An Xia's paintings

When he was forced to lie on a white hospital bed, and was held down by a group of people in white coats and masks, who were about to inject a sedative forcibly, the little Lin Anxia yelled hoarsely as if he had exploded: "I don't want an injection! Mom save me, mom save me, mom..."

And the woman whom he had given all hope to, left his sight without looking back. That was the first time Lin Anxia had a thought, "Maybe his mother doesn't love him."

Lin Anxia didn't know how long he had been in that white place everywhere, but he discovered one thing cleverly, as long as he was obedient and kept quiet, his mother would come to see him, otherwise, he would just Being able to stay there alone, no one cares about his life and death except for strangers in white coats who come over occasionally.

Finally one day, his mother came to pick him up and go home. Yes, she didn't just look at him, but actually took him home.When Lin Anxia was lying on his mother's shoulder, he still felt a faint warmth. He felt that he had made a mistake, because how could his mother not love him? She still hugged him so gently, and her embrace still made him feel So relieved, Lin Anxia nodded to herself, yes, his mother loves him.

For a long time after that, Tao Fuxin cared for Lin Anxia in every possible way. Lin Anxia even thought that his gentle and kind mother came back, and as long as his father came back, they could live as happily as before. day is over.

But it turns out that he was wrong, and very wrong.

It was a sunny morning, Tao Fuxin woke him up very gently, put on cute overalls and a little shirt for him, and dressed him up neatly. Lin Anxia looked at her mother carefully and found that Today's Tao Fuxin is also very beautifully dressed.

After packing everything up, Tao Fuxin took Lin Anxia's hand, picked up a small suitcase at the door, and was about to go out.

Lin Anxia asked curiously: "Mom, where are we going?"

I saw his beautiful mother turned around, with an inexplicable smile on her bright red lips, but she didn't answer her own question.Lin Anxia thought about it, maybe her mother wanted to take her to play in the park, just like when her father was there, occasionally the three of them would go to an open-air amusement park to play for a while, if tired You can go to the ice shop opposite to eat ice cream.

Even though Lin Anxia had been to a bigger and more beautiful place than that amusement park when they lived in the big house, he didn't think there was anything wrong with the small amusement park opposite the ice cream shop, he liked it There are stone slides there, and I also like the rubber swings that can swing high.

But his mother didn't take him very far, except behind the door, she took her to the opposite door, the aunt who often gave him food seemed to have anticipated their arrival, and used a way to make him feel very uncomfortable eyes, looking at him.It was not until many years later that Lin Anxia realized that the look in his eyes that made him uncomfortable was called pity.

But at this moment, Lin Anxia didn't know anything about it. She saw her mother take out a stack of envelopes from her bag and handed it to the great god. From the exposed corner, Lin Anxia knew that it was a stack of money, and it was not few.The aunt also held his hand behind the envelope...

Afterwards, his mother knelt down and said to him still in a very gentle tone: "Xia Xia stays with aunt obediently and waits for Dad to pick you up, you know?"

Little Anxia was a little confused, "What about mom?"

"Mom, I have to go out for a while, and I can't take care of Xia Xia. So Xia Xia must stay here and wait for Dad to come back, you know?"

The sensitive little Anxia ignored Tao Fuxin's words, but stubbornly grabbed her hand and asked, "What about mom? Will mom come back?"

Tao Fuxin didn't answer Xiao An Xia's question, but raised her hand to gently stroke his little head, and then left without looking back.Lin Anxia wanted to catch up, but found that his hands were tightly held. No matter how hard he struggled, it was of no avail. He could only watch helplessly as his mother left.

Lin Anxia had seen the back of Tao Fuxin leaving many times, but only this time, he felt that if he didn't hold her tightly, then he might never see his mother again.

Mom won't be coming back.

It was this kind of thought that made the little Lin Anxia burst out of strength from nowhere, and even struggled to break free from the hand that was tightly fettering him, ignoring the loud yelling of the aunt behind him, little Anxia was using her last Running downstairs at a fast speed, he only had one thought, he couldn't let his mother go, otherwise he would never see her again.

Lin Anxia struggled to run downstairs, but because she was too anxious, she tripped and fell down the stairs.Not caring about her bloody head, Lin Anxia got up from the ground and kept calling "Mom", hoping that the woman walking in front would stop because of her shouting.

But when Lin Anxia ran downstairs, she saw her mother get into a car.The little Lin Anxia ran towards the car, shouting at the top of her lungs: "Mom, where are you going? Don't you want Xia Xia? Mom, can you come back..."

The car didn't stop, and Tao Fuxin didn't come back. When Lin Anxia fell to the ground again, he couldn't get up anymore, and could only watch the car disappear at the end of the road.

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Lin Anxia walked into the bathroom, turned on the faucet, and splashed water on her face.

He hasn't recalled the past in such detail for a long time. Whenever night falls, he will try his best to restrain himself from recalling those things, but the fear and pain that have been imprinted in his heart for a long time are stimulating him all the time. on his sensitive nerves.

Lin Anxia supported the washbasin with both hands, looking at himself in the mirror, with red eyes and haggard look, even though it has been so long, everything that happened back then is still vivid in his memory, those pasts can still have such a deep impact on him .

A pale smile appeared on the corner of Lin Anxia's mouth. He looked at himself in the mirror and said, "Enough is enough. You have grown up, and you don't have a child who can't live without your mother. You have Xuesong and Brother Rui. , having a good partner and someone who loves you, these are enough."

Lin Anxia settled down and wiped off the drops of water on her face. Although she was still a little dazed, Lin Anxia was not going to indulge herself to continue like this.He pulled himself together, opened the curtains of the bedroom, and found that it was dark outside, and it was already night.

Lin Anxia didn't know how long he had been in a drowsy state. He was a little strange. Usually, if he didn't go out for a long time, Xue Song would wait at the door of his bedroom. But just now, when Lin Anxia opened the door, he didn't look at it. To the figure who squatted here all the year round.

"cedar......"

Lin Anxia left the bedroom, calling Xuesong's name while searching for Xuesong's figure.

For a long time there was no movement at all.

"Cedar!" Lin Anxia's voice became louder: "Where are you? Answer me."

The answer to him was still silence, Lin Anxia suddenly lost his composure, and hurriedly ran downstairs, looking for the figure of Cedar in every corner of the house, and finally he saw it in the corner of the sofa. Lying on the edge of the sofa, her posture was very comfortable, but Lin Anxia was trembling with fear at this moment.

Because Xuesong's posture...is exactly the same as before he entered the bedroom. For such a long time, Xuesong, who has always been unable to stay still, has not moved at all...

Standing behind Xuesong, Lin Anxia kept thinking about Xuesong's recent state, but she didn't have a clear memory.

Lin Anxia shook her throat, and called out softly again: "...Cedar."

Xue Song, who was lying motionless on the ground, raised her ears slightly, but did not stand up and run towards Lin Anxia.

Lin Anxia froze in place, licked her dry lips, and then struggled to take a step, walking towards him, but the moment she lifted her leg, she fell limp to the ground.Lin Anxia got up and staggered forward. Although the distance was only a few steps, Lin Anxia felt so far away......

Lin Anxia came to Xuesong's side, raised her arms and hugged it into her arms, Lin Anxia leaned against the sofa, slumped on the ground, gently touched Xuesong in her arms, and whispered softly: "What's wrong with Xuesong? Are you sleepy? Why didn't you hear me calling you?"

Xue Song raised his eyelids slightly, with dark eyes, looking at him gently as before.

Lin Anxia's vision gradually blurred, and tears filled his eyes, but he was forced not to drop them: "Sleep so dead, like a pig. Isn't Xuesong a handsome dog? If you want to sleep like a pig , not handsome."

Xue Song wanted to raise his head, and wanted to rub Lin Anxia's with his wet nose as usual, but because he had no strength, he had to fall back into Lin Anxia's arms.

Lin Anxia said softly with dull eyes: "What's wrong with you Xuesong? Get up quickly, get up and rub me! Don't you like being so close to me the most? Get up quickly. Look at Xuesong, I will Here, so close to you, you only need to raise your head a little, and you can touch me, Cedar! Stand up quickly!"

"Ugh..."

Xue Song gave a weak snort, but looked at Lin Anxia's eyes so sadly.Lin Anxia suddenly hugged Xuesong into her arms, "Don't be afraid of Xuesong, don't be afraid! I'll take you to see a doctor. Yes, Xuesong is sick, you need to see a doctor!"

Lin Anxia slapped himself abruptly and cursed: "Xue Song is sick! I'm still sitting at home! Lin Anxia, ​​is there something wrong with you!"

Lin Anxia flusteredly put the cedar on her back, and lifted up the body that was not easy for him, but loved like a treasure.Lin Anxia didn't care about anything else, and ran out the door wearing slippers and pajamas.

But when he opened the Tieshan gate in the yard, Lin Anxia's hand holding Xuesong was not stable for a moment, and he felt light on his back, and Xuesong fell to the ground with a "bang".

"Ah—" Lin Anxia crumpled and held his head, looking at the cedar that fell to the ground, and yelled frantically.

Lin Anxia squatted down in pain, shaking her hands, wanting to touch Xuesong's back, "Xedong... I'm sorry Xuesong. Did it hurt from the fall? I'm so useless. Where is your pain?"

Lin Anxia gently held Xuesong in her arms, her whole body was so tense that even her teeth were shaking.

"It hurts from the fall, doesn't it? I'm sorry Xuesong, I hurt you from falling, shall we go to the hospital, Xuesong, shall we go to the hospital and let the doctor see you?"

Lin Anxia wanted to continue to carry the cedar on his back, but found that he couldn't exert any strength in his body, he was so angry that he hit his hand hard with the stone beside him, as if he couldn't feel the pain: "Why are you so useless? Xuesong is sick! Why can't you even take him to see a doctor? What if there is something wrong with Xuesong!"

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