In this life, the love is deep and the relationship is shallow

It will be in vain, and I will be transferred to another school.

At that time, I really want to leave Yao Xinrui, and I won't even have the chance to watch her quietly every day.

He Jiaqi dragged Yao Xinrui, who looked like a walking corpse, to a cubicle in the bathroom, and locked the door behind her.

Yao Xinrui was at the mercy of He Jiaqi, she didn't say a word, her eyes were empty, no matter what He Jiaqi said, it was useless.

Until He Jiaqi had no choice but to use her trump card to kiss Yao Xinrui's lips.

Only then did Yao Xinrui react slowly, with salty tears streaming down the corners of her mouth, and she murmured He Jiaqi's name.

He Jiaqi kissed away every drop of Yao Xinrui's tears, salty and astringent, just like the hearts of two people.

"Rui Rui, don't do this, don't torture yourself and me like this, okay? If the cup is broken, it will be broken, and we can buy new ones. If you hurt a classmate, you will be responsible, do you know ?" He Jiaqi was only worried that Yao Xinrui's impulsiveness would hurt her.

"Xiaoqi, Xiaoqi, don't ignore me, okay? But that's the cup you gave me, your favorite cup, but now it's broken in my hand. I didn't protect it well. But why did you suddenly Just ignore me?" Yao Xinrui couldn't stop crying.

While kissing her, He Jiaqi said to her, "Ruirui, I didn't ignore you. Don't think about it, okay? You are always the most important thing to me."

He Jiaqi didn't know how to explain it. She only knew that Yao Xinrui didn't want Yao Xinrui to feel the pressure from the outside world and her mother, but she didn't expect that she would hurt her even more.

Yao Xinrui slowly calmed down under He Jiaqi's light kiss, obediently like a child who has done something wrong.

But at that time, Yao Xinrui never thought about why, let alone thinking about what caused He Jiaqi's change.

She ignored more and more criticisms from people around her, ignored the homework she had owed, ignored the many expectations of her parents and teachers, ignored He Jiaqi's helpless and distressed expression when she saw her decadent and crying, and ignored He Jiaqi's love for her As original heart.

That Disney thermos was broken after all, like Yao Xinrui's heart, it couldn't be repaired easily.

And the male student couldn't afford to pay for the broken thermos, because it was a limited collector's edition from Disney.

It seems like the relationship between Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi, a limited edition collection, the rift between the two of them, I don't know how to repair it.

Love, is poison?Medicine is a luxury.

Love can't get it, just four words, too much helplessness, too much reluctance.

The young He Jiaqi, in order to protect the pure and beautiful relationship between Yao Xinrui and the two of them, and for the sake of a long-lasting future, she is willing to sacrifice the short-lived possessions she once had.

But Yao Xinrui, who didn't know, didn't understand, and He Jiaqi didn't tell her the story she didn't know...

The author has something to say: Ruirui: Xiaoqi, why didn't you tell me?

Xiaoqi: Because I don't want you to be hurt...

Ruirui: With you, I have the courage to face everything.

Xiaoqi: Actually, I have always been by your side.

Ruirui: I believe it.

Well, dbq... I have another chapter of abuse. . .I found that no one watched me as soon as I abused it, and the number of views immediately increased as soon as I sweetened it. . .

But, but, there are not so many buts.

Thank you for reading the text.The cuties who don't leave me a message are not cute, hum!

good morning~

☆, torment

When He Jiaqi's love and warmth surrounded Yao Xinrui, no matter how frightened, helpless, and disturbed Yao Xinrui was, she could persevere, but now that He Jiaqi's change made Yao Xinrui lose her energy like a deflated ball.

Yao Xinrui lived in panic day after day, owed more and more homework, lost more and more time, insomnia became more and more serious, and lost confidence and enthusiasm for life.

Yao Xinrui slowly denied herself, denying the aura that once shrouded her body;

Abandon yourself, give up the strange self now;

Self-decadence, if even oneself hates the way they are now, who would like it;

Wanting to change, Yao Xinrui seems to have fallen into a strange circle, wanting to change but unable to change;

Wanting He Jiaqi to pay more attention to herself, but only got sympathetic gazes;

I want to completely give up the relationship between the two, the bond between the two is too deep and heavy...

In this way, Yao Xinrui began to hurt herself and He Jiaqi with childish behaviors time and time again, and the world she was once proud of also disintegrated because of her psychological troubles.

Yao Xinrui didn't know what was wrong with him. It was also at that time that Yao Xinrui changed from an optimistic and cheerful child to gloomy and dark, and even had symptoms of depression.

Yao Xinrui's mother watched her daughter fall, and was so anxious that she even threatened to transfer to another school if she didn't correct her relationship with He Jiaqi.

On the other side, although He Jiaqi's mother did not see the information or behavior of her daughter crossing the boundary with Yao Xinrui, she clearly noticed her daughter's depression and distraction, and her complaints and dissatisfaction with Yao Xinrui increased a little.

Not only that, Yao Xinrui, the monitor supported by Teacher Jiang, has long since lost his prestige. He neither leads by example, nor has excellent grades. Why should he manage the students who are at the top of the grade.

After repeated persuasion by teachers in various subjects was ineffective, and hearing about Yao Xinrui's controversial "personal style" issue, coupled with A Dou's poor grades, the teachers also let themselves go, almost in a state of giving up on Yao Xinrui.

Yao Xinrui's former friends all sent caring greetings one after another, but Yao Xinrui's cold attitude and repulsive words jumped his feet, saying that if Yao Xinrui thought that many friendships were no match for one He Jiaqi in her eyes, if The care and understanding of so many people can't bring back the former Yao Xinrui, so the current Yao Xinrui doesn't matter.

Goodbye, Rulu.

At that time, "Love Too Hurts" would be played repeatedly on the campus radio. Every time she heard this song, Yao Xinrui's tears could not stop streaming down her face, and her mind was full of every bit of the past with He Jiaqi.

"I can't eat, I can't sleep, without you, everything is wrong. I can't even learn how to put love away, use smiles to hypnotize tears. Smile can't laugh, cry can't cry, people don't look like people, ghosts don't look like Ghost. Can I stop loving, because love hurts so much, I'm dying of pain, but I can't forget you. "

Without He Jiaqi by her side, Yao Xinrui felt like drowning.The occasional love and care that He Jiaqi gives is life-saving oxygen, but it is nothing more than drinking poison to quench thirst.

In the conflict, two people are like hedgehogs who want to keep warm in winter. If they are too far away, they cannot feel each other's warmth, but if they are too close, they will be hurt by each other.

Tangled, sad, sad, painful, tormenting two people, but they love each other so much but they don't know how to go back to the past under the pressure of the world.

The two want to get closer but stop, but the throbbing in their hearts is still there. Occasionally, they will kiss when they can't control it, but the kiss will turn into a gentle bite, and they want to make each other deeply remember forever The feeling of two people kissing, kissing and kissing two people will cry.

Can't tell.

Gradually, Yao Xinrui couldn't love anymore, and didn't dare to love anymore.

Yao Xinrui thought of denying this heart-piercing and unforgettable emotion, and gradually sentenced this relationship to death and defined it.

This must be wrong, right?

Otherwise why did everything change all of a sudden?

They should still be ordinary friends, right?They shouldn't have crossed the line, should they?

Everything I did before was a dream, right?

The thoughts in Yao Xinrui's mind ranged from holding hands to bald heads to timidly shrinking back, and He Jiaqi's approval was not needed.

In just one month, all the good times turned into unspeakable pain.

How beautiful it was before, how painful it is now, but Yao Xinrui is still persisting, as if waiting for He Jiaqi to turn around.

He Jiaqi didn't expect that her change would completely change Yao Xinrui's character and the relationship between the two of them in a short period of time.

He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui who was getting depressed every day, she saw it in her eyes and felt pain in her heart, but she rationally told herself that there was nothing she could do.

Occasionally, when sensibility trumps reason, she will kiss Yao Xinrui lightly as before, but when reason comes back, the kiss turns into a bite to punish each other for torment.

At the beginning, I just wanted Yao Xinrui to remember the feeling of kissing each other, but later Yao Xinrui escalated this biting into revenge of complaints and an unbearable catharsis in his heart.

After every kiss, He Jiaqi's lips or uvula would be so numb that they could not feel pain.

However, He Jiaqi didn't blame her. He Jiaqi knew that she had brought the two of them to this point, so how could she bear to blame Yao Xinrui for being rude.

Tormenting each other, the time came to March 3th, Yao Xinrui's birthday.

Without the warmth and romance of the past, He Jiaqi didn't know how to make up for the growing rift between the two of them.

He Jiaqi wanted to give Yao Xinrui an unforgettable birthday, after all, this was her first birthday by her side, even though the two had lost the romance they had back then.

He Jiaqi secretly baked a birthday cake for Yao Xinrui without telling her, and persuaded her parents to cook Yao Xinrui a hearty lunch at home.

Yao Xinrui knew that her parents couldn't celebrate her birthday with her on a business trip, and her friends were strangers now, so He Jiaqi wouldn't even remember her now.

When she was about to go back to the dormitory after school to sleep with her head covered, He Jiaqi sent out an invitation, asking Yao Xinrui to go home with her to celebrate her birthday.

Yao Xinrui was overjoyed, but more worried, fearing that this was He Jiaqi's plan to delay the attack.

He Jiaqi begged, but Yao Xinrui had no choice but to nod.

Many things have changed, but what has not changed is the love between the two.

He Jiaqi couldn't help but watch Yao Xinrui degenerate, and Yao Xinrui couldn't refuse any of He Jiaqi's requests.

He Jiaqi's parents didn't turn their eyebrows at Yao Xinrui coldly. Instead, they greeted Yao Xinrui with greetings and greetings. He Jiaqi smiled happily, as if she had returned to the past. There is a sense of relief in it.

But Yao Xinrui didn't know that He Jiaqi made a deal with her parents behind her back in order to give her an unforgettable birthday and a happy future.

After her birthday, Yao Xinrui's insomnia did not improve, and the doctor diagnosed her as mentally weak.Yao Xinrui's mother asked Yao Xinrui to move out of the dormitory without any hesitation.

Yao Xinrui felt relieved, she was obsessed with lodging because of He Jiaqi.Now that He Jiaqi is going to school, it is more comfortable to go home.

The first time Yao Xinrui invited He Jiaqi back to her home, both parents were away, and He Jiaqi did not refuse.The anticipation flickering in her eyes made Yao Xinrui feel that her Xiaoqi was back again.

At noon that day, He Jiaqi kissed Yao Xinrui passionately in Yao Xinrui's bedroom, and didn't let her go until they were both short of breath.

A kiss is enough to cheer up Yao Xinrui for several days.

The second time, He Jiaqi accompanied Yao Xinrui home, and Yao Xinrui's mother invited He Jiaqi to have lunch together.

During the lunch break, the two people who hadn't had physical contact for a long time couldn't control it. They were tired all afternoon, and Yao Xinrui swallowed the overflowing hum that He Jiaqi occasionally couldn't control in the middle, fearing that her mother would hear it.

What Yao Xinrui didn't expect was that her mother was so smart, she had known about her and He Jiaqi's relationship for a long time, and even the slightest rustle in their bedroom fell into her ears.

When Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi went out in the afternoon, they didn't dare to interlock their fingers.

Yao Xinrui, who had always known her mother as a girl, now felt that there was a deep meaning in her mother's eyes that she couldn't fathom.

The mother, who never controlled her behavior, stood at the window and watched them leave as if watching them.After walking a certain distance, Yao Xinrui clasped He Jiaqi's hand with ten fingers. She didn't expect to see her mother standing at the window looking at the two of them when she turned around. hand.

Because, she saw the impossible in her mother's eyes.No matter how much mother loves herself, assuming that the window of love between two people is punctured, even if she resists again, mother will never pass this test.

Yao Xinrui naively thought that if she was honest about her relationship with He Jiaqi, even if the whole world objected, her mother would still stand by her side as before.

But now even the mother who loves her the most doesn't support this relationship, even if He Jiaqi returns to her side, how far can I go with her?How can I go on without my mother's support?

At that moment, Yao Xinrui completely lost the courage and strength to maintain this relationship.

If He Jiaqi's indifference, the rift between the two of them, and the pressure and confusion around them were not enough to make Yao Xinrui give up lightly, then the disapproval in her mother's eyes was definitely the last straw that crushed Yao Xinrui.

"Children only distinguish right from wrong, adults only judge pros and cons." This is Han Han's classic line in "The Future Will Never End" many years later.

It is just right to apply it to Yao Xinrui.

Even though Yao Xinrui loved He Jiaqi deeply at that time and was unwilling to let go, Yao Xinrui was still a child at that time and could still tell right from wrong.

When He Jiaqi alienated her in order to protect her, Yao Xinrui finally couldn't bear the pressure around her and redefined the relationship.

The relationship between He Jiaqi and herself was a mistake, although it was beautiful, it was wrong after all.Maybe, maybe it’s not called love, right?The so-called love is just a young joke......

Since it is wrong, then correct it when you know it.

After thinking carefully for a few days, Yao Xinrui decided to restore this "changed friendship" to friendship......

The author has something to say: There is no small theater today, because I tortured myself.

In the next chapter, Xiaoqi and Ruirui will continue to love and kill each other......

I don't know if you little cuties can understand Ruirui's entanglement and Xiaoqi's helplessness.Maybe the writing is not proficient enough, the writing is not in place, please forgive me, huh.

☆, break up

A few days later in the afternoon, Yao Xinrui solemnly took He Jiaqi's hand, took several deep breaths, and finally had a conversation that Yao Xinrui regretted most in his life.

Yao Xinrui lowered her head and didn't dare to look He Jiaqi in the eyes and said, "Honey, I don't think we should go on like this..."

He Jiaqi was surprised, but asked as expected: "Ruirui, what? You're about to give up, aren't you?"

Yao Xinrui replied awkwardly: "It's either giving up... or, it's us, can we go back to being good friends before?"

"Which one before? How to withdraw?" He Jiaqi continued to ask.

Yao Xinrui was guilty of being asked by He Jiaqi, and said stammeringly, "It's just... um... just no more kisses, no more ambiguous hugs, no more escapades, let's be good friends and girlfriends again. Um, Yes, be good friends!"

After hearing Yao Xinrui's answer, He Jiaqi's eyes were clearly filled with loss and helplessness, and He Jiaqi was silent for a while.

In this moment of silence, Yao Xinrui dared not and could not retract what she said, guilty, and even cowardly waiting for He Jiaqi's answer.

"Okay... If this is what you want, if it makes you happy, if you can do it, I can do it." He Jiaqi said to Yao Xinrui after thinking about it.

Yao Xinrui waited for the answer she wanted, but instead of feeling relieved, she burst into tears.

Falling in love and breaking up, isn't this a plot only in movies?Why did the real and cruel things happen in my own life?

He Jiaqi looked at Yao Xinrui in front of her, sighed, hugged the person in front of her, and comforted him softly, but she didn't give the most effective kiss to stop Yao Xinrui from crying.

He Jiaqi is younger than Yao Xinrui, but she is much more mature than Yao Xinrui.

In her relationship, she has always been in a position of tolerance and tolerance.No matter what Yao Xinrui wants or does, she will unconditionally support and encourage her, even if some of them go against her true inner thoughts...

This "breakup conversation" was deeply imprinted in Yao Xinrui's mind, repeating itself repeatedly.

No matter how many years have passed, every time Yao Xinrui thinks of it, besides smiling wryly, shaking her head, and regretting, she doesn't know what else to do to make up for the harm she did to her lover at that time.

It was Yao Xinrui's wish for the two of them to be together, and He Jiaqi had no hesitation; Yao Xinrui proposed to separate them, but He Jiaqi sadly let go.

At that time, Yao Xinrui never thought about what an unbearable bastard she was, and she didn't realize that everything she did was so unfair to He Jiaqi.

But He Jiaqi never blamed her from the beginning to the end, and never even complained.

Yao Xinrui didn't know He Jiaqi's true thoughts, nor did she know how disappointed He Jiaqi was with her or how much pain she had experienced at that time.

He Jiaqi never said it, and Yao Xinrui never asked, even if she asked, He Jiaqi probably wouldn't say it...

He Jiaqi had long understood that Yao Xinrui didn't know enough about the relationship between the two of them, let alone her own determination. Now that Yao Xinrui brought it up, it was expected, but her heart still hurts.

But if this is what Yao Xinrui wants, he will definitely make it happen.

From that day on, when He Jiaqi was alone, Jay Chou's "Back" was always played in the earphones: "The sky is as gray as if I have cried. After leaving you, there is no more freedom. The sour air, smell Out of our distance, a heart-wrenching ending, like breathing can not stop. The yellow diary in the drawer has drained the memories. That smile is summer, and the past of you and me is forgotten clockwise. Love after hypoxia, Careless tears are superfluous. I know you and I are not wrong, but I just forgot how to back off. I made a promise, but was swept away by time. I know that we are not wrong, but it will be better to let go, the most beautiful love memory To be continued..."

He Jiaqi only pinned her hope on the future. If one day Yao Xinrui grows up and she is free, will the two of them be together again?

Yao Xinrui gradually realized after many years how unreasonable she was at that time, and He Jiaqi's maturity and tolerance at that time set off her childishness and ignorance more and more, regretting why she didn't know how to cherish at that time?

Yao Xinrui only cared about self-pity and was immersed in the sadness of breaking up, but she just blindly felt that since He Jiaqi was not like before and since everything was wrong, why did she force herself.

But she forgot the most important detail, the romance that He Jiaqi only gave to one person in her life:

Yao Xinrui has always liked the little romance given by He Jiaqi, but He Jiaqi is not good at expressing her inner feelings, and always hopes to handle everything alone.

So after the two of them confirmed their relationship, He Jiaqi developed a habit of writing a love letter to Yao Xinrui every day, a square note paper, which can be folded into a heart shape after writing, which includes what He Jiaqi wants to say to Yao Xinrui every day .

In every "heart" there are words of love, encouragement, daily life, jokes, reciprocity, sadness, sadness, and mood...

On the last day of every month, He Jiaqi would buy an exquisite box, put all the secrets hidden in her "heart" in it and give it to Yao Xinrui.

This indescribable romance lasted for a long time, and Yao Xinrui would read every word in it over and over again.

Years later, recalling the romance He Jiaqi gave back then, Yao Xinrui would still shed tears when reading those passages of text, as if seeing He Jiaqi's original love for her in every word.

But Yao Xinrui was too dull at that time, and He Jiaqi, who seemed to no longer love her, still gave her a romance that didn't fit her personality. Yao Xinrui, who was overwhelmed by external pressure, chose to turn a blind eye...

This "breakup" was defined by them as a "second acquaintance", in the name of best friends.

The two even introduced themselves as if they met under the tree on the first day, shook hands and got acquainted again.With heart-wrenching pain and unforgettable love.

Since then, they seem to have stepped into a strange circle, wanting to love but not loving, wanting to kiss but hugging, wanting to hug but hold hands, wanting to hold hands but rejecting.

Their previous lives were already concentric circles, but they had to split apart abruptly, pushing away each other's hearts that wanted to get closer.

They have more and more conflicts, quarrels more and more frequently, pain again and again, hurt, apology, forgiveness again and again...

They all understand that they hurt each other only because the love is too real, but the love is too strong but there is nowhere to vent their emotions.

The conversation between them is almost only "I'm sorry." "I love you."

He Jiaqi said sorry over and over again, I love you over and over again, and hoped that Yao Xinrui would be happy and happy over and over again.

But how can Yao Xinrui be happy without He Jiaqi, how can she be happy?

Although Yao Xinrui proposed to break up, He Jiaqi is almost everything to Yao Xinrui. Without He Jiaqi, Yao Xinrui is like a walking dead.

Seeing Yao Xinrui getting thinner and thinner, He Jiaqi blamed herself even more. It was she who made Yao Xinrui lose her confidence and aura and fell to such a state...

Even though the two broke up clearly, He Jiaqi's habit of giving Yao Xinrui a few words every day has not changed.

Yao Xinrui has been smirking while holding a box of hearts a few months ago, and now she can't stop crying when she opens every "heart".

Yao Xinrui could feel from every word that He Jiaqi still loved her, and she loved her too.

In the words hidden deep in every "heart", what Yao Xinrui saw was He Jiaqi who wanted to resist the pressure from her parents, teachers and the surroundings, who wanted to escape every second, and who wanted to be together with two people.

Yao Xinrui knew that she had already proposed to break up, but the love in her heart became stronger, torturing her and torturing her.

Maybe, she loves her, she loves her.This is not just a habit of two people, it has even become mutual belief.

The young Yao Xinrui didn't know how to resist, how to take responsibility, how to deal with it, and how to protect the person she loved the most, so she chose the worst strategy - breaking up.

She who was not strong enough, hard enough, mature enough, or brave enough chose to let go, and this has been her nightmare ever since.

Salinger wrote this line in "The Heart of a Broken Story": "Some people think that love is sex, it is marriage, it is kisses at six in the morning, and a bunch of children. Maybe it is, but you know what I think Is it? I think love is about wanting to touch and then withdrawing."

The fingers are intertwined, and the unique way of holding hands between them has been preserved.

In the past, He Jiaqi always walked on Yao Xinrui's left. After the "breakup", Yao Xinrui liked to walk on He Jiaqi's left, because it was the closest distance to her lover's heart...

Many years later, Yao Xinrui recalled that the feeling of their fingers interlocking was still clear, and even the heartbeat seemed to miss a beat just like at that time, and that real feeling was the exclusive memory of He Jiaqi and Yao Xinrui. Yao Xinrui was immersed in the memory The smiling face is happy.

After He Jiaqi, Yao Xinrui never locked fingers with anyone.Even though many different people tried to hold Yao Xinrui's hand later, Yao Xinrui tactfully turned it into a more intimate holding.

No one knew, it was because Yao Xinrui couldn't hold hands with anyone after He Jiaqi, except her.

Occasionally in college, Yao Xinrui could hardly refuse to hold hands with friends, and he would never hold hands. Even so, Yao Xinrui would struggle for a long time in his heart before he could barely walk with his friends for a while, and that is another story.

And the exquisite boxes filled with He Jiaqi's sincerity have been lying quietly in the depths of Yao Xinrui's closet.

That is a love that no one can touch, a secret that no one can see, and an eternally beautiful and irreplaceable past.

And their existence inspires and spurs Yao Xinrui to learn how to love, how to grow, how to bear, how to accept, and how to redeem in the days to come.

How to be stronger and freer...

The author has something to say: Dear cuties, I know you have been abused by me recently, please forgive me.

In the future, I will definitely not be abused like before, and it is better to return to the main drama itself.

Here are the refills for you, I hope you can like Ruirui and Xiaoqi in the pen.

Ruirui will grow up soon, and Xiaoqi will be very happy too!

☆, adapt

After months of torturing and hurting each other, Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi gradually found a mode of getting along that suits each other at this stage.

They are lovers, not lovers;

They are girlfriends, different from others;

They are sisters, and blood is better than blood;

They are friends, and they bury their love for each other deep in their hearts.

Their relationship can't always be described clearly in words, but the unbalanced balance is slowly balanced.

After all, two people are in love with each other, understanding and tolerance have replaced blame and complaint.With the passage of time, Yao Xinrui also accepted the peaceful and warm daily life of the two.

A year flies by in the blink of an eye, but for them who couldn't love each other, after groping for so long, loving each other for so long, and being hurt for so long, they finally became indispensable and irreplaceable people in each other's lives. It is that there is no longer any deviant behavior in the relationship between two people.

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The two didn't compromise with their lives, they just pinned more hopes on after the college entrance examination. At that time, if the love between the two is still there, then they can leave together.

Yao Xinrui and He Jiaqi's life became as ordinary as other high school students after one year, and they started their real high school exam preparation life at three o'clock and one line.

In the monotonous and tense life, Yao Xinrui, as the class monitor, began to take on class affairs again. At the same time, Yao Xinrui abused his power for the first time and replaced He Jiaqi's seat with her.

They are the most important support in each other's life and relationship when they become tablemates.

In the second year of high school, Yao Xinrui has always been strong in liberal arts, but He Jiaqi is better at science.

Yao Xinrui's parents, family members, seven aunts and eight aunts tried to dissuade her repeatedly but failed to stop Yao Xinrui's persistence in choosing science.

There are many reasons in Yao Xinrui's explanation, but the most important one is that she doesn't want to leave He Jiaqi.

Yao Xinrui knew that choosing liberal arts meant transferring to another school. At that time, it was too difficult to keep in touch with He Jiaqi.For this reason, Yao Xinrui ignored all her disadvantages and resolutely chose science.

Naturally, He Jiaqi was still by Yao Xinrui's side.

But compared to He Jiaqi's advantages in science, Yao Xinrui's learning efficiency and intelligence at that time seemed to have fallen into the abyss. The homework and mood swings that were left behind in the previous year made Yao Xinrui no matter how hard he worked at that time, he had little effect. It is difficult to concentrate, and the grades have been in the middle and lower reaches.

Mathematics, physics and chemistry are naturally Yao Xinrui's most troublesome subjects. When she is so anxious, she will become irritable, lose patience, get angry, and lose her temper...

He Jiaqi, who was by her side, still wanted to be as obedient as before, patiently explaining to Yao Xinrui how to solve the problem, comforting her when she was depressed, encouraging her when she was disappointed, and hugging her when she was helpless.

At the same time, He Jiaqi was more aware that she was gambling. If they won the bet, they would have a future. If they lost the bet, they would say goodbye.

Yao Xinrui also deeply understands that she can't make any promises to He Jiaqi now, so she can only move forward step by step. Every day with He Jiaqi's company, she is not afraid of any difficulties.

When they were still lovers, they dared to make promises with the king only when there was no sky, no edge, and heaven and earth together, but they also had vows for a lifetime, sworn vows.

"A promised life, a year, a month, a day, or an hour is not called a lifetime." This is the classic line in "Farewell My Concubine".

He Jiaqi loves her "brother" Leslie Cheung the most. Yao Xinrui memorized this line deeply when the two of them watched a movie together.

The vow of a lifetime, in that era when love was not possible and the material foundation was weak, two people could not fulfill it.

They bet their entire life on the future, as well as on waiting.

In the future, when both of them are admitted by Yanbei University and have ideal jobs, maybe the two of them can be together for the rest of their lives, right?

Yao Xinrui's grades can't be put on the table at all, and He Jiaqi still encourages Yao Xinrui every day.In He Jiaqi's heart, Yao Xinrui has always been the little angel wearing a halo, and has always been the best. Yao Xinrui's position in his heart has never changed.

But Yao Xinrui's self-confidence instilled by He Jiaqi every day will disappear in one blow after another.

At that time, Yao Xinrui's only comfort was He Jiaqi's perseverance. Although it was not as sweet as before, as Best Friend Forever, they still had the best years of each other.

The pace of life in high school is very fast, and it is the second semester of the second year of high school in a blink of an eye.

At this time, Yao Xinrui already understood that her dream of a prestigious school was basically shattered, and she could not fulfill the promise she had made to He Jiaqi: "Be sure to do well, Yanbei University is waiting for us."

My helplessness and entanglement, resentment and stagnation in the past two years have made my character more and more extreme, and this kind of self has fettered He Jiaqi and her future who are by my side.

Things in the world are always full of various coincidences and inevitability. While Yao Xinrui was struggling, He Jiaqi also got the news that she had been worried about all along.

Remember the deal He Jiaqi made with her parents for Yao Xinrui's birthday?What He Jiaqi has been betting on is not only the future of the two of them, but also her own future.

At that time, the parents agreed to Yao Xinrui's birthday celebration at home on the premise that He Jiaqi would take the IELTS and AP exams in the second semester of her sophomore year of high school. If she was admitted, she would skip her senior year of high school, which not only saved time, but also avoided the subsequent entanglement with Yao Xinrui.

He Jiaqi nodded in agreement, but she didn't expect her parents to actually implement the plan.Now that I am ready to go, my parents put the test confirmation letter on my desk.

He Jiaqi, who had been hiding the truth from Yao Xinrui, told Yao Xinrui the whole story on a sunny afternoon.

Yao Xinrui didn't cry, but was blinded by the sunlight.

In front of He Jiaqi, Yao Xinrui was still naive, innocent and childish, but she knew how important and precious this opportunity was to He Jiaqi. It was not easy to get such an opportunity in those days, and it needed a strong financial backing. It has always been He Jiaqi's dream buried deep in her heart.

If you can't enter Yanbei University with He Jiaqi, then letting He Jiaqi go to chase your dream is the best choice.

Yao Xinrui, who grew up a little, began to try not to act emotionally, but still couldn't accept the fact that He Jiaqi was about to leave her, and once again fell into pain and sadness.

The 17-year-old Yao Xinrui has learned to cover up in front of her lover, and her performance is no longer so obvious.

In order to prepare for the IELTS and AP exams, He Jiaqi's study pressure increased instantly.He listened attentively in class, and concentrated on solving the questions after class, leaving only a little breathing time to accompany Yao Xinrui.

When Yao Xinrui looked at He Jiaqi, who was busy beside him, what he played back in his head was the time when he didn't care, and even fell in love and killed each other. Stefanie Sun's "I Still Read" was played back in the earphones:

"What I miss is talking without saying anything, what I miss is dreaming together, what I miss is the urge to love you after a quarrel.

I remember my birthday that year, I also remember that song, I remember that starry sky, the tightest right hand, the warmest chest, who forgot.

What I miss is the silent touch, what I miss is the absolute fieryness, what I miss is that you are very excited, please forgive me and hug me so painfully.

I remember you behind my back, and I remember trembling, and I remember feeling turbulent.

The most beautiful fireworks, the longest hug, who loves too freely.

Whoever goes too far, whoever wants to take my heart, whoever forgets, that is a promise.

Whoever walks on his own, who forgets to look at me, who makes love heavy, who forgets to give you tenderness..."

Compared with Yao Xinrui's sadness, He Jiaqi would take a short time to accompany Yao Xinrui every day, and would always give Yao Xinrui similar comfort: "Don't worry, Ruirui, I may not leave, I may not be admitted, There are still many uncertainties, right? Maybe we can still go to Yanbei University together."

In Yao Xinrui's view, such a white lie only adds to the sadness, because she understands that the time they spend together is numbered, and when He Jiaqi leaves, it will be difficult for her to adapt to life without her by her side.

Even though she is no longer a lover, He Jiaqi is still present in every corner of her life.

If she leaves suddenly, my heart will definitely be hollowed out and I will be at a loss, so let's get used to it from now on.

Yao Xinrui has learned to put herself in He Jiaqi's shoes, and her own existence will definitely distract He Jiaqi, who is already physically and mentally exhausted.

He Jiaqi has already paid so much for herself and lost so much, so it's time for me to let go of He Jiaqi, let her do the most important things, and let her make more friends.

After seven months of being at the same table, Yao Xinrui once again took advantage of the class leader and "assigned" his beloved He Jiaqi at the right time.

Let her join another study group. Although the grades of the members in the group are not top-notch, the ratio of male to female is balanced, united, friendly, and helpful to each other. After careful consideration, Yao Xinrui assigned He Jiaqi's seat.

The intention is to let He Jiaqi enjoy the days when she is not alone in her life in her last high school years.

Yao Xinrui always felt: He Jiaqi deserves better.Although, she didn't know if this was what He Jiaqi wanted.

When He Jiaqi and Yao Xinrui's seats were separated, the actual distance was far away, but Yao Xinrui could clearly feel that He Jiaqi was happier and more relaxed than when she was locked by her side.

"If she's happy, it's worth it." Yao Xinrui only hopes that He Jiaqi can live comfortably in the last few months, which is her greatest desire.

He Jiaqi, who had never shown any dissatisfaction, suddenly asked Yao Xinrui a few weeks later, "Ruirui, why did you move my seat without authorization and force me to leave you?"

Yao Xinrui hid her thoughts and made an excuse and said, "Xiao Qi~ That was not my decision, what was Teacher Jiang's thought at that time, I want you to study hard."

He Jiaqi curled her lips and said, "I don't believe you, it's obvious that you have selfish intentions! Get rid of me, and now you're finally sitting with the little girl you had a crush on in junior high?!"

Yao Xinrui didn't know if He Jiaqi was dissatisfied with letting her leave her, or for some other reason, but the conclusion she came to made Yao Xinrui dumbfounded.

Yao Xinrui did not explain for the first time, no longer defended, and acquiesced.

If this is what He Jiaqi can accept