[Wen Ye] Hell changes

The snow and rain that belonged to this season suddenly poured down in a bleak and fine manner.The wind and rain cut off the wrinkled and fluttering white clouds in the sky just now, and sang tenderly that the flowers and flowers faded in the world under the clouds, and then infiltrated into the rotten mud on the ground in the lingering fragrance and soft dust under the flowers , after melting, it comes again in this season of prosperity and decline.

Higuchi Ichiyo stood at the door and waited for Akutagawa Ryunosuke. The latter did not come out by himself this time, and softly called, "Come in."

She opened the door.

I saw Akutagawa Ryunosuke sitting in front of the window, quietly watching the snow and rain outside the window.

After these few days, Ichiyo Higuchi discovered that he is a relatively introverted person, and it is also true in the rumors. It is said that the black-eyed Ryunosuke is not good at speech, and he always looks like he rejects people thousands of miles away. If this is the case, he should know I like to watch the rain, snow, flowers and moon silently by myself.

"Are you also here to deliver the letter today?" Akutagawa Ryunosuke turned to look at her.

She nodded, and accidentally met his eyes.

When Ryunosuke Akutagawa looked back and raised his eyes, he met the warm light from the glass lamp window in the room, and there were a few sparkles in his eyes that changed in depth according to the angle of the light.But his demeanor doesn't match this kind of warm-toned picture, his eyes are so affectionate and sad, looking into his eyes, Higuchi Kazuyo feels that he is in a large and empty black room, with glass and human beings The steps are so light and harsh, the world is empty, and I am the nothingness that makes up the world.

So she felt sad and empty along with him inexplicably.

"Aren't you happy?"

"It's none of your business."

"I am so sorry……"

"But," he suddenly turned around, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, "you have worked hard too."

Higuchi Ichiyo looked at him flattered, froze on the spot and almost forgot to breathe.

"Before, on a rainy summer day, I stood by the window and watched the rain, and met a detective. Zai Xia made an appointment with him to live to the end and achieve their respective goals. Under his encouragement, Zai Xia has recently found I have learned the correct path and ideals, and I plan to study seriously from now on..." Akutagawa Ryunosuke withdrew his smile, continued to look out the window, and muttered in an extremely low voice, rather than saying that he was talking to her, it would be better to say that he was talking to her He said to himself, "So now when I see the rain, I will think of that person. It is clearly a sad and depressing rain, but..."

Although the smile was only fleeting, Higuchi Ichiyo captured the moment exactly.Before she had time to see clearly the specific expression of the person in front of her, she was already dazed by the shock of the scene just now.

At this moment, a person she didn't want to see suddenly appeared at the door, and stopped in front of her with his hand: "Good morning, Miss Higuchi, can you come to my family today?"

Both Ryunosuke Akutagawa and Ichiyo Higuchi were shocked, they didn't expect Osamu Dazai to appear suddenly.Perhaps it was because Higuchi didn't close the door, so he stood here without making a sound.

"Mr. Dazai."

"It's so sad, your expression is only surprised and suspicious. Isn't it natural for me to come to you?"

It's natural for a teacher to find a student, but haven't you and I quarreled before?Akutagawa Ryunosuke swallowed this question into his stomach, not daring to disobey or refute, just kept his head down and remained silent.He thought Dazai Osamu would never have anything to do with him again, but the other party was standing at the door of his room, smiling happily, as if all the conflicts before were illusions, and everything was still as harmonious and gentle as when they first met.

"Put the letter down and you can go." Dazai Osamu gave Higuchi Ichiyo an order to evict the guest, and the latter had to obey.Obviously Akutagawa Ryunosuke is not satisfied with this decision, and having Higuchi here can indeed relieve some of his embarrassment, but neither he nor Higuchi can say no to Osamu Dazai.

"Aren't you happy?" Osamu Dazai asked the same question as Ichiyo Higuchi just now.

Akutagawa didn't speak.

"What's wrong? Don't tell me you want to tell me 'it's none of your business'."

"You heard it all."

"is it not OK?"

"Can……"

"Isn't that right? Make such an expression, as if I owe you something."

Osamu Dazai walked towards him, pinched his face with his hand, pressed his index finger and thumb firmly on his chin line, moved his face left and right several times like playing a puppet, and made a look: "You There are no officials."

Akutagawa pursed his lips in embarrassment and remained silent.

"I heard that you want to quit the port mafia and become a people's officer?"

Akutagawa looked further away.

"Do you think you are suitable for that kind of work?"

"My qualifications and ability are really not enough..."

"It seems that it is not to the point of being overwhelmed."

"But I will work hard for this goal."

"Do you have to leave me?" Osamu Dazai finally couldn't help asking, "Am I not good enough for you? I took your life back and paid for your food, clothing, housing and transportation, so you plan to take it I tossed aside to become an official? Is this how you repay me?"

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was stunned.Yes, he still owes Dazai a lot. If he doesn't repay these debts, how can he pursue new goals with peace of mind?After hesitating for a while, he had no choice but to give up talking about this topic, so as not to irritate Osamu Dazai again.He had to apologize against his will: "I won't mention these words again, I'm sorry."

Osamu Dazai was expressionless and silent at first, and then he laughed exaggeratedly in satisfaction.His annoyance could be clearly seen from the expression before, Akutagawa Ryunosuke almost thought that he was going to raise his hand to hit himself, just like in the previous training, but he played cards unreasonably, instead of punching, he gave a smile.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke really didn't understand what Osamu Dazai wanted to do, and he didn't know whether he was angry or very happy now, whether he was satisfied with his answer.

"I just said, I'm still a child, how can I do without someone to guide me?" Osamu Dazai stopped laughing enough, and there were even drops of water dripping from the corners of his eyes, "Don't mention those things again in the future." Remember to think of me more."

"Yeah." Akutagawa always felt that there was something weird about why Dazai Osamu was suddenly full of good words, was he setting up some kind of trap?

"Here again, this expression of doubting me. It hurts my heart." When he was still in doubt, Osamu Dazai quietly put his hand on his shoulder, "You hurt my heart. Really. "

"But……"

"But what?"

"It's nothing."

But, you hate me more than anyone else in the world. Since you hate me so much, how can you feel sad because of me?Isn't this self-contradictory?Akutagawa Ryunosuke hesitated for a while, and chose to swallow the words without saying anything.He felt that the degree of intimacy between himself and Osamu Dazai was too low, and it was not suitable for him to speak such words.

I want to determine my status, and feel that I have status, but I am blocked by such a rigid relationship, so in the end all that is left is dull silence.The silence was occasionally broken by the sound of raindrops climbing down the window wall. It fell quickly and forcefully on the glass wall, and then fell vertically to the ground with its tail as the center of gravity, as if it was drowning without salvation.At this moment, he didn't know what was about to happen.

Afterwards, Ryunosuke Akutagawa picked up Osamu Dazai's shift halfway through.It was originally the task of Osamu Dazai, but for some unknown reason, it had to be pushed to Ryunosuke Akutagawa.Akutagawa's resources were few and far between. Although he was puzzled in his heart, since the opportunity to do business came from heaven, he still willingly accepted it.

After setting off, his teammates who acted with him suddenly said, "You really are just like the rumors."

Akutagawa was silent.Rumor?Then there is no need to ask, most of them are those who say that he has a bad temper and a cold personality, or that he got his position by selling farts/butts.

Yesterday when he was walking on the road, someone called him behind his back as a prostitute who underwent sex reassignment surgery.The reason is that Chuya Nakahara criticized several female members for him.This turmoil has not been eliminated, but more and more people are insulting and slandering him behind his back.

"Perhaps you can examine the reason why you were treated maliciously." The other party said, "Beauty is the original sin."

Ryunosuke Akutagawa's words inevitably caused emotional ripples. Before, he just squinted at the other party, but this time he turned his face away in surprise.

The moment he looked at the other party, a gunshot pierced Tianxin.There was a loud echo in the ruins area.Before Ryunosuke Akutagawa could react, the opponent shot another shot at his right arm.This is a very wise choice, because Akutagawa Ryunosuke is right-handed.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke moved his right arm stiffly, and worked hard to move the joint bones of his fingers. When various subtle pains or soreness were superimposed and displayed, he finally clenched his fist tightly with his right hand.At the same time, the blood overflowing from the bullet hole also flowed down and seeped into his fist.He covered his side where he was shot with his left hand.

"What do you want to do?" This man actually knew that Rashomon was not immune to bullets.

"I want to see if you really benefit from selling farts/shares as rumored."

Ryunosuke Akutagawa knelt down on the cold ground as if he lost his center of gravity. After panting for a while, he glared at the shooter with eyes of extreme hatred.

"If you didn't do this kind of thing, how could the rumor spread?" The other party questioned, "You must have done something to make everyone talk about you like this. Since it is true and you won't be pregnant, So what's wrong with letting me try? I'm already a whore/prostitute, and if I sell myself again, nothing serious will happen. Come on, let me see how to take off your coat..."

The urge to kill boiled in Ryunosuke Akutagawa's heart.

His body is full of bullet holes, healed or some traces are still visible, but because these are from Osamu Dazai, he has no right to complain.But now he has been targeted by such a villain. Could it be that he is really weak?Osamu Dazai gave him spurs and spurned him, in fact, he deserved it?No...does the victim really have to be guilty?Akutagawa Ryunosuke smiled helplessly.

It is very difficult for him to breathe now, but he is trying his best not to show his current state, and his self-esteem does not allow it.Since you are going to die, let's die decently.

"Kill me." He withdrew the horrible expression of hatred just now, and returned to a calm and indifferent expression. His dissatisfied and rebellious emotions could only be seen from his obsidian pupils.

"Why can't you rape first and then kill? Wow, looking at it up close, your skin is really whiter than girls... Is it because you have hardly been exposed to the sun? This feeling is simply amazing..."

Damn, disgusting, shitty shit!

Akutagawa Ryunosuke had never scolded anyone like this before, but at this moment he gritted his teeth and cursed.After a burst of cursing, he had difficulty breathing, coughing continuously, and his apple muscles twitched up and down like the tail of a broken comet.Maybe it's pain, or maybe it's just nothingness.Finally disappeared in the universe covering countless deaths.His hand was hanging stiffly by his side, and his fingernails were bent and deformed due to excessive pressing, forming a crescent moon print and gently embedded in his palm.

If the final end is to be raped and dumped, then he would rather commit suicide now.But he has already tried to initiate Rashomon to commit suicide, to no avail.Rashomon's subconscious is protecting him, he cannot use Rashomon to hurt himself.He felt ironic.

This is the clothes given to him by Osamu Dazai. He is facing death because of the mission given by Osamu Dazai, and because of this coat of Osamu Dazai, he cannot die directly, but can only endure the torture that follows.Maybe this is fate.

Before the opponent's hand stretched out to him, he opened his eyes to take one last look in this world.

However, at the moment the other party's hand reached into his clothes, a fiery red light flashed.Then, a faint smell of gunpowder smoke emanated from the bullet holes on the opponent's body.bullet holes.The teammate who was going to molested him fell to the ground with a bang of bullets.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke looked at the bullet holes on his back that were continuously spilling blood, and before he could react, he heard a burst of hurried footsteps.He raised his head, almost timidly looking up at the man walking towards him.

"Mr. Dazai..."

"Do not talk."

Osamu Dazai said coldly, and fired a few more shots at the corpse on the ground.He felt that it wasn't enough, so he reloaded the gun again, with smooth movements, and continued to shoot at the corpse under Akutagawa's surprised gaze. He didn't put the gun back until the second round of bullets was also used up.Even so, his squinting and squinting movements still showed his unfinished killing intent.

The opponent was beaten into a hornet's nest.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke thought he was a murderous person who was used to seeing death, but was frightened by Osamu Dazai at this time.He saw in Osamu Dazai a cruelty that he had never achieved before.He can kill, but he can't abuse others.He will give everything to complete the task, and he will kill countless people for this, but he will not insult and trample on the corpses that have no signs of life.His job is to fight, but he will not press the trigger to kill just to vent his negative emotions.Now he sees it.

"Scared, everything is fine now." Osamu Dazai put down the gun, "I should have taught you this a long time ago."

Teach him this?What does it mean?Does it mean beating an already dead person into a hornet's nest?A burst of catharsis and trampling on the corpse?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was trembling, staring at Osamu Dazai, who came straight to him, did not respond to his eyes, but suddenly hugged him in his arms.Dazai Osamu's gently curving hairline and the smooth lines drawn by his sideburns seemed so gentle and tender, almost to the point that Akutagawa Ryunosuke was terrified.They had never hugged, or even been this close to each other.

The physical closeness instantly turns into an inexplicable sacredness, and the distance within palm's reach is swaying as romantic as Miyaka.The inexplicable ambiguity pierced through the rainy and snowy sky, and Jie Guang raged, splashing the two of them from head to toe.

"I……"

"Stop talking." He suddenly let go of Akutagawa again, and hurriedly scanned Akutagawa's body, "Where did he touch it? Did he do anything to you? Was he hurt? Have you been..."

"It's all right, Mr. Dazai, but the neckline of the clothes is torn, and I will repair it when I go back."

Osamu Dazai breathed a sigh of relief, then brushed Akutagawa's small ear with trembling five fingers, and rubbed Akutagawa's cheek repeatedly with his warm palm, as if he wanted to plant something tightly held in his palm into Akutagawa's skin through his skin. In the cramping flesh.This kind of object is deeply embedded in Akutagawa's flesh and even bone marrow, and powerfully emerges a mysterious spark that can be said to come from ancient rocks, sending a kind of warmth from the surface of the bone directly to the left atrium.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke was so overwhelmed by the sudden warmth that he couldn't move.

"Little black eyes...you are so anxious about me, what should I do with you? You don't listen to me. You are always like this. You can't tell who is right for you. You can't always tell. You don't understand , you don’t understand. My mind is full of you. When I think of something happening to you, my heart aches to the point that all the blood in my heart is congealed..."

"You said you hated me."

"Do not talk."

"But……"

Many questions were swallowed up in Osamu Dazai's next leaning forward kiss.

"Find out who is the one who really cares about you." Akutagawa seems to have heard such a sentence from Osamu Dazai in a blur, but he is not sure.Because the tone of this sentence seems to be threatening, cold and tough, which is very different from the gentle demeanor of Osamu Dazai himself at the moment.

I don't know why, neither hugs nor kisses can bring Akutagawa sweetness, but make him feel strange.He wasn't disgusted, he just couldn't understand.He frowned, not accepting Osamu Dazai at all.

Osamu Dazai clearly felt Akutagawa's passivity, but he didn't mind.He pressed his lips tighter, held Akutagawa's subtle breath, and quietly wrapped it into this kiss, like a rose affectionately holding a grain of snow that is dissipating, escorting it away with his whole life.What escorted away was not only the warmth of the embrace and the severe cold of winter, but also the last drop of dew on the rose and the last whisper about love in this life.

Does Dazai-san love me?Akutagawa Ryunosuke fell into depression.If it's not love, why do it?Then the one who revealed my weakness to the enemy, shouldn't be Dazai-san?But excluding Osamu Dazai, isn't there only one possibility left in Nakahara Chuya?He didn't know what to do.

"Go back and heal." Osamu Dazai hugged the injured Akutagawa again.

His strength is very strong, obviously he does not intend to let Akutagawa push away easily.Akutagawa was injured, and he obviously felt that the pain that was only faint before had turned into a severe pain that he couldn't bear for a while, and he couldn't use his strength, so he could only lie limp in Dazai Osamu's arms.Osamu Dazai's tone was reproachful, but also distressed.

Akutagawa didn't understand these actions of Osamu Dazai, nor did he understand how Osamu Dazai viewed himself.If he wanted to understand Dazai Osamu, it must be something he would never be able to do in his entire life.Everything is just as I expected on the first day of training.That day he looked at Osamu Dazai, but Osamu Dazai didn't look at him, so he had a premonition that he would never be able to understand and get close to Osamu Dazai.Everything is like this unfortunate and sad foreboding.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke raised his head slowly.He could clearly see Osamu Dazai's beautifully lined chin, and the layers of bandages on the side of Osamu Dazai's face.Unfortunately, he couldn't see Nakahara Chuya who had been standing behind him for a long time.He couldn't see the latter's dull eyes hidden in the shadow of the brim of his hat.

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The author has something to say:

Good tm dog blood.I want to delete this whole chapter, but... oh, everyone just think this paragraph is a few kids who are having a youthful campus romance, they are not mature yet (Hanhan hugs his head

Sometimes I use words and expressions that are naughty and straight, just get used to it.