The helplessness of the carousel

33.

Some people say that there is nothing more sad than dying of heart.

And Chunjin's heart seems to be really dead...

It all starts with the last visit...

Chunjin's anorexia is getting worse every day, and I have to take him to the doctor for psychological treatment every week.

After a treatment, I had a whim and took Chunjin to a restaurant that the 6 of us loved to go to for dinner, hoping to stimulate some of Chunjin’s good memories of the past...

Find our favorite seat in the past, order a few of Chunjin’s favorite dishes, and before we can say a few words to Chunjin, the phone rang…

I never talked about the company's affairs in front of Chunjin. I simply explained a few words to Chunjin, and then went to the back door of the restaurant to answer the phone.

When I came back after explaining the matter, I saw Zheng Yunhao sitting next to Chunjin.

I don't know when Zheng Yunhao came, but looking at the corners of Chunjin's mouth that occasionally twitched when he was talking to him, he smiled faintly...

Since I took Chunjin back, he has never smiled at me, even if I have repeatedly threatened him, he has never smiled at me, and at this moment, Chunjin is smiling so naturally to Zheng Yunhao. beauty…

I kept watching, every movement of Chunjin, every curve of his lips...

Zheng Yunhao didn't chat with Chunjin for a long time. When the boss brought the food I ordered, he got up and left, and I only returned to the table after Zheng Yunhao left.

For some reason, I didn't mention Zheng Yunhao's matter, and I finished the meal silently with Chunjin, but, to my surprise, Chunjin ate more than usual for this meal, and after eating, there was nothing wrong with him. No sign of throwing up...

I laughed, mockingly laughed...

I take good care of Chunjin so much, I try my best to get back what he likes to eat, learn to cook every dish he likes, I am afraid that I will not be here, he will not eat on time, no matter how busy I am, I will go home on time to eat with Chunjin, But what about the result?

He still vomited whatever he ate.

As for Zheng Yunhao, he could suppress Chunjin's vomiting symptoms just by chatting a few words with Chunjin.

I, Wen Junhyuk, are like a clown, trying to entertain myself to get a smile from Chunjin, but what I get is Chunjin's cold ridicule.

I let go of my pride and blindly flattered and cared for her, but what I got was this result!

Call Lai Ning and order him to take Chunjin home.

You see, even though I am so sad, I still can't let him go!

To do this to my pets, I must be doing my utmost benevolence...

How long has it been since you've been to the club?

It seems that since that birthday, I have developed an aversion to clubs, and I would avoid going to clubs unless necessary for entertainment, but tonight, I really want to vent my anger.

My dance has always been good. When I was in the United States, out of a momentary anger with my father, I won the National Street Dance Championship, but after that, I didn't practice much.

However, a skinny camel is bigger than a horse, and my dance is still remarkable.

Occupying the stage and becoming the focus of everyone's eyes, I haven't allowed myself to indulge like this for many years.

I can't remember how long I danced, and I can't remember how much wine I drank. I just remember Chunjin's indifferent expression when I opened the door...

If you want to indulge, let's let it go all at once...

Putting away all my rationality, I finally complied with the animal desire in my heart, and pushed Chunjin to the bed...

I vaguely remember that that night, I asked for Chunjin three times.

The first time, Chunjin's resistance was very fierce, but it didn't make me stop, on the contrary, it aroused my animal desire even more. I roughly tore off Chunjin's clothes, kissed Chunjin's body like a bite, restrained three The desire of the year was aroused once, but even if the beast in my heart wanted to eat Chunjin immediately, I still suppressed the desire and made foreplay, even if it was indulgence, I would worry that the impetuous rampage would hurt Chunjin body of…

The second time, Chunjin had given up resisting and just shed tears silently. I kissed Chunjin's face lightly and licked away his tears, but I didn't stop my desire. The nerves stimulated by alcohol did not have enough clarity. , I couldn't restrain the beast in my heart, the roaring desire was catalyzed by alcohol, it was so turbulent, I couldn't restrain it...

In the third time, Chunjin fainted several times, but I was still indulging... It's not that I didn't want to stop, but I didn't want to. I was obsessed with the graceful body below me, and at the same time hated Chunjin's cruelty, his indifference and depression towards me My anger turned into an overwhelming desire, I have no choice but to vent...

This game, maybe, I have already fallen...