dare to love

Afterwards, the two made do with one night in this shabby house.Early the next morning, I started packing things in the tool room.

Su Shikang still didn't fall asleep much, Chen Wei saw that his eyes were getting redder and his voice was getting hoarse and weak.

He's useless, he can't help anything.

He and Su Shikang put all the tools into the box, and then Su Shikang put the high school textbooks next to him into the prepared sack.

"These books..."

"It's useless." Su Shikang said lightly, "Take it out and sell it."

"no!"

For a moment, Chen Wei didn't know what medicine he had taken by mistake, and snatched a bag of books from Su Shikang, "You don't want these, I want them, you sell them to me, I'll buy them!"

"..."

Su Shikang frowned slightly, a little confused by his behavior.

"What do you want this book for?" I never saw him treasure his books so much when he was in high school.

"Look!" Chen Wei rubbed his nose, and without waiting for Su Shikang to ask again, he backhanded the sack to his shoulder and put it in his SUV.

Su Shikang looked at his back, didn't care anymore, and continued to pack his things.

"Why don't you put all these things in my house, and move them back when you have a place to live in the future."

Seeing his hesitation, Chen Wei hurriedly said, "My house has a lot of rooms, and it doesn't take up space. I've already packed one..."

"Okay." Su Shikang didn't refuse again.

After everything has been cleaned up, Su Shikang finally seemed to feel tired, and his whole body was dizzy and fell straight to the ground——

"Shikang—"

Chen Wei was frightened and hugged him quickly.

"Shikang."

He was so exhausted that he couldn't see clearly.Su Shikang felt for a moment that he was going to die suddenly, so he just followed his grandma.

Chen Wei picked him up and carried him into the car.

He leaned over and fastened his seat belt.

"Chen Wei..."

"I'm here." Chen Wei reached out and touched his forehead, "It's okay, I'll take you home, you have a good rest."

Chen Wei took him to his home, Su Shikang was just dizzy, he knew Chen Wei was going to hug him, so he insisted on getting down and walking by himself.

Chen Wei didn't let him go, didn't discuss with him, and directly took him out of the car and carried him into his arms.

Su Shikang asked him in a daze, "Where did you take me?"

"Home." The last sentence lowered his voice, "our home."

Obviously the house was big enough and the guest room was tidy, but Chen Wei carried Su Shikang directly to his bedroom.

He put it down carefully, as if placing a fragile object.

The current Su Shikang is almost like a fragile product.

After Chen Wei leaned over to put him down, he kept leaning over and looked at him affectionately. Su Shikang rested with his eyes closed, and his long eyelashes were curved and dense.

Chen Wei's eyes gently scanned his face, from pale lips to thin chin.

In just a few days, the naked eye visibly lost a lot of weight.

Su Shikang couldn't sleep well, no matter how tired he was, he still frowned, unable to escape the painful reality.

Chen Wei just looked down at him for a long time. He wanted to touch him, hug him, and kiss him, but he couldn't do it any longer. Once Su Shikang got close, he would wake up.

In the hot summer, he adjusted the air conditioner to a suitable temperature, and then went to the kitchen to prepare some food and milk.

It took only a little over an hour for Chen Wei to get everything ready. He returned to the room lightly and delicately, and found that Su Shikang was already awake, or not asleep at all. He was lying on the bed staring at the ceiling with tired eyes.

Seeing that he couldn't sleep at all, Chen Wei's heart sank, what should he do if this continues?

Heartache, anxiety, heartache...

He walked over to sit by the bed and asked him, "Can't sleep yet?"

Seeing him coming, Su Shikang wanted to get up, but he held him down, "Don't get up, lie down properly."

"Shikang, what should you do if this continues? If you don't rest all the time, your body won't be able to bear it."

"..."

Su Shikang opened his eyes and looked at him, his eyes had lost their former brilliance, his eyes were dull, and he moved his extremely dry lips.

"I want to rest too, but I can't calm down at all."

"Chen Wei, what should I do?"

He lost his grandma, the only family member in this world, the one who has always given him warmth since childhood.

Su Shikang thought that he was strong enough, that he would be able to deal with whatever he encountered since he was a child, and he would not feel uncomfortable, let alone cry. He has always lived a chic life.

But now he can't get out of the grief of losing his grandma.

Chen Wei's eyes were filled with infinite distress, and his eyes were softly glowing. His heart was astringent, and he saw a line of tears running from the corner of Su Shikang's eyes, dripping straight to his pillow and quilt.

After Grandma Su died, he was as calm as a pool of stagnant water, but now he finally cried out silently, including the first 17 years of dependence and the next three years of parting.

He had no father or mother since he was a child, and the death of Grandma Su seemed to make him really desperate. His soul seemed to be taken out, leaving only a solitary body.

Nanhe County was about to be demolished, and he would never see Grandma Su sitting alone at the door every night, looking forward to his return home.

No one cared about his cold body anymore, and would plant a whole yard of wormwood for him, and tell him to wear more clothes to keep warm when it was cold at the end of the year.

The memories sank deeper and deeper, surging in his brain. Even though his body was exhausted, his brain nerves were extremely sensitive and excited, and he couldn't calm down at all. The more Su Shikang thought about it, the more painful he felt, probably because he felt ashamed to cry in front of Chen Wei. He turned over and turned his back, clutching the quilt tightly, sobbing softly.

"Shikang..."

Chen Wei stared at the figure behind him, seeing that his whole body was trembling.

At that moment, all the heartache occupied his heart, and Chen Wei felt his heart was bleeding. He couldn't see Su Shikang like this, so he got up and got on the bed, hugged his waist from behind, and locked him tightly. in the arms.

With a fervent heart against his back, Chen Wei hugged him tightly, as if he wanted to stabilize Su Shikang's emotions and reduce the shaking of his body.

"Shikang, cry, I'll hold you..."

He knew that Su Shikang didn't want to cry in front of others, so he comforted him and seemed to coax him, "If you cry, I won't tell others, and no one will see you crying."

"Shikang, you still have me, I will always stay by your side."

He used to really want to see what Su Shikang looked like when he cried, but now he saw it as he wished, but it was like a thousand arrows piercing his heart.

Chen Wei closed his eyes and moved closer to his ear, and gently kissed the tip of his ear with his lips in a way that no one would easily notice.

After a while, the person in his arms seemed to be tired from crying, and his emotions gradually settled down. Su Shikang closed his eyes, tried to sleep, and then fell into a deeper memory vortex.

That night, Chen Wei almost slept with him in his arms. He knew how many times Su Shikang rolled over and moved during the night, and then Su Shikang probably got up quietly because he was afraid that his movements would affect his sleep. bed.

Chen Wei was actually not asleep. He listened with his ears up, and heard the click of a lighter coming from the balcony, and Su Shikang was smoking a cigarette on the balcony.

Almost after he went to college, he never touched cigarettes, but now after trying various ways to sleep and failing, he chooses to smoke on the balcony.

Nicotine combines with dopamine in the brain, releasing more and more dopamine, making him more and more energetic, even if he is now dragging a tired and exhausted body.

"Shikang..."

At some point, Chen Wei opened the glass door of the balcony and walked behind him.

When Su Shikang heard his voice, his back paused, looking unusually cold under the moonlight.

He turned his head slightly: "Woke you up?"

"No."

Su Shikang cut off his cigarette, and walked in front of Chen Wei: "Don't worry too much, I can't sleep normally these days, you sleep in yours, I'll go to another room to sleep."

"But you... your current appearance..." Chen Wei said intermittently, "Shi Kang, I am very worried about you."

When he said these words, the love in his eyes was already overflowing. I'm afraid he didn't know it himself, but Su Shikang completely took in all these. He was stunned for a moment, and then He said softly: "I won't be overwhelmed."

"Chen Wei, look at yourself, you have lost a lot of weight, can't you tell?"

"I……"

"Rest well, it will pass."

-

Later, Su Shikang went to the guest room. Although Chen Wei insisted on letting him sleep in the bedroom, if Chen Wei would have pushed people directly in the past, but now he dare not talk to Su Shikang too much, so he can only let him go. with him.

Chen Wei didn't know what to do the next day, so he left Su Shikang to rest at home alone. Before he left, he secretly breathed a sigh of relief because he saw Su Shikang fell asleep and hadn't woken up yet, but he didn't expect to come back three hours later to find Su Shikang was still asleep, he was a little worried, and planned to go to the guest room to check.

As a result, what came into view was a table of medicine bottles, and a glass and white pills on the ground that he probably knocked over by accident.

The blood color dropped suddenly, and Chen Wei's face suddenly turned pale.

"Su Shikang!!!"

Angry, anxious and distressed, he rushed to Su Shikang and shook him severely, "Wake up, wake up!!!"

"Shikang, Su Shikang—"

Chen Wei's eyes turned red, and he looked like he was about to cry. He pulled Su Shikang out of the bed, hugged him into his arms, and kept rubbing his chin against his forehead.

Later, he realized that it was useless to call him like this, Chen Wei suddenly remembered something, he put the person down again, threw himself on the ground and picked up the medicine bottle.

It seemed that Su Shikang had swallowed a lot of the bottled drug, the calming and tranquilizing sleeping pill.

Chen Wei turned back and shook him again, he was anxious and angry, tears were about to fall down, he leaned close to Su Shikang's chest to listen to his heartbeat.

"Chen Wei..."

It was probably because he moved too much and forced him to wake up, so he heard a faint voice from above.

Chen Wei looked over and saw Su Shikang squinting at him. Su Shikang was really exhausted, but seeing Chen Wei in such a hurry, he raised his hand feebly to touch his cheek.

He held his hand and asked him with a trembling voice: "Are you trying to scare me to death!"

"I'm so tired, let me sleep for a while..."

Chen Wei nodded vigorously: "Okay, okay, then I'll get you something to eat, you'll get up and eat later."

Su Shikang hummed in a daze, closed his eyes and lowered his hands weakly.

Then he fell asleep again, breathing deeply and evenly under the influence of the drug.

Chen Wei just looked at him so deeply, those eyes of love and desire swept across his eyes, bridge of nose, lips, and chin, almost portraying the entire outline of Su Shikang in his mind, and deeply etched into my mind.

"Shikang..."

Then he lowered his head and leaned over, closed his eyes and pressed his lips to Su Shikang's forehead.

At that moment, a line of tears fell down, containing too much love|desire and heartache during this period.