Nashan Nahe

Death, love and hatred, love and hatred, suffering, gradually go away and become fragments, when there are many like-minded friends around me, I always go home on a certain winter day, on the way home from shopping, in the evening after dinner, Seeing the figure in the thin mist in the distance, wearing an old padded robe, walking with a straight back, short hair at the ear, and swinging from time to time, I thought she turned around and smiled at me, but no...

Perhaps this is not anyone's fault at all, and there is no right or wrong. It is that era that gave us the chance to meet and deprived us of the fate of knowing each other...

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After more than a month of hard fighting, the Japanese army relied on their strength to seize key positions, but they were retaken by the defenders again and again. The enemy and the enemy fought hand-to-hand, and blood and flesh flew in the trenches. Why not try to take pictures while protecting yourself? In the end, they were outnumbered and lost to the Japanese army. The Japanese army occupied Liuhe and pressed Jiading, so the defenders had to retreat. Before leaving, all the generals were filled with righteous indignation and burst into tears. In early May, the National Government and Japan signed the "Songhu Armistice Agreement". After betraying the Songhu Anti-Japanese War, why not use her camera, which was under fire, to record everything.

After leaving Shanghai, she returned to Peiping. After settling down, she went to Yenching University and found Ling Ping.

"Don't do it! Don't do it!" Ling Ping shouted and ran over before reaching the gate, why not see her from a distance and smile, why is she still in such a hurry

"Well, why are you running? Wouldn't it be good to come here?" Why don't you say with a smile

"I, I like to run. It's not like you don't know." It's been a long time since Pingben was a little shy, and it seemed even more embarrassing to ask why not to talk about it.

"Go, go."

"where to?"

"Anywhere is fine, you can't just stand at the school gate all the time." After all, why not walk in front, Ling Ping followed behind, and the two of them wandered around the streets of Beiping like this

"Lingping, why did you come to Peiping to report to Yanjing? I thought you would be with Jiayu." Why not look back at her while talking

"Um... I... I like Peiping." Looking at Ling Ping who was in a daze for Why Buwei, she couldn't react

"Hehe, this place is not bad, the ancient capital of thousands of years, but it is also very dangerous now..." Why not there is sadness in his tone

"Dangerous, it is dangerous... But right now, where is it not dangerous?"

"No... where were you before?"

"Before, I went to Shanghai"

"Oh, Songhu Anti-Japanese War"

"Yes, but the result is...hehe"

"Hey..." Like everyone else, Ling Ping heard about the bravery of the defenders and also saw the incompetence of the government. At this moment, what else could she do but sigh?

"No, I'm about to graduate"

"Well, Jiayu is coming soon. I heard from Jiayu that you studied journalism?"

"Yes, just right, you do photography, we can work together"

"Together? Hehe, it's too dangerous, I don't want it, Jiayu needs to know, I must say that I will take you to mess around"

"..."

The two walked and chatted all the way, no matter what Ling Ping said, Why not always bring Han Jiayu when answering, which surprised Ling Ping, but she is not jealous, she likes to be so close, why not do it, although... I haven't seen you for a few years , I still feel that that person has a distance, but she just likes it. She listened to why not tell her the scene on the battlefield lightly, and heard why not tell her the current chaotic situation lightly. Everything is an understatement, but Ping knows , the depression and melancholy in her heart, what could it be? !She thought to herself, as long as He Buwei agrees, she can live and die with He Buwei without hesitation, this is her belief!She does not have any religious beliefs, political beliefs, but she believes in love!Even if there is no result of love!

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Why don't you write a letter, this is the first letter she wrote to me a few months after she left, and it is also the first letter she wrote to me after we have known each other for so long. The content of the letter is very short, which probably means that she replied When I arrived in Beiping and met Ling Ping, she greeted everyone in the family, and at the end she said... Miss you!

I was as happy as a child in my heart, and hurriedly wrote back to her, told her about my recent situation in detail, and told her that my mother gave us another little sister. I didn’t tell her that I was under house arrest before. But I told her that my best friend is the Communist Party, and...has been arrested.

At the beginning of the year, the Japanese army pressed hard on Nanjing and Shimonoseki, so the national government had to hastily move the capital to Luoyang (it was moved back to Nanjing ten months later). In May, it signed an armistice agreement with the Japanese army in Songhu. This humiliating agreement stipulated that the Chinese army could only garrison In Suzhou and Kunshan, they are not allowed to enter Shanghai. Everything is handed over to Britain, France and the United States. , What a tragic scene of the Songhu Anti-Japanese War. I can imagine how she was in it and let her escape from the battlefield. I hate it!It all comes from why not do it, from every photo of her with blood, and from her fearlessness and bravery!

After graduating in the fall, I returned to my former middle school. After my father raised funds several times, the school has been renovated, but the school is new, but the people have changed. Alice went to Fujian with her husband, and Lao Yang also Passed away, I, a child who went out from here, is now a 22-year-old adult. I began to teach English and Chinese to junior and senior high schools. Together with other teachers, I prepared lunch and dinner for school children, and occasionally , Take them to work, just like the teacher took care of us in the past, taking care of these children, the financial crisis in Tianjin, coupled with the government's continuous expansion of military supplies, printing money indiscriminately, money is already worthless!None of our teachers have any income, but it doesn’t matter, no one cares about it, people only want three meals a day, simple food, and can be with students on weekdays, looking at these "futures", under their own teaching, grow up!The same is true, and I am determined to devote my whole life to education!

Since that time, why not write a lot of letters, I can receive a letter from her almost every week, we are like lovers in a long-distance relationship now, exchanging each other's recent situation and thoughts in the letter, The last letter I received from her was at the end of the year. Before she was about to leave Beiping, she told me that she was going to the battlefield again. She also joked helplessly in the letter, "Maybe the "battlefield" this time is green grass. Yin, Diefeiyanwu, so don't worry about me" I know what she is referring to, the end of the year is already winter, where will there be green grass, Diefeiyanwu?She also put quotation marks around the word "battlefield", which is acne, because she is going to Rehe, where Zhang Xueliang's troops have not resisted since September [-]th, and they do not want to send a single soldier I wonder how he and his Fengjun (Northeast Army) will behave this time?

But even so, I was still worried, but I didn't reply to her letter. She said that when she sent this letter, she was ready to leave and might not receive it. She asked me not to reply and wait for her next letter...

My youngest sister is already a few months old, but her condition is not good, because the blood supply to the heart is insufficient, and when it is severe, she keeps panting, even when she drinks milk, the family is very careful, every time she sleeps, Even in the yard, we speak and do things very quietly, afraid that if we don’t pay attention, we will scare her and wake her up. She has a bad heart and is still so young. If she is frightened, the consequences may be serious, but her personality Very good, even when she was sick, she seldom cried. At this time, the mother would cry with sadness and distress. Every time the father came back, seeing this cute and well-behaved but sick little daughter, he could not stop She loved and pitied her so much, and later contacted a hospital, planning to take her to the hospital when she was a little older, and possibly undergo surgery.I don't want her to undergo surgery. I'm afraid that she might not be able to get out if she goes in. She's still too young to see the vastness of the world. She hasn't experienced such a beautiful love like me. I think even if I He has been taking care of her like this, and he doesn't want her to take such a risk.In order to be able to spend more time with my family and reduce the burden on my mother, if the school is not particularly busy, I basically live at home.

This afternoon, as usual, I came home from school, passed by the market, and bought vegetables and some daily necessities according to a small note Jiaqi gave me. When I came home with a cloth bag, I entered the gate and heard Hearing my mother's cry, I ran into the main room and saw my mother sitting by the bed, laying my sister flat on the bed, and giving her comfort. Jiaqi was watching, panicked, I stepped forward to look, Seeing that her face was a little purple, it must be because of difficulty in breathing. Although I followed her breath, it was obvious that she was already having difficulty breathing. I gently pushed my mother away and picked her up with a small quilt. Qi followed me and took her to the hospital. The doctor rushed to rescue her. The old wooden door of the emergency room kept opening and closing. My mother was still crying. Tears, I look at her, but I can't comfort her, because my sister has a serious heart disease, she may get sick at any time, and she may leave us at any time. This is a fact, so I can't comfort anyone, including myself.

I thought that time and life experience had made me independent, but no, at least not now, I listened to the sound of the door switch, I heard my mother sobbing softly, and I watched Jiaqi stand in a daze. At the door of the operating room, I could hide and suppress all my emotions, but I knew in my heart that I felt powerless, and I felt panic and fear. I squatted against the wall, hugged my knees, gritted my teeth, resisted the sore throat, and withdrew my tears , At that moment, I began to miss why not crazily, it was a miss I had never had before, I hope she is here, although she is not Bian Que Hua Tuo, but I just hope she is here, but where is she! ?

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In January 1933, a large-scale war broke out in Yuguan. The Japanese attempted to occupy Rehe in order to force the people of the country to recognize the Puppet Manchukuo. The situation of directly taking Beiping became increasingly obvious. Why not go to Rehe alone? Qin Yuan followed Zhang Xueliang and retreated to Shanhaiguan. Actively seek resistance, but where is resistance?Zhang Xueliang waited for the battle passively, with backward equipment and demoralized troops. The national government announced in Beiping that the defense of Rehe would be electrified. On February 1, the Battle of Rehe broke out, but in the end, the demoralized Northeast Army retreated steadily until March 2. In just a few days, Chengde fell, Tang Yulin fled without a fight, the Japanese army entered Rehe with 21 cavalry, Rehe was occupied, and the war came to an end.Countless patriotic representatives who had met Zhang Xueliang in Beiping criticized him verbally and in writing, denouncing him as a running dog and traitor. (In mid-3, Zhang Xueliang was also described in this way in the August 4st Declaration.)

In fact, the responsibility cannot be entirely placed on Zhang Xueliang alone. Since the Fengjun surrendered to the government and was changed to the Northeast Army, any military operations of the Northeast Army must ask Jiang for instructions, and retreat to the pass is nothing more than carrying out Jiang's order!

Late at night, outside the tent, look at the guard post not far away, why not meet Qin Yuan after a long absence, look at each other with a bitter and speechless smile, defend?Against whom! ?

"How are you?" Qin Yuan asked

"Me? That's it, you saw it too, take a picture"

"Hehe, speaking, you are more courageous than me. I was carrying a gun at that time, and I didn't think about saving the country, but when I would be promoted. What about you, a girl with a camera, who dared to go to the battlefield run"

"Hahaha, you're honest enough. What's wrong with being promoted? It's not wrong to want to be promoted. Why did you come to the Northeast Army?"

"Save the country, do your duty as a soldier"

"Well, not bad, but it's a pity, with the state of the Northeast Army, you don't want to make meritorious service and get promoted."

"Me, I don't want to be promoted at all right now, I just want to drive the Japanese out, but right now... hey..."

"Why are you sighing, and listening to that, why do you suddenly feel that you are glowing all over, hahaha" At this time, I can only make such jokes to comfort myself

"Hehe, I met Ling Ping in Beiping before. She scolded the government on the street, and... I think I'm too utilitarian. I don't want her to look down on me."

"Hehe, did Ling Ping change you?" Why not ask playfully

"Yes, it was Lingping who changed me, and it was she who drove me here to see the sufferings of the Chinese people at such a close distance, and to see my own incompetence and narrowness. Because of this, I am contradictory and painful, but I still like this changed, and I like Ling Ping even more than before.”

Looking at Qin Yuan, why didn't he put away his smile, and was shocked to hear this confession that could be said to be somewhat inconsistent, she didn't know that Qin Yuan liked Ling Ping so much, and she didn't know either, yes Ling Ping changed this person because of the environment change, and Qin Yuan changed because of a person, but no matter what the reason was, they all walked on the same path, resisting Japan!

The two sat facing each other, smiled faintly, did not speak again, got up again and looked at Shanhaiguan together...

Why not Weiwei and Qin Yuan's mood at this time should be almost the same. There are too many helplessness and sighs. They are all venting their hatred and showing their passion on the battlefield in their own way. In the dead of night, I don’t want to sleep, caressing the tenderness of my children, they all have their own concerns from afar, they all have helplessness and hatred for the present, they all hope to do their best to expel Japanese pirates, whether it is with a camera, Still carrying a gun.

But now, there are guns and cameras, but they can't do anything. They are all wondering why! ?Why do you aim at your own people with long guns in the encirclement and suppression again and again!Why are you so willing to let others bully you when you face your enemies!No matter how many reasons the government has, they are all excuses!

They want to stand in Rehe and Chengde now, and fight those bastards to their death!Even if it is death, at least be brave!But that was just a thought, but the fact is that they can only stand outside Shanhaiguan, looking at the vast Northeast from afar, watching those Japanese pirates cruelly trampling on that vast and rich land, what is even more sad is that no one I know whether the northeast land that should belong to the people of the country can be taken back after being plundered! ?

It was cold and windy outside the tent, snoring could be faintly heard, and lights were faintly visible in the distance. The two of them were silent, looking into the distance, thinking of the one that allowed them to find a trace of tenderness in the bloody wind. people……

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Because of the turbulent situation, my father hasn't come back for a long time. In his words, he is too busy to touch the ground.Therefore, during the Spring Festival, the home was deserted, which added a bit of desolation. My father didn’t come back, why didn’t I come back, and my sister was sick again. On New Year’s Eve, my mother hugged her sister and leaned against the bedside, taking care of her carefully. A few of us cooked noodles and ended the New Year's Eve dinner simply and sloppily.

Although there is only one bowl of noodles, I am still full of gratitude in my heart. I am grateful to many people like my father and Buwei for allowing me to eat a bowl of noodles quietly on New Year’s Eve. My father is in the government. How about a warm dinner and not doing it? ... During the Spring Festival, she was rushing to the northeast, where there was a world of ice and snow, and there were many wars. I don't know what the situation is?Can she be like me, even if she eats a bowl of noodles?

The Battle of Rehe is over, but why not there is still no letter, I don't know if she has returned to Peiping, or has she gone to other places?It has been a whole year since she left, and for a year, I basically suffered from insomnia every night, because there is a sick young sister at home, and because there is a lover who is always in danger...

My father wrote in a letter, saying that he had contacted a German hospital in Peiping, and asked us to take my sister to see a doctor in early April. Because he had a job, he had to go to Peiping first, and he would wait for us there.

When I received my father's letter, my first reaction was not to reply to my father's letter, but to write a letter to He Buwei, forgetting what He Buwei had said before.But she never replied. I was a little disappointed and a little worried. This shows that she never returned to Peiping. Where did she go?

In mid-April, Jiaqi took care of her two younger brothers at home, and I took a leave of absence from school to accompany my mother and younger sister to Peiping.

This is not the first time I took a train. I still remember the first time I took a train. It was more than a year after my grandparents passed away. My mother took me and Jiaqi to Tianjin to look for my father. Jiaqi was a little motion sick and often vomited along the way. , my mother anxiously hoped that the train would arrive at the destination as soon as possible and see my father as soon as possible, but the train at that time was not as good as today. After a whole week, the three of us, mother and daughter, arrived in Tianjin.

When the train arrived at the station, my mother was carrying a simple bag made of floral cloth on her shoulders. She was holding Jiaqi, who was still uncomfortable with one hand, and holding me with the other. My mother, who was traveling alone for the first time, was on the noisy platform. Crowded by the endless stream of people, I couldn't stand still, holding the hands of the two children tightly, waiting anxiously for my husband.

After a while, I saw my father wearing a light blue gown walking slowly against the direction of the flow of people, looking for us peacefully.When I saw my mother meeting those peaceful eyes in the crowded crowd, all the anxiety and anxiety turned into a knowing smile.Seeing my father with a gentle smile, as he got closer and closer, I even saw the shyness in my mother's eyes. This woman who is already the mother of two children, when she sees the person she loves, even if that person is familiar to her However, my husband would still be embarrassed. My father touched my head. I haven't seen him for a long time. I didn't know what to say. He just kept holding my mother's arm. He looked at Jiaqi who had a very bad complexion.

"What's wrong with Jiaqi? Are you sick?" This was the first sentence he said when he saw us

"I'm a little motion sick. I vomited all the way. I'm not feeling well." The mother looked down at Jiaqi slightly, and said in a low voice

My father took the burden from my mother, lifted the gown, squatted down, picked up Jiaqi in one hand, and led us away from the station. My mother took my hand and followed behind him. I looked up at my mother, who was looking at That back view, after a few days of traveling and traveling, caused her bun to be covered with a few strands of hair scattered in front of her eyes, but it couldn't hide the happiness in her eyes at all...

This man who was ordered by his parents to marry under the words of a matchmaker, this husband who has always taken the world as his own responsibility, who is difficult to see each other, and who is doing "big things" to benefit the country and the people all day long, can also do this in front of his wife and children. tenderness...

Later, one day, I was reading in the yard, watching and watching, I gradually lost my mind, thinking why not, but when I got out of the memory, I felt even more lost and empty, I went in to see my mother, I thought Isn't she and father the same as we are now?

"Mom, if there is an afterlife, would you still marry my dad?" I held the book behind my back, stood at the door of the room, looked at my mother who was sitting by the bed and took out the soles of her shoes and asked, she didn't seem to react, and thought about it after a long time say

"Marry" is only one word, after saying it, I continued to hold the soles of my shoes, raised my eyes and smiled at me, and stopped talking. At that moment, I saw sweetness and shyness in the eyes of my mother, who was already in her forties. ...

I believe that when she was married with her father wearing a phoenix robe and Xiapei, no one asked her about the oath used by young people nowadays, but when her daughter was puzzled, she gave it out in a sudden question. Such a simple and firm answer.

I went back to the courtyard, raised my head, looked at the big elm tree against the dazzling sunlight, and felt that I was smiling, softly, happily...

The journey is not too long, but the sound of the siren when I entered the station brought me back to my memories. Although my one-year-old sister is not in good health, she is a little mischievous. She is holding her mother's collar in her arms, her big eyes flickering Looking out of the window flickeringly, I took her, my mother picked up the luggage, the train slowed down, and slowly entered the station, people who came to meet the station stood on the small platform, I hugged my sister, sat by the window, and looked out the window , through the bursts of white steam emitted by the train, I saw a familiar tall and thin figure with short hair and tunic suit, with his back to me, following the direction of the train, walking forward, looking at the window from time to time, looking for something, I stood up and tilted my head, trying to make myself see clearly, but she turned around, it was her, why not!Why is she here?Are you here to pick someone up?I just hugged my sister like that, stood in front of the window, and watched her pass me by. I was a little anxious, but there was nothing I could do...

Finally got off the bus, the platform was crowded and noisy for a while, my father came from behind us, just like in the past, he took over the mother's burden and picked up his sister, but the difference is that he was only 29 years old at that time, and now he is only [-] years old, and now he only has a face. Vicissitudes.

I walked forward with my parents, keeping my eyes on the surroundings. That person is her, I can't be wrong, but what about her?Why can't I find it?The father also seemed to be looking around. Suddenly, he waved his hand and shouted, "Don't do it, don't do it, here"

I looked in his direction, why not, it was her, she turned around, looked at her father, and then at me who was looking at her, immediately smiled, turned sideways, against the crowd , squeezed over with some difficulty, I don't know, where did the tension come from?I was like my mother at that time, watching her approaching, I even forgot to react?I felt like my right thumb was pulling on my index finger until she came up to me and took my hand...

When my father came to Peiping, he was considered a good businessman, so he arranged for us to live in a small courtyard of the government, which is very close to his office. Why didn’t he send us here, even without lunch or even with me? Say a word and leave.

I was a little disappointed. Thinking about it, she might have something important to do and it was hard to keep her. I could only watch her walk out of the courtyard without looking back.

In the evening, why didn't you come again, and...I didn't know where to find a bicycle, said to take me to a good place, said hello to my mother, I got on the bicycle, a little nervous, I have never sat before The bicycle, just sitting on it, the car was a little wobbly, I was anxious and frightened for a while, I wrapped my arms around her waist, she turned around and smiled

"I did it on purpose just now, it seems...it's convenient" I said a little jokingly, I didn't reply, I just lowered my head, smiled with my mouth pursed, and supported her waist.

The car passed through several streets unhappily, why didn't you look back at me from time to time, until I looked up and looked at her, she turned her head with a smile, holding the handlebar with one hand, and the hand I put on her waist with the other .

Everything here makes me feel strange and novel, but I don't care about looking at the street view, I just want to enjoy every minute and every second I can be with her.

Later, the white-haired me, wearing thick presbyopic glasses, sat in front of the black and white TV, and saw that in the movie "Sweet Honey", when Li Qiao was behind the bicycle, humming sweet honey, I still seemed like Reappeared yesterday, but at that time there was no Teresa Teng, no sweet song, only shy me, why not do it, but what remains the same... the sweetness in my heart...

We came to a small alley in Dongyuan. She held the brake, put one foot on the ground, tilted the handlebar, and lowered the car so that I could stand on the ground as soon as I got off the car. The cart pushed against the wall, and when she wasn't paying attention, she was arranging her hair and some wrinkled cheongsam, but when I looked up, she was standing by the wall looking at me with her lips curled up, was she laughing at me?I was a little embarrassed and a little embarrassed.

"Hehe, little idiot, my Jiayu is the most beautiful no matter what." She came over and hugged me, whispering in my ear, this is the first time I heard her "love words" with my own ears, I Shy and at a loss, I could only lower my head, and I smelled the faint scent of cotton oil soap on her body again, which made me feel at ease, no longer shy, raised my arms and hugged her back, I haven't seen her for a year I don't want to stand in front of her ugly, I just don't want to, but who knows, let her find out

A long and narrow corridor with a wooden staircase in the middle. The corridor was silent and dark. She walked in front of me. When she reached the last step, she suddenly stopped, made a jumping posture, and jumped up. I looked at her childishly from behind. With a helpless smile, she stood on a high place, stretched out her hand, and led me into a room on the second floor.

The room is a bit messy, there are a lot of manuscripts, there is a bookcase near the window, two desks are pushed together, and a desk lamp is placed in the middle, I look in the corner, and on a chair, there are two stacked books. The quilt together, is this how she usually lives?

"No, you live here at night?"

"Yes"

"...um... how do you live?" I looked around the room, where could I get out of bed?

"On the table, after clearing all these things, it is quite spacious to sleep"

She stood in front of the window, said lightly, still smiling slightly, her outline was clearly marked by the afterglow, from a distance, that black hair seemed to be dyed golden, I stared at her blankly, and then looked in front of me , suddenly felt sad and unbearable, hurried to her side and hugged her tightly.

"Hehe, it's okay, I'm fine." She seemed to know it a long time ago, circling around me, comforting me softly, always like this, always like this!Always I don't say anything, and she understands...

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"No, what is this place for?" I raised my head and brushed the broken hair on her forehead

"Hmm... this one, it's usually used for publishing articles and so on, and there's a small room in the middle, which is used to develop photos. Soon, this place will become a small newspaper office"

"Huh? Really?!" I was a little surprised

"Oh, of course it's true."

"Are you usually here by yourself?"

"No, there is one more, and you will see it then"

"Huh?! Who?"

"Hehe, I won't tell you," she said, holding my hand that was resting on her bangs, and hugged me tightly, making us stick closer

"You're still playing tricks, huh?"

"Hehe...Jiayu..." She called my name softly, softly and long, we touched our foreheads, feeling each other's breath, I felt that her breathing was a little disordered, I understand...but...I was a little Embarrassed, suddenly, she picked me up and put me on the desk, I was startled

"No, you..." I grabbed her arm, not daring to raise my head, I just felt like my face was on fire. For a moment, I felt her breath, her lips, wandering around my neck, behind my ear, I I didn't want to reject her at first, I was just a little shy. At this moment, let go of the burden in my heart, I lifted her face and began to respond to her. Although we haven't seen each other often in the past few years, but...we are very close, she is familiar with me everything, me too...

She unbuttoned the hem of my cheongsam, put her lips in her mouth, and murmured my name intermittently. I heard her say vaguely, she misses me, I am moved, but I am not a person who is good at words , I can only give her everything unreservedly, and let her know that my thoughts and love are not shallower than hers...

She knows that I like to touch her back, so she took off her shirt and put it on me, bumping into my body again and again, with her countless loving kisses and her heavy breathing, I was afraid I was freezing her, and I wanted her to put on her clothes, but her impact was so intense and fast that I didn't even have time to breathe, and I couldn't speak at all, so I could only hug her weakly and let her ask for it, of course... ...I also... like such a domineering her!

After some joy.She lay on top of me, panting a bit

"Jiayu..."

"Well, it's cold, you put on your coat first, okay?" After a short rest, I was finally able to speak, and I stroked her slightly chilly back, because I was really afraid that she would catch a cold

"No, don't you like it?" Why didn't you suddenly sound like a child about to play tricks, with a hoarse and playful voice?

"...I, I..." Of course I like it, but now...how should I answer?

"Hahahahaha, little fool" Seeing me frowning and thinking seriously, why can't I not help laughing out loud, I came back to my senses and saw her cheeks covered with thin sweat and the broken hair sticking to her forehead , with a pair of eyes that are still bright in the dark, I can't stop the ripples in my heart. I caressed her shoulders and brought her to me, but she just kissed my forehead and left

"Jiayu, it's getting dark, I'll take you back, huh?" Scrape my nose, hug me, let me sit on the table, arrange my cheongsam, I blushed, turned my head, saw The table is full of books, photos, paper manuscripts, and the desk lamp. I unconsciously remembered that just now, we were still intimate here, and I felt even more ashamed. I hurriedly closed my eyes. After a while, I felt why not A kiss from her fell on my cheek before I dared to open my eyes. She was putting on her clothes. After thinking about it, I walked up to her, regardless of her surprised eyes, and buttoned her shirt, put on her coat, and tidied everything up. , I quickly turned around and walked out without looking up or looking at her.

Sitting on that bicycle again, the car started very smoothly, I wanted to hug her like in the afternoon, but... now... There is no reason, I struggled for a while, I chose one, which I thought was a compromise, I grabbed the back seat, and then leaned my head lightly on her back, smelling the scent of cotton oil soap on it, and smiled contentedly, she didn't look back, but I know, she is very happy, I like this Happy, I brought her!

When it was just dark, we went back to the other courtyard, and just after dinner was served, my mother saw that it was the two of us, and asked us to wash our hands and eat. There was a small pool in the yard, and we just washed it there. mumbling, don't know what to say

"No, what did you say?"

"Huh?... really want to know?" Her expression suddenly became serious, which made me nervous too.

"Yes, what's wrong?"

"Well...Okay, then I'll tell you, I said..." She bent down and whispered in my ear, I looked at her in embarrassment, and stood there for a long time, not knowing how to react, Seeing that she still had a "serious" face, I knew she still wanted to tease me. In the end, I could only smile helplessly and squeeze her hand.

Sure enough, why didn't you just start to gobble it up as soon as you sat down? This kind of eating is really rare. Could it be that I am really like what she said? ...

"I said, you are too tired. In fact, my strength has long been exhausted, and I have long been hungry and starved to death."

After dinner, we sat in the living room with our parents and chatted. Why didn't we hug our sister and make her giggle, but my mother looked a little sad. I knew that she was worried, worried about her sister's condition, and hadn't seen the doctor yet. are unknown

"No, what are you busy with these days?" Her father asked her

"I went to Rehe. After the battle there, I came back and saw Qin Yuan."

"Well, how about Qin Yuan?"

"He... is okay, just a little depressed and helpless"

"Hey..." Father sighed and didn't say anything more. He didn't want to discuss politics too much with us children. He was in it, so he naturally knew the cruelty and inaction of the government, but he Most of his students later joined the army and politics, except for me. My father said that among all his students, I was the one he liked the most, because I inherited his mantle and became a teacher.

"No, it's late, don't go back, just stay," the mother said

"Well, I told Buwei, and she agreed." I was afraid that Why Buwei would refuse, so I answered before her, ignoring why He Buwei was surprised. I hurriedly got up and went to the kitchen. I was afraid that my family would see me blushing look like

This small courtyard is more spacious than my house. The big house has a living room and a bedroom. On the east side, there is a wing room. He Buwei and I live in the wing room. I use the bed. When I am in a strange environment, I may not be able to sleep. Why don't you just wash up? Why, leaning on the bed, reading today's newspaper, I nestled in the quilt, looked up at her, maybe noticed my gaze, and didn't look at me, folded the newspaper, and lay opposite me

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