I lost my memory after throwing the ball and running over the total crematorium

Grace Welfare Home.He Jingnian remembered this place.After my mother passed away, I stayed there for a long time, but there were no memorable things left.

I don't know if I forgot, or nothing happened at all.

"You investigated me." He stared at the original speech and said.

As soon as the words came out, the original speech suddenly showed a very hurt expression, and said: "Niannian, I have never done this kind of thing. There is a place where we have shared memories, how could I not know?"

Of course he knew, not only knew, but had known long ago.It is understanding, not investigation, that kind of word is too ugly.What's wrong with wanting to know everything about someone just because you love someone deeply?

Back then, after discovering the secret of the Walkman, he immediately sent someone to the Enci Orphanage.He Jingnian was not yet adopted by Zhang Xingde and Chen Meng when he was 11 years old, so there is a high probability that the boy is a child in the same orphanage as him.

He took the list handed over by Secretary Jin and turned it page by page. Everyone on it was so hideous, and they might all be the people He Jingnian loved until now.

"Director Yuan, during the years when Madam was in the orphanage, all the children who have been in and out of the orphanage are on this list." Secretary Jin pushed his glasses, "The director also agreed to our conditions and promised to put all the children in these years The records were stripped from the archives without anyone having access to them."

He nodded slightly, full of revenge and jealousy.In short, He Jingnian must not be left with the slightest thought.

However, the world is impermanent. At that time, he did not expect that this thorn in his heart has now become a sharp weapon for deception and deception.

"I don't want to go there." He Jingnian said.

"So, you still don't believe me." Yuan Ci's voice slowly retracted his smile, "You have misunderstood me once, why didn't you even give me a chance to prove it to you this time?"

He Jingnian rubbed his temple, which started to ache again, and said in a low voice, "I just think this kind of thing is so meaningless."

"How could it be meaningless?" Yuan Cisheng pulled his hand away, and while rubbing it for him, he smiled sadly and bitterly. "If it doesn't make sense, why do you care so much about that Walkman?"

He Jingnian's headache got worse.The temperature of Yuan Ci's skin has always been very high, especially the palm. He felt a tingling sensation from rubbing it. He wanted to break away, but the other party forced him to look at him, "Isn't it?"

"I do feel very familiar with it, but..."

The original voice interrupted, "It's not it, it's the voice of the person inside."

"what do you want to say in the end?"

"There is only one thing I want to say. Year after year, you have always loved me. You have loved me for more than ten years." Yuan Cisheng recalled that three years ago, when He Jingnian regarded himself as a young master, he told himself Those eager confessions.Thinking about those words now, they are still like sweet sharp knives, but he has to force himself to swallow them.

"Niannian, will you let me like you back? I will never fall in love with anyone else in my life. I will only love you forever."

He Jingnian looked at the man in front of him, amazed that every confession he made was like the first time, with a firm expression, bright eyes, full of expectation.However, the normal is the appearance, and the abnormal is the essence.The two of them have been entangled until now, and it has long been a hopeless mess.Love or not, true or false, even he himself can't tell the difference.

"Even if you can prove it, so what?" He Jingnian asked the original voice, and also asked himself.If the boy in the Walkman is Liao Xia, what should I do?

It's strange, he can be cruel to Yuanci, harder than iron and stone, but just thinking of the name Liao Xia, iron and stone can also turn into cotton.

"I... go with you." He Jingnian finally agreed.Hearing the original speech, he was overjoyed, and hugged him in his arms and kissed him.He Jingnian frowned to hide from him, but he also ignored his resistance, held his cheeks and kissed him twice.

"Great! Niannian, when we get there, I will tell you all our memories." Yuan Ci laughed happily, and soft broken light overflowed from the beautiful green eyes, which is more real than diamonds .

The Enci Welfare Institute is located in the old city of Chuanyuan City, which is known as Xiazhijiao. Although it is in the urban area, it is full of old houses that have not been demolished, cramped and crowded.The narrow alleys are intertwined like human blood vessels. People who come here for the first time will definitely get lost.

"My former home is here." He Jingnian stood at the entrance of the alley, squinting his eyes and looking in. "I live in Yuhang Street with my mother. It's a strange name. I don't know if I can find it now."

An old woman walked past them on crutches, and when she saw them standing there hesitating, she kindly asked, "Young man, where are you going? Do you need me to show you the way?"

"No need." Yuan Ci declined with a smile, "I know you well."

He Jingnian looked at him in surprise, "How did you know each other?"

Yuan Cisheng took his hand, clasped his fingers as always, and led him away.

The two people's footsteps startled a flock of pigeons parked on the wall, and the gray shadow flapped its wings and flew into the narrow sky where the antennas intersected.

The original voice is more familiar with this place than the courier in this area.The clouds floated very low, gray broken clouds along the endless alley like the corridor of time, and the alternating light and shadow of light and shadow cast on his face.He Jingnian looked at him in disbelief.In other words, it was inconceivable that someone like him would appear in such a place.

"Are you surprised?" Yuan Cisheng's green eyes slid to the corners of his eyes, and then a gentle smile appeared on the corners of his mouth, "During the years when you were away, I sometimes came here."

"so."

"Do you know how these alleys got their names?"

He Jingnian shook his head.

"These weird names are all based on the original business in the local area." Yuan Ci raised his eyes, "Here, Tangfang Lane, used to be the place where malt candy was made. Did you eat malt candy here when you were young?" Is it sweet?"

"When business is good, my mother will bring me to buy candy." He Jingnian pursed his lips.He likes to hear the sound of sugar being knocked down.

"Mom loves you very much."

He Jingnian was slightly taken aback, the original speech sounded too natural, the raindrops fell on the lake without a trace.

"Yuhang Street is in front of you." Yuan Ci said, "Do you want to go in and have a look?"

He Jingnian hesitated, "Forget it, there is nothing to see."

"Have."

Yuan Cisheng held his hand and walked straight inside, the darker and damper it went inside, and the sun didn't have time to shine through such a long alley.All kinds of debris piled up on both sides, only a light gray outline emerged.

He Jingnian touched the tip of his nose, and there was a stale and musty smell in the air, but it was quite different from what he remembered.In the past, when there were fishmongers coming out of the stalls here every morning, the whole road was full of strong fishy smell of aquatic products.My mother will also set up a stall here, and she will go out on a tricycle early in the morning.There are baskets of fresh fish on the tricycle, which is very heavy. My mother is very tired from riding.

Despite this, my mother insisted on putting herself in the car and sending herself to school.Obviously, I can go alone, but my mother is worried, saying that there are not many ways to spare anyway, and I can still read more books while I have time.

Mom would not send herself to the school gate, she would stop at a corner, watch herself enter the school gate, and then go to the market on a heavy tricycle.

He knew that his mother did this because he didn't want to be seen by his classmates, for fear that he would be ashamed in front of his classmates, or someone would laugh at him because of it.

In fact, my mother is a very beautiful and clean person, no worse than any other classmate's mother.A necklace worth tens of dollars is more brilliant than a real gemstone of high value even if she wears it on her body.

Although he and his mother have always lived in such a dusty place, they really like bright and shiny things.She would be so happy and happy if she could wear a piece of real jewelry designed for her, and she must, look good like a fairy.

It's just that there is no such opportunity anymore.

He was still too young when his mother left, and he was sent to the orphanage with a small schoolbag on his back. He failed to keep the few things left by his mother, so that whenever he missed her later, he could rely on There is only a tiny bit of memory.

"Where are you taking me?" He Jingnian didn't want to go any further. Things changed and people changed. There was no mother, and there was nothing to commemorate her. Every step is like stepping on a muddy swamp.

"Here we are." Yuan Ci stopped and stood in front of an old building.

Ugly and ordinary old buildings, no different from most buildings here, with shops on the ground floor and residential buildings above.The gray and black exterior walls are mottled and peeling off, and the exposed downpipes are covered with rust spots. The window glass of the storefront on the first floor is very large, and it is dark from the outside, and the environment inside cannot be seen clearly.

"What is this place?" He Jingnian asked.The residents of this alley were walking and moving, and this shop had obviously been idle for a long time.

"You wait for me here." The voice of Yuan Ci walked in.

He Jingnian stood where he said.After a while, the eyes suddenly lit up, and the bright warm yellow light diffused.This light came out of the glass windows, making every piece of glass sparkle.In an instant, the entire dull and dark alley seemed to become transparent and bright, with a strong contrast, and a strange feeling of daydreaming.

Then, He Jingnian saw Yuan Cisheng standing behind the window and waved to him.Behind him is a neat and bright storefront with bright and clean windows, and various jewels are displayed in glass cabinets, which are bright and shining.Everything retains the style of more than ten years ago, but it is vivid and new, as if it is still in business today.

The window was opened, Yuan Cisheng leaned out, a slight wind blew his curly hair, and the light fell into his eyes, as bright as morning stars.

He said: "Niannian, I kept your favorite place when you were young, are you happy?"

He Jingnian's heart beat so hard that he couldn't say a word.

He didn't know how Yuancisheng managed to find this small shop that had been closed for many years in this densely populated old city, and restored it to its appearance more than ten years ago.I don't even remember ever mentioning this matter to him, even if I did, it must be just a trivial incident in my childhood.

"Whether it is the person who gave it or the person who wears it, compared with the value of the gem itself, the most precious thing is the sincere heart."

"Niannian, I remember every word you said to me."

"This store has witnessed your love for your mother. Therefore, I thought that I must keep it no matter what, and try to keep it as it was back then."

"For me, your heart will always be the most precious thing in this world."

Yuan Cisheng picked up a photo frame that was placed in the corner of the counter, and handed it to him.

He Jingnian took it, and when he saw it, he couldn't help but widen his eyes.

"This is……"

The original speech said: "I have been to the old house that you rented with your mother back then, but because of the passage of time, I don't know how many tenants there have changed, and the things left by your mother can't be retrieved."

"Then this group photo... where did you find it?"

"I went to a nearby photo studio. I heard from the residents here that the photo studio has been open until now, and the business used to be very good. Everyone went back there to take pictures, thinking that maybe they could find the photos of you and your mother from the archives. group photo."

He Jingnian was surprised, "Isn't it like finding a needle in a haystack if you find a negative from so long ago?"

"I also want to see you when I was a child." Yuan Ci lowered his eyes with an extremely gentle expression.

In the photo, the woman is holding a seven or eight-year-old boy by the hand. The boy has delicate features, fair skin, pointed chin, and black grape-like eyes. He Jingnian can be recognized at a glance.The woman looked nothing like him, black and thin, narrow eyes, thick lips, not pretty, but the most beautiful.

Around her neck was a string of gemstone necklaces, rough and inferior products that anyone could recognize at a glance, but they were as precious as the priceless Argos.

He Jingnian moved his lips, because of the choked sobs at the moment, he could only blow out air and make mouth shapes, and said, "I really haven't seen my mother for a long time."

"I know."

"These things... since when did you do it? How did you do it? I... don't know at all."

The original speech laughed but did not answer.In fact, as early as the second day after hearing He Jingnian talk about these things, he had already started to do them.It's just that too many things happened later, and it wasn't until now that I had the opportunity to bring He Jing here.

"Someday, you can take me to see my mother. Year after year, can you?"

He Jingnian looked at him, and those green eyes stayed on him all the time, like moist and clear gemstone beads, clustered with light.

"Take Gaogui with you when the time comes." He said slowly, "Gaogui is my dearest person, you are Gaogui's father, and you are also my relatives."

As soon as the words fell, the light in those beautiful eyes was like a candle in the wind, and suddenly went out.

After a long silence, Yuan Cisheng reached out his hand, held it, and brought it to his lips to caress it.One of them stands in the window, the other stands outside the window, it looks like a farewell scene, a sad metaphor.

"Niannian, I not only want to be your relative, I also want to be your lover."

Yuan Ci stared at him for a long time, his eyes were hot, and his voice was like a handful of hot fine sand.

"Niannian, I love you so much, no one can do better than me."

Immersed in the scorching hot air that was like substance, He Jingnian's thoughts surged up and down. Many things that had been numb and dormant for a long time gradually melted away, and all feelings were revived, including those abnormal, perverted, and suffocated. And... sweet.

They all make him extremely uncomfortable, like the ruthless and cold white snow in winter, which keeps piling up in his head, swelling and hurting.He clutched his forehead in pain and slumped against the wall.It was as if something dragged his whole body straight down, falling into the boundless darkness.

After regaining consciousness, He Jingnian found himself sent to the hospital.The doctor stood beside him, jotting down something.Seeing him waking up, the doctor told him that his old illness three years ago may have relapsed because of his relatively high mood swings during this period.Although it's fine for the time being, you still need to pay more attention and don't be stimulated any more.

After a while, Yuan Cisheng came in, holding an insulated lunch box in his hand, and when he opened it, there were all the dishes he usually liked.He probably got used to feeding GaoGao, Yuan Cisheng naturally wanted to feed him, but he flatly refused.After all, I just had a brain problem, not a broken limb.

After eating for a while, He Jingnian put down his chopsticks as if thinking of something, "Is it really because of a car accident that I became like that three years ago?"