dare to love

Su Shikang asked for leave after the final exam, and was about to pack up and go back to Pengcheng River. He had just finished packing when he received a call from Chen Wei, whom he hadn't contacted for a long time.

Chen Wei was very anxious on the phone, and it was difficult to speak.

Su Shikang vaguely felt something was wrong, and his voice trembled inexplicably.

"You said."

"Shikang, grandma... Grandma fell down, can you hurry back?"

"..."

At that moment, Su Shikang felt that the world had collapsed. If his grandma was not serious, Chen Wei would not have called so anxiously.

"Yes! Can you tell me how grandma is doing?"

Chen Wei tried his best to suppress something on the phone, his tone was weak and cold, "In the hospital, the doctor is checking now, you come back and pay attention to safety."

"..."

"Shikang, don't worry, you'll be fine."

Su Shikang didn't dare to delay, and rushed back to Pengcheng River overnight.

In fact, Grandma Su was able to find Chen Wei because of the number slip that Chen Wei gave her when she came back to see her. Strange and kind people can't find the old lady's other family members, so they can only use the note "Wei Wei" in their pockets. the note.

Grandma Su went out to work in the summer vacation, and she still went to the street to sweep the road. She was idle at home and wanted to make more money, but the temperature was very high these two days, and the old lady had a little high blood pressure. The old man is honest, why not Young people would be lazy, and she didn't dare to stand in the shade of a tree to enjoy the cool, because she was afraid of being fined by surveillance cameras, so she wanted to climb up the small steps and go to the small supermarket on the steps to blow on the air conditioner for a while.

She was a little breathless, so when she walked up the first step, her whole body fell backwards, and her cerebellum hit the ground with a bang.

All this was discovered after the old lady was sent to the hospital, and Chen Wei asked someone to adjust the monitoring.

Chen Wei went through various formalities, leaned on the cold corridor in a daze.His eyes were bloodshot because he was too worried, and he didn't close his eyes after the incident.

After going through so much, he has long had feelings for Grandma Su, and now that this happened to him, he is also very sad, plus Su Shikang is back, what should he say?

The old lady is so important to Su Shikang, if something happens, will Su Shikang collapse, will he...

He didn't want to see Su Shikang's appearance at that time.

Grandma Su is already unconscious, he is frowning, she can't respond to the doctor talking to her, there is a blood clot in her brain, now that she is old, she doesn't consider craniotomy, she only considers hanging saline first, to see if it works Flush the blood clot down, if not, then the only option is surgery.

Sitting next to him, Aunt Wang didn't look very good either.During the three years she came to serve people, the old lady treated her like her own daughter.

But the old lady went out to work behind her back, and she didn't know it at all.

Su Shikang came here in the afternoon. When he came, Grandma Su was pushed into the operating room because the saline solution didn't work.

The operation starts at twelve o'clock and is expected to take five hours.

"Chen Wei."

When Chen Wei saw him, he quickly stood up from the chair, and he looked at Su Shikang speechless for a moment.

Su Shikang saw the bloodshot eyes in his eyes, and his heart went cold.

"Don't worry about Shi Kang, grandma is undergoing surgery, and the surgery will be successful."

"...Surgery? What's going on? How did grandma fall? Aunt Wang, tell me."

Aunt Wang's eyes were moist, and then she shed a few tears, and explained the incident to Su Shikang.

She couldn't cry anymore, she was not as calm as a young man when she was older, and her emotions that couldn't be disguised easily exposed Grandma Su's current situation.

"Shikang, call your husband and ask him to come over, I, when I saw it, it was already... woo woo woo..."

Su Shikang's face turned completely pale, and Chen Wei stared at him closely, watching the changes in his expression, seeing all his momentary collapses in his eyes.

"Shikang..."

Chen Wei called him, but his voice was also hoarse.

Su Shikang supported the back of the chair and sat down, then bent over and rubbed his head, his face was very calm, but his clenched hands were shaking vigorously.

"It's okay, it's definitely okay..."

"Shikang..."

He was still the same as in high school, he would tremble when he was emotional, but now his hands were not only trembling, but his whole body was gradually trembling.

Chen Wei leaned in front of him, looked down at him, and really wanted to hug him into his arms.

Just when he stretched out his hand to touch him, Su Shikang suddenly raised his head, looked into his eyes, and put the red blood in his eyes into his eyes.

"Have you not rested for a long time?"

"Time……"

"Go back and have a rest, I'll wait here."

Chen Wei didn't leave, but said softly, "Is your condition any better than mine?"

"..."

"Grandma will be fine, I will wait with you."

Seeing Chen Wei insisting, Su Shikang knew that it was impossible for him to go back alone, "Then I'll call my dad and ask him to come too."

"it is good."

Then Su Shikang called the number that he didn't contact after he went to college. He thought that if grandma came out of the operating room, he would always be happy to see Su Wenjun there.

In fact, he still hated himself. He felt that he shouldn't have left Pengcheng River at all. The distance is certainly attractive, but it's nothing without his grandma.

He planned to take her to Changsha after his grandma finished her summer vacation.Even if you don't have the money to catch up on the design drawings overnight, you still have to make money to support her, so that she has a house to live in, enough food and clothing.

But the phone rang for a long time and no one answered, only the cold mechanical voice that was no warmer than the hospital corridor.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily unanswered, please wait...beep..."

He became anxious again, and the hand that had just calmed down trembled again. Su Shikang wanted to smoke subconsciously like before.

He hit it over and over again.

Chen Wei frowned, looking at him with distress.

His eyes were stained red with blood, and he was angry and anxious, but fortunately he didn't give up. After calling the fifth time, Su Wenjun answered the phone.

"Hello? Shi Kang?"

"Where are you?"

"I'm in Shanghai, what's the matter..."

"I don't care where you are now, or what you're doing, something happened to grandma, you have to hurry back." His voice was broken, a tone Su Wenjun had never heard in these years.

In his impression, Su Shikang always talked to him indifferently, indifferently, with a stagnant heart.

"What happened to your grandma?"

"she……"

"Shikang, I can't leave now in Shanghai. Your Auntie Xiaofeng just gave birth to a boy and just came out of the operating room!"

"..."

"...Male, boy?"

At this moment, Su Shikang felt that his voice could no longer speak, and he didn't know whether it was because of anger or anxiety, so big tears fell unconsciously and silently.

No matter how hard he endured these years, he never cried, never did this.

"when……"

"Shikang, I'm busy here, hang up first, and your grandma will call me if there is any situation."

"Dad!" He yelled at the top of his voice.

The phone has been hung up.

Chen Wei looked at him, Su Shikang's current situation was like a string that was about to break, he had never seen him so weak, so disappointed, so powerless.

He was close to Su Shikang, and he could roughly hear what was said on the phone.

He knew that his father didn't care about him, but he didn't expect his father to be so decisive that he would have a second child with his second-married wife at this time. Chen Wei was born in a wealthy family, and he knew the kindness and resentment of their class. Will he come to rob the Su family's property in the future?

"Shikang..."

Su Shikang couldn't speak anymore, he just sat on the spot, looking down at the tiles on the ground, the tiles were polished brightly, showing his current distressed appearance.

Su Wenjun went to Shanghai, but when he was on the phone with his grandma some time ago, his grandma told him that Su Wenjun would come over every Sunday.

He knew why he was in such a rush to have a boy. The reason why he ran to Shanghai was because he wanted to obtain a Shanghai hukou for the newborn.

The old district of Pengcheng River will be demolished, and Su Wenjun's home will not be spared. He will settle in Shanghai after he retires.

As for him and his grandma, Su Wenjun never thought about it.

Su Shikang couldn't imagine these things at all, and the more he thought about it, the more his heart ached. Su Shikang didn't understand why his life was like this.

Chen Wei was still thinking about how to comfort him, and the operation was over.

The craniotomy was not very successful, and Grandma Su was placed in the advanced care intensive care unit.

"The old lady hasn't had anesthesia yet. If you wake up after that, you can talk to her. Although she is unconscious, she kept calling the two people's names before the operation. Hey... she is old and her health is not good... ..."

"The family members sign the critical illness notification."

The doctor only said these few words, but it was enough to explain everything.Chen Wei went through the formalities very well. Both the nursing and the ward spent a lot of money to go back. They went to the ward and saw this old lady who is usually healthy and can grow vegetables, with tubes all over her body, lying quietly in the ward. .

Next to it is the harsh beeping sound of the monitor.

Su Shikang walked up to Grandma Su and held her hand. The old lady's hand was very yellow and dry, and the skin was so yellow that no blood vessels could be seen, only spots on the skin.

"Grandma, I'm Shi Kang, I'm back..."

Chen Wei stood behind him.

"Grandma, can you wake up and talk to me?"

Su Shikang was still as gentle as before, he even pinned Grandma Su's hair on the sideburns, and reached out to caress her cheek.He didn't cry, and even exuded a terrifying calm after learning the result.

"Grandma, you still said that you want to see Weiwei. He is here today. Open your eyes and look at him, okay?"

He just called her so patiently, like coaxing a child.

About two hours later, Grandma Su moved her fingers, and then opened her eyes wearily.

"Grandma!" Chen Wei said, "Grandma is awake."

Su Shikang raised his head and met the eyes of the old lady.

"Kangzi, Weiwei..."

"Yes, it's us."

Grandma Su's consciousness has been confused, she can't tell the difference between today and night, day and night, she wants to talk, so she reaches out and slowly takes off the oxygen mask

"Grandma don't..."

Grandma Su insisted on taking it down, she wanted to talk to Su Shikang.

"Kangzi, your father... isn't he here? Or, outside..."

"Father, he..." Su Shikang took the old lady's hand, and put her cold hand on his cheek to cover it.He used to be afraid of the cold, and the old lady covered his hands and feet every night. He felt that grandma's hands were very hot and warm, but now, it was a coldness that he had never felt before.

Feeling that coolness until now, the fear in his heart swept over, plundering his blood, plundering his heart.

"Dad is on his way and will be here soon." Su Shikang pursed his lips and forced an ugly smile, "Grandma, wait for him, he misses you very much, you love Dad so much, don't let him worry, okay?" good?"

"..."

Chen Wei stood behind and watched, everything here made him so tormented, so distressed, he couldn't watch this scene.

There was also a soreness in his heart, and tears were gradually welling up in his bloodshot eye sockets. He raised his head and forced the pain back.

But the pain will continue, and reality will not let him go.

"Kangzi, grandma, I have something to tell you."

Grandma Su didn't have the strength to speak anymore, and what she spoke was only some breathless sounds. As she was dying, she finally cried aggrievedly, and poured out her decades of grievances to Su Shikang.

"Don't blame, your father has always been, it's grandma, I'm sorry for him..."

"When he was young, he was in love with your Auntie Xiaofeng. It was because grandma didn't agree and insisted on marrying your mother, which ruined their fate. Kangzi...you forgive...forgive..."

The old lady was sobbing, Su Shikang leaned his ears to listen, "Forgive grandma for being selfish, and tell you this...Grandma really doesn't want to see, you and your father are against each other..."

"Don't be sad, grandma these years, not because of guilt, not because of being ashamed of your mother, but, to raise you, you are a, good boy, grandma really... likes you."

"Grandma." Seeing his grandma like this, Su Shikang begged her to stop talking. He picked up the oxygen mask and tried to force her to put it on. His voice trembled and he couldn't say a complete sentence, "Grandma, please Put it on, I won’t be angry, I will listen to you in everything, when you get better, I will listen to my father’s words..."

"Kang Zi." Grandma Su still grabbed his hand and took off the oxygen mask, "Grandma is dying..."

"..."

Su Shikang stabilized for a while, and then seemed to finally understand the fact, as if he finally understood all this, as if he understood what the doctor said, he finally shook his head, but tears fell, he lowered his head and buried it in the bed of Grandma Su Weeping on the sheets.

Grandma Su reached out her hand, covered the back of his head as usual, and stroked him tenderly.

"Kangzi, help grandma tell your father, just say grandma, I'm sorry for him... He is married to Xiaofeng now, life, life is better, tell him not to, don't hate grandma..."

"Hey, don't cry, you are always strong, this is grandma, the first time I see you cry..."

Su Shikang raised his head and looked closer at her. The old lady was very tired and couldn't keep her eyes open.

"Shikang."

This is the last time she rarely called him like this, "In Grandma's pillow, there is 2 yuan, which may be very little. It is hidden for you to marry a wife in the future. Remember that there will be no grandma in the future, so be happy..."

You have lived so hard from childhood to adulthood, grandma won't be with you or drag you down.

Goodbye, my Kangzi.

All her life, she was disliked by her son, probably because she did too much when she was young, and her son didn't come to see her before she died. Her only wish was that Su Wenjun would not hate him. She thought that Su Wenjun would pick her when she died. Bring a bunch of wild lilies to her grave!

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