In this life, the love is deep and the relationship is shallow

Not wanting to make He Jiaqi, who had just traveled a long distance, worry about herself, she couldn't help but tell a white lie.

"Yao Xinrui, you're a liar. I'll ignore you. I'll talk to other people. You can continue to sleep." He Jiaqi turned around and was about to leave.

Yao Xinrui grabbed He Jiaqi's clothes, and said pitifully, "Xiaoqi...don't, don't go, I just feel a little pain today. I finally came back, don't be angry with me."

He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui who had an aggrieved face, couldn't help but frowned, and said, "Yao Xinrui, you just didn't take good care of yourself, did you?"

Yao Xinrui pouted, and said coquettishly, "Xiaoqi, I have one. I'll be alive and kicking as soon as you come back."

Yao Xinrui deliberately stood up and jumped up and down, but He Jiaqi couldn't do anything about her, so she said, "Ruirui, I'll come and see you first, I'll go and see the teachers, and then I'll pick you up from get out of class."

"Okay, then wait for me." Yao Xinrui said immediately.

"Okay~ You have a good time in class." He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui dotingly and said.

Yao Xinrui's Christmas Eve, which was originally plain and boring, was full of expectations because of He Jiaqi's appearance.

The author has something to say: Xiaoqi: Ruirui, what gift do you want for Christmas Eve?

Ruirui: I don't want anything, I just want you by my side.

Me: You two are enough, can't a long distance stop you from showing your affection? !

Dear cuties, I want to ask a question, do you want me to finish the essay before the end of the year?Or do you want to know more about the growth of the two?

I forgot to say Happy New Year yesterday, I made it up today, refill~

good Morning.

☆, Christmas

As soon as the school bell rang, Yao Xinrui, who usually stayed in the classroom for a while, rushed out of Class [-], Senior Three.

He Jiaqi was leaning against the railing in the stairwell, wearing a white jacket, jeans, and white Converse, she looked slim, which made Yao Xinrui startled again.

It's only been a few months since I saw He Jiaqi, how come He Jiaqi has become more and more charming.

"Ruirui, what are you looking at, do you really not know each other?" He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui in a daze, and couldn't help teasing her.

"Xiao Qi, hee hee, no more, I just want to see you look better and more and more beautiful, so I can't take my eyes off of you." Yao Xinrui said frankly.

He Jiaqi was very happy to hear Yao Xinrui's answer, but she still blushed because of the naked praise.

"As long as you can talk, okay, what do you want to eat? Shall I take you to eat delicious food?" He Jiaqi still pampered her.

Yao Xinrui nodded and said, "I told my mother that I'm not going home for dinner. I'll go wherever you take me. In addition, I... and Mr. Jiang took a leave of absence for evening self-study. Anyway, I usually use it to practice the violin. Today I gave myself a break."

"You, you just don't know what it means to restrain yourself, right? Be careful that Teacher Jiang will make you cry." He Jiaqi knew that Yao Xinrui wanted to spend more time together, but still couldn't help worrying that Teacher Jiang would turn his anger on Yao Xinrui.

"Xiaoqi, you don't know. I've been very good these days when you're gone. Teacher Jiang won't say anything about me anymore. She's also counting on me to add luster to the collective honor of Class [-], Senior Three." Yao Xinrui retorted. She kept a low profile for a long time before, and raised her tail high in front of her lover, just for Bohe Jiaqi's praise.

"Okay, your "great achievements" have been mentioned by various teachers this afternoon, saying that you have suddenly changed your personality, and you are working hard." He Jiaqi stretched out her hand and poked Yao Xinrui's face, and then said: "Let's go , Xiao Fen (angry) youth, I'll take you there for a while."

He Jiaqi and Yao Xinrui went back to the city and chose a quiet and romantic coffee shop, where TaylorSwift's "Love Story" was playing:

"I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run. You'll be the princess and I'll be the princess.

It's love story. Baby just says yes.

This love is difficult but it's real.

Don't be afraid we'll make it out of this mess.

'Cause we were both young when If firsts awyou..."

Listening to the song, He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui who was sitting across from her, and suddenly remembered the day when the two met wearing the same jackets. Maybe they were moved when they met for the first time.

The waiter came to order, Yao Xinrui only glanced at the menu, and quickly said: "A glass of soda water, a glass of freshly squeezed orange juice; a starter of creamy mushroom soup, a serving of borscht; main meal a steak, medium rare; A Caesar salad; two tiramisu for dessert, a latte and a cappuccino, served after dinner."

He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui, who was a bit domineering, and secretly smiled in her heart. Her Ruirui was still so cute, and she remembered her unchanging preferences.

Yao Xinrui looked up at He Jiaqi, and asked if He Jiaqi had anything to add or change. He Jiaqi shook her head.

"Then serve it like this. Thank you." Yao Xinrui confirmed the menu, the waiter took notes one by one, and left.

It was not the first time Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi ate western food together, but it was the first time Yao Xinrui ordered all the meals at once.

If it was before, Yao Xinrui would always ask He Jiaqi to order for her. He Jiaqi was one of the few people who knew her eating habits.

Today, Yao Xinrui didn't ask He Jiaqi what he thought, but ordered all the meals together, and even ordered dessert in advance, just because he didn't want the waiter to disturb the two people's hard-won time together.

She was not sure that He Jiaqi still had the same food preferences as before, and she didn't feel relieved until He Jiaqi nodded.

Yao Xinrui drank her own borscht and watched He Jiaqi drink the creamy mushroom soup little by little. She felt that it would be nice if the days continued and she could accompany He Jiaqi like this every day.

When the main course came, the waiter didn't know whose main course was salad and whose main course was steak, so he asked.

Yao Xinrui signaled the waiter to put the steak in front of her and the salad on the side of the table.

He Jiaqi didn't understand Yao Xinrui's instructions and looked at her puzzled.The steak was ordered for myself, but why put it on her side?

Yao Xinrui ignored He Jiaqi's inquiry, and a wicked smile that He Jiaqi was familiar with appeared on the corner of his mouth. Yao Xinrui hadn't had such a smile since the two broke up.

He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui and felt that it would be great if time stayed at this moment.

Yao Xinrui carefully cut the steak into small pieces with a knife and fork, then put it in front of He Jiaqi and said, "Xiaoqi, I know western etiquette, so it's not very appropriate to do this, but such an opportunity is rare, allow me to make an exception OK?"

After finishing speaking, he picked up the salad and put it in front of him, looking at He Jiaqi with bright eyes.

He Jiaqi nodded silently.

He Jiaqi often eats Western food in the UK, but almost always orders the same meals—soda water, borscht, salad, tiramisu and cappuccino.

What Yao Xinrui ordered for herself today was her favorite, but in England, what she ordered was Yao Xinrui's favorite.

Seeing the attractive color of the steak on the plate, which was cut into evenly small pieces, He Jiaqi wanted to cry a little. Her Ruirui was still childish in front of her, but her heart and behavior had gradually matured.

Yao Xinrui looked at He Jiaqi who was still not moving, bit her lips and said, "Xiaoqi, has your diet changed in England? Don't you like steak? Then let's order more?"

"Ruirui, no, I'm just used to handling everything by myself, and suddenly looking at this small piece of cut steak, I feel a little happy." He Jiaqi said quickly.

He Jiaqi is telling the truth. Living alone is not easy. When I first arrived in London, everything had to start all over again.

He Jiaqi's family background is good, but she is not a child who squanders her parents' hard work at will, and saves as much as she can.

The furniture is second-hand, the bookshelves are assembled piece by piece, the mattress is brought back from IKEA by myself...

He Jiaqi didn't say a word, and told Yao Xinrui that everything was fine, for fear that she would be worried.

After dinner, He Jiaqi took out an exquisitely packaged gift from her bag, handed it to Yao Xinrui and said, "Ruirui, Merry Christmas, next year will be your birthday, and I won't be around, so I will wish you a happy life every year. .”

He Jiaqi's "every year has today, every year has today" is nothing more than expressing the hope that every year, every year, she will be with her.

Yao Xinrui curled her lips, took the gift, and said aggrievedly: "Xiao Qi, you didn't tell me in advance that you were coming back, and I don't even have a gift for you."

"Okay, it's my fault, don't be wronged, open it and have a look." He Jiaqi urged.

Yao Xinrui opened the lid of the box, and there was a purple crystal ball inside, which was crystal clear.

Yao Xinrui let out a wow, took out the crystal ball, and saw the simulated snowflakes in the crystal ball swaying and fluttering.

In the center of the crystal ball are two little girls holding hands, as if they were walking in the early winter with their fingers intertwined.

"Xiao Qi, I like this crystal ball very much, thank you for the gift." Yao Xinrui sniffed.

"Just like it, the crystal ball has magic power, so protect it well." He Jiaqi said with a smile.

This crystal ball was ordered by He Jiaqi in a small handmade shop in London.

She knew that Yao Xinrui liked dreams, and purple was just right.

The two little girls are indeed made according to the mini cute version of the two people.

The two little girls have been walking in the snow, can they just go to Baitou like this?

There used to be such a legend that as long as you make a wish to a pure and unpolluted crystal ball with your childlike innocence, you will get happiness in the near future.

The crystal ball is a harbinger of happiness.The two people in the mini cute version are childlike innocence, snowflakes are He Jiaqi's wish, and everything is melted into this purple crystal ball for Yao Xinrui.

After dinner, He Jiaqi sent Yao Xinrui home and told Yao Xinrui that she was only in Yunbin City today, and that she would attend some social events with her parents in the next three days, and then fly back to London to prepare for the exam.

Yao Xinrui's eyes were full of reluctance, she didn't say "don't go", but the thought in her heart became more determined.

He Jiaqi sent Yao Xinrui to the door of the house. Yao Xinrui took He Jiaqi and sat on a bench in the garden, and said to He Jiaqi, "Xiaoqi, give me 3 minutes, and I will sing you a song."

Speaking like two years ago, he took out one earphone to help He Jiaqi put it on, put the other in his ear, and called out the song that he had prepared for a long time, and wanted to sing to her when He Jiaqi came back.

After a few seconds of prelude, Yao Xinrui sang along: "

The longing for the sea stretches endlessly, and finally meets the sky on the horizon.

If love goes far enough, it should also meet happiness.

Promises are often like butterflies, flying beautifully around and then disappearing.

But I believe that the oath you gave me is like the spring that will definitely come.

I always carry your loving smile, looking for the beauty I lost along the way.

When tears slide down the corner of your mouth accidentally, wipe them away with the hand you held.

No matter how much scenery there is, I never stop, I only focus on looking for the beauty I lost.

Some people can't tell which is better, but no one can replace it.

At the first second, some things are already destined to grow old.

Although fate likes to joke, sincerity will meet with sincerity. "

Yao Xinrui held He Jiaqi's hand tightly, remembering that "breakup conversation" and the distance between the two of them now, which is more than half a world away.

Yao Xinrui only hoped that He Jiaqi would give her another chance, at the right time, when she was brave enough, strong enough, and ready.

But Yao Xinrui didn't know how long it would take to overcome the fear in her heart, and how hard she would need to grow into the ideal person.

Some people can't tell what is good, but no one can replace it. The song "The Lost Beauty" expresses Yao Xinrui's heart.But after all, he didn't ask He Jiaqi if he had a definition for the relationship between the two of them, whether he would continue to wait for her, or how long he was willing to wait for her...

He Jiaqi understood. Long before Yao Xinrui started singing, He Jiaqi pressed the record button on her phone...

The author has something to say: Ruirui: Long-distance relationships are hard work. . .

Xiaoqi: Did you work hard?I don't think so, because you deserve it.

Good morning, cuties, I'm going to physical therapy.Refill!

☆, Believe

Yao Xinrui's homework is getting more and more stressful, and there are few opportunities to get in touch with He Jiaqi who is far away in another country, and Yao Xinrui is also working harder and harder for the college entrance examination.

There was no rest during the Spring Festival, and I took various exams non-stop, and missed a few calls from He Jiaqi. I was very annoyed, but it was also a helpless move.

For the sake of the future, I had to choose to give up.

After Yao Xinrui's hard work and silent struggle, he was pleasantly surprised to receive the admission quota and notice from Yanbei University: as long as the scores meet the corresponding requirements, you can choose popular majors and departments at will, and directly join Yanbei University Orchestra, first violinist.

For many children, this is a dream that is simply impossible to realize, but Yao Xinrui did it.

When Yao Xinrui heard the news, she immediately sent a message to He Jiaqi to inform He Jiaqi of the good news.

When He Jiaqi received Yao Xinrui's email, she almost jumped up happily in class, and immediately called Yao Xinrui after class, just as Yao Xinrui was about to go to bed.

"Xiaoqi? Why are you calling me at this hour, aren't you in class?" Yao Xinrui saw that it was He Jiaqi's call, and immediately picked it up.

"Rui Rui, Rui Rui, what are you doing? I'm so happy to hear about you. I'll call you during recess." He Jiaqi replied happily.

"I'm going to bed. Why are you more excited than me? There is still a long way to go in the future. This is the first step." Although Yao Xinrui was happy, the pressure only increased and did not dare to be negligent.

"Ruirui, I knew it. Congratulations, you are one step closer to your dream." He Jiaqi paused, and then said encouragingly: "Ruirui, in my heart, I know you are the best. Know you can."

He Jiaqi has always kept these words in her mouth and kept them in her heart, but she never said them easily, for fear that Yao Xinrui would be arrogant and arrogant.

"Xiaoqi, thank you, I will continue to work hard, I have not forgotten our agreement, we will all be well." Actually, what Yao Xinrui wants to say is that I am working hard to make it possible for us to be together again.

However, Yao Xinrui didn't have that courage, and knew that her immaturity ruined the sweet relationship between the two of them, and she didn't want to make an irresponsible promise again.

Soon after, Yao Xinrui's college entrance examination came.Due to various reasons, Yao Xinrui did not perform well, and finally failed to reach the admission score of Yanbei University.

On the night when the college entrance examination scores were awarded, Yao Xinrui sat in front of the computer and repeatedly refreshed the page. At the moment when he saw the scores at the same time as his parents, Yao Xinrui's shocked and disappointed expression could not change the ending.

With a "crash", something in her heart fell to the ground, and Yao Xinrui was startled, she knew it was the sound of a broken dream.

Yao Xinrui's parents walked into the bedroom after a moment of silence, and said to Yao Xinrui who was sitting blankly in front of the computer, "Go to sleep."

It is useless to say more at this moment, it is a foregone conclusion.

But Yao Xinrui couldn't fall asleep, she just stared blankly at the glaring score on the computer screen, without words, without tears, and even had no reason to regret.

Yao Xinrui knew that she wasted the past time, but when the reality cruelly deprived a person of her dreams, she turned out to be so unwilling.

Both dreams and love were defeated in the face of this cruel reality, and I lost in the end. I was sorry for the ardent expectations of my parents, I was sorry for my childhood ideals, and I was sorry for the lover in my heart.

Yao Xinrui picked up the Chinese cigarettes her father used to entertain guests on the tea table. She knew that what He Jiaqi hated most was the smell of cigarettes, but she had completely lost her, right?

I am a complete loser. I lost my relationship and my studies. It would be better to just degenerate. He Jiaqi would despise her when she saw this, so she wouldn't care, right?

Yao Xinrui opened the window of her home in the early morning, tremblingly lit the cigarette in her hand, and inhaled deeply into her lungs, but it didn't relieve any pain.

The next day, Yao Xinrui turned off the phone and cut off contact with everyone, but occasionally received messages from teachers dissuading Yao Xinrui from repeating the class when the phone was turned on.

After Yao Xinrui broke up with He Jiaqi, stubbornness has gradually become part of her personality. As long as it is her own decision, she will not turn back if she hits a wall.

In fact, after the college entrance examination, Yao Xinrui faintly felt that she was not performing well, but her determination not to repeat the study made her sell all the textbooks, reference books and review materials behind everyone's back, in order to dissuade other people from discouraging her from repeating and cutting off the repetition. possibility.

Yao Xinrui knows that abnormal performance is one aspect, but if another year is wasted, the result may not be much better than it is now.

On the contrary, I have just re-established a little bit of self-confidence, and it will be shattered again in the face of various pressures and worldly affairs. Instead of that, it is better to spend time and energy on the future.

Yao Xinrui is lost and hopeless after all, the regret and powerlessness of passing the dream school by the once proud son of heaven.

During the three-month summer vacation, Yao Xinrui locked herself in the room alone, as if she was introspecting, but also seemed to be in Nirvana.He Jiaqi's frequent calls and comfort did not make Yao Xinrui feel better.

In the end, Yao Xinrui applied to a key university closest to Yanbei University after deliberation, just to get closer to her dream.

From then on, the compass of Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi's fate turned again, which meant that perhaps their worlds and future paths could no longer coincide.

He Jiaqi specially flew back to attend Yao Xinrui's entrance ceremony. At such an important moment, He Jiaqi didn't want to miss it. More importantly, she wanted to accompany her through this difficult and memorable moment.

When Yao Xinrui gave her speech, she didn't have any preparations, and she didn't need to, because He Jiaqi was by her side.

He Jiaqi has been watching her, she knows, so she is not afraid.

At the end of the celebration, Yao Xinrui kept a group photo with all her friends and classmates who came to attend the celebration.

Many years later, Yao Xinrui found that photo, touched the photo that was quite old, and smiled... The physical distance said everything, she loved her, and she still loved her.

When He Jiaqi came back this time, she stayed with Yao Xinrui for an extra day for the first time.

That day, Yao Xinrui needed to choose a gift for her Fa Xiao, so He Jiaqi accompanied her to choose.

Both of them have grown a little taller than when they first met, and their body contours have become more mature. The only thing that has not changed is their shoulder-length short hair and their refreshing and clean exclusive smell.

This time the two did not interlock their fingers, although the physical distance did not increase.He Jiaqi rarely has physical contact with people in the UK, unless it is a Western-style hug and kiss.

Of course, seeing two girls clasping fingers in England, one would naturally think that they are a couple, so He Jiaqi has been used to having no one around for a year.

Yao Xinrui felt He Jiaqi's change and discomfort, so she didn't force her, but walked on He Jiaqi's left side not far or near.

"Ruirui, don't worry about it, it's just that I'm not very used to holding hands with people now." He Jiaqi knew that Yao Xinrui was feeling uncomfortable, and she wasn't feeling well either, but time didn't change their relationship, but their habits.

"Xiao Qi, you're thinking too much, I know, I'm fine." Yao Xinrui was disappointed, but she firmly didn't want He Jiaqi to see it.

The two walked into a boutique, and Yao Xinrui was about to ask He Jiaqi how this handbag was, when the boss interrupted and asked, "You guys, are you twins?"

Yao Xinrui looked at He Jiaqi, He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui, smiled and shook her head.

The boss said again: "But, why do you two look so similar? From your height and figure to your hairstyle and temperament, they all seem to be carved out of the same mold."

Yao Xinrui smiled and said, "The boss is joking, the two of us may be better than twins even if we are not twins."

Blinking at He Jiaqi, He Jiaqi lowered her head and smiled and said, "Yeah, maybe, it's not blood relatives, it's better than blood relatives."

The boss smacked his lips and said: "You two have such a good relationship, good friends, we want to walk together for the rest of our lives."

The two thanked each other and left.

Yao Xinrui thought: Maybe the longer we spend together, the more we will become more and more alike, but, but, Xiaoqi, we have been separated for a year already.It's my fault that I didn't hold on to you.

He Jiaqi thought: Ruirui, maybe the more familiar you are, the more similar you will be. I used to like your innocence and uninhibitedness. I want to make myself more free and easy this year.But now I realize that you are slowly introverted and deep, and you have my appearance.

Good luck tricks people.

The time the two of them spent that time was also an opportunity that was difficult to have in the next few years. Yao Xinrui always remembered the last time they interlocked their fingers:

Before He Jiaqi left, she stretched out her hand, gently held Yao Xinrui's hand, turned it around, and finally clasped her fingers tightly.

He Jiaqi seemed to be talking to herself, and murmured to Yao Xinrui: "Ruirui, no matter where you are or what university you go to, you are you, and this will never change. So, you will always be You are the best, even a temporary trough or ups and downs can’t defeat you, you know? Even my mother said that no matter where you are, you will be excellent. So, I’m not worried, so don’t worry me, okay?"

Yao Xinrui tightened her hands and nodded silently.

Although she was not at all confident that she could regain her confidence and live a wonderful life at that time, she remembered He Jiaqi's confidence in herself, which was undoubtedly a shot in the arm for her.

He Jiaqi once again set foot on the plane to England, and Yao Xinrui is about to embark on a new journey. It's just that the two of them lost each other's company during the journey, and they can only guard the good memories of the past.

Many years later, Yao Xinrui asked He Jiaqi: "Xiaoqi, why do you always have so much confidence in me, even though I have given up on myself?"

He Jiaqi replied: "Because you are you, you are the Ruirui I love, the indestructible, always optimistic Yao Xinrui who has a lot of tenacity. He Jiaqi will never love the wrong person."

Xiaoqi, I hope that Ruirui has lived up to your expectations.

The author has something to say: cuties, I have kept you waiting for a long time, I hope you had a happy Spring Festival.

I'm back~~~ The reason why the update was delayed for a long time is because I had a high fever during the Spring Festival, my throat was swollen and I couldn't speak, so I gave myself a few more days off.Crying. . .

However, from today to the weekend, there will be updates one after another. If it is not finished, it will be updated irregularly in the future.Good morning, refill~

☆, buried

On the day Yao Xinrui left home, while her parents were not paying attention, she secretly took out a thick envelope from the closet.

There are all the memories of her and He Jiaqi in the two years: all the notes passed by the two of them, all the love words written by the two of them, all the bits and pieces of the two of them, including the comics He Jiaqi drew for her and the letter of injustice. A love letter that everyone knows, sent out but had to get back.

Everything was recorded in a file bag by Yao Xinrui, which was kept at the bottom of the closet.

However, Yao Xinrui knew that after he left, he might rarely have the opportunity to return to this place called home in the future struggle, and this thick stack of memories would be read by anyone inadvertently. may become a problem.

Therefore, I decided to seal this beautiful memory in the deepest part of my heart forever, and never reveal it again. This will be an exclusive memory for me and He Jiaqi.

And the paper memories of the past two years let it go with her.

Before heading to the airport, Yao Xinrui took the document bag and walked out of the house with a lighter.

Yao Xinrui found a hidden corner, and wanted to dissipate the obsession and feelings for He Jiaqi in his heart along with the burning flames, but he couldn't do it for a long time, and couldn't bear to ignite the fire that belonged to two people. memory.

Mother called to ask where Yao Xinrui had gone, the plane was about to be missed.

The parents' urging made Yao Xinrui ruthless, "If I still can't let go of the past, how can I face the future life and challenges?"

Yao Xinrui finally ignited the stack of secrets and memories that belonged only to the two of them. At that moment, Yao Xinrui's tears rolled in the circles of her eyes, she bit her lips tightly and did not cry out.

Since He Jiaqi left, Yao Xinrui has never opened this file bag again, and she doesn't even remember how many things she has stored in it.

To Yao Xinrui's surprise, this small file bag burned for half an hour, and the flames continued to burn for more than 20 minutes before gradually getting smaller.

"Two years, Xiaoqi, I'm sorry, I have to..." Yao Xinrui silently said sorry to He Jiaqi.

Seeing the gradually extinguished flames, the flame in Yao Xinrui's heart did not weaken at all, and was still burning fiercely.

At that time, she understood that after such a long time, He Jiaqi also had a new life, but she did not let go, and never forgot the relationship between them.

Yao Xinrui was reluctant and never thought of burning every heart that He Jiaqi gave her. That was her last persistence and the only way to remember the relationship between them.

So, so far, the hearts are quietly lying in every sealed exquisite box, and those exquisite boxes are lying in the deepest part of Yao Xinrui's closet side by side with the stars that Yao Xinrui gave He Jiaqi for the first time.

Those boxes were sealed in Yao Xinrui's heart like this memory.

He Jiaqi is Yao Xinrui's secret, and a past that he has never told anyone about.

The name He Jiaqi no longer appeared in Yao Xinrui's daily life.

"Best girlfriend" became He Jiaqi's code name, and even Yao Xinrui seldom mentioned the word He Jiaqi, even in front of her parents.

Because if you don't mention it, you don't want it, and if you don't want it, it doesn't hurt.

Yao Xinrui has always believed that since breaking up with He Jiaqi, he has been able to put He Jiaqi in the position of a good friend peacefully, and he has done a good job.

However, the fact is that Yao Xinrui has been covering up her heart in a self-deceiving way. The regret and pain in her heart because of letting go of He Jiaqi's hand...

The author has something to say: cuties, the next update is irregular and not quantitative.

The story of Yao Xinrui's growth will not be described one by one, but the growth footprint will be covered, and the whole article should be revised after the conclusion of the article.

Thank you for your support and forgive me for my first long article.I forgot to wish everyone a happy Valentine's Day, and I will add it today. . .

Refill.good morning~

☆, new chapter

13 years old, meet; 16 years old, reunion; 17 years old, fall in love; 18 years old, parting; 19 years old, start a new journey.

Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi have both started a new life, and the foreign country and time difference make each other appear in each other's life very rarely.

The two clearly cared about each other, but due to various reasons, they only had contact once or twice a semester.

In this rare phone call, Yao Xinrui learned that He Jiaqi had started a new relationship in college, that's all. As for the other party's name, Yao Xinrui didn't ask, didn't want to ask, let alone dared to ask.

Hearing the news of He Jiaqi's relationship, the first thing she sent was blessings, followed by unwillingness and regret in her heart, and then relief.

The 19-year-old Yao Xinrui really thought that she had let go of the past of the two of them, but occasionally she would still think of the time they couldn't get back, but it was so unforgettable that she forced herself to forget and let go.

Without He Jiaqi by her side, even after hearing about He Jiaqi's relationship, she devoted herself wholeheartedly to her studies and sports practice.

Although the regret of not entering Yanbei University has always surrounded her, it is precisely because of this that Yao Xinrui works harder and harder, unwilling to be left behind by Yanbei University graduates.

After Yao Xinrui went to university, she suddenly seemed to be enlightened again. He Jiaqi once again became what she was when she first met Yao Xinrui. She was full of energy, outstanding grades, rich in practical activities, and awarded certificates and trophies one after another. In a short period of time, she became a The hottest new star on campus.

What no one knows is that Yao Xinrui at this time is different from her four years ago. She is no longer proud of her talents, no longer ostentatious, and no longer high-profile publicity. Instead, she is low-key, humble, polite, and private. .

She has experienced troughs, lost confidence, accepted exclusion, and felt the coldness of the world. She understands the difficulty of this journey, and understands that if she wants to be strong enough to protect the one she loves, she must not expose her weaknesses and private life to others.

Regarding Yao Xinrui's changes, He Jiaqi is not as omniscient as before.

The distance in a foreign country made it difficult to control the growing up. He Jiaqi didn't have much time to care about Yao Xinrui's college life. She devoted herself to acquiring knowledge, broadening her horizons, and working hard to reduce the time for graduation, so that she could end her yearning for a foreign country ahead of schedule.

However, He Jiaqi also understood that what she missed was not only Yao Xinrui's college life, but also Yao Xinrui's personal growth.

I tried my best to preserve her youthful feeling, and wanted her to live forever in the ivory tower, but I never thought that my departure would become a ripening agent for the seedlings to grow.

After growing up in an instant, He Jiaqi knew how painful Yao Xinrui was, but she was helpless, after all, she couldn't be by her side to protect her.

My current boyfriend is not because I have found a feeling like Yao Xinrui, but because living alone in a foreign country is really too hard, and the company of one more person can help me go on without Yao Xinrui.

Sometimes, recalling the day when Yao Xinrui said they broke up, my heart still hurts.

Really not to blame?Still weird.

Do you really not complain?Or complain.

The strange thing is Yao Xinrui's lack of bravery, and the blame is his own failure to stop him.

If he didn't understand Yao Xinrui's suffering, how could he break up without doing anything?

If he didn't know the difficulties of the two of them, how could he let nature take its course indifferently?

If I didn't know my parents' disappointment, how could I leave without persuasion?

However, if Yao Xinrui hadn't let go of her hand first, she would never have given up easily.

"Rui Rui, because you have the courage to fight against the world, but I am most afraid that you will suddenly say you want to give up. Since you gave up at first, although you can no longer find another you, can I also try to find another one? A kind of happiness? I know, my feelings for you will not change, but goodbye, will you still be the same you, will I still be the same me?"

What He Jiaqi didn't know was that Yao Xinrui had never really given up.

Since she left, Yao Xinrui has been working hard to win her back again, even reaching out to say to He Jiaqi when she reached a certain height: Xiaoqi, would you give me another chance? Let me prove that I am capable of giving you happiness.

But before that, Yao Xinrui had to grow up first. Before she grew up, she could only put He Jiaqi in the position of her best friend to avoid losing her mental balance.

What Yao Xinrui hoped was that her little Qi could wait for her, but what she waited for was the news of He Jiaqi's love affair again.

The two of them didn't meet each other for a year, until Yao Xinrui's freshman life was over.

At that time, Yao Xinrui already had a second internship, and He Jiaqi only had her graduation thesis left before returning to China.

For the freshmen, Yao Xinrui went too fast. While others were still enjoying the free time when they were finally liberated, Yao Xinrui not only ranked among the best, but was already preparing for the fierce competition in the future.

The interns with Yao Xinrui are all juniors, seniors, and even graduate students.

As for the British students who completed all the courses in their sophomore year and only had to write their graduation thesis, He Jiaqi is one of the rare Chinese exceptions.

British universities have a short academic system, especially prestigious schools such as Oxford, Cambridge and LSE do not allow retakes. After three years of graduation, students are under too much academic pressure, let alone completing credits in advance.

One year, 52 weeks, 360 five days, they grew up separately. Although they were not accompanied by each other, they all became better selves because of each other.

It seems that everything has changed, but the only thing that has not changed is the love and longing for each other in my heart.

Yao Xinrui, who finished her second summer internship, finally found the time and opportunity to visit He Jiaqi's parents, and He Jiaqi, who only had a few days' short vacation, came back to visit relatives. At that time, He Jiaqi's parents had already moved to Yunhai City.

Yao Xinrui knew that He Jiaqi had returned to China, but she hadn't been able to find time to contact her because of her internship. She had only told He Jiaqi when the internship would end.

On the second day after the internship ended, Yao Xinrui received a call from a stranger.

"Hello, hello." Yao Xinrui habitually answered calls from strangers with polite language at work.

"Ruirui, it's me..." The habit has not changed, He Jiaqi always likes to say this sentence to Yao Xinrui, but listening to Yao Xinrui's polite greetings, she always feels that her Ruirui has changed.

"Xiaoqi?" Yao Xinrui's tone immediately became familiar.

"Well, it's me. Are you done with your work?" He Jiaqi just wanted to try to see if she could still call Yao Xinrui. The two hadn't contacted by phone for a long time, and the occasional QQ message was only a few words.Unexpectedly, Yao Xinrui was still using the previous number.

"I just finished my work, what's the matter? I'm still thinking about when to contact you, to see you and your uncles and aunts." Yao Xinrui said directly.

"Well, my parents and I are at home tomorrow. Is it convenient for you to come over? If it is convenient, I will let my parents prepare." He Jiaqi couldn't help being happy when she heard Yao Xinrui's idea of ​​visiting. Her graduation thesis is still waiting. You can only stay for a few days at a time.

"Okay, I will go to Yunhai City with my mother tomorrow. I will contact you when we arrive. Can I make this number?" Yao Xinrui just finished her internship and returned home without stopping. She wanted to take a good rest, but He Jiaqi was more important.

"Well, it's fine, you and your auntie should be careful when driving," He Jiaqi instructed.

"Okay, Xiaoqi, see you tomorrow." Yao Xinrui grew up another year, no longer procrastinating with his children, and became more rational and calm.

The next day, Yao Xinrui's mother visited He Jiaqi's parents together with Yao Xinrui, and expressed their gratitude to them for taking care of their daughter in high school. Then Yao Xinrui stayed for dinner, and her mother left to deal with work.

This is the first time Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi's parents have met after two years. They are quite close.