Difficult round

"No, don't..." The surging memories weighed heavily on Shen Qi's heart, getting heavier and heavier.

There was a soreness in the nasal cavity. He raised his hand and rubbed his nose vigorously, but he felt a piece of wetness. The salty liquid fell into his mouth along the bridge of the nose and cheeks, and it was bitter to the heart.

Shen Qi covered his face and shook his head dejectedly.

It wasn't until this moment that he dared to admit that he regretted it, not a little bit, but a lot, he regretted breaking up with Gu Yan.

"No, Gu Yan, let's not break up, okay? I was wrong, can you forgive me? You take me home, and I will accompany you back to see your uncles and aunts, Gu Yan..."

"Farewell." Gu Yan raised his head slightly, looked at Shen Qi who was squatting at his feet, smiled at him again, then stretched out his hand to grab Shen Qi's arm, helped him up, and let him sit on his back. around.

"I'm telling you this not to make you regret it or anything. I just think we've lived together for so many years, and I've loved you for so many years. In the end, I just want you to know, whether you want to hear it or not."

"No, Gu Yan, I want to hear it, I, I never knew... Gu Yan, we, we make up, please forgive me... I will never do this again, I know I was wrong..."

Tears flowed out uncontrollably, the water vapor in front of his eyes blocked Shen Qi's sight, and Gu Yan's figure became a little blurred, so he had no choice but to grab Gu Yan's hand regardless, and hold his palm firmly into the mouth. In the palm of my hand, it was like a drowning person holding a life-saving driftwood.

But Gu Yan pulled his hand back, and then he stood up:

"I can't believe you, Shen Qi, if one day you get scared, shrink back, or get tired of our relationship, and then tell me that you are actually a straight man, what should I do. "

He bent down and put the beer can on the coffee table, looking at Shen Qi calmly.

"I hated you and complained about you, but I don't regret the past seven years. If you love, you love. There is nothing to regret, even if it's all fake."

The tears that kept condensing in his eyes glued Shen Xi's eyelashes in one place, and got stuck on his eyelids, making his eyes hot and painful, as if countless ants were biting him and stinging him.

But Shen Xi couldn't care less about wiping away his tears, he shook his head and begged bitterly, and squeezed out broken and out-of-tuned syllables from his throat:

"Don't be like this... Gu Yan, don't be like this, don't say any more..."

But Gu Yan didn't listen to him, and said the cruelest words to Shen Qi in the calmest tone:

"But I also...don't want to make the same mistakes again."

"I'm sorry for what I did and said to you that night."

His expression was very calm, and his tone was very calm, but Shen Xi was terrified when he heard it. He only felt that something was passing between him and Gu Yan. He stretched out his hand to grab it, but he couldn't catch anything. Can't stay.

Shen Qi finally broke down.He sat on the ground, holding his head and weeping bitterly.

"Don't be like this, Gu Yan, please don't be like this, please don't say it, Gu Yan, please..."

Gu Yan finally smiled at him, a long-lost, relaxed smile, "That's it, Shen Qi."

The half-month Spring Festival holiday passed by in a hurry, and the company officially started work as soon as the seventh day of the new year passed.

On the morning of the same day, the director distributed red envelopes to the entire marketing department staff, and held a meeting in the conference room to formulate a work plan for the whole year, setting big goals and several small goals.

After the general meeting, the manager held a small meeting for them. Everyone took turns to talk about their work ideas and work goals for the new year.

New year and new weather, everyone is full of energy, the atmosphere at the meeting is lively, not as serious and dull as usual.

Shen Qi likes the working atmosphere of the new company very much. Although he has been working here for only half a month, how to put it, it feels completely different from when he was in the toy company. At least their directors and managers are capable and talented. People who are willing to do practical things also respect their subordinates.

What made Shen Qi feel disappointed was that he couldn't see Gu Yan all morning.

In fact, it was only four or five days since the two met last time, but maybe it was because I had clarified my mind, regretted it, regretted it, and kept people in my heart all the time, so time seemed to pass very slowly.

Not seeing each other every day is like three autumns, these four or five days are as long as four or five months or four or five years to Shen Qi.

After finally getting through it, I thought I could finally see someone, but in the end I didn't even glance at a shadow.

This made Shen Qi not interested in working at all, and seemed to be engrossed in the plan, but in fact, all his thoughts were on the opposite side of the design department.

Otherwise, why are so many companies prohibiting office romances? Actually, it makes sense. It will delay things too much and seriously affect work efficiency.

At the end of that day, Shen Xi was invited out of the house by Gu Yan. It's not like he didn't think about staying there shamelessly and putting on his dignity, but seeing the relieved Gu Yan, he couldn't bear to part with it.

He made people up, so what face is there to cling on to cause trouble for Gu Yan? How selfish can he be?

Why should he break up if he wants to break up, and reconcile if he wants to reconcile.

Why does Gu Yan have to get used to him and let him go.

Every time Shen Qi asked himself why, his heart sank a little. Later, when Gu Yan opened the door to signal that he could leave, he had already completely collapsed, but in order not to annoy Gu Yan, he could only crawl up from the floor. Get up and leave in embarrassment.

For the next few days, Shen Qi hid in the apartment and didn't go anywhere, recalling the seven years they were together over and over again like self-torture.

From day to night, and from night to day, he couldn't sleep all night, and he didn't dare to sleep.

Because once he closes his eyes, the nightmare will haunt him. In the dream, Gu Yan turned his back to him, turned his face slightly, and said to him in a cold tone:

"That's it, Shen Qi."

So be it.

So be it.

But Shen Qi didn't want to be like this.

At noon, some colleagues asked Shen Qi to go downstairs for dinner, and when he was about to walk to the elevator, he finally caught a glimpse of the person he was thinking about, but he was a step too late, and when he passed, he only had time to see the other person's back, and the elevator door closed in front of him.

Seeing that Shen Qi pressed the elevator button in a hurry, the colleague couldn't help asking him: "What's the matter, Shen Qi, do you have something urgent to do?"

Only then did Shen Qi realize his gaffe, stopped his movements, took two steps back, shook his head and said, "It's nothing..."

"Hey, didn't you say you wanted to eat the braised lion head from xx's house, can you eat it soon? Isn't that right, Shen Qi?" Another colleague joked.

Braised lion head is the signature dish of xx's family. It is available in limited quantities at noon every day, and it will be sold out when it is late.This is exactly what they are going to eat today.

Shen Qi forced a smile, putting away the disappointment in his heart: "Ah, yes..."

In the afternoon, Shen Qi took a document and went to the printing room at the end of the corridor to make copies. He passed the meeting room in the middle. The door of the meeting room was not closed tightly. He subconsciously glanced inside, but unexpectedly saw Gu Yan.

"...You are the manager. If you can't handle such a simple matter, and you just form a small group behind the scenes to fight for resources every day, then I think you should leave as soon as possible and don't do it!"

Gu Yan propped his palms on the conference table, and was aggressively lecturing a middle-aged man sitting on his left. The man listened to the lecture with a disheveled face, his expression quite embarrassing.

One stick and one date, the ugly words were finally finished, Gu Yan finally eased his attitude at this time, but his expression and tone were still cold:

"Old Guan, I didn't say this in front of everyone to save face for you, so I hope you can take care of yourself, can you understand what I mean?"

The man called Lao Guan blushed and then turned pale, nodded his head, and squeezed out a sentence with difficulty from between his teeth: "Understood."

Gu Yan was satisfied now, waved his hand and said: "That's it, let's go."

Seeing that the two of them were about to come out of the meeting room, Shen Qi quickly looked away, and turned to the printing room before the other party found out.

Copying documents does not require any technical content, so Shen Qi stood next to the printer and mechanically repeated the action of turning pages. The scene he saw when he passed the conference room just now uncontrollably resurfaced in his mind, lingering on his mind.

On the first day of the new year, he scolded the manager so much that he couldn't get off the stage. Unexpectedly, Gu Yan had such a vigorous and unsympathetic attitude when facing his subordinates. He was full of momentum and looked like a director.

But this made Shen Qi feel strange, is this still that careless Gu Yan who clings to him like something?

But he quickly thought of Gu Yan's attitude after the breakup, which was also the same indifference and indifference, and was completely different from the Gu Yan he knew.

The printer suddenly made a beeping sound, and Shen Qi was interrupted by the sound. After returning to his senses, he saw the flashing yellow light on the operation panel, and realized that the paper had run out.

He took out a new A4 paper and put it into the paper slot, then pressed the start button again, and the printer returned to normal and continued to work.

Even though they have been together for so many years, he still doesn't seem to know that person well enough.