this is love

[In this world, was there a moment when you thought about leaving? 】

[But I still miss you. 】

Going to Wu Zhenghao's house early in the morning to guard, Gao Nanshun originally planned to fight him for a long time until he tricked him back to school, but when he saw him coming out of the house in a school uniform, he knew that all tricks would not work It was time to use it, after teasing Wu Zhenghao who refused to admit it even though he was going to school, Gao Nanshun looked at his watch and took the lead on the way to school.

Originally he thought he would be late, but because he desperately tried to catch up with the time, he arrived earlier than usual.While sitting in his seat doing nothing, Gao Nanshun looked around aimlessly, and stopped shaking after his eyes fell on Park Xingxiu's vacant seat, wondering why this guy didn't come yet, and was surrounded when he was thinking wildly The voices of the guys discussing the events of the game together drew attention.

Rumors are always spreading quickly among the uninformed. Kim Min Ki, who was being forced by his mother, was indeed suppressed to a certain limit. He walked into the class and walked out of the classroom again because of the students' comments and Nan Jingmin's making things difficult. Jin Minji, the facts he witnessed last night kept replaying in Gao Nanshun's mind, but he was still worried after all, so he simply got up and chased him out to have a talk with him.

It wasn't until Teacher Zheng came and called Kim Min-ki away that Gao Nam-sun was slightly relieved. According to Teacher Zheng's ability and character, he would definitely be able to comfort the overwhelmed Kim Min-ki.Taking a deep breath, he felt a lot more relaxed. Looking back into the classroom through the back door, Gao Nanshun's attention instantly returned to the original point.

Why isn't that guy here yet?

Walking into the classroom and leaning directly towards Park Xingxiu's seat, he realized that the person's schoolbag had already been hung by the desk, and someone who thought he hadn't arrived turned out to have arrived earlier.Gao Nanshun scratched his ears helplessly, and more doubts surfaced in his heart.

Where did you go?

"Hey, got it."

Pu Xingxiu opened his eyes suddenly, and saw the familiar back appeared in his sight. Gao Nanshun sat beside him and didn't look back at him, and after uttering a few words, he stopped making a sound.Just staring at the back of his furry head for a long time, Park Xingxiu closed his eyes again in silence, but the corners of his mouth slowly raised an imperceptible arc unconsciously.

Going straight up to the top floor with intuition, Gao Nanshun realized that his intuition was correct when he saw the half-opened roof door. As expected, after entering, he found Park Xingxiu lying on the low table with his eyes closed.Walking on tiptoe, Gao Nanshun stood in front of the man without making a sound, bent down and looked at him secretly.

It looked as if he had fallen asleep, but Gao Nanshun knew that he definitely hadn't. Although Park Xingxiu seemed stronger than him, he was actually a guy who felt less secure than him. He would never fall asleep easily without security. Now, I can't understand this all too well.

After watching him quietly for a moment, Gao Nanshun turned around and sat beside him, and gently threw out a word to remind him of his existence.Although he knew that he must have noticed it already, but this kind of childish little trick always made Gao Nanshun inexplicably happy, so he liked to play it.Park Xingxiu really didn't expose him and played with him to the end every time.

A silent but peaceful atmosphere was maintained between the two of them. One was lying there with his arms on his pillow and his eyes closed, quietly feeling the cold winter morning breeze, while the other was sitting beside him looking at the distant sky in a silent trance.As if time began to be stepped more and more slowly, the wonderful feeling brought by the quiet companionship given to each other at this moment lingered, spreading from the heart little by little.

It's been a long time, I haven't felt so relaxed.The two stayed beside each other quietly, no one disturbed, nothing weighed on their hearts, and no misunderstandings were separated between their hearts.Only the tacit understanding that belongs to them alone, and the silent overlooking of the vast winter sky.

Three years ago, because they were still young and restless, the two of them always laughed and played in various ways when they got together. They ran in the streets and alleys every day, as if they had inexhaustible power, and they wanted to let it all out.Very carefree, very happy.What the two people bring to each other is the most splendid, youthful youth like meeting overwhelming sunflowers.

Now, after three years of pain and longing, the way they get along has also settled down unknowingly. It doesn't mean that only loud laughter represents happiness, and not only fighting and chasing represents companionship.Even if it is just a faint existence within the sight of the other party, it has become a satisfying companionship in another sense.

Because the line of sight will be glued, because the beating hearts are all connected.

Looking at you, I can understand everything.

"Hey... are you really asleep?" I don't know how long I sat like that, because of the too quiet environment, Gao Nanshun couldn't help being forced to sleep, and tried to stretch his waist to drive away the sleepiness, he turned his head and looked To Park Heung-su who still closed his eyes and remained motionless.

"Hmm." Park Xingxiu, who was really falling asleep, heard Gao Nanshun's voice in the half-dream and half-awake state, and subconsciously responded.The drowsiness that he didn't have at all ran over inexplicably because Gao Nanshun was by his side, and the relaxed spirit made him feel more comfortable.In order to clear himself up, Park Heung-su thought about the topic and chatted with Gao Nam-soon.

"Wu Zhenghao called back?"

"Yeah. The brat is still stubborn." Gao Nanshun supported his body with his hands behind his back, and once again looked into the distance.

"What happened to Kim Min Ki?"

"you know?"

"I heard them talking when I first arrived."

"... He, came here yesterday." Gao Nanshun lowered his eyelids, hesitated for a moment, and finally said it.As for the meaning revealed between the lines, Park Xingxiu understood it instantly.He opened his eyes that had been closed all the time, and what immediately came into his sight was the distant and empty sky.

A brief silence spread between the two again.Gao Nanshun once again thought of the scene he saw after coming here with Mr. Zheng last night. He had a deep memory of Jin Minji sitting on the edge of the rooftop with his legs crossed.At that moment, the sad and hesitant breath exuding from the boy's body almost brought him back three years ago, and he saw the curled up self who was devastated by the hurt and pain.

"In this world, was there a moment when you thought of leaving?" Who was asking, the voice floated in the air, but it carried a heavy weight.Actually asked what was in his heart, Gao Nanshun moved his body a little uneasy, not daring to look into the eyes of the people around him.

But the man didn't make a sound for a long time, almost making him think that he really fell into a dream, and when he was regretting his words, the temperature and touch that suddenly covered his right hand made Gao Nanshun's heart tremble.He missed who that familiar yet unfamiliar warmth belonged to for a long time.

Park Xingxiu slowly sat up and exhaled lightly. He turned his head and looked at the side face of the person beside him with trembling eyelashes.The left hand slowly closed, tightly holding the low-temperature hand that was reddened by the cold.

"I can not let it go."

Finally, he couldn't help turning his head, but met Park Xingxiu's eyes that were staring at him without shaking. Gao Nanshun only felt the tremor in his heart become more intense, and he couldn't move away from his glued eyes.

Yeah, because you're still here, I can't bear to leave.

Slowly, tears and smiles came to his eyes together, because of the touch and warmth gradually rising from his chest, Gao Nanshun couldn't help laughing after all, looked at Park Xingxiu pretending to be disgusted, and mocked in a playful tone Said: "It's so disgusting, brat."

That's right, I don't want to part with it, because of that parting, I worked hard until now, and then I met you again and found you back.

I won't tell you, you seem to be part of my motivation to live.

"That's all for today." Teacher Zheng sorted out the textbooks and looked at the boys sitting in front of him. "Since the third day of junior high school, it's very simple, right? Well... there are 10 minutes left, what do you want to do?"

"Teacher," Han Yingyou couldn't wait to raise his hand as soon as the words finished, and said a little shyly, "I...I also want to write poetry, please teach me how to write poetry."

Because of his proposal, Park Xingxiu, who was sitting in the back row, threw away the pen in his hand very depressed, and kept complaining in his heart why this little man made such a boring suggestion.But Teacher Zheng accepted it with a smile, so that everyone began to think silently about what they wanted to say.Pu Xingxiu was helplessly thinking about what to say to prevaricate, his eyes wandered for a long time, and finally he made up his mind because of a sentence that popped up in his heart.

He didn't realize how stupid his decision was until the guy sitting in front said exactly the same thing as himself.He actually wrote Gao Nanshun's greatest favorite unconsciously.

"I want to eat ramen."

When Gao Nansun said this, Park Heung-soo put his hands on the notebook and pressed down the words he wrote.I kept cursing "brat" in my heart, and I blamed myself for writing this sentence so thoughtlessly.He didn't want to show that he had the same expectations as Gao Nanshun, but this awkward psychology made Park Heung-su's ears turn red.

Teacher Zheng pushed his hand away stubbornly, and after reading that sentence, he laughed and joked: "There is still someone who wants to eat ramen." Throwing away the pen in his hand in frustration, Park Xingxiu covered his face with his hands, thinking Only the steaming words "death to death" remained.

But after hearing Teacher Zheng's words, Gao Nanshun was full of joy, and couldn't stop the joy with his lips pursed, and laughed contentedly.

As a result, under Teacher Zheng's request for practice, the two people who sat face to face in the ramen shop were still in a state of smiling and restless.Looking at the steaming and fragrant ramen in front of him, Park Xingxiu, who was still upset because he couldn't put it down, pushed the rice spoon away angrily, and glared at the guy opposite: "Why did you write that you want to eat ramen?"

Gao Nanshun, who folded his arms, suppressed a smile, and looked at him innocently: "Is it just me who wrote it? Eat it." I really don't know where this guy got such an awkward temper. push him away.

I don't know who said that I can't bear him.

Just as Gao Nanshun picked up the chopsticks and was about to start, Park Xingxiu's hand grabbed his wrist, "Yeah, I need to take a certification photo."

"Ah, yes." Almost forgot, Teacher Zheng gave them the task, took a certified photo and passed it to show that they really came to eat ramen, muttering the words "certified photo", Gao Nanshun took out his mobile phone and called In the photo mode, he stood up and walked to Park Xingxiu and sat down next to him. Regardless of Park Xingxiu's frowning and disgusted expression, he put his arms around his shoulders.

"Hold the ramen." After speaking, he raised his phone to find a good angle to face the two of them. Park Xingxiu, who had always been awkward, was no longer stubborn at this time, holding the ramen bowl with both hands and laughing at the phone with the people around him. "1, 2, 3." With the sound of "click", the smiles of the two people were included in the photo together. Just after the photo was taken, Park Xingxiu immediately faded his smile and resumed his face full of impatience, and his arms kept arching the right side. Guy let him go.

"Go away. Go away."

Glancing at Park Xingxiu with an awkward expression, Gao Nanshun pouted and sat back on the seat opposite him with a mentality that was not common to him. He lowered his head and looked at the certification photos he had taken, with an unconcealable smile all over his face.After sending a copy to Mr. Zheng, Gao Nanshun hesitated for a moment looking at the smiling faces of the two people leaning together in the photo, then raised his head and peeked at Park Xingxiu who was answering the phone, and quietly set the photo as the desktop of his mobile phone.

Anyway, he won't find out, so it should be fine.

Satisfied, he put away his mobile phone and picked up the ramen with chopsticks. Before he took a bite, he was interrupted by Park Xingxiu's words again: "Wu Zhenghao was arrested by gangsters, and he has to pay back 30." Gao Nanshun stared at the opposite person equally irritable His expression froze, and he sighed softly after a few seconds: "That's a lot."

"What do you want to do?"

"Ah, Wu Zhenghao is really..." Pu Xingxiu closed his eyes and rubbed his forehead with his hands because of the headache, cursing that unlucky bastard with endless troubles in his heart thousands of times.I really wanted to just leave him like that and let him suffer and avoid trouble, but in the end I couldn't bear it anymore and stood up to save someone, but Gao Nanshun grabbed his arm.

"Why are you going? Those who don't pay back the money should settle it themselves."

"Then you have to rescue them first."

"..." Damn Wu Zhenghao.Gao Nanshun looked at Park Xingxiu's "righteous and awe-inspiring" face, and the complaints against Wu Zhenghao in his heart deepened. Why did he pick this time to cause trouble and disturb their hard-won chance to eat ramen together. "You go first, I'll go later." Responded feebly, Gao Nanshun was filled with the urge to beat someone up because of the suffocation, he still wanted to take another bite of the ramen in the bowl, But looking at the back of Park Xingxiu walking out of the store, he lost all mood in an instant.

YIXI!Unlucky guy!

It was more than an hour when Wu Zhenghao, whose face was covered in blood, was rescued from the billiard hall after taking the late fee from his classmates.He specially told the three guys to work hard on weekends to make up the money, so as not to expose the fact that they used the late fee without permission. Gao Nanshun looked at the backs of the three people who had finally become more honest and left one after another, and sighed helplessly and a little relieved.

Park Xingxiu looked at Gao Nanshun's side face with a faint smile, and cursed his behavior of being hard-spoken and soft-hearted, pretending to be disgusted: "It's disgusting." After hearing what he said, he couldn't hold back the smile anymore, Gao Nanshun pursed his lips and smiled slyly, turned around and looked at Park Xingxiu with half-closed eyes: "I learned from you, kid."

Turning around and looking in the direction the two of them came from, he remembered the two big bowls of ramen that were wasted in the ramen shop, and his depressed mood rolled over again. Gao Nanshun sighed dejectedly, and cursed in a low voice: "My ramen... YIXI!"

Looking at the back of Gao Nanshun walking forward in anger, like a cat whose tail was stepped on, Park Xingxiu, who was following behind, couldn't help it after all, and laughed in a low voice.

After finally collecting the opinions of the whole class in support of Teacher Zheng’s return to the position of head teacher, the result is still unable to change the reality that Teacher Zheng is leaving school. When the students in the second class lamented together, Li Jiangzhu proposed to hold a farewell party for the teacher, saying It's a coincidence, and it's really a coincidence to a certain level, just when they used the late fee, they encountered a situation where the students wanted to use the late fee.

Seeing Park Heung-soo's gesture, Gao Nam-sun was about to get up and go out with him to discuss the solution of the matter, when Byun Ki-duk unknowingly took out the key, once the fact that the piggy bank was missing was exposed, he could no longer hide it, in desperation Gao Nanshun took all the doubts on his own, explaining that he temporarily used up the late fee due to unavoidable reasons.

After a few boys discussed in the corridor for a while, they decided to go back to the classroom to appease the students who were arguing.Gao Nanshun attracted everyone's attention as soon as he entered the classroom. He stood in front of the podium but couldn't lift his eyes to look directly at the faces of his classmates. He lowered his eyelids and said in a low voice, "I'm really sorry. I know I shouldn't be charged for being late. , but I also have my own difficulties."

"What are your difficulties?" Jin Dongshuo asked suspiciously as he stood far away at the end of the classroom, and was immediately pushed back by Li Jiangzhu's words: "What are you going to do when you know!" They all believed in him, so they quickly accepted his explanation and helped him out.

But this does not mean that everyone will believe Gao Nanshun. Facing the students who raised questions one after another, Gao Nanshun stood in front of the podium and couldn't figure out how to persuade everyone. While hesitating, the person who stood up in front of him controlled the scene.

Song Xiajing stood up and faced the students, and said in a serious and firm voice: "Be quiet. I will supervise him." Because of this sentence, Gao Nanshun looked at her with a little surprise, and couldn't think of the person who had always tried his best to avoid trouble. How could Song Xiajing take the initiative to take on this risky responsibility.Park Xingxiu, who was sitting below, also stared at Song Xiajing with a flat expression for an instant, but no matter what, she couldn't see what kind of mentality she was holding when she said these words.

"There are a total of 30 yuan in the piggy bank." Song Xiajing turned her head to look at Gao Nanshun, with an imperceptible gentle smile in her eyes: "I won't give you more in a day, so I must hand it in on Monday " Seeing Gao Nanshun nod her head slightly, she turned her head to look at her classmates again: "If I still can't get it by Monday, I will talk to the head teacher in person, okay?"

"So, Song Xiajing, are you standing up for Gao Nam-sun now?" Byun Ki-duk, who didn't miss a chance to gossip, immediately raised a sensitive question, and then coaxed with Kim Dong-suk and Kim Dong-seok: "Wow—— Why is this picture so ambiguous?"

As if something had really mutated in the air, the inexplicable atmosphere made Gao Nanshun and Song Xiajing speechless at the same time, and could only remain silent like that.Pu Xingxiu's eyes trembled, and he raised his eyes to look at the two people who were silent. He was clearly an outsider, but it seemed that every word of those words hit his heart, and every blow carried a dull weight, crushing him. I just feel that the air is instantly thinner.

here we go again.That feeling, lingering, lingering, suffocating.

But fortunately, the matter was temporarily alleviated in this way. Although it was impossible to hold a farewell party for Mr. Zheng, we could only use snacks instead, but fortunately, the students no longer pursued it, and the real facts were safely covered up.

Only a few boys who knew the truth of the matter were about to go downstairs to find a place to discuss what happened next, but just as they walked out of the back door of the classroom, they were blocked by Song Xiajing who came over. "Gao Nanshun, I have something to tell you." The girl directly took Gao Nanshun's arm, and went straight to the stairs not far away to wait there.

Pu Xingxiu frowned slightly and looked at Song Xiajing's back. After feeling the probing gaze of the people around him, he immediately loosened his brows, raised his chin, and signaled him to talk to Song Xiajing. He didn't want to wait any longer and turned to Take steps in the opposite direction.The irritability in his heart became more and more vigorous. He knew that Gao Nanshun must obediently walked to the girl's side, and knew that what they were going to talk about was nothing more than late fees, but the discomfort that was spinning and stirring his heart couldn't be relieved.

Throwing away Li Lijing's hand that was holding his right arm, Park Xingxiu frowned and stared at the innocent boy beside him, expressing his dissatisfaction with his eyes.Walking slowly behind the two boys who were holding each other, but my heart seemed to be lost in an unknown place, blowing an empty wind.

After the physical education class was changed to self-study, the students sat listlessly in the classroom, and they didn't lift their spirits until Teacher Jiang walked in through the back door.Unexpectedly, Teacher Zheng also appeared and stood in front of the podium. Everyone was surprised and puzzled, but they did not forget to yell loudly to ask Teacher Zheng to stay.After Mr. Zheng announced the news that he would be the head teacher again, everyone cheered uncontrollably, and the originally dull atmosphere was swept away.

Hearing that Class [-], who still had to stay for evening self-study, was moaning because the physical education teacher asked for a make-up physical education class, his spirits were revived, and even the two teachers were invited to attend the physical education class together.After arriving at the gymnasium, they needed to be divided into groups because of the dodgeball competition. The two teachers took turns to make up the students in the class. After hearing what Teacher Jiang said, "Gao Nam-sun, you should pair up with Park Xingxiu", Park Xingxiu raised his eyebrows instantly. He stared at him, with a sulk in his heart that he couldn't speak and couldn't swallow.What is "pairing"?Can you make this more ambiguous?

ambiguous?

Pu Xingxiu, who was stunned by the words that came out of his mind, didn't notice Gao Nanshun's suspicious eyes all the time. He only felt that something was burning in his heart. It was so hot that he had nowhere to hide. Starting this afternoon Huo, who had been scorching all this time, became more and more arrogant. He seemed to be able to see what it was, but he still couldn't look at it directly.

"Hey, who will protect who for a while?" Gao Nanshun looked at Park Xingxiu's ecstatic look, and couldn't help but pull down his cuffs after observing for a long time. Meet your own eyes.

What happened?

"Go ahead and pitch, I'm not interested." After dismissing his question with a few words, Park Xingxiu turned his head to avoid his gaze.At this time, Park Xingxiu was annoyed seeing him, annoyed not seeing him, both annoyed and irritable, so contradictory that he himself hated himself.

Gao Nanshun looked at him as if he was too lazy to pay attention to himself, pouted his lips in dissatisfaction, squinted at him for a few seconds, and then simply turned around and ignored him.

After the game started, everyone gradually became active, and the atmosphere was constantly pushed to a climax. The two teachers and classmates played happily together, as if after a long journey, from the initial teacher-student discord to the harmonious integration now Together, it is a bridge built by sincere care and understanding time and time again.

The second class of the second year has experienced nearly a year of ups and downs and injustices, and finally ushered in a harmonious and beautiful scenery.

After the competition, Teacher Zheng and Teacher Jiang brought hot dogs for multiple people. The students in Class Two sat around on the steps and shared the food, but no one noticed Gao Nam-sun and Park Xingxiu who had disappeared since the end of the competition.

Just after the start of the game, Gao Nanshun stood in the crowd with his hands in his pockets sullenly, and did not move until he felt the hem of his clothes behind him being grabbed, and when he looked back and found that it was Park Xingxiu, he turned around and couldn't help but pursed his lips and smiled stand up.

But as soon as the game was over, the man let go of his hand immediately, and then turned around and walked to the corner of the gymnasium alone while everyone was laughing and laughing, and turned into the bathroom.Gao Nanshun looked at the back of the man with obvious unknown emotions, scratched his head depressedly, and chose to chase after him quickly.

As soon as he turned into the bathroom door, he saw Park Xingxiu leaning over in front of the sink, washing his hands that had never touched the ball.Seeing his unnecessary behavior, Gao Nanshun inexplicably felt a slight sense of uneasiness.Park Xingxiu was in a bad mood, he could tell.As for why, after thinking about it for a long time, he couldn't figure it out.

But Park Xingxiu was in a bad mood to the point that he was a little cold towards him, so it wasn't something he couldn't care about if he didn't understand.

Gao Nanshun walked over slowly, stood a step behind him and looked at him in the mirror.Pu Xingxiu washed his hands and raised his head when he heard the sound of footsteps. He met his gaze in the mirror, and there was no surprise at all. He just stopped the movements of his hands slowly, straightened up slowly, and shook his hands drops of water.

"What's the matter?" When he spoke, his expression didn't fluctuate at all, as if he felt that Gao Nanshun was baffled.Seeing that he was still deliberately hiding from him, Gao Nanshun's dissatisfaction surged, but he didn't know how to ask him.He could only still look at him with searching eyes, and unconsciously pursed his lower lip.

"What's the matter? What are you looking at me like that for?" Park Xingxiu looked at Gao Nanshun's eyes that were clearly struggling, and sighed helplessly in his heart. He couldn't understand his thoughts very well.Gao Nanshun was probably a little uneasy because he saw his unstable emotions.Thinking that his attitude towards him was really not good since the afternoon, Park Xingxiu's expression gradually softened.Just about to lean over to hug his neck and rub his curly hair, he was startled by the man's sudden approach and reflexively leaned back.

Gao Nanshun couldn't think of what to say, so he simply stopped thinking about it, went over and grabbed Park Xingxiu's arm and shook it.There was still a bright toothy smile on his face: "Hey, look at our serious look on Xingxiu's face, who messed with you again? Don't be like this, just smile, huh?"

"..." I looked sideways at Gao Nanshun's brightest smile, which I hadn't seen for a long time. His eyes were narrowed into slits but there were dots of light shining through his eyes. He grinned and showed a neat row of teeth. His whole face was soft and outrageous, but It also has a silly atmosphere, which is a bit too cute.And the tear mole at the corner of his right eye came into view clearly again.These almost made Park Xingxiu lose his mind for an instant, and when he realized it, he couldn't help laughing out loud: "Gao Nanshun, are you acting like a baby to me?"

"..."

"What are you thinking about so much? I don't have anything to do, okay? But for your sake of acting like a spoiled child, I'd better just smile." Seeing Gao Nanshun's cheeks and earlobes starting to faintly rosy, the smile in Park Xingxiu's eyes It's thicker.The originally dull and irritable mood was swept away in an instant, and he suddenly felt unusually relaxed and at ease.

Such a Gao Nanshun who is working hard to make him smile, such a Gao Nanshun who is always paying attention to his changing mood, such a Gao Nanshun who is so persistently dependent on him, how can he blame him for no reason?

Seeing Gao Nanshun's dissatisfied and embarrassing drooping eyelashes and pursing his lower lip again, Park Xingxiu slowly raised his arms and put his arms around his shoulders, his eyes were so gentle that even he could not imagine, the warmth in his heart almost turned into warm water. The softness that came out moistened the corners of his eyes inexplicably.

Because of having you by my side, I am very happy.

I am very happy, Ko Nam-soon.

do you know?