Nashan Nahe

, she said, nothing else matters!

I was so happy that I turned around and looked at Mu Ying. She was wearing an old gray cotton gown with a straight back and short hair. When she walked, she swayed from time to time. The magnificent building, I walked past the big locust trees, I kept looking at her until she entered the building and couldn’t see her anymore, I trotted all the way to why not, and told her, I am very happy!She rubbed my hands, warmed me, and asked me why, I said it was because of the friend who was at the school gate just now, she said she saw it, but she still didn't quite understand, what did a friend do?make me so happy?I didn't tell her because... I'm ashamed to say it!

Since that day, no one has ever given me such a sincere and meaningful blessing, and no one has ever blessed my love, the love between me and Why Buwei, and after this day, I have lost my love forever. The fate of this friend meeting again...

This year's New Year, except that the concession area is still brightly lit, and the streets are not very lively. Everyone still has lingering fears about the gunshots that night, but at home, it is very lively. On New Year's Eve, a large table of New Year's Eve dinner , all of which were made by Why Why, and a lot of specialties that my father brought back from Nanjing. The two younger brothers fought back and forth with a lantern. "Stop, fight", I made two dishes of boiled chicken today, because there are a lot of people in the family, and they all love this dish. She was afraid that I would not be able to eat it like last time. My father looked at her and praised her, saying She has really grown up and is sensible, and her mother also praised her from time to time.

Yes, the mother is pregnant, and it is very inconvenient to move around. After all, Jiaqi doesn’t look like Why Not, she still doesn’t understand many things, and her father is often not at home, so in the past few months, it’s really thanks to Why Not, I looked at her gratefully, she smiled at me, and shook my hand under the table.

After the meal, my father was drinking tea, and He Buwei and I washed the dishes and went out to the main room. Jiaqi and the two children were arguing in the room, and my mother had just eaten, so I had to walk back and forth.

"No, I heard from your mother that you have been doing photography for the past few years? Field photography?" Her father asked her

"right"

"Hmm... Which newspaper are you at?"

"I didn't work for a newspaper. I'm more free. Wherever there is news, I can shoot it. Wherever I dare to publish it, I give it to me."

"Right now, the situation in various parts of the country and the party is very delicate. You'd better be careful when posting photos, and...the battlefield is very dangerous, can you do it?" Father put down the teacup and looked seriously at why not

"I, I can, I will do my best to protect myself"

"Well... then, what are your plans for the future? You are already 23 years old." Father... what does this mean?That is to say, why not because the age is up, it should be safe and secure to marry someone?Instead, run around in various battlefields?If it's the latter, I agree, if it's the former... I don't know why she will answer

"In Japan, before I completely leave China, I don't have any plans. I will always do field photography." He Buwei replied softly, and his father nodded, picked up the teacup again, and did not speak again!For her answer, I feel... a little unexpected, but it is also reasonable.

Back in the room, I looked at her and suddenly remembered something

"No, what are you talking about as a New Year's gift for the whole family?... Is it the New Year's Eve dinner?"

"Yes, are you satisfied?"

"...I, I am very satisfied, the whole family is very satisfied" It turned out to be the New Year's Eve dinner, this, I had thought of it a long time ago

"Hahahahahahahaha, no, but...it's a bit late today, let's go tomorrow." I may be a little disappointed, but she had a feeling of a successful prank, and laughed a few times

"What are you doing? Are you teasing me?" There is a little anger in these words, but now, I won't blush anymore, maybe the two are getting more and more familiar, and I am no longer as shy as before

"No, no, why would I tease you? Jiayu... just finished washing, and it's New Year's Eve today, let's go to bed early?"

"Hmm" At that time, there were no entertainment facilities, and generally speaking, people went to bed early

But who knows, when I lay down, she would cover me, rubbing the tip of her nose against my forehead, I touched her short hair that was trimmed just a few years ago, stroked her face, outlined her facial features, outline , the corners of her eyes and brows, she didn't speak, just like that, watching me laugh all the time, a few white teeth, seen clearly in the dark, seeing her so obedient and dumb, I couldn't help laughing Open, hold her shoulders, and bring her to me, you may be surprised by my rare initiative, why not be stunned for a moment, and then, entangled with me obsessively...

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☆、Chapter [-]

The faint smell of gunpowder wafting from the other side of the Shanhaiguan made everyone feel insecure in Peking, and the Spring Festival was also deserted, but Lingping was no different from usual, she still stayed in the house, read books, and chatted with a few classmates who had nowhere to go. Chatting, but... This year, it is also a little different, because Ling Ping received a letter from He Buwei. This is the first time she has received a letter from He Buwei. It is her New Year's gift. I couldn't put it down and read it countless times. Why didn't you say that I don't know when I will return to Peiping, and I may stay in Tianjin for the time being. If there is a war, I may go directly to the battlefield. This answer? .........It means that there is no answer, but these few short sentences are enough to satisfy Ling Ping, and she is waiting here!Anyway, why not do it, sooner or later you will go back to Peiping, and what are you waiting for?Is that the person?Even if she came back, so what?Ling Ping never thought about these things, and she didn't think about what to do, she just wanted to be by He Buwei's side all the time, not too far away, and seeing him from time to time, that's enough!

I can't say that she is ignorant or naive, but I can only say that this carefree girl has a rare tenderness and simplicity in her heart. At that time, she was like a crazy girl all day long, laughing and joking, but she didn't even talk to her classmates in the same dormitory. I don't even have the courage to say a word. If she hadn't become friends with Han Jiayu later, she might never have been able to get close to why not. When she really got close to that person, she realized that she liked her more than she imagined. Why not that person who is usually indifferent and always somewhat melancholy , she can also laugh, although... most of the time, she only smiles at Han Jiayu, but Ling Ping can see her smile at such a close distance, she is content in her heart, she is not stupid, she can feel it, why not do it as if... ...I like Han Jiayu very much, but she is not sure, because she is not sure, so she doesn't care, she doesn't care who she likes or doesn't like, she just knows, why not, don't hate herself!This is enough!

Since the conversation with Ling Ping on the streets of Beiping that day, Qin Yuan has completely changed his view of Ling Ping. It seems that she doesn't care about many things. He found out that Qin Yuan wanted to change himself. He didn't want to become a useless hypocrite in Ling Ping's heart who only wanted to gain fame. He wanted Ling Ping's approval. , thinking of going to the battlefield, even if she died, at least in Ling Ping's heart...it's amazing...

People really change, even the person you used to be familiar with is changed by time, the environment, or someone...

Two months before the Spring Festival, after the Jinzhou Incident, Qin Yuan came to the Northeast. At that time, he thought that at least he could fight the Japanese and kill the enemy here. Ling Ping was right. Since she has chosen to be a soldier, she should be willing to serve the country and the people. Contribute yourself, in the Northeast Army, Qin Yuan is still the company commander. At the end of the year, the Japanese army began to attack Jinzhou. Song, Zi, Wen, Chiang, Jie, and Shi called Zhang Xueliang several times, hoping that he could overcome all difficulties and consolidate the territory. Qin Yuan Yuan is like a group of soldiers, waiting for the battle, fighting hard, hoping to use this to counterattack and retake the Northeast, a shameful country, but in the end, he watched the Japanese army win without a fight, occupy Jinzhou, and completely control the three northeastern provinces. Build false, full.

Qin Yuan was depressed. At this time, he still firmly believed what Ling Ping said, that soldiers should charge forward and kill the enemy with blood, and they should not care about the consequences. But he remembered, that day on the street, he said to Ling Ping If so, they are just an inconspicuous little person!Full of enthusiasm, so what?Yes, he is just a small person. Not only fate and world affairs can coerce them, but there are many people who can control himself at any time. For example, now, as long as his superiors say a word, he can only follow the big troops and lead his squad Brother, I left Jinzhou without firing a single shot. The unspeakable bitterness and helplessness, and unwillingness, the conflicts and depression in my heart can't go away for a long time...

When retreating, some brothers who didn't know where to go asked him, "Are we leaving now? When will we come back? When will we counterattack?"

return? ... may never have another chance!Looking back at Shanhaiguan Pass from a distance, this pass of the Ming Great Wall, which once made countless heroes and heroes, is now completely filled with... shame!

At the other end, there is a young "country" that has just been established, called Manchuria. Since then, this puppet regime has trampled and plundered the Northeast for 14 years!

For the whole night, why not stop for a moment, the gentle and forceful extravagant demands made Han Jiayu exhausted, but she was so intoxicated that she couldn't extricate herself, she slept until dawn, and then reluctantly got up in the midst of Han's mother's calls several times, tidied herself up, After washing up, seeing the whole family, why are they all in the yard?Have you changed your clothes?Or are they brocade padded gowns that you are reluctant to wear?

"What's the matter? Today, are you going to someone's house to pay New Year's greetings?" Even if you want to pay New Year's greetings, you won't go with the whole family. Why are they dressed like this?Han Jiayu was a little puzzled

"No, you packed everything?" Why didn't you ask

"Well, you are..." Only then did I notice that why didn't you hold the camera and look at yourself

"Hehe, isn't it a New Year's gift? Let's take a family portrait together, come here quickly, I've been waiting for you for a long time." Why not

"That's right, Jiayu, even on holiday, you can't sleep like this, your mother has called you several times." Father Han blamed

"Uh...I..." The others didn't know, but Han Jiayu and Why Buwei knew the reason. At this moment, Han Jiayu's face was red and hot like charcoal fire.

"Hehe, I asked her to chat with me last night. The chat was so happy that I forgot the time. Come to Jiayu and stand up. Let's take pictures quickly. It's so cold in the yard, don't let everyone wait for you."

"Huh?!...Oh" regained consciousness, and quickly stood over

The parents sat in the front row, and the children stood behind them. Why didn't you set up the camera and hurriedly stood beside Han Jiayu? Everyone else was wearing new clothes. Knowing that there is no time to change it, why not because there is no time to change it, just like this, a family of seven, including the one in Mother Han's stomach, counts as a family of eight, and left a black and white group photo in front of the main room of the small courtyard

"No, what are you doing?" After taking a photo, Han Jiayu entered the room and saw Why Buwei was packing up

"I have to go later"

"Go? Where are you going?" Han Jiayu was a little nervous when she heard this, but she still asked calmly

"Going to Shanghai, the day before yesterday, Japan, the army landed in Zhabei, I have to go there"

"... When will you come back?" After hesitating for a while, she asked in a very low voice, with no confidence. Han Jiayu knew that the Japanese army would start attacking Shanghai at the end of January. In fact, because of her character of not doing anything, maybe she should have gone there at that time. , but she didn’t, and she didn’t even mention it, because the New Year will be in a few days, and she definitely wants to spend New Year’s Eve with her before leaving. Carrying a gun, when will you come back?Maybe soon, maybe a long time, maybe never come back!

"Don't worry, it's okay" is just a simple and pale comfort, because why don't you know what you can say

"Don't do it..." He took the initiative to hug why not do it, Han Jiayu was crying, crying silently, she wanted to deceive herself, thinking that she didn't cry, that she understood the righteousness, could understand why not do it, and let her go with peace of mind , but the love is so deep, so reluctant to give up, who has been deceived?

"Stop crying, I'll come back when I have time, okay?" Why not comfort her softly for kissing her cheek, Han Jiayu didn't speak, just nodded vigorously

Although Father Han admired why not do it, he was worried after all. He told her carefully, and gave her some silver dollars as a bargain. Accepted, Mother Han doesn't want this child to go far away again, and is alone, and going to Shanghai where the fierce battle is in full swing, what can be done, it's like when her husband left home again and again, knowing that he did the right thing, But still couldn't help feeling sad, and didn't want to say any more, looked at why not, and went into the back room by himself.Father Han wanted to find a car to take her off, but she refused, talked to Father Han, went out of the house, and looked at the small room again, knowing that the man must be uncomfortable, so he didn't go in again, carrying a small Backpack, walked past the big elm tree, walked out of Han's house, and walked out of the small courtyard.

"Jia Yu"

"Um"

"No reason has already left," Father Han said at the door

"Um"

I also knew that Han Jiayu must be crying, otherwise he wouldn't have answered like this, and couldn't bear to make her sad anymore, so he sighed and went back to the big house.

Father Han was right, Han Jiayu was crying, but... she was crying in her heart, why not her tears dried up after walking out of this room, she sat on the bed in a daze, looked at the pile of books in front of her, and Facing the window, she didn't want to see that person walking in front of her, and she didn't want to see that person leave. When she heard the door was closed, she calmed down. She really didn't feel sad when she knew that the person had left. Only praying, she prayed that the person would be safe and sound, she prayed that everything would end as soon as possible, she prayed that they could meet again as soon as possible.

But even so, even with this mental preparation, even if I persuaded myself countless times in my heart, after all, what I have to face is still coming, why not why Jiaqi wanted to come to sleep with her a few days after she left, but she refused , there is a taste of why not, she doesn't want anyone to sleep here anymore, she will toss and turn in the middle of the night, when she is unprepared, she will be flooded with tears, and she is even more angry that she is worthless, especially, every time she sees in the newspaper, Blurred, tragic and shocking photos, thinking that the person might be running in the hail of bullets at this time, while she was hiding in a warm and comfortable home, she even felt that this little girl's affair with her children would be "blasphemy" to the point of "desecration" His lofty ideals and stalwart sentiments.Only when she thinks this way, can she persuade herself to stop crying, and wholeheartedly support and wait for that lover who doesn't know where she is and when will she meet again!

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☆、Chapter Twenty

On the way to Shanghai, why not picture Han Jiayu again and again in my heart, wondering what will happen to her now?Still crying?Still sad?Still mad at yourself?Thinking about it, she shook her head and smiled, how could it be?Jiayu is different from ordinary girls, she will be reluctant to part with herself, but she will never blame herself. Her Jiayu will always be the gentle, pleasant, educated and reasonable Jiayu in her heart.When she can distract herself and miss that person, why not hide it or suppress it, no matter whether the miss is happy or sad, as long as it is Han Jiayu, she is willing, because there is really not much time for thinking about it !Take a look at the camera in your hand, there are still family portraits that have not been developed in time...

When I first arrived in Shanghai, almost the whole city was filled with the smell of gunpowder, fear, uneasiness, and bloodshed. I didn’t care too much about it. Why didn’t I find a newspaper and inquired about the situation first. The garrison and the friendly army started to attack the [-]th Route Army from Zhabei with armored vehicles. , and dispatched aircraft and warships to bomb Wusong Fort.

Understand the general situation, leave the newspaper office, why not even drool to drink, go to the front line, near Qingyun Road, the defenders and the Japanese army are fighting in the street, the exchange of fire is fierce, why not get as close as possible, but the alley is very narrow... There is no place to hide. If you get too close, I am afraid that it will be very dangerous, so I can only hide at a certain distance and try to shoot as much as possible. Until the afternoon, the Japanese army occupied the main position and attacked the Chinese fortifications from a height. Why not take care of it. The officers and soldiers around drove them away, protecting their heads, hiding behind the fortifications, poking their heads out from time to time, and carefully raising the camera. Amidst loud noises, smoke and sand flew around, and from time to time, a certain object falling not far away could still be seen. Personal body parts, I don't know which side this unrecognizable mutilated corpse belongs to? !

I don't know if I was frightened or numb?Why don't you squint your eyes to see those broken bodies, with a blank face, and continue to look for opportunities to shoot. This army is so brave that it is beyond her imagination. Compared with Ma Zhanshan's army, which she admires most, it is even worse. The army's equipment is backward, but the army is cohesive, and all the generals of the army regard death as home. When they run out of grenades and bullets, they rush forward to fight hand-to-hand, fight bayonets, and resist the opponent's steel armored vehicles with flesh and blood.

Why not be completely stunned by the scene in front of him, why not be in the battlefield at this time, also facing life and death at any time, feel ashamed! ?Because of herself, she never killed a Japanese soldier, but she was wrong. In fact, the photos she recorded during her life and death were sometimes even better than thousands of troops!In the middle of the night, the battle was still fierce. Many streets in the urban area were covered with flames, and the defenders were still struggling to resist. Several death squads rushed out and never came back. Only the sound of explosions in the distance could be heard, maybe... there were screams, right?Or maybe, these young warriors didn't have time to make their last cry in this world before they died! ?

The brigade commander of the [-]th brigade really can't stand it, because night is more dangerous than daytime. How can reporters dare to come at this time?I don't know where such a person who is not afraid of death suddenly appeared!Directly order people to "carry" those who don't want to leave. They have been "driven" out of the line of fire. If they go back, they will only add to the chaos. Before dawn, they quickly find the newspaper and post all the photos of the front line out.

A few days later, the workers went on strike and formed the Volunteer Army. Many young students from Fudan University also joined the Volunteer Army. Later, most of these students died on the front line. Clothes, donated to frontline soldiers.There are many, many more, all of which are inseparably related to why Buwei disregarded the difficulties, was always in danger to shoot, and spread the live battlefield to the streets and alleys in the first time.

And why not at this time, still holding the camera, bending over, holding his head from time to time, with a disheveled face, shuttling through the deafening explosions, passing corpses whose faces cannot be seen...

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Just after the third day of the Lunar New Year, my father returned to Nanjing in a hurry. The war in Shanghai was tense and the capital had to be moved. To be able to come back to reunite with the family at this time for the New Year is already a gift for our family. Why not leave? More than half a month later, the school started, and my life went back to the past, attending classes, reading books, writing articles, and...reading newspapers, why not miss it!

However, it has been many days since the class started this time, but I have never seen Mu Ying. I went to her class once to see her, but I didn’t see her. This afternoon, everyone in her dormitory seems to be there. I think After thinking about it, I'm still going to ask

"Hello" Standing at the door of Mu Ying's dormitory, I asked a girl who didn't seem to be so hostile to me (because my father works in the Guo Ming Party government, so I am very careful when dealing with people)

"Oh, you're here to find Mu Ying, right?"

"Well, ask her..."

"She's missing." Before I could finish my sentence, I was so startled by the girl's words that I couldn't speak. Missing?How could it be missing?

"Excuse me, may I ask... what do you mean by...?"

"What do you mean, I just disappeared. Anyway, I went out to do something that day, and then I never came back. Until now, the school seems to have looked for it, but I didn't find it later, right?" She said, and asked another girl

"Well, it seems that I didn't find it," another girl replied

"...Oh, thank you" I was stunned for a while before leaving the dormitory

Missing?Missing?How could it be missing?Mu Ying is a smart and thoughtful person. Will she disappear inexplicably?I thought about it for a long time, but I couldn't figure it out, and I didn't want to believe that she would disappear. I thought... there might be some reason for her to leave suddenly, and it's hard to tell me, or... just... I don't want to go As a result of thinking, what happened to the Japanese? !

For many days in a row, I was still out of my mind. Mu Ying was the only true friend I made in college. Her sudden disappearance, in a sense, was no less shocking to me when Why Buwei left.I remembered that he was a member of my father's organization, maybe I should ask my father? !Maybe he knew where Mu Ying was, and even if he didn't know, he might have a way to find Mu Ying.But... I still can't, Mu Ying joined the anti-Japanese organization, she revealed it to me unintentionally (maybe it was intentional, maybe, she hoped that I could trust her as a friend), if I asked my father, it might not work out, It will implicate Mu Ying... I can't think of a way, and I can't find Mu Ying, why not leave me again, the depression in my heart can't be resolved, I feel like I have been abandoned by everyone, I am a little anxious, Scared and don't know what to do!

"Sister, eldest sister has been away for so long, why do you still look like a soulless all day long?" Jiaqi was a little annoyed seeing me like this

"Huh?!...No" I was in a daze, unable to react

"Hey, what I told you before was all in vain? The eldest sister is back, so let's keep her." Seeing that I was absent-minded, Jiaqi took the dishes in my hand and started to choose by herself

"Stay?... How can I stay? I can't help myself." I heard that I couldn't do what I wanted, and I had a slightly sad tone

"You... you, look at yourself, you are almost becoming Lin Daiyu now"

"...Hehe, forget it, come, give it to me" I don't want to continue this topic, I wash the vegetables by myself

Keep?I wanted to stay, why not, but Japan, my gunfire forced her to leave me, I know she can't help herself, how can I keep her?Not only can't I stay, I can't even complain about her, I also want to keep my friend, but Mu Ying "disappeared" without saying hello, I don't even have a chance to keep her, stay?This word is easy to say, but how can you and I let it go?

The next day, I cleaned up the house, inside and out, and when I was about to go to school, some uninvited guests came. I don't know what happened, but I thought of my father always telling me, don't panic when things happen, hold your breath, and take a look. Besides the situation, I had no choice but to calm myself down and see why these people came.

"You are Han Jiayu, right?"

"I am, may I ask you?"

"We are your father's colleagues, come to your mother"

"My mother, she..."

"Jiayu, who is it?"

Seeing my mother coming out, those people passed me and went directly into the yard. My mother was pregnant, so they were polite when they spoke. Immediately, they entered the main room with their mother, and Jiaqi followed. I was thinking, it was my father’s. Colleague, then, there should be nothing wrong, I was hesitating whether to go to school first, when I heard a person yelling at me

"Han Jiayu, you can't go to school today" No?Why?Why not today?No reply, I also entered the main room

"Your father is unwell, let me pick you up." One of the men in suits and shoes said to me

"I'm not feeling well? What's wrong? What's wrong?"

"It's not a big problem. It's just appendicitis. He's bedridden now. He has arranged everything over there. He wanted to pick you up after a while, but he's sick and can't come. Besides, there's no one to take care of him, so he called us. Pick up your mothers over here." I always feel that something is wrong. My father has only been gone for a month. He has a light diet and is in good health. Appendicitis?i don't believe it

"Is he sick? Appendicitis, is it serious?" When the mother heard that her father was sick, she was a little anxious

"Sister-in-law, I'm really fine. If you want to take care of Minister Han, it will definitely take a few days to recover."

"I'm going to clean up, you wait a moment"

"You don't need to pack anything, there is everything over there"

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I didn't believe it until I got in the car. It was my father who was sick, but...the fact that the other party was able to come shows that they were well prepared. What's more, they are indeed from the government. Not necessarily, and the mother is still pregnant, and the two younger brothers are still young. If we want to hide, we can't hide.When I got into the car parked at the entrance of the alley, the car did not head towards Nanjing, but parked in a large courtyard that seemed to be a government agency.

At this time, everyone knew that this was just a scam, but my mother led us and walked through rows of small rooms, which seemed to be offices, and we were taken into one of them. This is a suite, it looks like a small living room on the outside, with a sofa and coffee table.Inside, there is a bedroom with two big beds. Everyone is full of doubts, but my mother has always been indifferent. She didn't ask or speak. We didn't dare to talk too much when we saw our mother like this.

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☆, 21

"What are you going to do?"

"I'm going to the bathroom"

"Yes" a girl in leggings, with a ponytail and a gun at her waist, followed closely behind me

"Please turn around" I asked politely, because I felt disrespected because of being looked at like this, but she didn't move

"Turn around please" I repeated

"...Turn around!" Seeing that she was still looking at me, I couldn't help but raise my voice a little. She looked at me deeply and turned around.

I have been here for several days, locked in the house all day long, except to go to the toilet, we have no freedom at other times. In fact, to put it bluntly, we are under house arrest. Even when we go to the toilet, people follow and stare at me. I feel humiliated , This feeling of being disrespected makes me angry and disgusted. I don't know what happened, but I faintly heard from those people's words that it has something to do with my father.

In front of those people, my mother still remained indifferent and calm, but when she was alone, she always frowned and looked sad. She was worried about what happened to her father, and whether something happened to her. In fact, we are the same, in order not to let my mother worry , try not to show it, but my heart is full of worries, I don't know what happened to my father, I don't know, what will happen to us...

In this way, in the waiting and anxiety, we were sent back home a month later. My brothers and I went back to school and continued to go to school. Jiaqi was still at home to take care of her mother. Mu Ying did not come back, so I went to her dormitory to inquire again. After several visits, there was still no news of her, and her father did not come back. If she did not see her father for a day, her mother would feel worried all day long, unable to eat and sleep all day long, and as a result, her poor health caused her to give birth prematurely. On a night full of spring, but still cold, she gave birth to my youngest sister, who is also the last child of my family.

Due to dystocia and hypoxia during childbirth, and the fetus is not yet fully developed, my youngest sister was born with some disabilities. She has a very serious cardiovascular disease. I will always remember that night, after giving birth to my sister at home, my mother was exhausted. I picked her up and saw her face turned blue, her hair was disheveled, and she couldn't help crying. I knew that she was afraid, worried, and guilty.

The fear is because the only man in the family, her man, has no news so far, and she has to take care of five children, and one is born prematurely and congenitally incomplete. She doesn't know what to do, guilt, is this traditional woman , To her husband's family, to the guilt of this little life, she thinks that she did not take good care of this child, and let her come to this world prematurely, with a disease, and suffer all kinds of torture.

Seeing their mother crying, Jiaqi and her two younger brothers couldn't help crying when they thought about the current situation at home. For a while, the small room was full of women and children crying one after another. I didn't want to persuade anyone. , I’ve been suppressed for so long, crying, it’s okay, I just sat silently by the Eight Immortals table in the outhouse, watching the kerosene lamp, the cold wind squeezed in through the crack of the door, swaying from side to side, when you feel it is about to go out , but it jumped up again, glowing and glowing, as if it had never encountered cold wind...

When the little sister was almost three months old, the father finally came back, the family had the backbone again, and the mother's spirit gradually improved. It turned out that the father was also under house arrest, and he was interrogated again and again in the past few months because...someone suspected him It was the Communist Party, and the reason for his suspicion was that his superiors secretly investigated his anti-Japanese organization in Tianjin, and found that there was a Communist Party among them!This person is none other than Mu Ying. My father told me that Mu Ying was arrested during the Spring Festival and is now being held in a concentration camp.

She is just a member of the student party, she doesn't know anything at all, why should she be arrested?Still want to detain her?I hoped that my father could save her, but my father said that he had been under house arrest for several months. Not only that, he was also demoted two grades, and now he was transferred to the Ministry of Education. A communist party!Who dares to save? !Who can help? !Such a thing happened to me, I didn't lose my head, but I was just downgraded, I should be considered lucky. At this time, how can I save a communist party?

Yes, my father was right, I was too naive, I didn't think of this, I only know that my friend is suffering, and, at any moment, will... die!I can't do anything, I naively hope that time can turn back, she didn't join any communist, party, let alone join any anti-Japanese organization, then nothing would happen, we are still friends, just like before, reading books and chatting When she is happy, she will make fun of me, making me angry and annoyed, but she can only look at her with a smile, there is nothing to do, we are walking in that spring and autumn moon yard, standing at the gate of that campus, she sincerely wishes me and Why not, bless our love...

"Dad, we, I, I mean, after a while, when your matter is forgotten by everyone, can you..."

"I'm like a person who has been labeled now. Wait for a while... hey... I'm afraid it will be ten or eight years, and no one will forget. I am suspected of being a Communist Party. You want me to save her , I want to too... but really can't"

I went back to the room in a daze, I didn't dare to think, and I didn't want to think, what happened to her now!I can only take a little bit of luck, hoping that she will meet me again one day, but no, never again, our reunion is in a dream.

Four years later, my father told me that after Mu Ying was arrested, she was transferred to Guiyue, Guangdong and other places in Ji, Zhong, Ying and Zha, Za, and Dong, and was finally shot and executed in Guangxi.

In just one sentence, she almost told her short life. I cried like never before, and my heart ached. I was so distressed, too sad, and so resentful. Such a young Mu Ying, such an excellent Mu Ying, what did she do wrong? ! ! !This is the end! ?

The father said that she knew Mu Ying's identity a long time ago, and Mu Ying confessed to him personally. She didn't care what party she was or what faction she was. She said that she only wanted to resist the Japanese. She said it out of the mouth of a frail girl, and her firm words touched her father, who also took the risk and agreed to her joining, because her father thought the same as her!

Hearing the news of her death, my father felt guilty and blamed himself. He said it was a knot in his life. He felt that he had sent this child to a dead end. Feeling guilty towards Mu Ying...

Years later, when everything happened