[Wen Ye] Hell changes

After returning to the organization, Ryunosuke Akutagawa was immediately transferred to the medical center. At the request of Osamu Dazai, he was injected with general anesthesia and is now sleeping quietly.Higuchi Ichiyo naturally didn't know, she could only guess that Akutagawa should be in the medical center now, so she rushed over in a hurry.

She didn't come to visit Akutagawa Ryunosuke, but planned to tell Akutagawa Ryunosuke a secret.She heard it all.

Before Osamu Dazai issued an order to evict her, she suddenly thought, what if Osamu Dazai asked to read the contents of the letter?Akutagawa should be obedient.Just in case, she planned to turn back.It was this decision that allowed her to hear Osamu Dazai's call in the corner.

Akutagawa has listened to Osamu Dazai's order to go out to meet with his teammates, and Osamu Dazai told that person Akutagawa's weakness on the phone, telling that person that Rashomon is currently unable to defend, so he can do whatever he wants.

"I'm the one who taught him, of course I know... how could he suddenly become enlightened in an instant, he's just a fool, he won't be able to defend himself all of a sudden... don't worry, I guarantee you won't be in danger. That's right, At that time, just say those lines to him as I arranged before, and he will definitely be angry and moved...Of course you can be a little harsher without authorization, I don't mind, I can touch Akutagawa Ryunosuke's body And face, you really made a lot of money."

After hearing these contents, Higuchi Ichiyo stopped speechless and couldn't believe it.But she forcibly suppressed the shock, not letting herself make any noise, so as not to be discovered by Osamu Dazai.After that, Osamu Dazai called Nakahara Chuya, but she couldn't hear it clearly.She pursed her lips into a flesh-pink curved line, her body trembling because of the astonishing words pouring into her ears.

She doesn't care what task Dazai intends to tackle, or what Akutagawa needs to do, but she can't believe that Dazai uses Akutagawa's appearance as a means to his end.Is Akutagawa's innocence not worth mentioning in his eyes?You can do whatever you want to Akutagawa, Osamu Dazai can say such words, how can he say it?If Akutagawa is really trampled on, he doesn't care, he thinks it's just what I want?

She couldn't think that Osamu Dazai would do this, and she was not sure what would happen to her if she said it without authorization.Then she heard that Osamu Dazai had returned with the seriously injured Akutagawa.

What about Central Plains?Why didn't you come back with both of them?

"Excuse me, is this the ward of Ryunosuke Akutagawa?"

"Who are you?"

"I'm……"

"It's Akutagawa's messenger." A familiar voice came from the ward.Higuchi Ichiyo subconsciously took two steps back, his eyes full of fear and hesitation.

"I have something to talk to this lady." Osamu Dazai smiled at the bewildered doctor.The other party didn't notice that the atmosphere was wrong, so he nodded and walked into the room, closed the door, leaving Dazai Osamu and Higuchi Ichiyo outside alone.

"Is there anything wrong with him?"

"Have."

"The letter has been sent, what else is there?" Dazai Osamu leaned against the door with his arms folded, his expression was lazy, which was in stark contrast to her nervousness, "Miss Higuchi, have you been looking for Akutagawa too many times? Isn't it planning to chase after him?"

His obvious warnings and sarcasm hurt her.She knew that her crush on Akutagawa was stupid, and she couldn't tell Akutagawa the truth, it was only possible when Osamu Dazai was away, and now she had to find a way to leave here naturally.

"I'm relieved to know that Akutagawa-senpai is fine. I'm sorry, please leave."

Osamu Dazai didn't respond, she felt that she should be able to leave without incident.

However, after she had already taken a few steps, Osamu Dazai suddenly called her name.

"Let me make sure, when I asked you to leave, you came back again, right?"

Higuchi Kazuyo's face was pale, he forced himself to straighten his back calmly, nodded after hesitating for a while, as if he was putting down a piece of solid lead slowly and with difficulty.

"Are you going to tell Akutagawa that all of this is actually my trick? To separate him from Chuya-kun?"

"I don't have that plan."

"Akutagawa was injected with general anesthesia, and he can't wake up now, so he can't hear. You can rest assured to tell me your true thoughts."

The implication is that these words will not be heard by Akutagawa, and the doctor is also a member of Osamu Dazai, so she has no choice.

"You like Akutagawa."

"I……"

"Don't rush to deny it, I must have a reason for saying this. I think I know very well what a woman in love looks like. You can't fool me, Miss Higuchi."

"That's because Akutagawa-senpai..."

"It's both beautiful and mysterious. It has a sense of distance, but it can also get close to people appropriately. It's both scary and attractive." Osamu Dazai spoke her heart out word by word, as if reciting an article, and then Under the gaze of her embarrassing eyes, he raised his chin, sneered, and walked towards her.

Every step he takes is extremely slow, but also extremely hard, with just a crisp sound of a footstep, it can make a person's life fall from beginning to end with a single blow like a domino.He can do it.He is a frightening cadre in the mafia. No matter what he deals with, whether it is small information search, big to murder and robbery, he never gives a superfluous look, and only smiles lightly. , and whispered the fact that he had completed the task.This kind of person is far more terrifying than a thug who writes his emotions on his face, because the latter only sees blood in his means, while the former kills his spirit.

In Higuchi Ichiyo's view, Akutagawa is the latter, and Dazai Osamu is the former.

Osamu Dazai would not feel compassion for her.

"Let me just say it, you and Akutagawa are impossible, miss. Now that you've heard it all, you should know why I did this."

In order to keep Akutagawa by your side forever.Higuchi knew.

"As long as I'm here, it's impossible for you. Uh, no, it seems that you can't be impossible without me. In short, it's such a fact, I hope you can accept it well, come on!" Osamu Dazai laughed heartlessly, and put his hand on her With a drop on the shoulders, it looks like a teacher is encouraging a confused and timid child.

Higuchi Ichiyo understood that Osamu Dazai was not only warning, but also threatening.She understood, understood why Osamu Dazai did this, and understood Osamu Dazai's feelings for Akutagawa.She had always naively thought it was a teacher-student relationship.

She subconsciously felt nauseated, and it was the kind of nausea that wanted to stay away from him.

"Think about it, miss, if you tell Akutagawa, what benefits will you get? Will Akutagawa be grateful to you and stay with you?"

"Won't……"

"He may think that you are here to sow discord, and then kill you in a fit of anger. It must be painful to be stabbed into a hornet's nest by Rashomon, right? You think so, don't you?"

"Yes."

"It seems like I'm vicious to make such a guess, so let's guess from another angle. If he believes you, what will he do? Break up with me, and then live alone in the port mafia? Don't forget, everything about him I'm in charge, I even bought the clothes. Without me, he wouldn't even be able to wear clothes. What, you want to see him running naked in the port mafia? The taste is very strange, miss."

"I……"

"I think you're a pretty smart guy, and I hope you understand that neither disconnecting from me, nor fighting against me will end up being happy. It's like trying to shut down a company because you hate , I don’t like it, you think it’s right to let the company go bankrupt, but have you considered the low-level citizens who depend on this company for food? Maybe this company really disgusts you, but this is also the livelihood of countless ordinary people. Because of what you think is justice, let these people all live on the streets... Do you understand me like this, Ichiyo Higuchi."

"understand……"

When answering these two words, Higuchi Ichiyo was already kneeling in front of him in an almost decadent and godless manner, whispering and answering with great difficulty, as powerless, messy and fragmented as sleep talking.

"It's impossible for you and Akutagawa."

"Please don't say any more..."

"Without me, Akutagawa will only be lonely. If you just tell him the truth, will he really be happy? He is dependent on me now, longing for me, but you want to tell him the truth and break all his hopes. Do you really think those words are what he wants to hear? Do you want him to be happy, or do you want him to suffer?"

"Please don't say any more! I know all this, I know it all, it's just..."

"What you think is justice, in the end you only get disillusionment and loneliness. If you really like Akutagawa, you should make him happy, right? Isn't it good to keep it like this? What bad results will there be?"

Her intestines and stomach were convulsing, and the esophagus and throat seemed to be flooded with sewage, which was very uncomfortable, full of vomiting and nausea.All this told her that she was extremely hurt by Osamu Dazai's words, and was intimidated by Osamu Dazai's aura to the point of excruciating pain.

She likes Akutagawa Ryunosuke, maybe because of his beautiful side face when he first appeared, or maybe because of his pleasing eye lift.How superficial and ridiculous this kind of reason was, she knew it herself, so she dared not tell anyone.She considers herself humble, and never makes excuses for this humbleness, but she still feels so sad that she wants to shed tears when Osamu Dazai viciously uncovers such a torn scar.

"In the end, in Akutagawa's mind, you can only be a credible messenger at most. He will appreciate your efficiency and sincerity. This is the best ending for you. If you don't even want this ending , don’t blame me for not reminding you.”

Just like what she thought when she saw Akutagawa for the first time, she still maintains this idea now.Some were afraid that Akutagawa Ryunosuke would raise his eyes suddenly, and some were afraid that people would see him in love like a little girl.In addition, she was actually a little afraid of Akutagawa's always cold compliments on her tasks, even disgust and criticism, not even compliments.There is also some fear that Akutagawa will always have only a superficial understanding and appreciation for her, not even appreciation, only a cheap kindness that cannot be eaten.

Although she is willing.

No need for others to ask, she will answer everything she wants.Without the coercion of Osamu Dazai, she will silently dedicate her loyalty to Akutagawa's happiness.She doesn't need Ryunosuke Akutagawa's permission to continue loving.

It's just that she couldn't stand such a hidden and humble feeling being spoken out so clearly, and being ridiculed and trampled on so coldly.It was clearly her deepest thought, but Osamu Dazai exposed it viciously as if he didn't want her to live, making it difficult for her to breathe in shame and sadness.

"Make the right choice, Higuchi Ichiyo."

Following Osamu Dazai's soft sigh, she covered her lips, her mind went blank for a moment, and a dizzying voice came from the depths of her soul, so she nearly vomited while holding onto the cold ground.That voice was full of mysterious bewitchment and tragic romance, like the voices of a pair of suicide lovers comforting each other with tears and sneers, mysterious, sad, and long.

Her brain was filled with the echo of this sound at the moment, making her dizzy and tinnitus.After a long while of dizziness, these voices gradually changed from blurred to clear, and changed into the words that Osamu Dazai said just now.Those words couldn't leave her mind.So she wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, and put away her vomiting gesture.

"I see. I'll keep it a secret, Dazai-san..."

Without the coercion of Osamu Dazai, she will silently dedicate her loyalty to Akutagawa's happiness.She doesn't need Ryunosuke Akutagawa's permission to continue loving.

--------------------

The author has something to say:

Someone has to be a sidecar.