Confession

Lin Xu hasn't celebrated his birthday for many years, he can't remember clearly, probably after his parents passed away.

Those few years passed in a muddle, and I couldn't even take care of myself, let alone have the energy to celebrate my birthday.

In the first two years, Yang Xiaoling sent him blessings and brought cakes to his door as always, but at that time he had no intention of managing any relationship, and basically shut down his phone and fell asleep at home. Gradually, Yang Xiaoling stopped coming.

He fell into chaos and left himself to fend for himself.

Zhao Xiwen has been encouraging him to go out more, even if he doesn't make friends, breathing more fresh air will be good for his condition.

But Lin Xu's heart died a long time ago, he lost confidence in all emotions, and even felt that other people approached with a purpose. After his sincerity was trampled on, his trust became vague and empty.

But after reuniting with Jiang Yang, Lin Xu felt himself alive again.

The body of the walking dead was injected with fresh blood, and he began to yearn for every tomorrow when he could see Jiang Yang.

The young man's open smile and warm embrace made him very nostalgic.

The heart that has long lost interest in life began to beat for Jiang Yang. When he was with him, Lin Xu seemed to have returned to the peaceful time in college, where the best days of his life gathered here.

Birthday is just an excuse, Lin Xu wanted to use every reason to get along with Jiang Yang, he learned to be greedy, and began to have the desire to be close to others.

"Birthday? Okay." Jiang Yang laughed, "When is your birthday?"

Lin Xu replied, "June 27th."

Jiang Yang stood by the sink and washed his hands, looking at Lin Xu in the mirror, "That's next week, why didn't the senior say it earlier? It's a bit hasty to prepare gifts."

"No need to prepare." This is the first time Lin Xu invites others like this, he is jerky and nervous, pulling the tail of his clothes with his fingertips, "I don't like excitement either, I used to celebrate birthdays, so... only you are invited. Let's have a meal .”

The water from the faucet was rushing, Lin Xu's throat was dry and his Adam's apple was rolling.

Jiang Yang raised his eyes and glanced at Lin Xu, looking at his flushed eyes and red earlobes, a smile flashed across his face, "You only invited me?"

"..." Lin Xu was a little flustered, feeling that Jiang Yang's gaze was extremely intense, and he didn't dare to look directly at him, so he explained, "Well... I don't have any friends, so, just..."

"Lin Xu." Jiang Yang suddenly called him.

This was the first time Lin Xu heard him call his full name when he was sober, and he stared blankly at him for a moment, forgetting what he wanted to say.

Jiang Yang took out a piece of paper and wiped his hands, turned to look at Lin Xu, and said in a low voice, "You don't have to be too reserved when you're with me, are you afraid of me?"

Lin Xu shook his head vigorously, "No."

How can I be afraid, I obviously like it very much.

Jiang Yang: "But you give me a feeling that you are afraid of me."

Lin Xu denied, "Really not."

Jiang Yang raised his hand to touch Lin Xu's cheek.

Lin Xu's breathing was stagnant, and he took a step back as if frightened, his face was burning hot, expecting and nervous at the same time.

Jiang Yang teased: "You still say no?"

"..." Lin Xu realized that he was teasing him.

"Don't be afraid, I took care of you last night." Jiang Yang withdrew his hand, but Lin Xu grabbed it.

The rough gauze on the wrist gave Jiang Yang a subtle feeling in his heart.

He was taller than Lin Xu, and his eyes just fell on the tip of Lin Xu's nose. His fair skin was flushed, and Jiang Yang's throat was tickled by the unknowing pity that came out.

Lin Xu held Jiang Yang's wrist, his gaze was erratic, and his earlobes became even redder.

He shook it for a long time but didn't say anything, Jiang Yang raised his eyebrows, "Senior, what are you doing?"

Lin Xu stammered, "I... am not afraid of you."

Jiang Yang was startled for a moment, then laughed out loud.

Lin Xu blushed, and retracted his hand embarrassingly, but was held by Jiang Yang again, and his fingertips rubbed gently in Lin Xu's palm.

Even though he was wrapped in thick gauze, Lin Xu felt that the wound did not hurt so much.

Jiang Yang asked: "Your injury is so serious, does the doctor have any instructions?"

Lin Xu answered honestly: "Change the medicine twice a day, don't eat spicy food, and try to eat as little soy sauce as possible, otherwise it will leave scars."

"It looks very gentle, so cruel to yourself?" Jiang Yang sighed, "I can't see that the senior is so fierce."

"It was an accident." Lin Xu curled his fingers subconsciously.

There was a knock on the bathroom door, and Ah Liang's voice came in: "Lin Xu, how are you?"

The two looked at each other, and they separated at the same time. Jiang Yang asked Lin Xu if he was OK with his eyes, and opened the door after seeing him nodding.

A Liang looked over Jiang Yang's shoulder and met Lin Xu's, "Are you okay?"

Lin Xu hummed, "I'm sorry, it has affected your work, I just... got into the drama a little bit."

Ah Liang didn't think so, and joked: "Very good, you can join the show, which means that our voice actors are very good, are you all right now?"

"never mind."

They were delayed in the bathroom for more than ten minutes. When they returned, everyone looked at them with concern, especially Xiaowen, who specially prepared a large package of papers to prevent Lin Xu from getting too involved in the drama again.

Lin Xu didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and rejected her offer.

"Oh! I want it!" Xiaowen thought that Lin Xu was embarrassed, so she took out a big pile of paper and stuffed it into his hand, "Mr. Lin, we are all very happy about your being in the play!"

Lin Xu: "..."

"If you think about it, even the author of the original book would cry after listening to it, it shows that the voice actors are full of emotions! Their strength is also profound! They must be able to make readers sympathize!" Xiao Wen was very happy, and she pulled Lin Xu to say long list.

Lin Xu twitched the corners of his mouth, not being able to deny anything.

He sympathizes because he substituted his own experience and feelings when writing this paragraph, so he has a particularly deep feeling for Wei Hui's shouts and roars.But how can you expect to empathize with things that others have not experienced.

Afterwards, Jiang Yang never came out of the recording studio, and Lin Xu was also in the lounge all the time, pretending to be a supervisor with the group, but it was not his turn to intervene in professional matters related to recording, and he had no opinions to raise.

He listened to Jiang Yang's voice with his earphones, and then took his mobile phone to conceive the outline of a new novel in the app.

The environment of the lounge is not very good. People often come in and out, and the voice of the conversation is relatively noisy. There are people coming and going, which is not as quiet as the environment at home.

But it is easier for him to calm down here, without decadence and anxiety, and without heart palpitations and depression.

Xu is accompanied by Jiang Yang's voice, which is not as perfect as in the recording. There are mistakes and laughter, and it is more vivid than the recording that has been obedient for five years.

More importantly, they were only separated by a wall, and Jiang Yang was in a place that Lin Xu could see when he looked up.

A man immersed in work has a special charm, such a focused and serious appearance makes Lin Xu's heart skip a beat.

"Lin Xu."

Lin Xu came back to his senses, looked at A Liang, "Huh?"

A Liang handed him a cup of fruit tea, "I've called you several times, Jiang Yang is so pretty?"

Lin Xu took a sip of the fruit tea, "No, I'm thinking about the new article."

A Liang glanced at him meaningfully, took the initiative to sit beside him, and said with a volume that two people could hear, "You and Jiang Yang are college classmates?"

"Hmm. What?"

Ah Liang chewed the pearls in the milk tea, looked at the young man who was dubbing, "Then do you know him?"

Lin Xu turned his head to look at A Liang, but didn't answer.

"I asked about him when I brought him into the industry." A Liang said casually, "Jiang Yang has a good personality, is popular, knows how to play and loves to make friends. I heard that he often drank all night with friends when he was in college."

"..."

"This is a small workshop for me, and the studio needs someone who is capable of mobilizing the atmosphere." A Liang continued, "He is suitable to be a friend and a colleague, but I don't think he is suitable to be a boyfriend."

Lin Xu was a little wary, "How do you know me..."

"It's not just me, but most of the people in the studio can see it. You should also know that when you write novels yourself, you can't hide your eyes when you like someone."

"..." Lin Xu looked down at the print on the cup in his hand, and stroked the warm wall with his fingertips, "Why do you think he's not suitable?"

A Liang smiled, "Although he likes to play, his private life is very clean. He doesn't have promiscuity or one-night stands, but he has a steady stream of people around him. He doesn't cling to others, and someone else clings to him. Xing Star is a good example."

"...You are overgeneralizing."

"Yes, maybe I'm narrow-minded." A Liang said leisurely, "It's just that I don't think he's suitable to be your boyfriend. You and him look like people from two worlds. You like quiet and have a cold and calm personality; He likes to be lively and likes to make friends. Even if you trust him, he can give you absolute loyalty, but with so many people around him, don't you worry? "

A Liang looked at Lin Xu, "You look pretty good, and you are also very good, but Jiang Yang is not surrounded by people who are better looking and better than you. I remember...you are two years older than him?"

"Ah."

"He is the age with the freshest sense of everything. You don't need to put your feelings on him." A Liang comforted, "Once you take that step in some relationships, there is no turning back. You are suitable for a A more mature and stable person."

Lin Xu remained silent and did not express any thoughts.

A Liang knew that he had listened to it, so he clicked to the end, and did not continue talking.

Jiang Yang's laughter came from the earphones. He was recording the kissing scene with Xing Xing, and the backs of their hands were flushed. The director played back the previous clip, pointed out what was inappropriate, and asked them to re-record it.

Xing Xing joked: "Brother Yang, I can't record the feeling that the director wants, why don't we do it for real? Work, dedicate yourself to art."

The director also smiled, "That's not bad, come here to really find out the feeling. It will save you from not being able to kiss that feeling every time you suck your hands."

"Come on, don't take advantage of me," Jiang Yang scolded with a smile, "It's not filming, but a fake show for real? Anyway, they are all kissing, they are all panting, don't they all feel the same?"

Director: "Hey, it's really different. Every time they kiss, their emotions are different, and they have to show the changes in their emotions."

Xing Xing: "That's right, Brother Yang, you have to be dedicated."

Jiang Yang: "Get out."

Lin Xu had a panoramic view of the smile on Jiang Yang's face, the fruit tea was obviously sweet, but there was a sour taste in his mouth.

He didn't want to see Jiang Yang laughing with others anymore, so he got up and left the lounge.

What he couldn't deny was that what A Liang said was very reasonable, and every word touched his heart.

Jiang Yang has a good personality, no one doesn't like him, and there are more people around him, Xing Xing and those in the bar are only a small part.

He is just one of Jiang Yang's many suitors, and he is neither good nor perfect.He doesn't even have the courage to confess, so what qualifications does he have to dominate Jiang Yang and make him like him?

Lin Xu's chest hurt, he left the studio, he didn't want to go home but he didn't know where to go.

Seeing the heavy traffic in front of him, Lin Xu felt a sense of powerlessness.

There is no place for him in such a big city.

He has always been alone, his parents have left, his friends have betrayed him, and now he doesn't even deserve love.

Lin Xu finally plucked up the courage to get out of the shadows, but was beaten back to his original form by a few words from A Liang.

He walked aimlessly along the long street, the setting sun was dyed bloody, and the scorching light could not illuminate his dim eyes.

The sky was getting darker, and the water-blue velvet was gradually infiltrated by the dark blue of velvet texture. The wind was surging, and there was a light rain in the sky, and then it became bigger and bigger, and soon wet the ground.

It was past eight o'clock in the evening when Lin Xu returned to the community. He walked from the city center to the outskirts. He didn't react to his own situation until he was soaked through. His mobile phone was dead, so he waited on the side of the road for about half an hour before he came. a taxi.

The pouring rain washed the ground, and Lin Xu's body was dripping with water. Standing in the elevator, there was a large water stain on the ground. His pale face was bloodless, his lips were black with cold, and the gauze on his hands was wet again. The painless wound was bled again.

With a "ding", the elevator door opened, and Lin Xu walked out, leaving meandering water marks on the ground behind him.

He stopped after taking a few steps and stared blankly at the figure sitting in the aisle.

The man raised his head when he heard the movement, stood up from the ground, and his tall body immediately crowded the narrow corridor.

"Lin Xu." The sensor light lit up following the call, Jiang Yang looked at the drowned man, frowning tightly, staring at Lin Xu's pale face, angry and concerned, "I've been waiting for you two Hour, where have you been?"

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When will my family suffer from self-abuse whenever something happens (sigh)

In the next chapter, enter v double update~

Seeking starfish, thank you for feeding~