Confession

In the past, Jiang Yang often played with his friends until the early hours of the morning, and he got up in the morning to go to early classes. Even if he didn't go to bed until two o'clock last night, he could still feel refreshed the next day, not to mention that he was in a good mood, which was enough to offset the lack of sleep. sleepy.

He walked into the studio whistling, brisk on his feet, and the shirts and accessories he had deliberately selected showed his temperament to the fullest, making him extraordinarily handsome.

Jiang Yang pushed open the door of the dubbing lounge, where A Liang and Xiaowen communicated about the script, as well as several assistant directors and several other voice actors.

"Morning." He greeted everyone.

Everyone didn't answer, but looked at him meaningfully.

Inexplicably, Jiang Yang hung the messenger bag on the shelf, "What's wrong?"

Xiaowen: "You didn't look at your phone? You've become popular on the Internet."

"What's wrong with me?"

"A boyfriend was broadcast on the first live broadcast," Xiaowen sighed, and teased, "You don't avoid suspicion at all, and you lose your popularity after a little bit? You have a girlfriend fan."

Jiang Yang made himself a cup of coffee, and laughed when he heard the words, "Don't bully me, okay? I'm not a celebrity, what kind of girlfriend fan do I have? But I really have to explain, that's not my boyfriend... But maybe it's very It's coming soon."

The assistant director smiled, "What's the difference?"

"However, why do I feel... the voice in the live broadcast room last night is so familiar." Xiaowen recalled, "I seem to have heard it somewhere."

A Liang: "Don't think about it, hurry up..."

"Brother Yang!" Xing Xing pushed the door open, looked at Jiang Yang angrily, and asked, "Are you in love?"

"I……"

"Is it a man?"

"..."

The few people nearby seemed to be watching gossip, waiting for this good show.

A Liang rubbed his eyebrows with a headache.

Xing Xing was unconvinced: "Didn't you say that you don't want to talk about love in the near future! Why did you refuse? I turned around and went to someone else...you...you scumbag!"

Jiang Yang smiled helplessly, like coaxing a child, "Xing Xing, you are still young, I..."

"I'm not young, okay!" Xing Xing said reluctantly, "I'm already eighteen! I sang in bars, and I saw more people kissing and sleeping than you have ever slept with!"

"Wow..." The audience also added a voice.

A Liang took out his boss' airs, "Shut up, what do you take this for? This is a studio, not a place for you to talk about love and watch gossip. No one cares about you if you fight after get off work. Now give me a good time." work!"

The voice actors hurried away with the script, and the assistant director also went out to work. For a while, only Xing Xing and Jiang Yang, who were blushing with anger, were left.

A Liang looked at Xing Xing, "Work hard."

"I know! I won't affect my work." Xing Xing glared at Jiang Yang, and said angrily: "I'm going to find a tall, handsome and well-mannered boyfriend after get off work today! It must be better than you! "

After speaking, he strode into the dubbing room, took out the manuscript, and read it angrily.

Jiang Yang smiled helplessly, A Liang glanced at him and asked, "Are you really together? With Lin Xu?"

"As expected of Liangda, you can tell when you hear it." Jiang Yang replied with a smile, "But we are not together, I just took care of him last night, and I have this plan recently."

A Liang hesitated for a moment, and said: "Since you have this idea, you should first make sure of your own mind before doing it. Don't be foolish, it will give people a feeling of being unreliable."

"Of course I will," Jiang Yang felt strange, "It's not the first time I've been in love, brother Liang, why are you so weird?"

"The author's mind is very sensitive. You should know that many well-known writers or writers are under a lot of pressure, and they are often on the verge of vulnerability." A Liang hesitated to speak, but felt that he could not interfere too much, "My It means don’t let others down, and make a decision after careful consideration.”

Jiang Yang faintly felt that A Liang's words had a deep meaning, and the strange feeling flashed by, so fast that he didn't catch it, "Of course I will think it over carefully, I am not a child anymore."

"As long as you know it, treat them well if you like it. I'll go to work first." A Liang walked outside with his coffee.

Jiang Yang joked, "Liang Da, why do you care so much about Lin Xu? Could it be that you like him too?"

"Fuck off," A Liang rolled his eyes at him, "You knew from the first day I'm a straight man? Don't make fools of me."

Jiang Yang grinned, "I'm just kidding."

Ah Liang thought of something, rummaged through his bag, and took out an invitation letter, "By the way, there will be an offline meeting next month, this is the invitation letter, please spare time in advance."

Jiang Yang took it over and took a look. The invitation letter said all the main creators of the "Chess Pieces" radio drama, "Aren't you going?"

"I didn't participate in the recording of "Chess Pieces", what should I do?" A Liang smiled, "You have grown up very fast, and you can already be on your own."

Jiang Yang curled his lips, "Liang Da, I'll be nervous if you're not here."

"Come on less," Ah Liang scolded with a smile, "Didn't you still talk eloquently when you participated in activities on May [-]st and answered fans' questions? Don't disgust me."

Jiang Yang put the invitation letter in his bag, "Okay, I promise to complete the task."

Ah Liang went out to work, and Jiang Yang was about to start today's recording, when the phone rang, and he took it out to see that it was a person whom many people hadn't contacted.

"Hello, Shu Le." Jiang Yang was a little surprised, "I haven't seen you for a long time, why did you want to contact me?"

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It was rare for Lin Xu to sleep deeply. When he woke up in the afternoon, he lay on the bed for a while, turned on his phone and saw a message from Jiang Yang on the lock screen. It was a voice message.

He was overjoyed, and quickly opened it to listen: "Senior, are you awake? I'll go back later today, wait for me to go back and change your medicine?"

The posting time is one o'clock in the afternoon.

I don't know if it's Lin Xu's delusion, but I feel that Jiang Yang's voice is slightly different from what he usually speaks.

Xu was filtered by the mobile phone once, and the tone is more textured. You can hear that Jiang Yang lowered the volume when he said this voice, as if he didn't want to be heard, like a whisper between lovers.

Lin Xu's toes curled up under the quilt, his throat was itchy, and he listened to this voice many times, like a child who got another candy, his eyes were full of surprise and joy.

He has never had any resistance to Jiang Yang's voice, and his bones will soften when talking with Jiang Yang, let alone this kind of voice specially sent to him.

Lin Xu's hands were wrapped like steamed buns, and it was inconvenient to type while lying on the bed, so he simply sat up and replied.

【XU: Alright, I'll wait for you. 】

After posting, he felt too dry, and he looked very indifferent, so he added a puppy emoji.

【XU: [Shugou cute.jpg]】

At this time, Jiang Yang should be working. Lin Xu knew that they were not allowed to bring their mobile phones into the recording when they were dubbing. He didn't expect the other party to reply in a second, and he lifted the quilt and got out of bed to wash.

Lin Xu walked into the bathroom, brushed his teeth with toothpaste, glanced at himself in the mirror, with a smile on his brows and eyes, the corners of his mouth slightly curved, his gentle smile made him refreshed like a spring breeze.

The most important thing is that there is light in his eyes, dispelling the gloom and emptiness, and the whole person looks radiant and energetic.

Lin Xu froze for a moment, he had to admit that he hadn't seen himself like this for a long time, the last time this clear face showed a relaxed and joyful smile was five years ago.

At that time, nothing happened. He had parents, friends, and classmates, and he lived comfortably and without worries.

Lin Xu smiled at the mirror, not the kind of official, indifferent smile to outsiders, without a trace of warmth, just to maintain dignity.

He is used to the days of the walking dead, and he has no extravagant hope of getting sunshine, but he doesn't want to turn around. God gave him a chance to meet Jiang Yang again.

——So does this mean that God didn't cruelly criticize him, and he still has life?

Lin Xu remembered Zhao Xiwen's words, and the corners of his mouth deepened.

That's right, everything will be fine, Lin Xu began to believe.

Ever since meeting Jiang Yang again, everything has been getting better together.

It was rare for Lin Xu to be in a happy and relaxed mood. Taking advantage of the mood, he started to clean the house, collected the wine bottles and garbage in the bedroom, hid the medicine box deep in the cabinet, put the finished cigarettes in the drawer, and put away frequently used materials and books. Neatly stacked together, the desktop that has been messy all the year round finally becomes clean and tidy.

He seldom exercised, and the cleaning made him sweat a little, panting slightly, looking at the clean environment in front of him, he was in a good mood, took out his mobile phone and took a photo of the room, and sent Zhao Xiwen a wechat message.

After 10 minutes, the other party replied: [Dr. Zhao: Did you clean up?Not bad [like] In a good mood today? 】

Lin Xu smiled and leaned against the wall to reply to the message.

【XU: Well, it’s sunny today, so let’s clean it up. 】

[Doctor Zhao: Very good, the weather is really good, go out for a walk more, your condition has already stabilized, you are more psychologically dependent on drugs, try to control your emotions, you can [encourage] 】

【XU: Okay, I'll try my best. 】

Lin Xu felt something hot and humid licking his feet, and looked down to see Lele beside his feet, wagging his tail, as if he was asking for credit.

He understood, and when he went to the toilet, he saw four poops on the urinal.

Lin Xu didn't like to go out, so he rarely took Lele out for a walk, so he told him to go to the toilet in the toilet. Bian Mu was really smart, and he was able to defecate on the pee mat after only a few days of teaching.

So even if he doesn't walk the dog, Lele won't mess around at home.

Lin Xu touched it, and took out a piece of chicken jerky as a reward.

It was almost ten o'clock when Jiang Yang came back at night. When the doorbell rang, Lin Xu was sitting in front of the computer trying to write a new article. The palm injury did not affect the fingers, and typing was still smooth and smooth.

He was wearing earphones, listening to the previous audio, and the doorbell rang for a while before he heard it.

As soon as the door opened, Jiang Yang stood at the door with a smile on his face, "I'm back, have you been waiting for a long time?"

"No, I usually go to bed very late." Lin Xu took out a pair of dark blue slippers from the shoe cabinet and put them in front of Jiang Yang, "You...try."

Jiang Yang raised his eyebrows unexpectedly, "You bought it for me?"

Lin Xu's eyes dodged, "Please change your medicine, you can't be barefoot all the time."

Jiang Yang smiled, and handed him the box in his hand, "I saw that their pastries were good during the meal, so I specially packed them for you, try them?"

Lin Xu's eyes lit up, and he grasped the point keenly, "Specially for me?"

"Yeah, it feels like you're not in a good mood recently," Jiang Yang changed into his slippers and walked in, "Eating sweets will make you feel happy."

Zhao Xiwen said the same thing before, making him eat some sugar when he feels particularly low.

At that time, Lin Xu didn't take it seriously, his left ear went in and his right ear went out, he didn't pay attention at all, he didn't believe that the mood could be controlled by sweets, so many psychiatrists and psychiatrists didn't need it at all, patients only needed to eat a lot of sweets and they would good.

But when Jiang Yang said the same thing, Lin Xu really wanted to try it.

Lin Xu put the box on the table, opened the wrapping paper, and there were six exquisite and beautiful small cakes inside, including chocolate filling, strawberry cream, matcha cocoa...

The cakes are very small, one bite at a time, each one is different, just looking at it is very appetizing.

Lin Xu swallowed his saliva, and wanted to reach out to that one, but was stopped by Jiang Yang, "Change the medicine first, and take it after changing the medicine."

Lin Xu cleaned the house, there was a lot of dust on the gauze, and the edges were all blackened, it really didn't look hygienic.

"Okay, then change quickly." Lin Xu said.

Jiang Yang made fun of it, went to wash his hands, and came over with the medicine box, "Don't worry, no one will snatch it from you, it's all yours."

The gauze was removed, the wound was dry, the signs of redness and swelling disappeared a lot, and some shallower wounds had scabs of blood.

Jiang Yang took out iodophor and sprayed it, and asked, "Did you take anti-inflammatory medicine today? Do you have a fever?"

Lin Xu shook his head, staring at the little cake, "Eat it, I don't have a fever, the cold is gone."

Jiang Yang looked up at him, smiled, and moved his hands faster.

Soon the medicine was changed, Jiang Yang put away the ointment on the table, took the cake box aside, and asked with a smile, "Which one should you try first?"

Lin Xu picked up the chocolate and stuffed it into his mouth in one gulp. The rich taste of cocoa mixed with milk leaked from the soft cake. The chocolate in the sandwich was sweet and slightly bitter, and the taste was quite good.

"How?" Jiang Yang asked.

Lin Xu licked his lips, his eyes were bright, "It's delicious."

Jiang Yang handed him the matcha-flavored one from the box, "I like this flavor the most, try it. In fact, mangoes are also good, but they are sold out today, and Guo Shule is quite upset that he didn't get them."

Lin Xu was reaching out to pick it up, but when he heard this, he stopped, and the smile on the corner of his mouth also froze, "You... who are you talking about?"

"Guo Shule." Jiang Yang looked at him, "You won't forget, right? You used to be roommates, and we all met at his birthday dinner before. He invited me to dinner tonight."

Lin Xu's fingertips trembled, his smile faded, and his face turned pale.

Jiang Yang kept staring at Lin Xu, so he naturally didn't miss his reaction, "What's wrong with you?"

"I'm a little tired," Lin Xu said, "You should go back first."

Jiang Yang was surprised, "You don't taste the cake anymore?"

"I'll eat later." Lin Xu tried his best to make himself look calm, trying his best to hold back his breathing and the nausea that surged up in his heart.

"..." Jiang Yang looked at him quietly, put the matcha cake back into the box, and asked casually, "What's the matter with you and Guo Shule? Why is it weird to mention each other?"

Lin Xu's nerves immediately tensed up, as if his heart had stopped suddenly, and he couldn't help asking, "He mentioned me?! What did he say?!"

"He asked me about your recent situation, whether I have contacted you." Jiang Yang frowned, not understanding his abnormality.

Lin Xu's eyes were red, and a chill ran down his spine, "Then what do you say?"

Jiang Yang replied: "I can't tell, I haven't contacted you for a long time."

Lin Xu's body was tense, his eyes were terribly fierce, like a wild cat on the verge of erupting at any time, staring closely at Jiang Yang's eyes, trying to find the opening to lie, "You... really say that?"

Jiang Yang looked at him without squinting, "Yes."

That's what I said, but Guo Shule didn't believe it——

【"Really? But Jiang Yang, I watched your live broadcast last night. That voice sounds like Lin Xu."】

Lin Xu breathed a sigh of relief, his back was wet with cold sweat in such a short moment, his face was pale, as if he had walked on the edge of a cliff, his heart palpitations and flustered, with fear of the past.

Jiang Yang held Lin Xu's arm cautiously, and asked tentatively, "Senior, what happened to you and Guo Shule? Why did you suddenly drop out of school? Why did you hear nothing about it overnight?"

Lin Xu's eyes were empty, and he closed his eyes in pain.

"I asked Guo Shule, and he didn't know about your situation back then." Jiang Yang remembered Guo Shule's indifferent expression when he answered, and guessed that there was something inside, "He told me tonight that he has been looking for you all these years, he ..."

"Jiang Yang, I'm really tired. Can you stop forcing me!" Lin Xu's voice was hoarse, and suddenly it seemed to have changed into a sharp voice, "I want to rest, I don't want to talk about Guo Shule, and I don't want to talk about the past , not at all!"

Jiang Yang saw that his mental state was not good, and it was similar to the state of drunkenness before. He pursed his lips and said stubbornly: "Okay, if you don't want to talk about it, don't talk about it, but I won't leave. You are in such a bad state, in case you What if you hurt yourself again? I'll be here tonight for you."

Lin Xu didn't have the energy to say anything more, it was the exhaustion and fear that really came from deep inside his body.

The name Guo Shule is the shadow and restricted area in his life, the source of everything, as long as he meets this person, he will never feel better.

Lin Xu stood up with difficulty, walked back to the room with heavy steps, fell on the bed, and wrapped himself in the quilt.

Only in a world where there is no ray of light can Lin Xu gain a sense of security.