this is love

[After falling in love with you, I can appreciate the taste of longing, the sorrow of separation, the torment of jealousy, and the endless possessive desire. ——Zhang Xiaoxian]

In May, the temperature rises sharply.The sun began to carry the energy of scorching the earth, with the lazy tiredness and the wantonness of sweating, which are contradictory and yet charming.The playground of Shengli High School is still lively. For the children, especially those entering the third year of high school, physical education class is undoubtedly the only time for them to relax.

Gao Nanshun routinely waited for all the students in the class to leave the classroom, and then slowly took out the key to lock the front and rear doors. Park Xingxiu stood beside him and watched his movements, and his heart had long since lost the original sense of loss.Physical education is no longer his must-escape course, it has been so long, and the relationship between him and Gao Nanshun has long since disappeared, there is no need for him to do any more evasion.

There are inevitably gains and losses in life, and he can only gain something if he lets go of something.

Those pains that were once deep-rooted should also simply become the old and stale past.

With the sound of the last lock being locked, Park Xingxiu saw Gao Nanshun turning his head to signal him to leave, just as he was about to turn around and take a step, he was distracted by the sound of playfulness approaching not far away.

Everything seemed to happen in an instant.

He saw that Gao Nanshun turned around and wanted to follow his footsteps, but he stopped and looked back subconsciously. In that direction were Li Jiangzhu and Song Xiajing running one after another laughing and playing. He saw Song Xiajing running to avoid Li Jiangzhu's He slapped and turned his head frequently, his laughing expression was too cheerful to hold back, he saw Gao Nanshun was inadvertently hit by Song Xiajing after he turned his head before he could react, and he subconsciously stretched out his hand on the girl's fallen body Catch it, he saw that the girl's lips accidentally touched the corner of Gao Nanshun's mouth, and the two stared at each other in a daze, carrying the breath of being close to each other...

He sees what he least wants to see.

All this was presented in front of him like a slow-motion replay.

"Ah! Song, you, are you okay?" Li Jiangzhu's exclamation sounded before waking up the person who had fallen to the ground and was stunned by an unexpected kiss. Song Xiajing was the first to react and couldn't hold back The overflowing sense of embarrassment and embarrassment in his heart are more embarrassing because of the obvious heartbeat and liking.The girl hurriedly distanced herself from Gao Nanshun and stood up with Li Jiangzhu's support, arranging her skirt and slightly messy long hair with her hands because she was embarrassed to look at Gao Nanshun who hadn't stood up yet.

"Hold, I'm sorry. I didn't have time to stop." Even the words became intermittent, Song Xiajing's flushed cheeks could be clearly seen, and even Gao Nanshun had an epiphany of the ripples in the girl's heart, Li Jiangzhu couldn't help laughing and teasing : "Ah, Song, are you shy?"

"Stop making trouble, what are you kidding..." Song Xiajing turned away her eyes that lingered on Gao Nanshun, and looked away casually to conceal the tension in her heart, but her tone of mouth was so stubborn that she couldn't argue.

Gao Nanshun looked at Song Xiajing who kept avoiding under Li Jiangzhu's unwilling questioning, and suddenly understood the reason why Park Xingxiu was angry when he saw that he lent Song Xiajing's notes to him before. It doesn't look like Park Xingxiu is too sensitive... Park Xingxiu, Park Xingxiu!

Accompanied by a loud "thump" in his heart, Gao Nanshun quickly turned his head to look in the direction of Park Xingxiu, but unexpectedly saw the figure of the man who had already turned around and walked away alone, and hurriedly got up, too late After talking more with the two girls, and hurriedly saying "I'm sorry", Gao Nanshun turned around and started to chase after the figure who was walking further and further away.

Seeing Park Xingxiu's figure disappearing into the corner where the students use the bathroom, Gao Nanshun realized that this situation could not be eased in a short while, so he turned around while running and shouted to the two girls who were still standing there: "Help me!" Please take a leave with Park Xingxiu", and then he ran straight into the bathroom where Park Xingxiu walked in without any time.

"Ah! Gao Nanshun! Gao... What's going on with the two of them?" Li Jiangzhu shouted at Gao Nanshun's back, but only got a merciless response from the empty corridor. He looked suspiciously at Song Xiajing beside him, but saw her silent Looking at the direction where Gao Nanshun disappeared, his expression was no longer the embarrassment and embarrassment before, but was covered with seriousness and stiffness, and even his brows kept frowning.

"what happened?"

"..." Song Xiajing remained silent, revealing the embarrassment and dissatisfaction in her heart without wanting to speak. Gao Nanshun's performance undoubtedly dealt her a heavy blow, which was an even more depressing irony than discovering the secret in Park Xingxiu's heart before.As if it took a long time to suppress the growing anger, the girl pretended to be indifferent and softly responded: "It's nothing, let's go."

Gao Nanshun ran into the bathroom and saw Park Xingxiu standing alone in front of the mirror, with water dripping from his wet face, some hair sticking to his forehead, coupled with some red eyes, the whole person seemed a bit downcast .The heart felt like someone had pinched it hard, and Gao Nanshun felt the pain was a bit sour, which made people both happy and worried.

"Xingxiu..." Walking two steps closer and calling his name softly, Gao Nanshun felt that he was so nervous for the first time, so nervous that he had nowhere to put his hands, so he could only cling to the edge of his trousers and loosen them tenaciously. repeatedly.

After hearing his voice, Park Xingxiu just glanced at him lightly from the mirror, and that one glance made his whole heart hang high, and then fell heavily into the abyss.It was the indifference and neglect that Park Xingxiu had never given him, and the deep disappointment that made him even more painful and tormented.

"Xingxiu, I..." Before the words were finished, Park Xingxiu turned around and walked inside, found a cubicle and opened the door to enter.Seeing his behavior of avoiding himself like this, Gao Nanshun hurriedly chased after him, and relentlessly resisted the compartment door that Park Xingxiu wanted to close.

Seeing Gao Nam-soon closing the compartment door with his backhand and locking it crisply, Park Heung-su took a step back to distance himself from him, but couldn't help but frowned and said coldly, "What are you doing!" He wanted to reach out and push him to open the lock, but in the next Miao was caught off guard and hugged hard.

Gao Nansun's arms tightly wrapped around Park Xingxiu's shoulders and hugged him vigorously, as if he hoped to express his heart through the strength of this hug, eager to eliminate the sadness and disappointment in his heart.That person stood in place and let him hug him, but he didn't respond coldly. Suppressing the slight uneasiness in his heart, Gao Nanshun moved his chin and pressed it against Pu Xingxiu's neck, feeling his warmth from his arms and ears. came.

"Xingxiu, you know it's just carelessness, you know that, don't you? I... I know you mind her, but I never thought about that, really, so don't be angry, okay?"

"..."

The moment Gao Nanshun was pushed away by force, he felt that something was out of control and he couldn't grasp it. He panicked as if he was about to lose it. He didn't even dare to look into Park Xingxiu's eyes. He didn't know what else would make him panic Emotions filled those eyes, and those eyes were always looking at him tenderly.

How to do it?At this moment, I can't think of anything else.The moment Gao Nanshun raised his hand to hold Park Heungsu's cheeks and went straight to kiss him, he thought to himself that he should understand the uniqueness of this kiss.But the moment he was pushed away again, he began to hesitate, as if he had lost the last weight, he didn't know what to use to prove the uniqueness of each other.

The expression of Gao Nanshun standing there looking at him has always been burned in his heart, and every day from now on, it seems that he will unconsciously jump to his heart and appear in front of his eyes.Park Xingxiu didn't know how to describe it to be complete enough, but that kind of expression seemed to be abandoned, with pain, loss and a little cautious expression, pitiful and cute.It only softened him for a moment.

Forget it, he could never really refuse him.

[We are on the cusp of the crisis, comrades have worked hard. 】

The moment he opened his eyes, he saw Gao Nanshun's closed eyes with drooping eyelashes, trembling imperceptibly, against the reddish cheeks and smooth nose line, revealing an indescribable beauty that made him fascinated.

What should I do with you?

It is said that beautiful things are not easy to grasp, but you, who are so beautiful to me, cannot bear to lose even if you die.

Is it luck or misfortune...

Maybe getting and losing is not in balance. I have what I want, but I need to bear the panic of losing.

If you don't have it, it is a kind of pain that you can't get.

But owning it is another kind of trembling pain.

The bitterness in his heart flooded up, Park Xingxiu tasted the pain overflowing to his lips, but embraced the only love that could give him sweetness, this is love, contradictory but inseparable, extravagant and desired by the world.

I love you.

Park Heung-soo held his breath and gently kissed the tear mole at the corner of Gao Nam-soon's eye, and tears fell inadvertently when he closed his eyes.

I love you.

You have to remember this.

When the evening self-study was about to end, the sky suddenly became a little cloudy. Guessing that there might be heavy rain, Teacher Zheng asked the students to go home early after class, so as not to catch a cold after being exposed to the rain.When the students were celebrating the joy of leaving school early, Gao Nanshun was still packing his schoolbag carelessly, and Park Xingxiu was also waiting patiently without any anxiety. The approaching torrential rain became dim, and there were bursts of thunder rolling across the sky from time to time.

"It's really a heavy rain..." Gao Nanshun looked up at the sky, anticipating the coming rainstorm with excitement.

"Yeah, are you really not in a hurry? Don't bother me if you catch a cold in the rain." Park Xingxiu looked up at the sky with him, and couldn't help teasing with a smile.In fact, he guessed what Gao Nanshun was thinking. The two of them had experienced countless rainstorms three years ago, but the fun of running and laughing in the heavy rain became the reason why they loved the rain so much.

"Tch, maybe who will be so weak that he can't help humming!" Gao Nanshun glanced at him disdainfully, then lifted the schoolbag on his shoulder and strode forward.Seeing his menacing appearance, Park Xingxiu couldn't help lowering his head and grinning. Gao Nansun was still like a child, no matter how tall and neat he seemed to grow up, his heart was still like a child, pure and full of desire to win.

Following his footsteps, he saw the person in front of him suddenly stop. Before Pu Xingxiu raised his head and looked over, he heard a strange voice suddenly stop in front of him: "Sorry, excuse me, both of you, I She's a scout for M-STAR Modeling Agency."

A man in a black suit handed over a business card. Gao Nanshun looked back at Park Xingxiu and accepted it hesitantly.model?They didn't know how to deal with this term that was too far away from both of them, so they had to wait for the man's next words.

Seeing the doubts expressed by the two people, the person in front of him smiled as if trying to relax his nerves: "I just want to ask, do you have any idea of ​​being a model? Your height and body proportions are very suitable. It’s very rare for two friends to be models like this. I don’t force you, but I hope you can think about it. If you are willing to try modeling, you can come to our company for development. There is my contact information on the business card, consider If you're all right, come and find me."

The man left a few words and two business cards and conveniently turned around and left. Gao Nanshun and Park Xingxiu stood on the ground and looked at each other. Although they knew that their height was indeed superior, this was the first time that the two of them faced each other and were discovered by scouts. Case.

"do you want to go?"

"Please, I'm going to take the university entrance exam, did you forget?"

"That's right, then this..." Gao Nanshun squeezed the business card in his hand and scratched his cheek with a headache. To be honest, he really hasn't thought about what he should do in the future. This has not been decided until now.You can't always do odd jobs like this...

"Okay, don't worry, it's not a must. Let's go, or it will rain in a while." Park Xingxiu interrupted his fugue in time, put the business card into his pocket and grabbed his hand. stride forward.Gao Nanshun hurriedly followed his pace and put the business card into his pocket.

Sure enough, within two steps, big raindrops fell scatteredly, and you could clearly feel the force of the rain when it hit your body. The two looked at each other and started to run at the same time. During the period, the rain gradually intensified, and the more and more dense raindrops quickly soaked the ground, and their hair and clothes were not spared.

"Ah! Let's compete to see who gets home first!" Park Heung-soo turned his head and shouted at Gao Nanshun while running forward. Through the rain, with a carefree momentum, Gao Nanshun's whole body was boiling with excitement.

"Wait, my defeated general!" Grinning his mouth, he couldn't help laughing out loud. Regardless of the rain dripping on his cheeks, Gao Nanshun shook his head and stared at the direction of his advance. He ran forward with all his might.

The two rushed one after the other in the pouring rain, accompanied by the rolling thunder in the sky and the lightning that illuminated the earth from time to time, laughing and screaming while running with their heads up, as if returning to the hearty On a rainy day when he was young, the passionate teenager has his most precious unruly and true brotherhood. Laughter and running rubbed on this land, leaving youthful memories that only belong to two people.

But now, having gone through the green years and the pains of life, they embraced the first rainstorm in the summer of 2013 at the moment when they reunited with the love buried in their hearts.

Unruly life, like a tsunami.

like our love.