do you like me

Shen Qiuhan and I were admitted to the same high school, and with Shen Qiuhan's help, we got into the same class.After entering high school, I found that the people there were much friendlier than those in junior high school. Gradually, I had more friends. Everyone knew that I had a good relationship with Shen Qiuhan, but no one knew that I liked him.I hid my love for Shen Qiuhan in my heart, no one would know, no one would know.

However, how can no one know about a love that is too hot?

All the changes came from the winter vacation in the first year of high school. My liking for Shen Qiuhan was almost discovered by my mother.My mother wouldn't have looked through my phone. I happened to be taking a shower that day, and the phone was on the bed.My mother used mine to make a call when she couldn't find her mobile phone. I don't know why my mother would look through my photo album.When I came out of the shower, my mother had a dark face, took my mobile phone and asked why my photo album was full of photos of one person. I admit that I panicked at that moment, but then I calmed down.

"Why are you flipping through my phone?" I took the phone back from my mother's hand in dissatisfaction.

"Answer me, why do you have a photo album full of photos of this person?"

I pretended not to care: "This is my friend. Someone in the other class has a crush on him. He asked me to take photos for her every day. It's 200 a piece!"

My mother didn't believe it. In recent years, homosexuality has gradually become popular. My parents have also heard about it, especially my mother. My wife had a child with another man, and it was a big deal, so my mother was very sensitive about homosexuality: "Then why are you keeping it?"

"I was so busy studying in high school, I forgot. Mom, don't tell me, it's still taking up memory, so I'll delete it now." I deleted all the photos in front of my mother.My mother then compromised, but I know my mother didn't fully believe it.After she left, I re-imported the photos saved on the computer to the phone and set a password.

During that time, I met with Shen Qiuhan, I had selfish intentions, I missed him so much, I was going to have dinner, but my mother didn't know what happened, she knew that I went out to dinner with the boys, and insisted on letting me go home, I had no choice but to lie Shen Qiuhan had something to do at home, so he left.

Before I left, I made an appointment to see him tomorrow, and there was one person who particularly caught my attention.That person suddenly broke into Shen Qiuhan and I's life. In Shen Qiuhan's mouth, that person was false, pretentious, and hypocritical. Anyway, in everything Shen Qiuhan said to me, he revealed his disgust for that person.Gradually, I became curious about that person, because Shen Qiuhan seldom expressed his disgust so bluntly in front of me.

The next day I went to Shen Qiuhan's house, the one who opened the door was his elder brother whom he talked about every day, because Shen Qiuhan was good-looking, I also naturally thought that his elder brother would also be good-looking, and would have a strong appearance like him.

However, the person who opened the door was completely different from what I thought. He didn't even have half a resemblance to Shen Qiuhan, but he was undoubtedly good-looking, but this kind of good-looking was softer than Shen Qiuhan, like a fluffy dandelion.

"Hello, who are you?" he asked.

Me: "I'm his friend."

He nodded, took out a pair of slippers from the shoe rack and handed them to me: "He's upstairs, he hasn't woken up yet."

I hummed.

"Are you Shen Yan?" I followed behind him and asked.

He asked suspiciously, "You know me?"

"Shen Qiuhan mentioned it."

A gleam of light flashed in Shen Yan's eyes: "Really? He mentioned me?"

"mentioned."

But it's all bad.

After a whole day, Shen Yan is not as bad as Shen Qiuhan said, he is careful in doing things, everything is based on Shen Qiuhan, his speech and behavior are gentle and very careful, the whole person gives me a warm feeling.From the little things like him covering me with a blanket when I fell asleep, it was obvious that he really cared about people.

I have tried to go deeper into Shen Qiuhan, trying to pull him out, but all failed, often accompanied by violent quarrels, I didn't want any gaps in our relationship, so I gradually gave up, and could only work more seriously. Keep an eye on him, just in case he does something to hurt himself.

I looked at the soft blanket on my body, if Shen Qiuhan's brother was such a person, maybe he could pull Shen Qiuhan out.

I went home after dinner, and when I got home, I chatted with Shen Qiuhan for a while, and intuitively expressed my liking for Shen Yan, but Shen Qiuhan seemed to be angry, and no matter how many messages I sent, he didn't reply to me.He is like this, as long as he is unhappy, he will keep silent and wrap himself tightly, no one can peep.

Maybe I was so engrossed in chatting that I didn't even notice my mother came in: "Who are you talking to, so focused, I called you several times."

I immediately blacked out the screen and glanced at the person standing at the door holding milk: "No one, just a friend."

My mother came to my bed and handed the milk to me. I obediently raised my head and drank it, and then handed out the cup, but my mother didn't intend to take it, and just stood there in a daze. As if thinking about something.Because only the bedside lamp was turned on, my mother looked a little scary.After a long time, she still didn't move.I called her carefully.

She just came to her senses, looked at me, then trembling, asked with red eyes: "Hehe, do you like men?"

The cup in his hand fell to the ground, but he stubbornly didn't break it.

I was stunned for a moment, and then my nerves tensed up instinctively. There were many answers, and they crowded into my head. Finally, I loosened my fist and said calmly: "I don't like it." I didn't lie, I never said anything to others. A man's overwhelmed heart is only for Shen Qiuhan.

I have always kept the matter of liking Shen Qiuhan a secret. I have always done a good job, and no one will know.I thought.

But who would have thought that my mother continued on without caring about my answer: "I looked at your computer. I saw all the photos and diaries in it. Hehe, it's fake, right? You tell mom It’s fake, isn’t it, is it written by that girl? Can you explain it to me? By the way, mom deleted it for you. Anyway, it’s not important. Mom deleted it for you.” My mother said more and more Excited, she directly grabbed my arm with her hands, and her beautifully made long nails sank into my flesh, pinching me very painfully.

I gradually widened my eyes, grasped the key point in my mother's series of confusing sentences, deleted?What was deleted?

I struggled to free my mother's hands, and the long nails scraped a few obvious red marks on my arms, some even oozing blood.Regardless of the injury on my arm, I turned on the computer and looked through it with trembling fingers, and then I saw the empty folder, and the already tense string was completely broken: "Look at my computer! You Why do you keep moving my things! Things! Things! Mom!" I yelled out of composure, my lips trembled uncontrollably, I tried to restore the data, but the deletion was too clean, without any traces, I am sorry The trace of Shen Qiuhan's liking was gone.

My eyes gradually turned red and I turned around and asked: "Why do you touch my things! Do you know what this is! Do you know what this is!"

I have liked Shen Qiuhan for so long, and recorded the unspeakable liking bit by bit, watching the love overflowing and surging.

There's nothing I can do but turn likes into numb data.

This diary is my love for Shen Qiuhan that I can't express, it's my guilt for hiding such disgusting thoughts towards Shen Qiuhan, it's the hiding and joy of that love, it's a holy place that no one can peek at, it's my... mine……

I can't love it.

How can it be deleted, how can...

My mother was frightened: "I, I'm your mother. How can you talk to me like that." But also in my intense emotions, she realized something, she almost couldn't stand still, holding the cabinet with her hands , "You like him, right? You like this man named Shen Qiuhan, don't you!"

Her voice began to become sharp: "How can you like men, you are a man! You are a man! Hehe, you...you are sick, you are mentally ill. It's disgusting, it's disgusting !"

Deleted photos and diaries, my mother's noisy voice, and that Zhongxia, Shen Qiuhan's sentence, I hate homosexuality, all appeared in my mind at the same time.

I start to get confused.

My emotions can no longer be controlled by me, listening to my mother belittle my love for Shen Qiuhan, I lost my mind: "Yes! I just like men, I like him for a long time, from junior high school to now, I can't wait Let him like me too, I can't wait to tell him, I like him!"

My mother rushed over screaming, and slapped me on the face: "Shut up! Don't talk! Shut up!" The slaps fell on me again and again. I didn't hide, I gritted my teeth and let her vent.

My mother's beating and scolding attracted my father. My mother cried and told my father that I like men.Unexpectedly, my dad was calmer than I imagined. He just silently pulled my mom out of the door without saying anything or even looking at me.

I looked at the empty room and gradually calmed down before I realized what I said, but I didn't know at that time that my father's silence was more terrifying than my mother's hysteria.