The helplessness of the carousel

32.

That night, after all, I still didn't touch Chunjin...

Just wait until the yu fire subsides, then withdraw from Chunjin's body...

It wasn't until after I quit that I realized that Jin'er didn't respond to me, but he was strongly restrained, and his clenched fists were released after I quit. Chunjin's palms were stained with blood at some point, dark The fingernails stuck in the flesh silently narrated his forbearance to me.

"Jin'er, what should I do with you..."

Holding Chunjin tightly in her arms, kissing his already moist eyes...

"Jin'er, I miss you so much..."

Burying my head into Chunjin's neck, rubbing it lightly, I can hardly remember how long it has been since I fell asleep in such a peaceful embrace with Chunjin...

"Jin'er, I promise you, I won't touch you, I just want to hug you, that's enough..."

Whispering in Chunjin's ear, I hugged him even tighter. In fact, just holding Jin'er like this, I am already very satisfied...

Alas... When did I, Moon Jung Hyuk, become so contented?

In fact, I also yearn for the warm feeling of home...

A family that is different from ordinary people, busy parents, and a different mission, so I don't have much nostalgia for home, but I still have a bit of yearning in my heart, so I never felt like it when I was with Chunjin. I will never forget the warm feeling...

Now that Chunjin is back, maybe we can answer the most beautiful time...

With this in mind, I began to deliberately restore some of the warmth I once had, but Chunjin didn't seem to cooperate.

There are a lot of trivial things in the company recently, and I spend most of my time in the company. I don’t have so much time with Chunjin, but I still hope that Chunjin can give me a hug when I go home and say "Hey" ".

However, Chunjin has never done this before, he still doesn't want to say a word to me, let alone call me "heh"...

Occasionally, in my free time, I would still cook by myself and serve a table of Chunjin’s favorite dishes, but Chunjin never swept away all the meals like before, but just ate a few mouthfuls and then left the table to go back to the table. house…

Our home was decorated by Chunjin. In the past, I never cared about these things, but now I am very curious about everything. I like to hug Chunjin and ask him the reason for such decoration. The former Chunjin will definitely be very serious. Tell me why he did this, but now, the only answer to me is silence...

Except that falling asleep with Chunjin in my arms every night is still the same as before, the others seem to be unable to go back...

I don't understand why I can't do something that was so natural in the past. My requirements are not high, but Chunjin is unwilling to do it anyway.

I tried to use Yunhao's family to threaten Chunjin, although I got the result I wanted, but it didn't satisfy me.

Chunjin's cold tone made me angry, but I couldn't bear to vent my anger on him, so I could only ignite spontaneously in my body...

However, what I didn't expect was that under my pressure, Chunjin's body gradually changed...

Chunjin's food intake is getting smaller and smaller. When he first came here, he could barely finish a bowl of porridge for each meal, but now, a few spoonfuls of clear soup seem to be enough to fill him up.

At first, I thought that Chunjin was unwilling to eat at the same table with me, so I deliberately avoided sharing the same table with Chunjin, but after a few days, I found that Chunjin never even drank the few spoonfuls without me watching .

Sometimes, I would force Chunjin to eat more, but after he finished eating, he rushed to the toilet and vomited all the food, and I realized that it wasn't that Chunjin didn't want to eat, but that he really couldn't eat.

Looking at his face that was getting thinner day by day, I couldn't do anything about it.

Anorexia Nervosa…

This is the answer given by the doctor after Chunjin's examination.

I know that this is a kind of psychological disease, a result of self-suggestion under excessive psychological pressure...

"Piao Chunjin! I tell you! Without my permission! You are not allowed to die before me!"

"If you die! I want Zheng Yunhao's family to be buried with you!"

I finally couldn't restrain my anger, and threw the diagnosis sheet in front of Chunjin.

And Chunjin just quietly looked at the diagnosis sheet that fell beside him like snowflakes, without answering.He started to eat hard, eating a lot of food every meal, but what's the use of it?After eating, within 5 minutes, it will be spit out again immediately.The harder he ate, the more he vomited.

Seeing him trying so hard to eat more, but the result is still getting thinner...

The height of 182, but the weight is less than 55KG...

Not only can't eat during the day, but even at night, Chunjin suffers from insomnia every night. Even when he falls asleep, he is troubled by nightmares...

The doctor said that Chunjin was under a lot of psychological pressure and had a big knot in his heart. Only when the knot in his heart was untied could Chunjin's condition improve.

I know that I am the source of this knot, perhaps leaving me, Chunjin will slowly get better.However, I can't let go of the hand that binds Chunjin, even if I know, keep him by my side, one day, I will just watch him die...

However, I still can't let go...

Chunjin is mine, even if you really want to leave, it must be in my arms!

Because, you, Park Chunjin, belong to me, Moon Jung Hyuk!