I lost my memory after throwing the ball and running over the total crematorium

Although he wondered if this would be bad, He Jingnian was impatiently curious, so he couldn't help but look up.

For a moment, his pupils trembled slightly, and a feeling of distant and nostalgic hit his heart.This is what it feels like to find a long-lost precious treasure before you realize it.

Is that Liao Xia...?

The teenager in the photo is really too beautiful, so bright that there is no shadow.Even though those photos had faded and turned yellow, they did not affect his beauty in the slightest.

He Jingnian's chest swelled up and down, as if it was being filled with something rushing out, and he couldn't find a vent.The boy in front of him is like a landscape painting, he has no sense of reality, or in other words, he is an ideal image of a boy that can only be seen in dreams.

Dark chestnut curly hair, snow-white skin, and a pair of clear green eyes.He has an appearance that has been carefully crafted and favored by the Creator, and is full of light that is more gorgeous than gems, but there is no sense of distance that rejects people thousands of miles away.Compared with his peers who are about the same age as him, he seems to be a little more innocent and childish, with a vivid expression, a bright smile, and warmth like a gust of smoke blowing into his heart.

He Jingnian flipped back page by page like a maniac, he saw the photo of Gao Gao talking about hugging the horse's neck and crying in fright, and he also saw him galloping recklessly on the little white horse after he finally learned it .

very nice.He Jingnian softened his brows and eyes, and couldn't help being happy for him.In the photo, the young man's every move, every frown and smile, so touched his heartstrings.

A big hand with sharp bones came down and pressed it on the photo album, "Don't look at it."

He Jingnian closed the photo album with a "snap", hugging his chest tightly, "What are you doing!"

Yuan Ci's voice was startled, he didn't expect that he was afraid that others would snatch the treasure, and hurriedly said: "Look, look..."

He Jingnian came to his senses with a slightly embarrassed face, and returned the album to him, "I won't read it."

Yuan Cisheng stood there holding the photo album, not knowing why he was suddenly unhappy.

"Thank you..." He Jingnian coughed, "Thank you for the growth record you made."

Yuan Ci smiled, "I originally wanted to show you."

The beetroot soup has been cooked, bubbling with thick bubbles, and the sweet and sour aroma is wafting out.He Jingnian brought down the soup pot, and as soon as he lifted the lid, GaoGao came over and asked with bright eyes, "I want to eat GaoGao too, can I?"

He Jingnian put his daughter on a small chair, filled a bowl with a small rabbit bowl, and fed it spoon by spoon into her little mouth that was waiting to be fed.

Yuan Cisheng sat down next to GaoGao, looking at him expectantly.

He Jingnian put it succinctly, "You have to eat yourself."

The original speech filled the bowl in dismay, picked up the spoon weakly, and loosened it as if it could not bear the weight. With a "click", the spoon fell into the bowl.

He Jingnian: "..."

In desperation, he had no choice but to feed Gao Gao's father after feeding her.GaoGao's father is so big, but he is really not as good as a little girl who is a little older.GaoGao can make hot soup by herself, but GaoGao's father can only look deeply at He Jingnian with those green eyes full of sorrow and resentment, and say softly, "It's hot."

GaoGao gave a long "cut", "Daddy is really useless."

He Jingnian nodded, "Indeed."

The original voice was not ashamed but proud, opened his mouth with an "ah", and glanced at Snoopy who was lying there staring at him jealously.

As expected of the former chairman who will be strong all his life, this time, he won in the end!

At night, He Jingnian carried Gao Gao, who was wearing a fluffy pink bunny pajamas, into her princess bed, and sat by the bed to tell her a bedtime story.Halfway through the speech, Yuan Cisheng walked in, and sat down on the Tutu carpet shamelessly, "I want to listen too."

He Jingnian resisted the urge to roll his eyes, and turned to pick out picture books from the bookshelf.

GaoGao asked in a nonchalant voice: "Daddy, can GaoGao want to listen to "The Peacock Prince"?"

"This one." Yuan Cisheng stretched out his hand, found it from a pile of books with ease, and handed it to He Jingnian.

This fairy tale has obviously been flipped through countless times, and it is a little curled up.

"Daddy, Dad said that before GaoGao was born, he would read this story to you every night. This is your favorite story." The little girl said with a serious look on her face, "In the days when I'm waiting for you to come back , Dad often reads "The Peacock Prince" to me. This is your favorite fairy tale, we listen to it together, as if we are thinking of you together."

He Jingnian lowered his head, the Peacock Prince on the cover of the picture book was sometimes blurred and sometimes clear, and his heart was also flustered by wind and rain.

"Every year, there is never a coincidence." Yuan Cisheng stretched out his hand and gently covered the back of his hand. "The reason why you chose "The Peacock Prince" as the design theme of the book flipping stick is because you can't let go of the beauty of our past in your subconscious. This story has nothing to do with anyone, it belongs only to me and your memories."

He Jingnian curled up his fingers, trying to shrink back, but was caught up by Yuan Ci's voice and clenched even tighter.He raised his eyes and looked at the handsome face full of sincerity, "Really?"

Yuan Ci's eyelashes drooped, as if he was a little hurt.He whispered: "Otherwise, why do you think I will take that flip book stick at all costs? Every year, no matter whether it is damaged or not, it is priceless in my heart."

If He Jingnian didn't hear it, he opened the title page and read the story softly.

After coaxing GaoGao to sleep, he went out lightly, Yuan Ci followed him, "Where are you going?"

He Jingnian said: "Your illness is almost cured, I should go back too."

The original voice seemed to be incomprehensible, "Where are you going?"

"You...you and GaoGao, if you have anything to do, you can call me." He Jingnian paused, "Be careful yourself and get more rest."

The original speech did not mean to let him go at all, "Why do you want to go back? Haven't you and Shen Er already broken up?"

He Jingnian was startled, "What are you talking about?"

"That night, he treated you like that, are you still willing to be with him? Shouldn't you break up with him?" Yuanci's eyes flashed with extreme hatred, and then he made a sad tone and said hoarsely : "I just wanted to say Merry Christmas to you, that's all, but he hurt you like that. Year after year, he's not humiliating me, it doesn't matter to me, he's breaking your heart. No one in this world entitled to hurt you."

He Jingnian's face turned pale, "Stop talking, I don't want to hear it."

"Niannian, I know he's left you alone." Yuan Ci said in an embarrassing voice, "Otherwise, you'd want to protect his feelings, and it's impossible to come and see me."

"He didn't, we're fine." He Jingnian's lips quivered, "As for me, I came to see you because you are Gao Gao's father, and it has nothing to do with anything else."

"Are you still going to use this excuse to prevaricate me, or rather, to deceive yourself?"

"This is not an excuse, it's a fact!" He Jingnian argued painfully, "I really have no other relationship with you except for having a child!"

"Yes!" Yuan Ci raised his pitch, "That book flip stick is a tangible proof, proving that Gao Giao is a child born of expectation and love, proving that you really love me!"

"You speak too much!"

"You are deceiving yourself and others!" Yuan Ci's voice was heavy breathing, and every word was full of effort, as if only in this way could He Jingnian be convinced, and only in this way could he be convinced.

"Even if you don't remember anything, you will still be attracted by everything related to me again." He gritted his teeth and growled, "Just because I read that fairy tale to you back then, you chose it without hesitation! "

"I do not have!"

"You have!" Yuan Ci interrupted him sharply, "Others don't know you, how can I not know? Do you think you really love Shen Tangfeng? If you really love him, no matter when, no matter Whoever you are with, you still think about him all in your heart. You will regard everything about him as a treasure, even if it is worthless in the eyes of others. Even you can't measure how much you love him, because you I have already regarded him as my faith, and that is how I love him."

"Ask yourself, do you love Shen Tangfeng so much? Do you?"

"Stop talking!" He Jingnian desperately pushed him away, pushing away this beautiful nightmare and terrible dream. "What do you know? Do you think you know me well!"

"Why don't I know!" Yuan Ci clenched his fists, every joint trembling.Of course, he knew better than anyone else that he had worked hard as a substitute.For such a little bit of self-deceiving and pitiful tenderness, God knows what kind of pain and unwillingness he endured back then to play his young master beside He Jingnian!

"Because..." He held He Jingnian's thin shoulders and declared word by word, "You used to pursue me like this and came to my side."

He Jingnian was stunned, and looked at him incredulously, "What did you say?"

The voice of Yuan Ci grabbed his hand, almost pulling him into his room, and moved out a luxurious and exquisite wooden box from the back of the cabinet.A heavy copper lock is hung on the wooden box, and all the treasures hidden inside are irreplaceable treasures that belong only to Yuan Cisheng.

He Jingnian saw that in addition to the nightingale he had returned to him, there was also a dark green scarf and an old-fashioned Walkman.As if grabbing a coal fire, Yuan Ci tremblingly picked up the Walkman and stuffed it into his hand.

"Niannian, this is the first gift I gave you, in a winter long ago."

"My mother does charity in many places every year. That year, she took me to the Enci Welfare Institute, and that's where I met you."

"Later, we met again at a celebration reception. Although I didn't know you existed at the time, you already recognized me."

"We've been together ever since."

"It's all my fault. Why haven't I been able to find out. If I could have noticed your mind earlier, you wouldn't have suffered so long alone."

The original speech closed its eyes, it was obviously a series of lies, but it formed a real pain in the bottom of my heart.He imagined, if he was really the young master, wouldn't he be ignored by the people he likes every day?What's more, that person has done so many excessive things to him.

"Niannian, so no matter how much you hate me, it's justified."

"It's understandable that you can no longer fall in love with others."

He Jingnian was stunned, his head was buzzing, and his heart was in a mess.He didn't believe it, and it was impossible for him to believe it, but what was extremely paradoxical was that it seemed that only by believing could he explain all his abnormalities.

"Niannian, I didn't lie to you, what I said is true." Yuan Ci put on the earphones for him, and the moment he pressed the play button, there was a sharp dull pain in his chest.It was like a bomb detonated, and the devastating pain was transmitted to the depths of the heart.

For my own despicableness, for my own humbleness.

But he really couldn't help it.The young master is his thorn in the heart, a permanent necrosis, but now, it is also his only trump card to save He Jingnian——

As before.

really.

The voice of Yuan Ci peeped He Jingnian's face, that delicate and gentle face was quickly filled with surprise, and there was an indescribable emotion in his eyes.

Sure enough, it will be like this.

Yuan Ci laughed crazily and silently.He laughed at his jealousy, his unwillingness, and his powerlessness.This little thing was the chief culprit that caused him and He Jingnian to break up.Without it, maybe they can reach a good ending.How he hated it, and now he had to use it to support his lies.

"Every year, everything is preordained, from the moment we meet again."

He put on an affectionate and nostalgic face, even though his heart was so bitter that he was going crazy.He hugged He Jingnian with varying degrees of strength, for fear of arousing resistance.However, it was him who was worrying too much, He Jingnian's whole body and mind had been seized by that gadget, and he was completely immersed in his own world.

Yuan Cisheng pinched his jaw and kissed him.He missed this soft fragrance, and he was infatuated and intoxicated, thinking about it like crazy.

He Jingnian still held the Walkman tightly with both hands, sticking to his heart, he didn't care about his kiss, and didn't even realize it at all.

The original voice was jealous beyond words, and kissed him even more excessively, biting him with his teeth, and twisting around with the tip of his tongue.He Jingnian was tightly shackled in his arms, his thin body seemed to be embedded in his chest.He was very uncomfortable, his soul was floating in the clear boy's voice from more than ten years ago, but his mouth was full of scalding pain, and he was forced to swallow the other party's saliva and breath.

Mess.Mind, body, and heart all lost their way.

He Jingnian slapped his eyelashes with difficulty, and fine teardrops oozed out.It's just that tears can't soften the other person's heart, on the contrary, they become some kind of excellent catalyst. Sparks fall into the firewood, and the fluffy fire ignites more intensely.

He didn't know that Yuan Cisheng no longer expected him to show a smile to himself, or other gentle expressions.Therefore, tears are fine, tears are also a luxury, as long as he can have emotions for himself.

The warm Walkman slipped from his hand, and the feeling of empty palm made him terrified.With eyes blurred by tears, he groped and lay on the ground, searching desperately.Seeing his distraught appearance, Yuan Cisheng hated him, and hated himself even more.

He slowly bent down, and the thick shadow was about to envelop He Jingnian.He just wrapped his arms around He Jingnian's waist from behind, his tall body covered his thin back, like a voracious predator, viciously pinching the bewildered and ignorant little animal into his arms.

He Jingnian stretched out his arms, struggling to reach the Walkman.But before the fingertips touched him, the force of the tight waist suddenly increased, dragging him backwards, causing him to slam back into the chest of the man behind him even harder.

"Niannian, I'm here, don't worry about that, okay?"

The voice of Yuan Ci held his waist, the waist hidden under the loose clothes could not usually see the lines, but when he pinched it with his hand, he suddenly felt incredibly thin and deadly soft.The twisted, slender and soft waist stubbornly struggled in his palm, making his heart itchy and annoying.

"Don't pick that up, can't you look at me!"

With a low growl, Yuan Ci pushed him into the long-haired carpet, bit and kissed him as if venting, and densely printed the tyrannical and fierce kisses on every inch of his exposed skin.But even under such a terrifying and outrageous attack, He Jingnian still persisted in struggling desperately, trying to grab the Walkman lying in the corner back into his palm.

The voice of Yuan Ci slowly stopped, and suddenly felt an unprecedented sense of frustration.He brushed his loose curly hair back indiscriminately, and asked bitterly, "You remember something, right! Speak up!"

He Jingnian knelt on the ground, lowered his head, tears streamed down his eyelashes one by one, seeping into the carpet.

"No..." He murmured like a dream, "I can't remember anything..."

"Then, why did you pick up that thing? I'm right here! That's what I gave you. The person you love, me, is right in front of you!"

He Jingnian didn't respond, his head buried in his arms, his whole body trembling uncontrollably, like a thin fallen leaf in the wind.Yuan Cisheng felt great grief, picked him up and hugged him, kissed him tenderly, and kept apologizing.

He Jingnian kept silent, lost his mind, lost his soul, and felt the long-lost dizziness in his mind, and the world was spinning wildly before his eyes.He felt like he was back in the days in the hospital again, he couldn't see or hear, and he didn't know where he was.

By the time the consciousness returned, it was already the next morning.As soon as He Jingnian opened his eyes, he saw Yuan Cisheng lying on the side of the bed, propping his cheek with one hand, looking at him tenderly.He was dressed elegantly and beautifully as always, with straight cufflinks, a straight tie, and curly hair erected meticulously, exposing the entire smooth and full forehead.

"Niannian, good morning." He smiled, with white teeth and clear eyes.

He Jingnian was slightly stunned, he vaguely remembered that this person was playing hob meat on him last night, kissing and biting like crazy, why did he suddenly look human again after wiping his face.

"Are you looking for this?" Yuan Cisheng spread his palms.

He Jingnian lowered his eyes, it was the Walkman.He subconsciously wanted to take it, but he still withdrew his hand, not daring.Once it comes across it, Yuan Cisheng will play crazy with himself again.He doesn't hate being with him normally, but he's always like that, and he's really tired and at his limit.

"Niannian, you still don't believe me." Yuan Ci sighed helplessly, "Niannian, I will not lie to you, I have never lied to you."

He Jingnian lowered his head, thinking that he didn't know if he would deceive others, but he really liked to deceive himself and others.

"I want to take you to the place where we first met." Yuan Cisheng held his hand, "Niannian, would you like to visit with me?"

He Jingnian moved his lips, "Where?"

The smile in the original speech deepened, "Enci Orphanage."

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