Agreed, let's not chase her!

"In my senior year," Ayu explained to me after listening to me complain about her alienating me after returning from her hometown in the next school year of her senior year, recalling what happened at that time, "After I went back, my mother suddenly wanted to Take me for a full-body examination, and after the examination report comes out, tell me to take me to Zhucheng and ask me to take an annual leave."

"My mother said that I was born with a disease. This disease was passed down from my ancestors to my grandfather, but not to my father. I thought the disease would be gone, but I didn't expect to skip the direct line. The blood passed down to me, and my mother said my grandpa died before he could live past 40."

"My mother comforted me, saying that medicine was underdeveloped in my grandfather's time, but my age is different, and I must still have treatment. But I know, they must have visited all the hospitals in Yuncheng when I was not sensible. I had no choice but to tell me to leave the city. I was so scared at that time, I was afraid that I would disappear like this one day, and you and Wang Jing would cry to death."

"So, you just thought of disappearing without saying a word?" I hugged her and let her pillow on my shoulder, making her more comfortable.

"Yeah, if I run away, you will be angry for a few years at most. If I die, you don't have to cry to death. What's more, I'm still alive. I want to linger on for so many years, and you have to watch helplessly. I die, how miserable it is, just imagining your frowning faces all day long makes me feel terrible."

"So then I just dropped out of school, and my parents basically didn't have any opinions. God knows how long it would take to cure my illness. It is not something a family like ours can bear to send money with an empty number of a university. When I left I was so scared to death, I was afraid that you would suddenly come to me again. I packed up my things as quickly as if I was fleeing. I bought a train ticket to Zhucheng that day and took the train for five hours without eating anything. I retched for a long time on the train, and my parents came to pick me up at the train station, seeing how I vomited. Their expressions were so nervous, and I knew from then on that my illness was definitely not as optimistic as they said."

"I am optimistic and positive to accept all the examinations and treatments. I try my best to cure the disease, so that I can go back to Yuncheng to see you again, and the crown prince. I think you must be very sad when I said we broke up. Sad, I have to get better soon and apologize to you, I really said that day to avoid you, I don't want to break up with you, Xu Wannan, I never thought of breaking up with you. " She turned her face, leaned over and kissed me gently on the cheek, "I really liked you at that time, and I liked everything I did with you. I didn't have a good life in those few years. I have to stick needles all the time. Although my mother can coax me, she will not kiss me like you, let me mess around like you, or stretch out her hand for me to bite like you, my mother She, she can only cry. I don't know the result of every treatment I have, but every time I can hear her low crying in the doctor's office."

My heart throbbed, my Ayu, during those six years of disappearance, did not live well at all.In a place I don't know, she is struggling alone with her body that may get sick at any time, walking in despair.

"It will be fine, Ayu, I will definitely cure you. Let's go abroad. I will find you the best doctor, prescribe the best medicine, and use the most advanced equipment. I won't make you hurt anymore. Ayu..." I must be crying, I am really worthless, so I will cry.

Regardless of what I said, she was still talking, as if she was telling me something: "I often faint, nosebleed, and my whole body is numb and weak. In the two years after my parents passed away, my constitution did not allow me to engage in any kind of work. Work, but fortunately, I still have the medicine my parents bought for me at home, which can suppress my fainting. I have found various jobs and part-time jobs. to pay for my expensive medical expenses. But then those medicines gradually lost their effect, I was fired by the boss at the place where I worked, and I couldn’t pay the rent. Make plans in my hometown. Many times I feel that I can't hold on, but when I see you and the crown prince again, I really hate it. Why don't you let me live for a few more years? Why don't you give me A healthy body. My grandfather was so healthy when he was the same age as me at that time, but after a few years, he died of suffocation and exhaustion due to blood coagulation all over his body. I was really scared, afraid that it would be so painful die."

When she said this, she was already sobbing. She broke away from my arms, hugged her head, and said very loudly: "Die as soon as he dies! Why do you want to die when I am dying? I'm fucking with you again? Am I not hurting you? Xu Wannan, let me tell you the truth, I don't even know if I can live, the doctor didn't tell me anything about me On the good side, those doctors and professors don’t even know anything about my cause of disease until now. I just feel that I’m going to die before I go to give birth to you. I might completely lose my life when I give birth to a baby. Losing the hope of treatment or dying completely, but no matter which one is not something I can gamble on, I owe you too much, I still can't pay it, my child will help me pay it back, I will wait for you for decades When the gray hair grows later, I can still have someone to accompany me."

I cried, I hugged her who was a little restless, I knew that she was afraid and afraid of death, I hugged her tightly and said: "Ayu, I don't want a child anymore... I don't want a baby... Hit, hit Okay? Beat the child, I don't want to..."

"What are you talking about? It's almost six months and you want me to beat him? His ears are growing out, are you going to kill your own child? Xu Wannan, you're crazy!"

I'm not crazy, I'm sure.

"I went to ask the doctor, and I told her that the child in your stomach is mine, and having a child may be related to your life and a series of things related to me that may be related to the law. He told me Yes, he said that there is something wrong with your blood. It is clotting, and it has lost part of its normal ability to transport nutrients. Even your own nutrients are already insufficient. How can you afford to support your child? You have begun to appear abnormal. You are anemic, you don’t have the ability to make blood, you will bleed a lot when you give birth, and you will not be able to find a blood type that can fuse with your blood. If you have a blood transfusion rashly, you will die! Die on the spot! We can’t have this child Ayu, we have to beat this child, if you like children, I will give birth to you in the next life... Ayu, be good, listen to me, we will go to the hospital now and beat the child!" I grabbed her arm , dragging forcefully towards the door.

"Xu Wannan! You're crazy! This is your child, who has no blood relationship with me. Your child, you actually want to beat him! I won't go!" She struggled fiercely.

"Ayu, I beg you, I beg you just this once, I can't live without you, Ayu, beat the child!" I know she is pregnant, she won't have much strength, and even her movements of resistance will be much slower , I want to subdue her easily.

I held her hands tightly, and pulled her away. She shook her hands violently, took the opportunity to push me away, and even hit me with her fists. I didn't speak, I gritted my teeth and grabbed again Her hand dragged towards the door.

We fought, and no one spoke. I was afraid of hurting her, so I just grabbed her hands. She pushed me desperately, and I grabbed her with a stubborn temper. She was really angry. He didn't hold back his strength.

I just want her to be fine, and I can't keep the child.I never thought that just because of my selfish thoughts, she would be hurt.

When we were fighting, I had already softened, but I didn't intend to let the child survive. I was afraid that she would be very tired if the fight continued like this, and I was even more afraid that she would lose her temper with me. I touched her arm as if to please her, Said: "Stop making trouble, don't go to the hospital, calm down."

"You are such a lunatic!" She slapped my hand away fiercely, the back of her hand was burning with pain.

"I was wrong, don't be angry." I coaxed her, not paying attention to the time she hit me. In fact, she pinched me many times. I must have a lot of bruises on my arms now.

Anyway, there are many ways to kill the child in her stomach, and now I just need to find ways to recuperate her body.Her body is getting worse day by day, this is what I see, I always ask her to eat more, but she always refuses because she has no appetite, I know why, it is that child, that annoying Pregnancy reaction and the loss of appetite unique to pregnant women, she would also vomit in a daze, vomiting out all the food she had finally eaten.

I hate that kid more and more.

There is no parent in the world who does not love their children, but I am not. God knows how much I want to kill my children at this moment, but Ayu loves him!Love him even if he dies!I tried to hug her and resolve all the unhappiness, but she still resisted my touch so much, I was very angry for a while, and I wanted to pull her, but she refused my approach like an angry little beast.

Finally, when she pushed me away hard, she fell down.We have already moved to the entrance, she slipped accidentally, the back of her head fell straight back, knocked on the threshold of the entrance, she broke her head and bled, her face was in pain, she couldn't open her eyes in pain , a patch of red spread thinly on the ground.

My eyes went dark, and I quickly knelt down beside her, carefully lifted her head and hugged her in my arms, blood, blood on my hands!

My eyes were red with anxiety, and I called an ambulance in a panic. I've never seen her blood. Her blood is bad... But, why is the color of the blood different from that of ordinary people?

She murmured: "Xu Wannan, my head hurts...so painful...I hurt..."

I slapped myself hard, hugged her, and said softly: "It's okay, Ayu, it's okay, the ambulance will come soon, I'm the bastard, I'll help you teach me a lesson, and I won't be born again I'm angry, okay?" I kissed her face, once and for all, in a messy way, I was scared, I was so scared.

It's okay, it's going to be okay, right?

The author has something to say:

I went to work on the cover of our novel today, so it’s a little late, and there are a lot of classes today, forgive me!

I'm going to take the sketching test tomorrow, everyone wish me a pass!

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