dare to love

After Chen Wei confirmed his feelings for Su Shikang, he was not at ease. He always thought of Su Shikang's appearance, in high school, during that summer vacation, and lying under him some time ago...

He was extremely irritable, and sometimes he would dream about it, and he didn't want to stop for a moment.

It's too ridiculous.

In the last few days of the winter vacation, Chen Wei went to Nanhe County to see Shenzhou Lake for the last time.

The lakeside has been started one after another, and that is really the last time.

He turned on his phone and took a picture, which was with the P that Su Shikang sent him.

Since the farewell that day, the two have disconnected one after another. Chen Wei doesn't know if it's because they are busy with each other or both of them have concerns. Even if they talk occasionally, it feels very strange.

Chen Wei felt that he really couldn't waste time, and if he continued like this, he might suffer to death, so he had to let Su Shikang know his intentions quickly.

He planned to tell him during the summer vacation that even if Su Shikang couldn't come home, he still had to find a chance to meet him in Changsha.

Chen Wei pays great attention to the sense of ritual. Su Shikang said he was stupid when he was chasing Xie Hengdong before. Su Shikang himself is a very romantic person, so Chen Wei thinks every day how to confess, so that Su Shikang will not feel stupid.

It is simply too difficult to be romantic with Su Shikang.

Xie Hengdong and Lu Xiaoting have been living well these years, and they have to celebrate their third anniversary together during the summer vacation, so the two of them booked a ticket to Lhasa, Tibet as soon as the summer vacation was over, planning to visit the Potala Palace and Namtso.

Xie Hengdong University also has various performances, earns a lot of money, and is basically able to buy a house and a car in the small city of Pengcheng River. Both of them have met their parents, but Lu Xiaoting's parents are not interested in this future son-in-law. very satisfied.

Lu Xiaoting's parents are rigid and strict. They don't want his daughter's husband to engage in music, and Xie Hengdong's family is not very rich.

So the love between the two of them is not all smooth sailing, and it is estimated that they will have to struggle for a few years to get married.

When Su Shikang returned to school after the winter vacation, his whole body fell into a state of chaos, not only physical chaos, but also psychological chaos.

For example, he used to do things in an orderly manner, but now he has learned to forget things. For example, he used to communicate smoothly with his roommates, but now sometimes he can't remember what they said.

He seemed to have something on his mind.

The roommates watched his state changes and finally came to a conclusion.

That is Su Shikang recently lost love.

To say that Chen Wei suffered a lot after he slept with Chen Wei last time, then he himself was not much better.

He often dreamed of Chen Wei's appearance, passionate, demanding, with affectionate eyes... He once hugged him tightly, with his lips stuck to the base of his neck, and he also used to be when he was comfortable or uncomfortable. softly call his name.

Those shouts were full of warmth and deep love.

Su Shikang thought he heard it wrong, because he felt that Chen Wei could not be interested in him no matter who he was interested in, and his first love was Xie Hengdong, who was their good brother. He and Xie Hengdong talked for two years. Falling in love must be because I still think about Xie Hengdong.Although he has never been in love, he is still very clear about the meaning of first love to a person.

"hiss--"

Su Shikang shook his head vigorously, he felt his brain hurt to death.

But thinking that Chen Wei might be obsessed with Xie Hengdong, and might still be attached to him, he felt a burning sensation in his heart, a feeling of being heartburned, very uncomfortable, he had never been like this before.

what happened to him?

—"Baby, that's all for today, we are going to turn off the lights soon, you go to bed early, good night!"

Yu Weiyi, who was in the same dormitory, talked on the phone for three hours, and finally hung up.

The girlfriend was on a blind date at his home during the winter vacation. The young man's first blind date was very successful, and he was tired of his girlfriend.

After hanging up the phone, he saw that Su Shikang was still in deep thought, so he couldn't help but pat him from behind, "What are you thinking about? I'm not talking about you. You seem to be a different person when you come back from winter vacation, and you're out of your mind all day long. "

"Have it?"

"Isn't it obvious?" He dragged a stool and sat next to Su Shikang, "What did you go through in the hotel during the winter vacation? Your voice became hoarse for more than half a month when school started..."

The more Yu Wei spoke, the more inappropriate his tone became. It was obvious that he was categorized as a male college student who was "playing around". Su Shikang was terrified by this tone, so he quickly stopped him, "What are you thinking?"

"..." Yu Wei pouted.

"That...that's..." Su Shikang hesitated, "I just want to ask you a question."

"what is the problem?"

"If..." Su Shikang's face turned red, "I mean, if, if you are slept by someone, you still think about him day and night, and you don't get angry. Why is that?"

"?" Yu Wei said confidently, "Then you are cheap!"

"..."

"Of course, unless you like someone, it's all yours and mine's wish, so there's nothing to say."

"I didn't say Kangkang..." Yu Wei's face also turned pale, "What's the matter with you, why don't you sleep or not, no fuck... You you you, you had a one-night stand with a little girl during the winter vacation???"

"..." Su Shikang's face turned green.

"You fucked up with other girls, and the girls are still angry, and cling to you, thinking about you day and night, then you have to be responsible to the girls!"

"..." Of course Su Shikang would not tell Yu Wei that the "little girl" in his mouth was describing himself, and he would never let others know that he was fucked by a man!

But Yu Wei seems to have said something to let him understand that he is not angry after being treated like this, but always thinks that he will care about him, maybe it is because he likes it, or maybe it is because he is voluntary.

But not your will.

Su Shikang actually knew after the summer vacation that year that he was not as good as he used to be to Chen Wei, but he would still hesitate to tell him that he liked Chen Wei.

That can't be liking, isn't he a straight man?

Hold!Su Shikang found that now he had no face at all to call himself a straight man!

When did it start? !

Su Shikang really hated himself now, he thought it was too outrageous.

Chen Wei might have been seduced cunningly by him while drunk, and they hadn't seen each other for so long, so he might really have been impulsive.

Su Shikang felt a headache. Although Chen Wei was gay, he always regarded him as a brother.

Can't...

He can't and shouldn't like Chen Wei...

"What's the matter, Kangkang? You look ugly!"

Seeing that he didn't speak, Yu Wei said to himself: "I'm telling you, once this love comes, don't doubt it. Seeing you like this, I don't think you are as chic as a girl. When you envy someone's body When you are young, it is not far from loving him. Think about it, facing the body of a person you don’t like, it’s enough to try something new. If you think about it day and night, it’s not as simple as being greedy for the body, then you must It is the soul that adores that person."

"Kangkang, if you really like him, then boldly chase after him, you are a man, what are you afraid of!"

Su Shikang picked up the goji berry tea he had just brewed on the table and drank a couple of sips, and after a while he said "hmm".

"It should be responsible."

In fact, this is not a problem. If he really likes Chen Wei, he will go to him and explain to him clearly, but after thinking about it, he still feels that it is not good. Tell Chen Wei that I fell in love with you, that's why I slept with you that day, and it was the one below, then Chen Wei couldn't die laughing.

To be honest, what broke him the most when he woke up that day was not sleeping with Chen Wei, but being slept by Chen Wei.

Even though he was beaten to death, he refused to admit that he was the one below, so he couldn't come back to God for nearly a month after that day.

If Chen Wei was slept by him, then he can plausibly tell him that brother is responsible for you.

But now, he was really embarrassed by what happened between him and Chen Wei.

He thought about it and thought it was time to call his grandma.

"Should we fight now?" Yu Wei said, "The lights will be turned off soon."

"It's okay, I'm going to the balcony."

Su Shikang walked to the balcony, probably because the old man couldn't see him at night. After the phone rang, he waited for a long time for Grandma Su to answer the phone.

"Kangzi!"

"grandmother."

"It's going to be summer vacation soon, can you come back?"

"I……"

"Weiwei has come to visit me during the holidays these years. Sometimes I see my old lady staying at home alone for a while. Weiwei...is really a good boy."

"He comes here every year?"

"Yes, when you don't come back, he will come to accompany me. If you want to come back this summer vacation, just call Weiwei over and let him play at our house for two days. The summer vacation will be demolished , I won’t have a chance if I don’t come again…”

"So soon? Has it been decided?"

"Hey... yes, this time it's urgent, and I don't know where to move us. Kangzi, are you back from summer vacation?"

"..." Su Shikang looked at the crescent moon outside, lost in thought.

He probably won't be able to go back.

But subconsciously, he felt that he must go back, he must go back to be with his grandma, even if he couldn't go back and ask for leave, he still had to go back.

"Go back, grandma, you are waiting for me at home."

"Okay, okay!" Grandma Su laughed twice on the phone, and then sighed, "That's right, Grandma planted too much cabbage, and Aunt Wang couldn't finish it, wasting a big basket! Now I can only Throw it all away!"

"You can make spicy cabbage if you can't finish it, what a pity to throw it away!" Su Shikang leaned on the railing and said casually.

"Haha, okay, then grandma won't say much. You should rest well. Remember to call Weiwei over during the summer vacation. Grandma will miss him when he goes to Beijing for college. Grandma will make iced watermelon for you then."

"..." Su Shikang felt astringent when he heard her speak.

"I learned a lot from your aunt Wang recently. Your aunt Wang said that you guys like to eat these strange things when you are young. She will teach me how to make that black cake in a few days."

Su Shikang curled his lips: "Black Forest?"

"Yes, yes, yes! Then grandma will make it for you to eat, huh?"

Su Shikang originally wanted to tell his grandma to rest, and he would cook whatever to eat, but seeing the old lady was so happy on the phone, he let her go.

"Then, goodbye, grandma, wait for me to come back."

"it is good."

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later.

That phone call was approaching the summer vacation, and it was the last phone call between Su Shikang and his grandma.

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