this is love

The long stare at each other seemed to have gone through a century, and was finally interrupted by people who were gradually surrounding them. The man who took the lead came looked at Gao Nanshun and Park Xingxiu who stopped by the window and stopped doing anything, and laughed contemptuously: " Whoops, want to jump and be scared? But what to do, we will be more scary. Don't you know? Ignorant boy!"

Because he was almost forced to a dead end, Park Xingxiu stepped back from the window sill, dragged Gao Nansun to his side, and gave up his way of jumping out of the window to escape, and instead wanted to cover those who had a chance to escape. Gao Nanshun jumped out of the window and left. Looking at the gangsters who were staring at him, Park Xingxiu urged Gao Nanshun who was beside him in a low voice, "You go now." Even if he could only protect him from escaping here, today he chose to follow the strong inner pressure and come here The behavior of this place of right and wrong has not lost its meaning.Without fear, there is no such thing as fear at all, what he is afraid of is any irreparable harm that may be caused to another person beyond his imagination, and besides, any pain that he may substitute for himself, as if It will not affect his determination to stand in front of that person.

Even if that person is the one who destroyed himself.It is the devil who let himself fall into the abyss and dare not face the sun for a long time.

Gao Nanshun glanced sideways at the person next to him who was trying to be brave, and couldn't help thinking how he could leave him and run away, but the long-lost warmth he felt because Park Heung-soo ignored his efforts for him actually melted into him. My heart has transformed into a more fearless courage. At this moment, I just want to fight side by side with him.

"Get ready, my side." Like the shadows overlapping with each other three years ago, those tacit understandings have never been far away, and they returned to the bodies of the two with ease, as if they were instantly invincible.Gao Nam-soon leaned tightly on Park Heung-su's shoulder, facing back to back all those who wanted to hurt him.

Let's protect each other.

"1."

"2."

"--3."

The two different voices harmonized softly, as if they wanted to open any door to travel through time that belonged to two people alone.The moment of the quick shot was hard to guard against. Park Xingxiu and Gao Nanshun were on two sides to deal with the rushing crowd. It was like they hadn't fought so happily in a long time, and everything gradually regained the familiar feeling.The hardness of the fist, the pain of resisting the attack, the breeze blowing past the ear when dodging, the increasingly obvious heat in the chest, the pleasure that gradually rises in the heart.All with the atmosphere of the past.

Park Heung-soo kicked away the man holding Gao Nam-sun cupping his fist and trying to beat him down, took the pool cue and swung it towards the gangsters who were chasing after him. After Gao Nam-sun threw a plastic stool and knocked over a person, he finally threw the cue in his hand hard. It happened that he tripped over the gangster who was about to come forward, and immediately followed Gao Nanshun out of the billiard hall and out of the building.

It's such a joy.

This feeling is hot but in harmony with the winter wind, running forward with heavy panting and gradually excited body cells. He could hear the angry shouts of the gangsters not far behind him, and looked back at Park Xingxiu who was running two steps behind him. The man's obviously excited expression made Gao Nanshun feel unprecedentedly happy at this moment.

I used to run on the street with him countless times, and all the happy memories that I am accustomed to, but at this moment, the replay brings a sense of satisfaction that I have never had before, because I only know how to cherish it now, because I have lost it, so I understand It's precious.This was the scene he had dreamed of for so many days and nights, they were running together happily.

The figures of the two shuttled among the crowd. After running through several streets to the main road, they saw the No. 301 bus parked at the station. After boarding the bus, the door was closed, and the gangsters chased to the front of the bus. They watched the two standing in the bus proudly watching them wave goodbye, and slapped the window with gritted teeth, but they were unable to stop the bus that was already moving, and were forced to give up. All the way to catch up.

Seeing the train station gradually out of sight and the angry gangsters outside the car window, Gao Nam-sun and Park Xingxiu still stood in front of the car window and looked out the window, as if they couldn't let go of the excitement that surged through their bodies for the time being.

Because of the boiling joy in his heart and the joy of escaping from danger, Park Xingxiu has already forgotten that he is in the present where things are changing and people are changing, not the beautiful but gradually distant past three years ago.When he raised his right hand to embrace Gao Nanshun's shoulders, the corner of his mouth was still showing the most willful smile. Seeing Gao Nanshun's smiling face turned to him and the light of joy and happiness in those eyes, he felt the long-lost happiness in an instant, but this The moment was too short, and as Gao Nanshun's smile froze at the corner of his mouth gradually faded after his mind cleared, Park Xingxiu came to his senses and realized that even if it was just a gentle sweep, for the two people who are currently in an embarrassing situation, this is a big deal. How inappropriate the behavior is.

Annoyed that she had forgotten her original determination not to give Gao Nanshun any chance to let the two get closer again, Park Xingxiu chose to ignore the unconcealed look in Gao Nanshun's eyes, and quickly withdrew her hand and turned to the credit card machine to pay the fee.Gao Nanshun followed him to swipe his card, turned around and saw Park Xingxiu sitting by the window and looking out of the window, so obvious that he had returned to his previous indifferent appearance, which made the burden on his heart that he had finally put down a little today weighed down again .

Walking to the other side and sitting next to the car window, Gao Nanshun also cast his gaze out of the window.

The indescribable and tumbling emotions in his heart made him confused and helpless. In the three years before the two met again, even though their life was gloomy, even if they lived like a puppet whose soul had been hollowed out, they still had nothing to do. Here we come.There are no so many ups and downs of strong emotions that make him think about it day and night, and he is almost suffocated by being entangled.If those bone-destroying longings, overwhelming guilt, and extreme pain are true, they are gradually isolated from the increasingly lonely life of being alone, as if I have become a dummy who does not have much perception of the outside world, day after day. Ri's mechanically repeated the necessary actions.

It was like punishing myself by throwing away all vivid emotions.

But this reunion liberated all those suppressed emotions in an instant, almost overwhelming people like an explosion.It was so heavy that he was almost overwhelmed.But he discovered the desire deep in his heart, even if he would be suffocated by those too strong feelings, he didn't want to go back to those days of walking dead.Looking at Park Xingxiu who was standing in front of him again, he only wished that he could watch and feel for one more second, just a little more.

So when I was forced to push away, the pain was even more severe than three years ago, because I have already tasted the pain of separation.

When he thought he was hated to the bone, Park Xingxiu suddenly appeared in order to save him, and the hope that was almost extinguished in his heart gradually spread like a spark.

Still can't let it go, Xingxiu said to herself.Because of this recognition, Gao Nanshun was both happy and sad, happy that he still had at least a little bit of that person's care, but even so, he knew that that person would not be able to let go of the past pain and reopen his arms to accept him .

They seem to be in this dilemma all the time.Struggling hard, but in vain.

The guilt and pain of being hurt in the past, the reluctance and heartache of being forced to be separated now, the joy and happiness of being unconditionally protected now... These are all brought to him by Park Xingxiu.

Gao Nanshun felt the increasingly warm sunlight outside the window in the winter, and fantasized that this road would never end, they would always sit in the same car like this, heading in the same direction, and in the infinitely gentle time in the future, they would feel together the temperature of the sun.

However, fantasy is the cruelest.

When he watched Park Heung-su get off the car silently at the stop before the school, Gao Nam-sun thoroughly felt the hopelessness of going back to the past.Seeing the figure of Park Xingxiu walking on the roadside gradually receding until it disappeared, such a lonely and stubborn appearance, the alienation and bravado that Park Xingxiu has always used as a protective cover, only he can truly see through.After hesitating for a moment, Gao Nanshun stood up and got out of the car, and walked back in the opposite direction.

Park Xingxiu watched the bus drive away, and after confirming that the person could no longer see him, he stopped slowly, leaned down and covered his knee that had been aching from just now with his hands.Looking at the ground in front of him, Park Xingxiu couldn't help but frowned in pain.Although the fighting and running like today didn't consume much energy, it has become a burden, an unbearable burden for him with a knee injury on his right leg.He didn't want to show his pain in front of Gao Nanshun, especially when he thought of Gao Nanshun's expression of guilt because he brought the pain, he didn't want to see it at all.

Just bear with it, and it will pass.

Because these pains are actually nothing at all.He obviously, clearly experienced greater and heavier pain.

"How are your legs?"

Hearing this absolutely impossible voice, Park Xingxiu raised his head in surprise, and seeing Gao Nanshun approaching slowly, he quickly changed his original painful expression, Park Xingxiu regained his indifference, looked at him and said mockingly: " Not your job."

"That's not your job." Standing two meters away from Park Xingxiu, Gao Nanshun looked at him who was dishonest, and stared closely at his shaking eyes: "Whether it's becoming a car thief or becoming a You should pretend you don't know about the food on the plate of the little bastard."

"I'm not pretending to know. I just don't like Wu Zhenghao feeding you water and bullying you."

"so what?"

"..." Because he found that he couldn't find any reason to refute Gao Nanshun's words, and couldn't answer his question, Park Xingxiu fell silent, pretending that he didn't care that the other party had already seen through him, and he didn't know how to deal with it.After seeing Gao Nanshun again, the state of being led away from time to time is really dissatisfying.He wanted to escape, but was always caught up again.He pushed the other party away, but he couldn't control his worried heart to protect him.It's really tiresome to go back and forth like this.

"Thank you."

Because of Gao Nanshun's sudden words, Park Xingxiu temporarily forgot those irritability and self-loathing, and asked "what?" in doubt, Gao Nanshun's expression became gentle, because the eyes conveyed a sense of familiarity and The warmth of the strange breath, and because of Gao Nanshun's next words, Park Xingxiu was almost stunned in place.

"Thank you for keeping the promise."

As if he had been hit on the softest part of his heart, Park Xingxiu lowered his eyelids slightly, his eyelashes trembling uncontrollably. It was a memory that had been buried in the dust for a long time but was deeply rooted in his heart. It was the first promise he made to Gao Nanshun in their memories. One is also the most firm oath.That was his determination to protect him.

"Stupid thing, so much nonsense."

The next sentence seemed to paralyze his heart instantly, and Pu Xingxiu quickly raised his eyelids to look at the person in front of him in disbelief.The most familiar heat in memory is rolling in.He remembered, he remembered everything, just like himself, for every detail, every expression, word, and action in those memories.All... all are engraved on all the cells of the body.

Are you the same as me, every night, every night, before falling asleep alone, silently replaying our memories and those times in the memories.

As they looked at each other silently, Gao Nanshun lowered his eyes and silently passed by him, but Park Xingxiu seemed to be nailed to the spot and couldn't move, only his constantly shaking eyes revealed the unstoppable tremor in his heart .

Your existence and every word are proving to me how much I miss the past.

Leaving the man alone in place, Gao Nanshun walked in the opposite direction with slow steps.As if assimilated by the slow pace, the thoughts running in his brain also began to slow down, and gradually retreated into the memory that made him unforgettable.

That was the first vow Park Xingxiu gave him, and he has always kept it in his heart. He dare not forget, does not want to forget, and cannot forget.

【What did I say?Don't be shy, right?Did I say that if I didn't say blackmail, I would die? 】

Slapping the faces of the two boys kneeling on the ground, Gao Nanshun squatted in front of them and said completely opposite punitive words in a gentle voice, looking at the two low-pitched boys whose cheeks were red and swollen and bloody at the corners of their mouths. Grade child, Gao Nanshun, the boss, endured his inner dissatisfaction with their blackmailing behavior and tried his best to control his anger, but after seeing the dissatisfied expression on the boy's face on the right, he raised his hand to shake off his dissatisfaction and slapped him again. When approaching him, he turned his head to avoid it.

He made a mistake but didn't know how to admit it, and the behavior of evading even the most basic punishment completely aroused Gao Nanshun's anger. He stared at the boy who dared not speak out, but smiled slightly, but in that smile But it has a vicious air.

[I dodged it.Oh, you hid. ] After speaking, he stood up and kicked the boy down, but before he stepped on the ground, he was bound by a pair of strong arms around the waist.Knowing that there was only one person who dared to do this, Gao Nanshun didn't fight back quickly to break free, but kept struggling to continue teaching the boy who was kicked to the ground in front of him, [Damn!let go!let go!let me go! ] screaming and trying to push the person behind him away, but was hugged so tightly that he watched him let the two boys go.

It wasn't until the two boys ran away that Pu Xingxiu let go of Gao Nanshun's struggle, and Gao Nansun couldn't help shouting at him with inner anger. [I rely on it!What are you doing!brat! 】

[It’s almost over, brat.Break that kid and you'll go to jail. 】

[Go and go.Am I going to let that jerk go because I'm afraid of going to jail? 】

[I don't want you to go to jail. 】

[Really... I will be angry once again! 】Looking at Park Xingxiu's determined expression that he couldn't do anything about him, Gao Nanshun raised his voice even more dissatisfied, but it was no longer because of the mistakes made by the two bastards, but because he felt deeply why he happened to meet one who stepped on his weakness guy.To him, it seemed that he could never be ruthless, nor could he refuse. 【Leave it alone!It's because of you bastards that they are getting more and more rampant! ] Every time he wants to teach those children who made mistakes severely, he will always be stopped by Park Xingxiu in the middle. He knows that sometimes he will attack madly and cruelly because of his anger, and it is difficult to restrain easily, but this is not It should be that cheap for those unrepentant guys.

【Then I won't let them go.It's fine if I don't know, if I know this matter will be endless. 】

【If you do this again, I won't see you anymore. 】Sighing sullenly, Gao Nanshun glared at Park Xingxiu angrily.

[Oh, it's so funny. 】Quickly interrupting his words, Park Xingxiu looked at him with a smile on his lips. 【Listen to me, boy.No matter whether you see me or not, or where you hide, I will stop you unconditionally until I die, and will not let you go to prison.I can't do anything else, I will abide by this agreement unconditionally. 】

At that moment, it seemed that some kind of lifelong vow had been made, and Park Xingxiu's eyes were too gentle and firm.So much so that in the years to come, Gao Nanshun could not forget that he was the first person in this world to make such a fiery oath to him, which almost warmed his life like this.

Because of the overflowing touch and a little embarrassment in his heart, Gao Nanshun was anxious to find something to change the current scene that was too warm.An unbearable smile crept up to the corner of his mouth, and Gao Nanshun pouted and teased Park Xingxiu pretending to be mocking. [Oops, stupid thing, so much nonsense. 】

Because of his spoiling words, Park Xingxiu raised his face and raised his hand to knock him on the head, but Gao Nanshun raised his hand in time to block it and changed the subject. 【Hey, where is the cigarette? 】Pu Xingxiu waved his hand away and turned his head angrily and said 【Forget it, kid. ] But he couldn't help laughing in the next second.Seeing Park Heung-soo like this, the Park Heung-soo who doted on him all this time, Gao Nam-soon jumped forward and got closer to him, couldn't help but coquettishly said with a coquettish smile [Let's smoke together! 】Pu Xingxiu yelled 【Go aside! ] In the end, she hugged him resignedly and took out the cigarette case from her pocket.

Looking at Park Heung-soo's gentle side face full of smiles, that was the moment when Ko Nam-soon felt the happiest.

……

[Stupid thing, so much nonsense. 】

The two people walking back to back have the same precious memories and feelings in their hearts.But now such a dilemma, because of the hurt, because of guilt, because of being brave and inconsistent, is being dug deeper and deeper, like an abyss, and once you fall into it, you will never be able to recover.

We are clearly guarding each other so persistently, under the intimate distance, in the past that we miss the most.