Agreed, let's not chase her!

I stubbornly asked Ayu to go for a full-body examination, and I would personally accompany her to see the doctor I appointed.

She didn't say anything, didn't refuse, and didn't speak.

I drove the car and told her that I wanted to build a playground for our unborn child in the east of the city. I planned to build a water park there, and it would be even better if I could build a water bunker.

She interrupted me, she said: "Xu Wannan, what will happen to you if I'm not by your side in the future?" If her expression was not so sad, I would have lied to myself that she was joking.

"What nonsense are you talking about?" I didn't dare to look at her face, I stared straight at the road ahead, feeling ashamed to die, "Aren't we doing well? Where are you going?"

She didn't speak any more, and sat quietly in the car.

The results of the examination came out, but the doctor refused to show me.

"Sorry, this belongs to the patient's privacy. Except for the patient and his family members or immediate guardians who can inquire and check, the hospital will guarantee the confidentiality of the patient's privacy."

While waiting, Ayu fell asleep, maybe it was just pretending, the doctor came out with the results, and when I was going to pick him up, he asked me what was our relationship.

I said, the patient is my wife, we are married, the wedding was held in Switzerland, and we still have a certificate.

He didn't look at me and Ayu with colored eyes, he just said coldly: "Sorry, this is China, your relationship is not legally allowed, your marriage is not protected by the law, and it has no legal effect. It’s a non-existent relationship, I can’t give you this inspection report.”

Generally, doctors don't pay that much attention to ordinary inspection reports, unless there is something on the inspection report that should not be seen by outsiders.

As a last resort, I had no choice but to wake up Ayu, she fell into a deep sleep, and it took me a long time to wake her up.She opened her eyes weakly, and saw the doctor holding the report card, waiting patiently for her.

The doctor's patience must have been too kind.

Ayu took the list from the doctor's hand and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

The doctor shook his head and said, "Take good care of yourself, don't... don't sleep too long, if you sleep too much... In short, keep a good mood, pregnant women can't be so depressed all the time."

The doctor hesitated to speak, and then approached her and whispered something, but Ayu nodded sensibly, thanking the doctor.

I didn't go to take the list in her hand, she must have no strength, I wanted to take it, it was easy, but I didn't dare, I didn't have the courage.

I'm acting crazy, acting like a clown.

Funny and sad.

"Are you hungry?" I helped her into the car.

"Well, let's go get something to eat."

"it is good."

We never talked about the report card. During the meal, she said, "Xu Wannan, please buy me some books for the CET-[-] test. I want to pass the test."

"Why did you think of this?" I couldn't help asking, in my impression, Ayu didn't like studying.

"Not only the CET-[-], but also what I learned in college. I want to take the undergraduate self-examination at Yunda University, get a university diploma, and then find a serious job."

I joked: "Seriously? It's not easy to get a certificate from Yunda."

"Have you forgotten that I used to be a student of Yunda University? I majored in it, and I said it was the second. No one dared to say it was the first." When it comes to her major, she is much clearer. She likes photography , which is something I've always known.

"It's all up to you, I'm level [-] in English, and I can teach you if you don't know it." I served her a bowl of soup and signaled her to drink more.

She drank obediently.

When I got home, I saw her casually throwing the report on the coffee table in the living room. She was determined to tell me everything.But I'm cowardly, and I'm damned unwilling to read that report card.I had a strong awareness in my heart that if I saw it, the beauty in front of my eyes would be destroyed.

When I looked at her again, she was on the phone and called Wang Jing's name, maybe she was calling Wang Jing.

I am a failure and a bad person, bad things happened to my wife, as a lover, I was too timid to face her, but I watched my wife helplessly go to her friend Call up.

I cried, and I yelled: "Don't call Wang Jing!"

I snatched her mobile phone and threw it on the ground hard, smashing it to pieces.Squatting on the ground, crying heartbreakingly, I felt like a waste for the first time, powerless to everything that had happened.

She wanted to squat down, tried it and found it was difficult, so she slowly sat next to me, hugged my back, and said, "It's okay, I'm fine. I won't call, okay? Don't cry, Xu Wannan, you If you cry again, I will ignore you."

"Ayu, you will be fine, right? You will always be by my side, right? How long have we been married? You can't, you can't..." At this point, my eyes were blurred by tears again, and my throat was blocked.

In her ear was her long sigh, she said: "Xu Wannan, I am working hard, struggling, and there is still hope, even if there is only a little bit of hope, I have not given up."

I kept silent and hugged her tightly, she is mine, the whole world!How can I live without her?

The doorbell rang at the door, and I thought, Wang Jing was worried after seeing the phone was suddenly hung up, so he rushed over.I helped her up and went to open the door.

"Xu Wannan, what are you going crazy for!" Wang Jing scolded me as soon as he saw me, "I already have a fucking lover, so what kind of crazy are you?"

Soon she noticed something was wrong with me, and when she came in, she saw Ayu who was sitting on the sofa without saying a word, looked at me again, and asked, "Did you quarrel? Xu Wannan, why are your eyes so red, have you ever cried?"

Ayu said: "Wang Jing, I can't take care of my business."

Wang Jing stared at me with wide eyes: "You know everything?"

I think I can be angry at this time, but I didn't expect that I would be the last to know about this kind of thing.But I can't get angry, I can't get angry, I see Wang Jing looking at me with eyes full of concern and apology.

"Sorry, I already knew about Ayu, I helped her hide it from you, I'm sorry." Wang Jing solemnly apologized to me, "However, Ayu also said that the doctor has found a cure Yes, although it will hurt a little, but it will work, won’t it?”

Ayu followed her words and nodded: "Yes, it works."

With a hoarse voice, I said, "Is the doctor you are talking about from the United States?"

"Well, yes, the professor at Stanford Medical University is very authoritative." Wang Jing replied.

"Can you invite him to come to China? I will double the medical fee when I go abroad."

"This..." Wang Jing hesitated, "It depends on whether he is willing or not. After all, the professor is not short of the money."

"Trouble." This is probably my only hope.

Ayu didn't say anything, Wang Jing received a call and ran out in a hurry.

I picked up the inspection report on the coffee table and looked at the blood section of the report. It said that no red blood cells were detected.

Red blood cells: None.

Leukemia: None.

Blood status: extensive ossification and necrosis.

I remembered something the doctor had whispered in her ear.

I asked her, "What did that doctor tell you?"

She smiled and said, "Would you like to hear the truth or lies?"

I look at her.

"The doctor said that in my condition, I cannot have children."

My whole body was as cold as falling into an ice cellar. I held her hand nervously and asked, "What will happen if you forcefully have a baby?"

"I'll die." She still smiled, unable to tell if it was true or not.

"Are you kidding?" I smiled dryly, "This joke is not funny at all."

She smiled without saying a word, and looked at me with bottomless eyes.

For the first time, I had a nasty thought, would it be better if I didn't have children?Wouldn't it be better if there were no kids?Without a child, there would be another life to absorb Ayu's life, right?

I'm going to kill her baby.

No, kill my child.

Thinking of this, I seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, I gently hugged her in my arms, leaned on the sofa together, and heard her confess again: "Xu Wannan, after my child is born, you must love her well ah."

"Okay." I promised her, but I couldn't.

I will not let him be born.

Forgive me for abandoning you. Your birth will harm my Ayu. I only need her. I don’t need a child. In my world, she has always been the only one.

"Tomorrow, let's buy her some clothes and toys. Although it's still early, I want to buy them and do something for the children."

"Okay." I kissed her forehead, but I was thinking about how to inject some poison into her daily diet that would not harm the mother but would be fatal to the baby.

I admit that I am crazy, but I just want to protect her.

She wrapped her arms around my neck contentedly, with twinkling lights in her eyes: "Xu Wannan, meeting you is the greatest luck in my life."

We kissed, I hugged her, let her sit on my lap, I touched her belly, and secretly clenched my hands, this is this, this is this, Ayu who wants to take away from me.

I want you to die!

She noticed my distraction, bit me, and said angrily: "What are you thinking, you don't pay attention when kissing."

"Oh, oh, I was wrong, are you kissing?" I kissed her hard, taking her breath away.

She avoided my suffocating kiss, kissed my chin, and said with a smile: "Every time you kiss, you want to eat me."

I squeezed her chin, and said in a breathless way: "Isn't that because you look delicious?"

"Xu Wannan, you are really coquettish."

"You don't like it?"

"Love to death."

She bit my lip, lingering to death.

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