The Queen's Secret

It seemed that she would come here involuntarily every time she was depressed or upset. Dr. Qin's small consulting room really accompanied her through many difficult years.He knows she likes to eat snacks, so every time he comes, he can make many snacks from the drawer and pile them in front of her like Doraemon, and then listen to her how sad and entangled she is. Come on.She is also very obedient. Sometimes when she comes by accident, there are other patients in the clinic, so she waits for him outside the door playing with her mobile phone to watch the scenery.

"The snacks that Dr. Qin bought seem to have magical powers. After a few bites, you won't be so sad." She ate potato chips one bite at a time, with an unattractive smile on her face.

"Then eat more."

"No, I'm a movie queen, how can a movie queen eat so many snacks." She stuffed the potato chips into her mouth without raising her head, but her tone became more and more distressing, "That's not right, I already She is no longer a movie queen, and even the posters of the department store have been replaced..." After a while, no one will remember her as a past movie queen, and no one will even discuss the negative news about her. Always, will be forgotten by this society.

He stopped talking, just picked up the water and handed it to her. She froze for a moment, then raised her head and drank all the water.She no longer stuffed herself with snacks without restraint, and was stunned for a long time as if she was lost: "You know, I'm at home these days, no, I think a lot in the apartment, you said I tried my best Entering the entertainment circle, and trying so hard to enter the Chu family, why? Perhaps my life has deviated from the norm since the moment I decided to follow her."

"I always feel that if I love someone, I have to find her and be with her. I am stupid. I always feel that as long as I can be with her, I will not ask her to respond to me, let alone Will ask her to love me. I always feel that as long as I can look at her like that all the time. But I find that I can't. I have deceived myself for so long, but in the end I still have to admit that I can't stand her neglect, I can't Endure her lack of love. I hate Huo Yuluo, and I even told her thousands of times in my heart why don't you die." She suddenly lowered her head and closed her eyes in pain.

"But I am an abnormal person. With such a relationship, I should go to hell. Do I want her to go to hell with me? No, I don't want to. Her life is already not easy. Now Xiaojia is promising, she can take care of her mother, she can take care of the whole family, and Ayan's condition is getting better and better. She has been in pain for half her life, and now it's time to enjoy her happiness. She can't be entangled by people like me, she If she doesn't love me, I will just be sad, but if she loves me, she will have to endure the ridicule of the world and be burdened with ethical and moral accusations. If so, I'm afraid I will be desperate. So I think, maybe it's better for me to leave .”

"Actually, I should have left a long time ago. It was a mistake to stay last time." She calmly finished all her thoughts about this relationship, whether she was frustrated or sad, and she finally felt at ease when she said it. few.

She rubbed her hair, and put on a very happy look again, as if she was the happiest person in the world: "Okay, now I've said it all, from now on, Liao Xuerou will cheer up again Do you want to go abroad for further study, or return to the circle, maybe you can become a movie queen again."

"What a fool."

She supported her cheeks, lowered her eyes, and the smile on her face gradually disappeared: "Doctor Qin, I finally made up my mind. It's obviously a good thing, but I don't know why, I feel weird in my heart." What?" Big tears dripped onto the table, and those big eyes, which were always full of energy and enthusiasm, finally turned into a faucet that was out of order.

She still remembers the day her mother died. After school, she almost rushed to the hospital. When she saw her mother who was about to be pushed into the mortuary covered with a white cloth, her legs softened and she knelt on the ground. Running to the hospital bed and saying a series of farewell words like in the TV series, or pulling the nurse's clothes and begging her not to push the mother to that cold place.He just knelt on the ground with his feet numb, watching his mother say goodbye to him forever.She knew that the person who loved her the most had left.

During those days, she always wondered if she had lost the ability to love.For her father, is it love? It should be a kind of dependence and responsibility. That is her last relative in this world, so she relies on her from the bottom of her heart, and that is her mother's husband, so she has to take care of him instead of her mother and do her best. A daughter's duty.

Learning mechanically, living mechanically, and finishing her life mechanically, this is what she thought after losing her mother, but it happened in vain, which rekindled a raging fire in her frozen heart.She wanted to come to her side recklessly, and wanted to be with her forever, but when she really came to her side, she had to think about what she did all this for.

Marrying A Yan is only for the purpose of being a daughter-in-law who can be by her side, so it is not fair to A Yan.She hated Huo Yuluo, but she had to be grateful for Huo Yuluo's appearance. If it wasn't for Huo Yuluo's appearance, she didn't think she would have realized that her jealousy had drowned her consciousness.She always thought that her appearance could make Bai's life happier. When she saw Bai today, her entanglement and cautiousness made her feel very uncomfortable.Her own appearance was clearly disrupting her life.

So, treat it like a dream.She would rather never have her in her life.