dare to love

Later, Su Shikang's sleep became much better because of the medication to treat his emotions.It's just that he doesn't have a good appetite, and he doesn't have much energy.

After all, after losing such an important person, it is difficult to come out to normal.

He stayed at Chen Wei's house, except for sleeping, he just stared out the window in a daze.

That night, Chen Wei went back home, and when he came back it was already late, he brought some meals from the restaurant downstairs, and when he got home, he found that Su Shikang had already prepared them.

A big table full.

Since Grandma Su passed away, he has hardly moved, but today...

Chen Wei walked into the kitchen feeling inexplicably uncomfortable, he felt something was wrong.

Su Shikang was stewing the soup. The soup was already ready, and it was served by him. It was the last dish.

"came back?"

While Su Shikang was busy, he asked him calmly.

"Yeah. Shi Kang, you..."

"Wash your hands and eat first."

"..."

Chen Wei washed his hands, served him the soup, and obediently sat across from him.

Su Shikang didn't like to be too extravagant in the past, he finished a meal just right, and there was not much left to eat, but today, not only was the table full, it was all Chen Wei's favorite dishes.

Chen Wei is a rich man. He is different from them after all. He always likes to eat all kinds of foie gras, steak and seafood. Su Shikang has never done this before, and he didn't have the conditions when he stayed at his house during the summer vacation. But today Su Shikang He has cooked a lot, and the delicate food that he has never touched or cooked before is also delicious.

Chen Wei looked at the table full, but he didn't have any intention of thinking about eating. He felt that something was wrong. Su Shikang made him feel very uncomfortable, as if...

It was as if it was the last farewell meal.

Seeing that he didn't want to move, Su Shikang picked up a piece of pork ribs for him with his chopsticks, and his words were still as gentle as that summer night.

"Eat quickly, and see how much weight you have lost."

Chen Wei wanted to ask him, but he looked up and saw that Su Shikang was finally willing to bow his head and eat seriously these days, and shut up again.

The two had a harmonious meal, and a phone call came promptly after the meal.

Su Shikang looked at the caller ID on the phone screen, and didn't deliberately avoid Chen Wei, so he just sat there and answered the call.

"teacher."

"..."

While listening, Chen Wei drank the delicious and thick soup.

The soup was stewed thick but not thick, with a great taste, but Chen Wei felt bland and tasteless.

Su Shikang listened carefully to what the person on the phone was saying, and hung up after saying "I see" after a long time.

After Chen Wei finished his soup, he pushed the bowl away, and sat across from him to look at him.

"You want to leave?"

Su Shikang said lightly, "Well, there are some things to be busy."

"When is this, are you going back to Changsha in a hurry?"

Chen Wei looked at him, his eyes turned red, and his voice trembled with begging.

He obviously just asked him why he was leaving, but he seemed to be begging him, asking if you could not leave.

Su Shikang didn't answer him, and Chen Wei scratched his hair painfully at last, which was messed up by him.

"Then are you going back to Pengcheng River?"

"I don't know." Su Shikang sighed, "Things over there are very complicated, and I won't be back for a while."

"..."

Chen Wei lowered his head and suddenly chuckled.

That's right, Su Shikang is always very busy. In the past, when Grandma Su was around, she couldn't help herself. Now that Grandma Su is gone, and Pengchenghe has lost his home, it's not certain whether he will come back or not.

but……

How long will he have to wait?Does Su Shikang know that he is suffering day after day?

"Chen Wei, thank you for the time!"

"But I don't want your thank you."

"..."

"Shikang, you actually know it vaguely, right? I actually..."

Words came to my lips.

Chen Wei met Su Shikang's eyes, and after years of torture, Chen Wei found that his eyes were not as bright as before.

perhaps……

Perhaps leaving for a period of time is the best arrangement for him.

As long as he can come back later.

But something has to be said.

"Shikang."

In the end, he stopped asking, and leaned back on the chair calmly, "You know I'm gay, so you should know that all my reactions to you...are not normal."

"..."

"You think that I only treat you as an ordinary brother, that I haven't gotten out of the relationship with Hengdong, but think about it, which ordinary brother will cross the mountains and rivers on New Year's Eve to desperately want to see you? And that night ..."

Su Shikang suddenly raised his head and looked into Chen Wei's eyes. He found that his eyes were still so hot, and the fire of love|desire was burning more and more vigorously.

"Shi Kang, I was an asshole that night, but when I saw you at that time, I couldn't help it."

"I say this, do you understand?"

"..."

Speaking of this, everything should be understood, Chen Wei's love is too warm, in fact, Su Shikang can also feel it during this time, but it is a different feeling for Chen Wei to say it.

It's like a raging fire burning your frozen heart.

Su Shikang also has complicated emotions towards him now, he doesn't understand the discomfort he feels towards Chen Wei in his heart, but now he has something to do, and he doesn't have the energy to think about their relationship yet.

Chen Wei also knew that he had concerns, so he smiled, "I said this not to ask you to promise me anything, but to hope that you can come back when you are free, because I...I am real now..."

"Shikang, I want to see you from before, so just grant me this one wish, okay?"

Chen Wei felt that it would be much more comfortable to speak out, although he didn't know what Su Shikang thought of him now.Let him know his own mind, and let him wait for him blatantly.

He has plenty of time, he can wait, and he can afford to wait.

Even if Su Shikang is not gay, even if Su Shikang doesn't like him, it doesn't matter if he waits for the rest of his life.

Since you like the same sex, you must be prepared that you may be alone for the rest of your life.

Su Shikang looked at his pupils, which contained too much affection and ambiguity, and his begging gathered in them, making him look a little pitiful.Chen Wei is like this, sometimes he is so hot that you can't afford it, and sometimes he is wronged and wants to make you feel bad.

His loving eyes can always make you fall in easily.

Su Shikang couldn't see him like this, so he got up and walked to his side, stretching out his hand to comb his hair that was messed up by him just now.

"I promise you."

"..."

"Although Nanhe County is gone, there is still you in Pengcheng River, so I will definitely come back."

Although his grandma is gone, there are too many memories in this city. He and his grandma's home is here, and there are Chen Wei and Xie Hengdong here.

"Then..." Hearing what he said, Chen Wei finally released a little scruples in his heart, he breathed a sigh of relief and said slowly: "Then you have to do what you say."

"it is good."

"When are you going to leave?"

"tonight."

Chen Wei just relaxed and his expression turned ugly.

Seeing him like this, Su Shikang smiled again, a cheerful expression rarely seen these days.

"What's the matter with you? You said you would come back. You didn't..."

"It was the past." Chen Wei looked up at him, "It's like I used to have a crush on Xie Hengdong, but now I was seduced by you."

"When did I seduce you?"

"That evening."

"Shikang..." Chen Wei said half-jokingly and half-seriously, "You are responsible for me."

As the moonlight fell, the two stood and sat, Su Shikang stared at him blankly, and he saw the naked|exposed emotion in Chen Wei's eyes.

The dark tide is raging, and it will never stop until death.

Chen Wei sent Su Shikang to the subway station, the last subway, just like Su Shikang sent him back to Pengcheng River during Chinese New Year.

Different time, different place, but the same parting.

"Hengdong called you yesterday, but I haven't dared to tell him yet." Chen Wei stood on the platform, waiting for the subway with Su Shikang.

"If he finds out, he will be very angry." Su Shikang said, "I'll explain to him then."

Grandma Su left in a hurry. At that time, Xie Hengdong and Lu Xiaoting had just gone to Tibet. Chen Wei considered many factors and didn't tell him, so Xie Hengdong is still in Lhasa and still doesn't know.

Xie Hengdong also cared about the old lady. If he suddenly found out that the old lady had passed away, he would definitely feel uncomfortable.

There are very few people in the subway station at this point, and this train is very sensible and comes relatively late.

Before leaving, Su Shikang looked into Chen Wei's eyes, and took his reluctance into his eyes. Then he finally couldn't bear it, and his inner emotions were mixed. Before he had time to think, he was only driven by a strange force. Unexpectedly, it touched his cheek.

Chen Wei's pupils glowed under the light.

The train had already arrived at the station, those who came and went got off the train, and those who got on the train got on the train, but Su Shikang didn't seem to care about anything. Under the crowd, he suddenly turned his head slightly and kissed his lips.

"Wait for me, Chen Wei."

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The author has something to say:

Although we are parting again, but the countdown to being together is about to start, I really don't dare to abuse them too much, they are very sweet together!