Confession

It was early morning when Jiang Yang arrived at the hospital overnight. The lights in the ward were on, and his parents were still awake. He opened the door and went in. He saw his father lying on the hospital bed, and his mother watching the drip.

When Father Jiang saw him coming in, his eyes froze for a moment, his lips moved, and he wanted to say something, but the next second he thought that they were still arguing, he snorted coldly, turned his eyes away, and didn't look at him.

Jiang's mother couldn't care so much, and finally felt relieved when she saw her son came back. The naked eye could see that her expression was relaxed, and her son was tearful.

"Why are you crying? I'm not dead yet," Father Jiang said angrily, "It was just a small car accident. There's nothing to cry about."

"Is it a trivial matter that your legs are broken?" Mother Jiang wiped her tears, "I think you don't feel any pain anymore, so don't ask the doctor to prescribe painkillers for you! Forget about the pain!"

Jiang's father and Jiang's mother have always gotten along like enemies, and they still don't forget to quarrel at this time.

Jiang Yang hurriedly asked them to stop arguing, and asked carefully about the injury.

Jiang's mother said it was very serious, saying that she had a comminuted fracture and injured her spleen and needed to rest well.

Although the relationship between him and his parents has not eased, but something happened, he, the son, is their only support, so naturally he has to do his best to serve him.

He paid all the expenses, went to find a nearby restaurant before dawn, ordered crucian carp soup for Jiang's father for three months, and bought some nourishing supplements, taking this opportunity to make good supplements.

The two elders are used to it, Jiang Yang saves the money they play for them every month, and he is reluctant to spend it. He feels distressed if he loses dozens of dollars playing some small mahjong.Usually, it is convenient for two people at home. Elderly people are not suitable to eat greasy food. They always have green vegetables, less meat and meat, and they dare not eat too much sweets for fear of diabetes.

As a result, taking advantage of this accident, I did a general examination. The doctor said that the nutrition could not keep up, and the osteoporosis caused by calcium deficiency, so I was hit by a battery car and fell to the ground with bone fractures.

That's right, it was a bone fracture. Jiang Yang asked the doctor carefully about the injury in private. The comminuted fracture that Jiang's mother said was just an ordinary bone fracture, and he didn't even need to be hospitalized, just go home and rest.As for the spleen injury, it is actually because the elderly are unable to flexibly maintain their balance when they fall, or respond to stress in time to protect their bodies, so they have some abrasions on their bodies.

In this regard, the doctor prescribed medicine and told Jiang Yang to apply it in the morning and evening, and not to touch the water recently.

Jiang's mother is also getting older, and she may subconsciously say that her condition is serious, but she is also literate. The nature of comminuted fractures and bone fractures is different, and there is a big difference between ordinary abrasions and spleen damage. She couldn't have said both wrong.

Jiang Yang took the medicine, feeling helpless and amused, he understood that this was a step that Jiang's mother had found for him to ease the relationship and let him go home.

He didn't expose this white lie, and then Jiang's father went home, did his son's duty, took care of the two elders' daily life dutifully, replaced all the old and worn-out things in the house with new ones, and bought some convenience supplies. Cooked cooked food.

"Is there no place to spend your money?" Father Jiang sat on the sofa, watching the maintenance workers rushing in and out, and snorted coldly, "Those are all fine, why bother."

"What's the matter, I left the water in the shower last night for 15 minutes and it was still cold water," Jiang Yang stood at the door of the toilet and stared at them, "Dad, don't worry about it, since I'm back, I'll fix it for you. Hey, have you finished researching your new mobile phone? I'll teach you the functions you don't know. "

Jiang's mother came out of the bedroom and said with a smile: "He studied it all night last night. He said he disliked it, and he slept with it, as if he was afraid that others would snatch it from him."

Jiang's father put his face on his face: "Stop talking nonsense! I think my old cell phone is still easier to use!"

Jiang Yang said with a smile: "If you don't go to the old one, why don't you come to the new one? This screen is bigger than the last one, and it's convenient for you to watch videos."

Jiang's father kept playing with his phone while wearing presbyopic glasses, but he said, "I think it's the same, it's no different."

"Your father is just like that," Mother Jiang said angrily, "Don't pay attention to him, he likes it."

Jiang Yang laughed.

Since he came out of the closet with his parents, he hasn't had such a relaxed atmosphere for a long time. He doesn't know how long this calm appearance can last. It's unfilial for him to like men, but it's not something he can control. He doesn't succumb to reality and Family, living by himself is the only bottom line he can hold.

Jiang's father's injury is not very serious. He has a broken arm and a splint, but his fingers are fine, but he can't do heavy work, and his basic daily life is a problem.

Jiang Yang asked A Liang for a week's leave. He wanted to take this opportunity to stay with his parents at home, and promised to make up for the missed progress when he went back.

The dubbing can be recorded separately, and it’s not a big deal to combine the sound clips together during production. A Liang readily agreed to let him stay at home with his parents. The progress is not in a hurry now, so don’t worry.

"You don't have a radio job now?" At the dinner table, Jiang's father endured for three days, and finally couldn't help asking about Jiang Yang.

Jiang Yang hummed, not wanting to talk to them about his own affairs, so he picked up a piece of fish for Jiang's father, and changed the subject, "Dad, try this, it's perch, very tender."

Jiang's father ate the fish and continued, "You should know that I didn't agree to study broadcasting and hosting at the beginning. With that low salary and no future, I might not be able to afford a house after struggling for the rest of my life."

Jiang Yang was peeling the prawns, put the prawns in Mother Jiang's bowl, sucked the oil on his hands, and said with a wry smile: "Dad, can we eat first? We can talk about these things after dinner?"

"Your dad can talk to you if he wants to," Jiang's mother said, "He's been holding these words in his mind for several days, and if he doesn't say them out, he'll probably have something wrong again."

Jiang Yang didn't answer any more, took out a tissue to wipe his hands, the smile in his eyes faded, and he became calm and calm.

"At the beginning you insisted on that major, okay, choose it. Later, your Uncle Han introduced you to work in the radio station. He is also a station director. You have his relationship, and you can also be a part-time official. "Father Jiang became more and more annoyed, "It turned out that you were lucky. After graduation, you worked for half a year, and then quit your job to do what is called a radio drama. What kind of future can you get with that?! Why don't you know how to plan your own life? If you don’t take the road I chose for you, what do you call the road you chose? It’s a mess!”

Before becoming famous, the salary of voice actors is very low. It’s okay to follow Ah Liang. He is a great god in the dubbing circle, and he also has a systematic studio, and he has the heart to cultivate Jiang Yang. Fight for resources.

So Jiang Yang is not particularly short on money, and can live frugally to support himself, but compared with civil servants or radio jobs, it is still much worse. After all, the income of voice actors is not stable.

Voice acting is a new industry. People of the older generation don’t understand it. They think it’s the same as playing games. In the final analysis, they are not doing their job properly, and it would be embarrassing for parents to speak out.

Jiang Yang lowered his eyes, picked up the rice in the bowl with his chopsticks, and sighed, "Dad, I'm already an adult, and I know what I'm doing very well. I chose the major of broadcasting and hosting because I was interested and like it. Now Going to be a voice actor also feels that I am suitable for this job. I understand your dislike, so I never mention these things, so can you and my mother also respect my wishes?"

Jiang's mother disagreed, "What are you talking about? We don't respect you? If we really don't respect you, we will let you go to other places to study in university and let you choose your own life? It makes you become... such a nonsense , these strange diseases."

Jiang Yang frowned, and raised his head to meet Jiang's mother's gaze, "Why am I being nonsensical? What's wrong with me? Mom, please make it clear that you didn't allow me to go to a university in other places, but I insisted on myself." I went. You confiscated my bank card and tried to force me to go back. I borrowed my tuition fees from my classmates, and then paid back the money while working part-time, and then saved money for living expenses.”

Father Jiang snorted, "Are you ashamed to say that? If you listened to us, would you suffer so much?"

"I never think these are hardships," Jiang Yang said, "Since I chose this kind of life, I don't regret it, and now my life is very good. I said before, I will not live the life you want me to live get that life."

Jiang's father slapped the table violently, and the chopsticks fell to the ground. He stared at Jiang Yang, his eyes were full of anger, and his face was also a little grim: "So you contracted those strange diseases just for revenge, and you like men. ?! Aren’t you disgusting! What do you want others to think of you? Treat you like a monster!”

"I've said it's not a disease! I like men not to get revenge on you!" Jiang Yang seemed to have been touched, his attitude was tough, and he didn't back down, "Dad, you are so afraid of others knowing, but I tell you the truth , all the friends around me know that I like men."

Jiang's father took a breath, his face flushed, and he was so angry that he stood up and slapped Jiang Yang hard.

"Pa——" A heavy and loud slap fell on Jiang Yang's face, his head was slapped sideways, his skin immediately turned red, the mucous membrane in his mouth was broken, and the smell of iron filled his mouth.

Jiang's mother exclaimed, stood up and pulled Jiang's father's arm, anxious and angry, her tone was crying, "What are you doing! Didn't you agree not to do it!"

"Look at him! Look at him!" Father Jiang pointed at Jiang Yang, trembling with anger, "He still has the nerve to tell others? How could he have the face to say this?! My old face was completely thrown away by him! "

As he spoke, he slapped himself hard on the face, and began to scold Mother Jiang again, "Look at the good son you gave birth to, look at the monster you gave birth to!"

Mother Jiang covered her mouth and shed tears, as if it was a big thing, she asked Jiang Yang in a trembling voice, "Did you really tell others?"

Jiang Yang pressed his tongue against the bleeding on the inner wall of his mouth, his eyes slowly moved to the angry and sad faces of his parents, and the faces that had always been sunny and smiling became very calm, "Yes, I told others. I started college, worked in the radio station, and my current job. As long as I was asked if I have a partner, I would tell them frankly that I like men, and even chased my girls in college.”

"Shameless! You are really fucking shameless!" Jiang's father was so angry that his blood pressure rose, "What will others think of you? What will they think of your parents?!"

"I don't know what they think of me, but at least it's the same," Jiang Yang said, "They didn't react at all, and they even thought it was normal. My friends who have a good relationship with me even introduced boyfriends to me."

"You—!" Father Jiang panted heavily, "You bastard!"

"Dad, the times have changed a long time ago. Although homosexuality is not recognized by the law, it is something that everyone knows well." Jiang Yang stood up, went to get the bag and mobile phone on the sofa, and conveyed in his pleasant voice that he did not belong to the family. With the vicissitudes of my age, "I don't think I'm different from others. Friends who know my sexual orientation have never scolded me or satirized me with this matter. They didn't think there was anything wrong. In this matter , all the insults, slanders, and physical injuries I have received come from you, my closest family members."

Jiang Yang spoke very calmly, his resistance and anger towards his parents had long been exhausted in the continuous quarrels before.

Now he is not young, at least he has passed the age of quarreling in a few words, quarreling will not solve any problems, but will make the relationship even more rigid.

He can calmly face his parents' beatings, scolding and confusion. Judging from their attitudes towards this matter over the years, he has given up trying to persuade them.

Jiang Yang doesn't expect his parents to understand and accept him, nor will he let them interfere with his decision.

This road is too difficult. It is covered with vines of worldliness and prejudice. Every step you take, you will be bloodied and horrific. drown people.

Jiang Yang doesn't think he is a great man, he has never thought of being a voice for this group or promoting a decisive role. He is a very ordinary person, and his sexual orientation should not be a shame or a weakness.

He didn't want to be manipulated by his parents, and he didn't want to accept what they thought was good intentions.

Not everyone can walk on the path of their own choice as they please and regardless of everything.

But Jiang Yang did it, at least he has been doing it for now.

Jiang Yang took his own things and went out, just like every time he broke up unhappy, he never looked back after leaving the door.

The sun at dusk is always extraordinarily warm. It radiates with a determination that is about to fall, and burns up a large area of ​​the sky. The orange fire gives people a shocking and tragic beauty.

Jiang Yang was walking on the street, the corner of his mouth was broken, the blood coagulated around his lips, his entire left cheek was very obviously swollen, and the slap print was clearly visible, which was enough to show how hard Father Jiang had slapped this slap.

He was depressed and wanted to drink and talk to someone.

The WeChat address book slid down one by one, and the word "Lin Xu" came into his eyes.

The past three days were too busy, and he hadn't contacted Lin Xu since he came home. Jiang Yang opened the dialog box and was about to type to ask if the other party was free, when a man on the phone passed by.

He was full of anger, his voice was loud, and he cursed, "It's already the 27th, and the material I asked for hasn't been delivered yet! Did you rush or not?! Are you responsible for the delay of the project? You can afford it Blame it!"

Number 27...

A white light exploded in Jiang Yang's mind, and the things he had completely forgotten came back to his mind.

【"Would you like to celebrate my birthday with me today?"】

【"Okay, when?"】

【"June 27th. I don't like excitement... I just invited you, and we'll have a meal."】

Jiang Yang suddenly became anxious, glanced at the time, hurriedly stopped a taxi on the side of the road, and set the time on the mobile phone for the nearest high-speed rail ticket to go back.

The road was not smooth, around [-]:[-] was the rush hour, the road was jammed, and a little bit of luck was lacking. During the stop-and-go process, the driver bumped into the car in front of him.

Jiang Yang changed trains immediately but failed to catch up with the nearest high-speed train, so he had to wait for the 09:30 train, which took an hour and a half to return to City A. He ordered the cake in advance on the way and asked the courier to leave it at the gate guard of the community .

After Jiang Yang got off the high-speed rail, he immediately took a taxi back to the community. Without taking a breath, he carried the cake and ran to the unit building. He didn't have time to look at the people he bumped into when he got on the elevator, so he could only say sorry briefly. Fortunately, the other party didn't Care about.

Along the way, he was worried about being late, so anxious that he was covered in sweat and short of breath. Watching the number of elevators rise little by little, his heart beating violently due to running gradually calmed down.

Fortunately, it was not too late, everything caught up.

Jiang Yang squatted at the door, carefully took out the cake, inserted a circle of candles, and rang the doorbell.

——In the last half hour of Lin Xu's 27th birthday, he stood in front of Lin Xu and sent his birthday wishes that he almost missed.