dare to love

The TV was turned on loudly until after seven o'clock in the morning, Chen Wei turned off the TV in a daze, and then fell into a deep sleep with Su Shikang in his arms.

Su Shikang slept with his back facing him, and Chen Wei buried his face in the nape of his neck.

It was very lively outside on the first day of the new year, the sound of firecrackers was intermittent, the curtains of their room were opened again, and the warm winter sun shone in and reflected on the faces of the two of them.

They were on this bed not long ago, amidst the sound of firecrackers, and in the dark night with the Spring Festival Gala playing, they fought endlessly.

This sleep is afternoon.

Chen Wei was awake first, he sat up from the bed, his whole body was still in a daze, he opened his eyes in a daze, and for a while did not dare to think about what happened last night.

Su Shikang was still awake, and the faint sound of breathing came over.

"asshole!"

Chen Wei slapped himself mercilessly.

Of course he came to see Su Shikang because he missed him and wanted to see him, and he also vaguely knew that his feelings for him became very special with the passage of time, but even if it was love, he had to wait until he became his own Can you do this to others?

This kind of thing should be done after a romantic confession, after the other party's permission is obtained in a waking state...

But Su Shikang was obviously drunk last night, isn't he taking advantage of others?

Chen Wei is not a casual person. He pays great attention to ritual. Although Su Shikang kissed him on his own initiative, he is not sure how Su Shikang feels about him. What if he just drank too much? What should I do if I admit the wrong person?

Besides, Su Shikang is still his good buddy, the person who stood beside him and Xie Hengdong in those three years, and has been fighting silently with them, how should he explain this when Su Shikang wakes up?

"Hold!"

Chen Wei lowered his head and looked at the quilt and pillow that had rolled to the ground. Although he had put one under Su Shikang's waist yesterday, he still rolled to the ground due to too much movement.

He remembered Su Shikang's appearance under him last night.

He got his wish to see Su Shikang crying, but it was unbearable, comfortable and painful physical tears.

Chen Weiguang just recalled and felt his blood pressure soar again.

Su Shikang was drunk and still not sober, but what about him?

He is sober, why can't he stop, and is willing to sink into it?

Chen Wei opened the door beside the bed and walked to the balcony, where he lit a cigarette.

Recalling carefully in my mind, recalling last night.At that time, he could not leave his eyes for almost a moment, staring at Su Shikang, watching his expression, his seductive pandering, and touching his back when hugging him, the scar rubbing against his palm.

He was so distressed that he could only kiss him step by step, kiss away his tears, and kiss his lips.

He thought that when he saw this scar for the first time, it should be very painful when he smashed it.He remembered that when they were standing in the hallway, Su Shikang also said that there was a gash in his back and it hurt so much, and then he went to the infirmary alone to deal with it.

If I could do it all over again...

Chen Wei thought at that time that he used to feel sorry for Xie Hengdong, and felt that Xie Hengdong was very bitter. He felt that after they were together, he had to put Xie Hengdong in his palm as an offering.

Unexpectedly, Su Shikang lost his mother since he was a child, and his father ignored him. He could only live with his grandma. At such a young age, he would do many things and earn a lot of money.

In front of Su Shikang, he would considerately buy Xie Hengdong a hot water bottle in winter, but he never thought that Su Shikang is the one who is most afraid of the cold in this cold winter and the twelfth lunar month, and Su Shikang is also the one who is seriously cold and easy to get sick.

Chen Wei thought at the time, why was he such a bastard and so blind?The hot water bottle is so small, it can't fill much water and doesn't cost a lot of money, so why didn't I know how to buy an extra one to keep Su Shikang warm.

But what happened to Su Shikang at that time?

Chen Wei couldn't remember.

He seemed to have laughed at him, and seemed to touch his cheek with a cold soy milk can.

At that moment, heartache, heartache, and love|desire occupied his entire heart.

He kept calling him, his voice low and gentle.

"Shikang..."

"Shikang."

Su Shikang put his arms around his neck, and responded enthusiastically to him, his eyes were slack, and he was already out of focus.

"Avi..."

He remembered that for a moment, Su Shikang seemed to call him like this, with deep love|desire.

After a cigarette was burned out, Chen Wei finally dug into the depths of his heart after experiencing some ideological struggles. He admitted that he was in love with Su Shikang.

He fell in love with Su Shikang who they didn't like each other at the first meeting, and then accompanied him during that summer vacation together.

He clenched his fist to his lips and coughed twice, opened the door and walked into the room.

"..."

Su Shikang has slowly sat up.

His hair was messed up, his expression was not right, his face was as pale as smoke.

"hiss--"

A sharp pain came from under his body, and the pain made him lose all blood. Su Shikang was still in a daze at first, but when the sharp pain came, it took him almost a second to completely recall it. , what happened between him and Chen Wei last night.

The blood color dropped suddenly, and even the neck became pale.

He actually slept with Chen Wei!

and……

He looked up at Chen Wei, his lips trembling slightly.

Panic, loss, fear...

All of them were expressions that Chen Wei had never seen before.

Su Shikang was afraid to face him.

Chen Wei was a little worried about his appearance, but he walked up to him and asked dryly, "Are you awake?"

"..."

It took Su Shikang a while before he said "hmm".

His voice had been hoarse and changed from shouting too many times last night.

When Chen Wei approached, Su Shikang frowned again, and he smelled the tobacco on Chen Wei's body.

He always remembered that Chen Wei didn't like the smell of cigarettes.

Su Shikang didn't dare to think about it, although Chen Wei slept with him, he still remembered clearly who kissed whom last night.

Even though people traveled across mountains and rivers to see him, why did he have to drink to make things like this last night?Su Shikang felt ashamed of himself, Chen Wei was his fucking buddy, how could he lose control?

What should Chen Wei think of him?

When it's over, what does he think of him?Are you starting to hate him now?

Chen Wei looked down at Su Shikang's face turning green and pale, a little worried that he was thinking about something that would kill him.

You don't want to kill him, let him go back to Pengcheng River immediately, right?

"You..." Chen Wei finally said hesitantly, "It's getting late, you should be hungry too, well, I'll go out and see if there is anything to eat."

"..."

He said as if fleeing to leave the room.

Chen Wei felt that it was outrageous. He originally wanted to take this opportunity to impress Su Shikang, and then unknowingly inquire about his feelings. What is his opinion on gay now? Can he accept it?In the end, he directly put the person to sleep, what a joke!

Su Shikang must think that it would be better for him to go back immediately.

"Hey handsome guy? Did you just wake up now?"

Chen Wei walked to the front desk, smiled politely, "I just woke up."

"Oh, I said young man..." The landlady said to him while knocking on melon seeds, "I said you were too late last night, my husband and I both woke up after sleeping, and you are still tossing in the room , staying up late at such a young age is amazing!"

Chen Wei laughed twice: "What's the trouble..."

"Are you watching the Spring Festival Gala?"

"..."

"On the Spring Festival Gala, I only heard you start playing it after I finished it, and played it all the way to the end..."

Chen Wei was not in the mood to chat with her, so he asked, "Auntie, do you have anything to eat here? I'll buy some, porridge and dumplings are fine."

"food?"

"What time is it, young man, we've finished our dinner. Look, it's getting dark today. Did you two not eat anything this day? You just woke up, didn't you..."

Chen Wei looked at the sky outside in a blink of an eye, feeling agitated in his heart. He wondered why the landlord had so much nonsense, whether he had it or not, it was so difficult to answer?He wasn't in a very good mood, so he really wanted to yell at the proprietress, yes, they just woke up, from one o'clock in the morning to seven o'clock in the morning...

But he didn't shout out, after all, the self-cultivation of the rich family is not boasting, he smiled at the proprietress, both of them had deep dimples.

"Auntie, do you know where I can get food?"

"The kitchen!" The landlord answered the question carefully, "You can borrow the kitchen to cook. I have some eggs in the refrigerator, and you can use them."

Upon hearing this, Chen Wei took out a piece of RMB from his bag, "Thank you, Auntie!"

When the auntie saw the RMB, Le's eyes lit up, she quickly rubbed her hands full of melon seed oil, handed the note to the light for a look, and then stuffed it into her pocket, "It's just a matter of a little effort, I just want to see you guys can't go home during the New Year, so I feel sorry for you." Yes, just give me a hand..."

"..."

Chen Wei didn't have time to chat with her, so he went straight into the kitchen to get food.

The refrigerator was really empty, except for a pile of eggs, there was nothing to eat.

Chen Wei is no longer the same as before when he was in a mess when he was cooking. He is a quick-witted person. As long as he studies hard twice, cooking is not difficult at all, and it is not difficult to make a good meal.

In addition to some eggs, there was also a torn bag containing dried shrimps. Chen Wei took out the leftovers. In this case, he could only make a fried rice with shrimps and eggs and fried two soft-boiled eggs.

When he finished his work and took a tray full of food and entered the room full of apprehension, Su Shikang was already lying on the toilet throwing up in the dark.

He didn't eat a few dumplings last night, drank a lot of wine, and was tortured by Chen Wei while his stomach was uncomfortable in the early morning, so he must vomit it now.

But Chen Wei froze in place, his hand holding the tray trembled, his face was uglier than ever before, he obviously misunderstood.

Damn it, Su Shikang vomited like this, he actually disgusted Su Shikang like this.

Chen Wei felt that his eyes were getting dark, and he felt that he would never see the light again.

After Su Shikang vomited, he tilted his head weakly, and slowly looked at Chen Wei who was holding food at the door in a daze.

"..."

"...What are you doing standing at the door?"

"Oh..." Chen Wei left hesitantly, put the food on the table, "I made something to eat."

The egg fried rice is fragrant, and the fried rice is distinct. It is fried with tender red shrimp and sprinkled with finely chopped green onion.A simple piece of fried rice, fried by Chen Wei, is full of color, fragrance and taste.

Su Shikang stared at the strange Chen Wei's fried rice, was stunned for a while, and then stood up against the wall.

But as soon as he got up, the sharp pain hit him again, causing him to frown and grunt.

"hiss--"

"Su Shikang." Chen Wei hurried over to help him, "I, I..."

He wants to say I will hold you in the past.

Su Shikang was not so delicate, he couldn't walk even after being put on the road, he gritted his teeth and endured the pain, and sat down on the stool.

In fact, he had just vomited. Although he was hungry and sick of everything, Chen Wei did it carefully, and he couldn't refuse.Moreover, after they had been separated for so long, he still remembered Chen Wei's stir-fried chili and salt. He didn't know if his cooking skills had improved after so long.

Now his whole body hurts everywhere, especially his waist feels broken.

Seeing him like this, Chen Wei was particularly worried. In his eyes, Su Shikang was always a man, how could he be so weak?Now the whole thing makes him want to feed him.

"I'm sorry Shikang..."

Su Shikang looked up at him.

What did he want to ask sorry for?I'm sorry I slept with him in a moment of confusion or something.

But Chen Wei said: "It's also my first time, so I'm a bit...not sure about the severity."

Chen Wei has never encountered this kind of thing. After trying something new on New Year's Eve, he became insatiable. His eyes were reddened, and he wanted more and more. What's more, the thing lying under him was something he couldn't imagine before, so wild. Su Shikang.

"I also drank too much, it's not your fault..." Su Shikang took a bite of the poached egg, and did not forget to praise him, "The cooking skills have improved."

Chen Wei smiled, but his heart was not too sweet. He felt that the atmosphere between the two of them was very strange.

He couldn't stand this, he was going to go home soon, and he had to talk to Su Shikang clearly, otherwise he would have to think about him again when he went home, which would be even more tormenting than the previous two or more years.

"Su Shikang, I, I..."

But when the words came to his lips, he didn't know how to speak.

Say he likes him now?How outrageous would Su Shikang think?

Moreover, Chen Wei is a person who attaches great importance to the sense of ritual, and he feels that he should not let Su Shikang know his intentions so hastily.

"Chen Wei..."

Finally, Su Shikang put down his chopsticks and asked him in a hoarse voice, "What about you, are you a..."

Before he finished speaking, Chen Wei's phone rang.

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