edged face became no longer perfect, his left face was swollen, and the palm print could still be seen vaguely, a cut was made at the corner of his mouth, bloodshot faintly overflowing.His hair was a little disheveled, his expression was tired, and he looked embarrassed, without the usual look.

"Senior, hurry up and blow out the candles." Jiang Yang sat on the sofa, put the cake on the coffee table, and saw a gift box, "Has anyone been here? Why don't you open the gift for you?"

He can't laugh very much, so he expressed his emotions with his voice, making himself sound excited, "Come blow out the candles and make a wish? You need a sense of ritual."

Lin Xu didn't go to see the cake, but sat on the coffee table, facing Jiang Yang, looking at his injury without blinking.

Jiang Yang felt uncomfortable being stared at, and tried to change the subject, "Don't look at me, make a wish, or the candle will burn out. I know what you want to ask, but let me help you celebrate your birthday first, okay?"

Lin Xu raised his hand to touch Jiang Yang's red and swollen face, but stopped as soon as his fingertips touched it, as if he was afraid of hurting him, so he only dared to paint gently from a distance.

Seeing Lin Xu's red eyes, Jiang Yang restrained his forced smile.

He sat quietly, with his eyes downcast, his eyelashes covering his dark and unclear expression, the little sun that had always been there had lost its light, and at this moment, he showed hurt emotions.

It was supposed to be a happy atmosphere, but it was silent at this moment. Lele sensed that something was wrong, and stayed quietly in the nest, watching the silent two with round eyes.

Bright lights hit them, and the huge floor-to-ceiling windows reflected the figures of the two.

After a long while, feeling outweighed reason, Lin Xu followed the thoughts in his heart and touched Jiang Yang's face.

Lin Xu didn't dare to use too much force, the wound on his palm was not completely healed, it was covered with a thin layer of gauze, afraid that the rough cloth would make Jiang Yang hurt.

"Who hit it?" Lin Xu's ending sound had an indistinct tremor, and he more or less guessed, "Your family?"

Jiang Yang hummed, as if he had found his comfort zone, his tense body relaxed, leaned on the sofa, removed all disguise, closed his eyes, tilted his head slightly, and put his injured cheek against Lin Xu's palm, "Senior, I'm so tired."

Lin Xu gently rubbed Jiang Yang's red face with his thumb, "You can tell me."

"Is it okay?" Jiang Yang opened his eyes, and his eyes met Lin Xu's concerned eyes, "Actually, I don't want to give you negative emotions."

He touched the gauze in Lin Xu's hand, recalled the incident of his emotional breakdown before, worried that what he poured out would cause him even heavier psychological pressure.

Lin Xu shook his head: "It's okay, and I'm willing to listen."

Jiang Yang stared at the candles on the cake that were about to burn out, and said in a low voice, "Senior, am I not filial?"

He said a sentence without beginning or end, without any foreshadowing.

Lin Xu watched him quietly.

"I didn't listen to my parents and lived according to their ideas. I contradicted and quarreled, and told them that I like men, which completely cut off the possibility of them seeing me get married and have children." Jiang Yang's eyes were scattered, and he spoke to his parents confidently. After arguing, I am now caught in self-reflection.

"Like thousands of other families, they have a wife and a child. They can take care of their grandchildren like other elderly people. There is nothing wrong with their thoughts. Am I too cruel?" Jiang Yang asked.

"I went back this time and asked the doctor in the hospital. My father's blood pressure and blood lipids are high. My mother's health has never been very good. What if they are really mad at me?" Jiang Yang looked at Lin Xu's eyes, "Lin Xu, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that one day in the future I will have to compromise. If there is really something wrong with their health, and the day when I need to make concessions, then what is the point of all my efforts now? ? What am I holding on to?"

Lin Xu's heart shrank fiercely, as if someone had squeezed it tightly, and the subtle pain made his breathing a little heavy.

He had never seen Jiang Yang like this before, the little sun became dim and confused, his eyes were sad, like a big injured cat, finding a safe corner, peeling off the thick fur, exposing the bleeding Bleeding wounds.

No one wants to have a happy and harmonious family. For this purpose, compromise, pretense, and obedience have become the norm. They hide their true self from their parents, appear to be their good children, have a satisfactory job, a happy family, and even get married and have children. Take responsibility that you don't want at all.

The repressed real self broke out under the pressure of reality and illusion. My wife and children fell asleep at home, and I went to the bar to have fun by myself.

The feasting and feasting, men and women, released in the midst of luxury and luxury, have become the dreamland of many cowards.

Lin Xu leaned forward, held Jiang Yang's face in both hands, and said seriously: "The meaning of your persistence is not to gain their approval, but to be brave enough to be yourself."

"There is no rule that requires everyone's life to be the same. You have to be yourself before you can be their son." Lin Xu said in a very soft voice, with a gentleness that calmed everything down, "You have the responsibility to honor them, but There is no obligation to become what they want. Jiang Yang, you are the bravest person I have ever met."

Jiang Yang asked blankly, "Really?"

"Of course, in my eyes, you are brave, fiery, and dazzling, and to me..." Lin Xu paused, hesitating whether to say it or not.

Jiang Yang caught his pause and asked, "What is it to you?"

"To me, it's like a warm sun."

Jiang Yang pursed his lips slightly, surprised by the answer, and felt a sour fullness in his heart.

Jiang Yang's fragile side made Lin Xu want to do everything in his power to comfort him, no fancy rhetoric or artistic words were needed.

He carefully held the feelings he cherished in his heart, and hid them behind the banner of his friend's concern. He took this opportunity to pour out his heart——

"Don't doubt yourself, you are synonymous with unrestrained and unrestrained, the sun will be quiet for a short time, but it will not fall." Lin Xu traced Jiang Yang's handsome eyebrows, felt the other's body temperature with his palm, and looked at his honest look , with a soft heart, "Perhaps you are giving strength to others without knowing it yourself. So don't change, what you need to be is yourself, not the good son puppet your parents say."

After Lin Xu finished speaking, Jiang Yang was quiet for a while, and asked in a low voice, "Will you?"

"Of course." Lin Xu understood what he meant, "Your smile is enough to give you the courage to face everything. There is no doubt about this, and I always believe in it."

Jiang Yang felt that he was bewitched by Lin Xu, and his comforting words were actually the same, never changing. But facing Lin Xu, his disturbed mood stabilized, and the handsome brows and eyes of that person were calm and beautiful, which made him unable to bear it. want to get closer.

"Senior, you really deserve to be the author," Jiang Yang sighed.As if wanting to sigh all the negative emotions, he rubbed his cheek against Lin Xu's palm, "It really comforts people."

"...No way." Lin Xu felt that what he said just now was too nasty, and he was a little embarrassed, but seeing that he was still holding Jiang Yang's face, he withdrew his hand embarrassingly.

Jiang Yang raised his hand to hold Lin Xu's wrist, not letting him leave.

The warm body temperature made Lin Xu's skin numb for a moment, and he saw the emotion in Jiang Yang's eyes, the eyes were no longer dim, and there was a shimmer of light in them.

Lin Xu was stunned, "You..."

"You just said that I am a warm sun to you?" Jiang Yang asked.

"..." Lin Xu's ears felt hot, and he didn't know how to explain it, so he could only hum.

Jiang Yang continued to ask: "Why?"

Because I like you, you once took me out of the darkness in another way.

Lin Xu answered silently in his heart.

He suddenly realized that it seemed that he would never have the right time to confess his love.

When Jiang Yang was injured and took care of him before, the love in his heart was ready to come out, but was interrupted by the sudden Guo Shule, which made him not in the mood to think about feelings.

Later, in the playground, under the night sky, at the commanding height of the Ferris wheel, he could have a panoramic view of the colorful stars of the entire playground. Their fingertips touched, and the ambiguity was natural. He could feel Jiang Yang's fiery emotions and confessed his love. The words were also on the lips, but the romantic dream was shattered by the phone call.

But now, Jiang Yang came to celebrate his birthday with the scars on his face, took the initiative to show him the messy family, and showed his fragile side in front of him, which is obviously a good opportunity, but he couldn't say it, Not wanting to take advantage of others, Jiang Yang accepted his confession with a smile while worrying about family affairs.

Lin Xu felt that he still hadn't made any progress, and he was still the same as when he was ill before. The more he cared about things, the more he looked forward and backward, and thought of escaping. He didn't have the determination and decisive courage to be desperate.

——When you comfort others, you become a wise man, but when you comfort yourself, you become a coward.

Seeing that Lin Xu was silent and didn't press for questions, Jiang Yang picked up his phone and checked the time, it was 23:50.

"Senior, let's blow out the candles," Jiang Yang said, "It's your birthday anyway, you have to make a wish and eat cake."

He seemed to be relieved after expressing his thoughts, and he no longer looked dull, the gloom and depression dissipated, and he returned to his usual talkative and sunny appearance.

Lin Xu couldn't keep up with Jiang Yang's quick transition, "Mmm...okay."

Jiang Yang took out a few more candles from the cutlery bag to replace the burnt ones, then turned off the lights, and placed the cake in front of Lin Xu with a sense of ceremony.

The candles were full, and the orange light hit the faces of the two. The light was weak, but it illuminated their eyes clearly.

Jiang Yang looked at Lin Xu, "Senior, make a wish."

Lin Xu stared at the happy birthday chocolate sign on the cake and whispered, "Let's go together."

"Huh?" Jiang Yang wanted to laugh, but he sucked in the pain from the corner of his mouth, "It's your birthday, how can I make a wish?"

"Who said you have to be on your birthday to make a wish? We ate the cake together, so of course we can make a wish together." Lin Xu said, "And... aren't you unhappy? Make a wish, and everything will disappear and everything will go your way. "

Jiang Yang looked at Lin Xu: "Really?"

Lin Xu nodded, "Of course."

He has never believed this, but in order to comfort Jiang Yang, he is willing to believe it once.

Jiang Yang hooked the corners of his mouth, his eyes were soft, "Okay, let's make a wish together."

Lin Xu closed his eyes first, and said something silently in his heart.

In the next second, he heard Jiang Yang say, "I don't need to make my wish, only you can satisfy me."

Lin Xu opened his eyes and looked at him inexplicably.

The candlelight flickered, and the cake exuded a sweet and rich creamy aroma. The small candlelight shone into Jiang Yang's pupils, making his sight more warm.

Immediately afterwards, Jiang Yang said with a smile in his nice voice, "Lin Xu, I like you too."

Lin Xu forgot to breathe and widened his eyes.

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

Ding--

The time skipped the 59-point barrier and came to zero.

At the last second of the first day of Lin Xu's 27th birthday, Jiang Yang sent out an invitation to date.