dare to love

Chen Wei picked up the phone and looked, it was Yu Zhizhi calling.

It is estimated that this trip was too long, so I called him to remind him.

Seeing that he had something to do, Su Shikang didn't speak, and silently swallowed all the questions he wanted to ask.

"mom."

"Are you back, Weiwei?"

"..." Chen Wei glanced at Su Shikang, a little hesitant, "Mom, I..."

"Didn't you say that you can come back in the afternoon on the second day of the new year? Nothing else, just want to remind you, don't forget that you will go to your grandmother's house with your mother on the third day of the new year..."

In fact, Chen Wei had a good time before he came. He set off two nights before New Year's Eve, arrived in Changsha at noon the next day, spent New Year's Eve and the first and second day with Su Shikang, and then returned in the afternoon.

But he didn't expect that the car was broken down on the road, and his time was wasted when he came, and his time was wasted when he went back. In the end, it became a situation of coming late and returning early.

He felt that it was even more fucking outrageous, cooperating with him to run over mountains and rivers just to go to someone's house for a night?

Su Shikang saw that his complexion was not very good, so he said, "If you have something to do, go back first."

Chen Wei glanced at him, trying to find an excuse not to go back with his mother, but Yu Zhizhi reminded on the phone, "Your grandma misses you, she wanted me to take you back in the second year of junior high school, I said You have something to go out, and then postponed until the third year of junior high school, I said Weiwei, are you driving after not talking for so long?"

"Mom..."

"Then mom won't bother you for now, you can concentrate on driving and call mom at Pengcheng River~"

Yu Zhizhi hung up the phone.

Chen Wei held his mobile phone and sat across from him with a black line.

His mother is like this, with a hot temper, although it is easy to talk and feels that there is no generation gap with anyone, but when you really chat with her, you will find that you and her are not on the same channel at all.

Chen Wei also felt quite tired.

Seeing him like this, Su Shikang was a little worried, but Chen Wei picked up the chopsticks and said to him, "Eat first."

"..."

Su Shikang ate with his head down.

Although the two of them hid a lot of words, they didn't say anything from the beginning to the end.

After eating, Chen Wei packed up his things, sat on the sofa and smoked.His mind was always on what he did with Su Shikang, and he was agitated no matter what he thought.

He just felt that he shouldn't, he had a relationship with Xie Hengdong before, and after breaking up, he could be a brother if he had no feelings for him, but what about Su Shikang?Su Shikang is a straight man, can the two of them still be the same as before?

No matter how much you like it, no matter how much you miss it, you should endure it, even if Su Shikang was really attractive at that time.

When Su Shikang came out of the shower, he was already dressed. Even though his collar was pulled up high in winter, the bruises and purple hickeys on his neck were still very eye-catching.

He walked up to Chen Wei and asked him, "When did you smoke?"

"..."

Chen Wei coughed twice, he didn't dare to look up at Su Shikang, he couldn't see the "evidence" of his excessive obsession

"For a long time."

Su Shikang walked up to him, gently pulled out the cigarette in his hand, and threw it into a clean ashtray.

Su Shikang also smoked. He was able to smoke when he was young, but he didn't have any addiction.

"Stop smoking, it's bad for your health."

Chen Wei raised his head to look at him.

This angle is very similar to that time, when Su Shikang knelt on the bed, knelt in front of him, held his face, and then bent down｜to kiss him.

Chen Wei really wanted to reach out, wrap his arms around his waist, and wrap him tightly in his arms.

This line of business made him completely admit that he loves Su Shikang.

But he didn't dare to continue, because Su Shikang didn't seem to have much energy and his concentration wasn't very focused.

Su Shikang stretched out his hand to straighten his hair, and said softly, "Let's go, I'll take you to the subway station."

"Su Shikang." Chen Wei didn't move, he asked him: "Are you in pain?"

"..."

"I know I was too much then, but I..."

"Chen Wei."

Su Shikang interrupted him: "Don't be so careful, I'm not angry."

"then you……"

Chen Wei still wants to ask, can you still talk to me like before?

He didn't want Su Shikang to be burdened. If Su Shikang didn't like the same sex, then Chen Wei still felt that it would be better for Su Shikang to stay with him during that summer vacation. He would pick watermelons for him because he was afraid of the heat, and would Every day, I dislike him and ask him what he wants to eat, and I will lie in the same room with him and chat with him calmly when night falls.

"Let's go, it's late and there will be no subway."

"..."

Chen Wei picked up the scarf, walked over and wrapped it around Su Shikang's neck.

"I'll help you cover the hickey."

"..."

Su Shikang was a little stiff, and Chen Wei was uncomfortable, his hands were shaking, and in the end the scarf was a bit messy, and he couldn't wrap it well no matter what.

Neither of them dared to look each other in the eye.

"Okay."

Su Shikang fiddled with it a few times before turning around and going out first.

Chen Wei was worried at the back again, "Su Shikang, why don't you send me off, I can go back by myself."

"..." Su Shikang ignored him at all.

Chen Wei looked at his back for a while, put his messenger bag on his back, and trotted over to walk in a row with him.

After leaving the hotel, Su Shikang said to him: "When did I become so weak in your heart?"

"I...of course not!"

Chen Wei wants to say that of course you are not weak, but I will love you now, subconsciously I will treat you as a weak person, I want to protect you, I want to hold you in my arms, because I saw that moment you were weak and broke down and shed tears look.

But at that time, she clearly wanted to be gentle with him, but her strength was surprisingly strong.

After arriving at the subway station, Su Shikang accompanied him in and waited with him for the next subway at night.

Su Shikang reached out and took off the scarf around his neck, those hickey marks were reflected in Chen Wei's pupils, vividly in his mind.

He approached him, wrapped the scarf around Chen Wei's neck, and tied it tightly.

"Cold?"

Chen Wei shook his head, and said, "Your own hands are cold."

"..."

"Su Shikang, you seem to have a fever."

The subway slowly entered the station, the train passed by quickly, and finally stopped beside the two of them.

Chen Wei swore that he really hoped that the car would stop later, or even not come.

"Where is the fever?" Su Shikang refused to admit it stubbornly. He even untied the scarf around Chen Wei's neck angrily and wrapped it around it again, and then tied it hard in a posture that wanted to strangle him, "It's true." You, the road is so far away, and the weather is so cold, be careful."

Chen Wei really wanted to take his cold hand that tied the scarf to his lips and kiss him lightly.

He laughed: "I'm going to be strangled to death by you."

"Strangle you to death."

"Su Shikang." Chen Wei finally stopped smiling, he took Su Shikang's hand and held it in his palm, his eyes were serious and firm, "I'm leaving, you must take care of yourself, and then don't give birth to me I'm angry, it's not because you kissed me, it's because of me..."

— "The train is about to close."

"Are you still going?"

"..."

Su Shikang pushed Chen Wei into the car, "If you have anything to say, remember to tell me next time we meet, pay attention to safety!"

Chen Wei squeezed into the car, and when the door was about to close, he suddenly remembered something and yelled at Su Shikang.

"Su Shikang, I forgot to tell you, happy new year!"

Su Shikang stood alone on the spot and waved to him.

In fact, when they were on the road, Chen Wei wanted to tell Su Shikang: I will take you away!I will take you back to Pengcheng River, take you home, take you back to meet your grandma, and take you to see Shenzhou Lake and the sunset for the last time.

And then I'm going to confess to you and tell you that I wasn't just a whim that night.

Then when Yu Zhizhi called, Chen Wei knew what Su Shikang wanted to ask.

But later he thought, how could he let Su Shikang suffer with him even when he came here in such a state of embarrassment? Go back with him on that motorcycle that cannot be sheltered from wind and rain.

During the Spring Festival, it was the last subway, so there were almost no people in those few cars.

Chen Wei didn't sit down either, he just stood alone at the door, listening to the announcement on the subway, from one station to the next, and then to the end, he was getting farther and farther away from Su Shikang.

He knew that he would probably continue to suffer a lot when he went back, even worse than any time before.

He continued to go back by motorcycle, trying to get back to the auto repair shop at noon the next day, and then be able to go home before the morning of the third day.

Chen Wei was walking on the cold road, what flashed in his mind was the appearance of Su Shikang, from the surprise and touch when he came over, to the drunk and seductive afterward, he gritted his teeth and tried his best not to go Think, but feeling will not let him go, love will not let him go.

"Hold!"

Chen Wei let out an annoyed grump, then clenched the handle of the motorcycle and stepped up the accelerator.

Chen Wei remembers the general route because he walked through it once when he came here, and he rushed back to the car repair shop at noon on the second day of the new year.

Yan Fei has already repaired his broken SUV.

Not only that, he even thoughtfully washed it for him, and the whole car looked brand new.

When he arrived, Yan Fei was squatting on the ground, repairing small parts on other tires.His hands were very black from the oil, and most of his face was also stained, making him very untidy.

When Chen Wei saw this scene when he arrived, he remembered something, and his heart trembled suddenly.

"Yo! Are you back so soon?"

Yan Fei's words interrupted Chen Wei's thoughts, he stood beside him and gave an uncomfortably "hmm", and then habitually took out a cigarette from his pocket.

He handed Yan Fei one.

Yan Fei's hands were too dirty to handle, so Chen Wei brought it to his lips naturally, and then lit a fire for him.

"Has the beauty caught up?"

Yan Fei bit his cigarette and asked him vaguely.

"It's early!" Chen Wei looked into the distance with a cigarette in his mouth, with a grim expression.

"Isn't it? You're already like this. As an outsider, I think you like her very much. Most people can't do this like you. The person you like doesn't know what's good or bad, right?"

"..."

"You are too sad, buddy, there are many good women in the world, so don't hang yourself on this tree."

"He's not a woman..."

"?!" Yan Fei slammed the hand of the car repairer, and looked at Chen Wei inexplicably.

"male?"

"Ah."

It took Yan Fei a long time to recover, and then he continued to lower his head to fix the things in his hands.

He is a little skeptical about life. In fact, he has been in contact with gays since he was a child. He occasionally heard from friends or classmates that there is a guy in the class next door who likes men, but he doesn’t take it to heart because he thinks it’s like being gay. Such a small group of people will not cause any big storms. He even feels that those people are afraid to speak out their hearts. Of course, most of them are like this.

But today he really saw a homosexual standing in front of him, upright, telling him that the person he likes is a homosexual.

This homosexual is different from what he thinks in his mind. What he thinks in his mind is the kind of weak, soft-looking, thin body, and even sissy man, but today he has learned a lot.

This handsome guy with well-developed limbs, tall and long legs, handsome, masculine, manly, crossed mountains and rivers in the cold winter to meet a man.

He was really curious about what kind of person and how beautiful the same-sex person who was so liked by the handsome guy in front of him was.

"Then what are you going to do? It seems that I won't be able to drink your wedding wine."

The beauty is ungrateful, Yan Fei feels sorry for Chen Wei.

"Drink it."

"?"

Chen Wei took out his mobile phone from his pocket, scanned the payment QR code next to it, and transferred 2 yuan to Yan Fei.

"Thanks to your car on the road, you can collect the money for such a long journey, add a WeChat?"

"Oh, fine." Yan Fei took out his mobile phone from his pocket, "Remarks."

"Chen Wei."

After adding WeChat, Chen Wei went to the SUV and opened the door, and said to Yan Fei: "Wait for my news, wait for me to chase him, and treat you to a wedding wine."

Yan Fei squatted on the ground, laughed twice, and shouted: "I'm waiting, let me see the beauty of my wife!"

Chen Wei laughed twice when he heard the word Madam.