do you like me

I thought yesterday's outburst would make life extremely difficult in the future, but to my surprise, my parents didn't mention the fact that I like men anymore, instead they were very calm, a little scary.I couldn't even see their figures for several days. I thought the story was over, or my parents had figured it out.

After all, I think too simple.

This day I came home as usual, and when I was eating, there was a weird feeling on the dining table, which gave me goosebumps for no reason. My parents’ faces were heavy and they kept silent, lowering their heads and eating as if no one else was around. meal.

This difficult time passed for a while.

"Hehe." It was my dad who spoke first.I looked up at him puzzled and asked, "What's wrong?"

My dad slowly put down his chopsticks, looked at me very seriously, and said, "Let's go to the same place."

There was a strong wind outside the window, and the heavy curtain was blown up, and it hit the vase with irises on the side. With a "bang", it exploded with my heart.

I looked at him in disbelief: "What did you say?"

My mother interjected: "My poker friend's daughter went to the hospital. I heard that the effect is very good. She doesn't like women anymore. And it's scientific treatment, very safe." My mother explained to me in detail, those The words echoed in my ears, and my eyes lingered on my parents, trying to find a second of jokes in their words.

But they looked serious, and there seemed to be hope in their eyes. I stood up suddenly, and the chair hit the ground hard: "I won't go! Why should I go!"

My dad also stood up: "I have already made arrangements, and I will go in a few days."

"I won't go! I won't go! I don't want to go, none of you can force me!" I said angrily.

"Okay! You don't want to go! I'll go to the school to find Shen Qiuhan. I want to see what kind of person he is and turn you into a homosexual." My mother couldn't hold back her kind face. The backlog has been too long these days. It all exploded so that her voice was so loud and raspy.

I looked at my mother, as if I was about to rush to school to find Shen Qiuhan in the next second, my eyes were tearing apart, and I looked at the hideous mother: "You can't go to him...Mom, you can't go to him. "Shen Qiuhan can't know that I'm gay, he hates disgusting homosexuality the most, Shen Qiuhan can't know that I like him.

"We can't force you to go to the same place, and you can't force me not to go to that Shen Qiuhan." My mother's tone was not perfunctory at all, she was extremely firm.

Seeing my mother getting emotional, my dad pressed her shoulder, and said earnestly: "Hey, it's only been half a year, maybe I can come out early after being cured, I've investigated it, it's very formal, can you do something for my parents , Mom and Dad have never begged you for anything, in this matter, can you listen to me." Although my dad was calm on the surface, his voice was a little choked up as he spoke, and the corners of his wrinkled eyes gradually turned red.

I've never seen my dad like this.

"As long as you go, mom will never go to look for Shen Qiuhan. Are you good? Be good. I beg you..." She took a step forward as she spoke, and then she knelt down in the next second, and I didn't go to help her She just took a step back in fear, watching my mother's tears streaming down her face, and the posture of gradually bowing her head was a precursor to kowtow to me.

Parents' entreaties, threats to find Shen Qiuhan, I don't understand why this happened, I don't understand,

I couldn't hold back any longer, and knelt down: "Mom...I...don't do this, I, I'll go, I'll go! I'll go!" After saying this, my already hot eyes also shed tears, Then I said, "Can I go to school one more time before I go again?"

……

The next day I went to school as if nothing had happened. The moment I saw Shen Qiuhan, all the haze disappeared, but the urge to feel wronged and cry became more obvious. I tried my best to restrain myself and slammed He squeezed and forced himself to calm down.

I took it easy and chatted with Shen Qiuhan as before.Suddenly, I caught a glimpse of the gauze wrapped in his hand. Shen Qiuhan hadn't harmed himself for a long time. I lost my composure and questioned him loudly. He took it lightly, and I knew he was lying.

After the whole class, I didn't listen carefully. My mind was full of what would happen to Shen Qiuhan after I left. He had no friends and was always alone. If I left, no one would know about him. No one knows what kind of life he has been living because of his loneliness, and no one in this world loves Shen Qiuhan...

No, there is one more, there is another one, Shen Yan.

I approached Shen Yan with an impure purpose, and told Shen Qiuhan what I knew. I told Shen Yan that I was leaving, and I hoped that he could stay with him and not leave him alone. Naturally, Shen Yan agreed. Yes, he asked me where I was going, but I didn't tell him.

That day after school, I took Shen Qiuhan to the canteen and bought him pineapple-flavored candies for the last time. After leaving, I hugged him very well for the first time with other feelings, and it was exactly as I imagined , very warm.

In the next few days, I kept in touch with Shen Qiuhan by mobile phone. He asked me what happened at home and if I needed his help. I always took it with a playful smile. When the cherry blossom festival was approaching, I called and told him that I would come that day. He is very happy, but deliberately pretends not to care. You can see that he has not changed at all.

I did go there on the Cherry Blossom Festival, and stood far away, watching him.Even if I can't see his face clearly, I can still see him for the first time in the crowded crowd and among the flying cherry blossoms.

I thought, he must have a displeased face again, after all he hates so many people, so hates cherry blossoms that bloom and fall quickly.I don't know how long I stood there. I didn't wake up from the huge momentum until my dad yelled. I slowly turned around and sent Shen Qiuhan a last message before being blocked and deleted.

You will always be my friend A.

I got in the car and drove on a road of no return. The street scene disappeared so quickly that I had already reached the door before I could see what kind of tree was planted.The door of the precept room is also very high, and the walls are also high, covered with sharp barbed wire, which gives people a very depressing feeling.

The person who came out to receive the reception wore a pair of glasses and looked amiable. He led us to an office, and I watched my parents sign the contract without the slightest hesitation.Then the man asked me to hand in the communication tool.They talked for a while, I was not in the mood to listen, I turned my head to look at the people walking back and forth at the door, some of them were as old as me, and some of them could tell they were adults at a glance.They passed by quickly, uniform light blue clothes, only a slight shake at the door, and then disappeared.

When sending my parents away, I finally saw these people clearly. They looked very bad and looked at me with unspeakably complicated eyes. My parents also noticed it and asked: "Is there any It's dangerous, I think they look very bad."

The doctor wearing glasses smiled softly, and then explained: "They are just here too. They didn't sleep well. They might feel a little uncomfortable at first. They must be safe. You can rest assured about that." My parents ordered Nodding his head, his doubts were soothed by a few simple words.

I sent them out the door, watched my parents step out of the door, watched the door close little by little, watched the gap on it get smaller little by little, watched my mother snuggle in my father's arms and her eyes were red She raised her hand and waved it towards me.

I just wanted to say goodbye.

"boom."

The door was completely closed.