this is love

Jiang Shican found that sometimes no matter how good the teacher is, he will always encounter a few students who are difficult to deal with. He has always insisted on keeping a safe distance from the students, but after he came to Shengli High School, his defense line was breached a little bit.These two guys in front of me should be regarded as the most troublesome among the students who are facing them now. They love to be brave and duplicity, they are childish and messy, and they always ignore his earnest words.But what has been changed is here, and now he has chosen to use all kinds of methods to keep them, and he can no longer stand by.

Student, tsk, is really a headache.

"Ah, really." Jiang Shican threw the broom in his hand to Gao Nanshun, and hurriedly walked towards Park Xingxiu who was about to leave to block him: "Ah, you are really disobedient." His eyes moved back and forth between Gao Nanshun and Park Xingxiu, In the end, I chose to deal with it with a trick that did not conform to the teacher's demeanor. "I don't care, no one can leave here anyway. No one can leave until Gao Nanshun gives up and quits school. Got it!" Worried that the two guys would resist again, Jiang Shican turned around and walked out: "I don't care! No one can go out , know!"

After knocking on the door several times to no avail, Gao Nanshun was deceived by the false impression that Teacher Jiang locked them inside. Gao Nanshun felt helpless as if someone was joking with you in difficult times, but Teacher Jiang still insisted on forcing them He gave up and dropped out of school, and Park Xingxiu behind him didn't react at all, just watching himself and Teacher Jiang deal with each other like that.But not speaking does not mean agreement. Gao Nanshun knew that Pu Xingxiu would not care about the teacher's persecution at all, and what he decided was destined.Moreover, throwing away the most important thing in his life in return for Park Heung-su to go back to school is the only thing he can do for him.

"Please open the door." Gao Nanshun knocked on the door and shouted helplessly, "I know, I know... I will come to school." I could feel the eyes that suddenly enveloped me behind me, and I could imagine how Park Xingxiu would look at himself who turned back on his promises , but Gao Nanshun, who is now forced to do nothing, can only choose to compromise temporarily.When the door was finally opened and let out, Gao Nanshun threw down the sentence "It's the most childish thing to lock people up and threaten them" to Mr. Jiang and walked straight out.

Park Heung-soo walked out of the gymnasium together with Gao Nam-sun, and walked a few steps behind the person in front. Park Heung-soo didn't know what mood he was in now. How many times, when he wanted to get him back, he would be hit by the gray reality How many times have you been defeated, and when you want to push him away from your side, you will be entangled more and more closely by various coincidences that are not coincidences, and there is almost no room for breathing.Struggling like this, struggling, but still unable to break free from the net of fate.As if being tricked by the gods, I don't even have room to resist.

It wasn't until Gao Nanshun stopped and turned around that Park Xingxiu raised his head and met his gaze steadily for the first time in a long time.But I didn't expect that what the man spit out was still with cold words: "Don't worry, I won't come to school." At that moment, Pu Xingxiu almost wanted to laugh, Gao Nanshun, you really said what you said. Difficult to chase.Shall I praise you right now?Why do I find that no matter what you do, it will make me feel full of unspeakable irritability and anger.

Seeing Gao Nanshun turning around and about to leave, Park Xingxiu immediately said, "You should come to school." Seeing the indifferent eyes he cast over his head, Park Xingxiu endured the tumbling in his heart and said what he wanted to say Everything that can be said has been said: "The head teacher and the others don't seem to give up. I don't want to always have something to do with you because of this matter." But when Gao Nanshun pushed back with "No", Park Xingxiu could hardly hold back the anxiety in his heart : "Be obedient, brat, it's very irritating to use me as an excuse for whether someone like you dropped out of school."

"I'm not using you as an excuse." But Gao Nanshun just refuted his words calmly.He couldn't see through the meaning contained in that gaze, and he didn't want to see through.no?What is that?Do you want me to believe your crazy words?Heh, I'm the most important thing in your life?Am I?Yeah? !If yes, then why did you throw me away like garbage three years ago after destroying my legs and my dreams?Is the most important thing for you to be thrown away like this?Since you can abandon me so easily, why do you have to say these words to me now with a heartache that is hard to let go?

That destructive pain was brought to me by you.

You come and tell me how I can trust you with all my heart again.

"If not, what is it? Are you trying to offset my legs with your dropout?"

Hearing such sarcastic words from Park Heung-soo's mouth, Gao Nam-sun was speechless with the cold feeling of not being believed, and could only say palely, "That's not the case." It seemed that he had been chanting silently in his heart like this, and only hoped that Park Heung-soo would I can see his suffering, understand his pain, and believe in his heart.Stop treating him with such sarcasm and ruthlessness like resisting an enemy.Even if he is greedy, he longs for even a trace of warmth from Park Xingxiu.

"Abandon me? Just kidding." Seeing Gao Nanshun lowering his eyes and muttering to himself more and more helplessly, even though the sharp pain in his chest made his eyes moist and hot, Park Xingxiu still couldn't stop the tears that had slipped to his mouth Those words, with a sharp dagger, pierced Gao Nanshun's chest while torturing himself like masochistic. "Don't get me wrong, it's been a long time since you abandoned me. It was over when you ran away 3 years ago. Now don't play tricks and go straight to school. You were the bastard who betrayed me by then. So don't pretend to be a good person now, go to school with a thick skin."

That's not the case, Heung-soo.

The strong resentment in this man's eyes almost covered all the light, Gao Nanshun's lips trembled slightly, but he was unable to utter a word after all.Being resented, disgusted, misunderstood, ridiculed, and constantly driven out by this person, even so, even with all the twisted pain, he still couldn't justify himself.Because he cared too much, even the explanation became pale.Even though everything was that damn mistake, it still couldn't cover up the reality, the mistakes I made.

So Xingxiu, I will leave, as long as I can exchange for your future, I will leave.

Looking at Gao Nanshun's complex eyes, Park Xingxiu understood that his words were like a double-edged sword, tormenting himself and stabbing him even more, his gaze shot into the depths of the man's eyes without moving, so that he could see through him as before , but Gao Nanshun turned and left after bowing his head. The uncontrollable uneasiness that seemed to be out of control at that moment made Park Xingxiu hurriedly shouted "answer me", and his anxious voice disappeared in the cold wind. Looking at Gao Nanshun's stubborn The back that was drifting away seemed to be beyond his expectations, and the growing uneasiness mixed with that irritability made Park Xingxiu stand in place unable to move.

What on earth do I owe you to make me tortured by you so far and I can't get rid of it.

When the students in the class got into a mess because of the notice of course selection suddenly announced by the principal, Park Xingxiu put on earphones, hoping to block some noisy voices and calm down the anxiety that had been churning in his heart for a while, but before his eyes unconsciously reappeared Seeing that person's complex and unspeakable eyes, such hesitant eyes, such miserable eyes.

While in a trance, he felt someone tap his right arm. Park Xingxiu looked up and found that it was Li Zhixun. He was a little surprised to see that his serious expression was obviously different from usual. It's the same, the heart is heavy.After arriving at the stairwell on the top floor, Li Zhixun really brought the message from the source of anxiety: "Gao Nansun will die a miserable death if he is seen riding that motorcycle. I don't want to tell you only after seeing that, In front of the billiard hall at the crossroads." Perhaps because he finally understood the meaning of many actions, Li Zhixun's words were full of worry and guilt, rather than jokes and jokes.

But Pu Xingxiu had no time to take care of those changes. His heart was in a state of confusion because of his words. He didn't want to admit it, but he had to admit that whenever it was about Gao Nanshun's safety, even if he hated him to the bone, he couldn't stop it. An impulse to worry about him.His heart was betrayed by the uneasy swaying eyes, Park Xingxiu could no longer calmly pretend that he had nothing to do with it, but the remaining self-esteem ordered him not to fall into that "Gao Nanshun" who had been pestering him for many years. Whirlpool, ignoring Li Zhixun who was looking at him, Park Xingxiu quickly ran down the stairs and returned to the class as if evading.

It's none of your business, Park Heung-soo.The life and death of Gao Nanshun has nothing to do with you.

Now that he has been judged out of life, he can no longer be given any chance to start over.

Constantly hypnotizing himself, Park Xingxiu sat in the noisy classroom, but his heart was filled with even more anxiety, which made him restless.No use, no use at all.Every time I hypnotized myself, the desire to rush to that person's side deepened.That desire is getting bigger and bigger, almost driving his action.The flustered Park Xingxiu didn't know what to do or what to do now, even if he was sitting in the classroom, he couldn't catch his heart.

The heart that always likes to make its own decisions.

【Gao Nanshun will die a miserable death if he is seen riding that motorcycle away.I didn't want to tell you like that, in front of the pool hall at the intersection. 】

Gao Nanshun would die a miserable death as long as he was seen riding that motorcycle away.

Gao Nanshun will die a miserable death.

Gao Nanshun...

Gao Nanshun.

Unable to bear the torment of almost dying in his heart any longer, Park Xingxiu got up abruptly and rushed out of the classroom, facing the wind and ran out of the school.The bitter cold wind in winter seems to have become hot at this moment, and the stinging pain like a knife is no match for the pain in the heart.He shouldn't hesitate, because there is nothing, nothing is more important than Gao Nanshun.If Gao Nanshun had an accident...it would be something he couldn't even imagine.Gao Nanshun, who has always been domineering and rebellious, is the brightest light in his heart.Park Xingxiu never imagined the possibility of the extinction of that light.

He clearly, clearly gave him a promise.He will protect him with all his strength until death, even at the cost of sacrificing himself.

To hell with all that bloody pride.

Nan Shun.

After Gao Nanshun hung up the phone call from his boss to inform him of the items to be delivered, he rode a delivery motorcycle to the designated place. Sure enough, he saw the motorcycle to be delivered. After finding the key from the trunk, he rode a motorcycle that was obviously newly bought. The car drives to the location to be delivered.

It may be because the winter is getting deeper and the cold factor in the air is more luxuriant. Gao Nanshun felt the sting from the cold wind caressing on his cheeks became more profound, and the breath he exhaled quickly dissipated in the air.At this time, I would especially miss every winter three years ago, the days when he and Park Xingxiu nestled in the small room of their house reading comics and eating snacks to pass the time.So warm and beautiful.

Fascinated all the way, he arrived at the destination of the courier without knowing it. Gao Nanshun parked his motorcycle downstairs in the billiards hall and planned to go upstairs to find the courier, but it was completely unexpected. Someone who might be here at this very moment.Seeing Park Xingxiu running down the stairs in a panic, and seeing him with an anxious and relieved expression, Gao Nanshun asked suspiciously, "Why are you here?"

"Put the key away quickly."

"What are you talking about?" Looking at Park Xingxiu's unusual worried expression, Gao Nanshun became more and more confused.

"The owner of that car is up there, and Wu Zhenghao stole it during the day. They want you to be blamed for framing you. Run quickly." As soon as the words fell, I saw the crowd gathered outside the building, obviously this motorcycle The gangsters next to his master asked, "Is that you?" The gangsters who gradually surrounded blocked the exit.A few more people appeared on the stairs behind them. Park Heung-su and Gao Nam-soon couldn't move because of the two-sided attack. For the time being, they could only exchange glances and observe the situation.

"Did you borrow it? Don't say a word, high school students have eaten the guts of a leopard. Or do you not know who I am?" The man who looked like the leader of a gangster looked at Gao Nanshun and Park Xingxiu who was still wearing a school uniform, with a mocking expression on his face Said: "What are you doing? You want to get back the rent for borrowing the motorcycle."

Hearing this obviously ill-intentioned sentence, Park Xingxiu expected that the next development would be more difficult, and it would be even more difficult to escape if he did not take any action. Then he slapped Gao Nam-sun and shouted, "Run!" and ran up the stairs first. Pushing away the gangsters who were caught off guard by his sudden movement, he ran upstairs to the billiard hall.Gao Nanshun followed him and kicked down the discarded newspapers and cardboard boxes piled up at the corner of the stairs, so that the debris rolling down the stairs hindered the gangsters from chasing.

After running into the billiards hall, several people who were still playing billiards didn't know the situation and didn't stop the two of them. He froze for a moment.Gao Nanshun followed behind him to guard against the chasing of the gangsters, but when he turned his head, he found Park Xingxiu standing motionless in front of the window.In desperation, he had no time to think about the reasons for his actions, but anxiously shouted: "What are you doing! Run!" But because of the silence behind him and no answer, he turned his head to look at Pu Xingxiu in doubt.

The man also turned his head to look at him, but the expression in his eyes was unprecedentedly complicated and struggling.At that moment, he seemed to have completely forgotten the serious situation at hand. Gao Nanshun looked into Park Xingxiu's eyes, as if he remembered something, and instantly froze all his movements.Only the trembling of the eyes that can reveal the heart is left.

Here is the billiard hall on the second floor.

Such a height, although for Gao Nanshun, it is possible to challenge the possibility of escaping.But for Park Xingxiu, it was a height that he could not reach since three years ago.Involuntarily, his eyes drifted to Park Xingxiu's right knee, and Gao Nanshun only felt that at this moment, he was punched heavily, hitting the most vulnerable part of his heart.No scars but deadly pain.

Because of me, all because of me, the possibility of losing.Inescapable altitude.

The eyes that gradually became blurred were Ko Nam-soon and Park Heung-soo.The stare at the critical moment is so long that it makes one's throat choke.

Swearing to the death that you don't want to give up your choice, the irredeemable debt to you that follows you like a shadow, is this us?Is it us who have been going around and hurting each other and punishing ourselves for so many years but can't escape?

Take a step or give your hands, what do I have to do to give you life again.