please let go

He Chuan's eyes were full of distress, and he hurriedly said: "It's not a dream, it's not a dream, I won't wake up, I won't wake up, we are together, we can be together now! We will not be separated!"

Jiang Chen was still a little scared, he couldn't utter a word, he could only look at He Chuan.

He Chuan went to caress his face, and said firmly: "Jiang Chen, it's really not a dream, I love you more than the He Chuan in the dream."

"I…"

"I…"

Jiang Chen choked with sobs, tears filled his eyes, blurred his vision, he couldn't even see the people in front of him clearly.

"I…"

"I…"

He was so anxious that he even spit out the word "I" four times, but he couldn't say a complete sentence.

"He..." Jiang Chen kept panting and couldn't adjust his breathing, feeling like he was going to pass his breath.

The bitter water of more than two years gushed out in an instant, clogged his throat, and it was difficult to pour it out for a while.

This pain has oppressed him for more than 800 days, and suddenly one day it was taken away from his body. Instead of feeling relieved, he felt like he would never get up again.

"I..." He grabbed the hand rubbing his eyes, and heard He Chuan say in tears, "Thirty kisses, the last remaining one, let's honor it today..."

The kiss after hundreds of days was unprecedentedly careful.

Only they know each other how hard-won, only they know how afraid this love will be broken, and only they know how strong this love is.

The sea of ​​flowers in the dream overlapped with the reality. This time He Chuan did not stand in the depths of the rose garden, but stood in front of him.

Their lips are not separated by a petal, this kiss is too real.

Jiang Chen was finally brought back to reality, he hugged He Chuan's neck and refused to let go, even if he was suffocating, desperately asking for more.

In the end, it was He Chuan who pulled the person away, saw the disappointed look in his eyes, and kissed him again.

Jiang Chen was still moving forward, but the kiss was empty, the mist in his eyes did not dissipate, it seemed that he was even more aggrieved.

He Chuan whispered, "It's at the door of my mother's room..."

Jiang Chen turned around, looked at the closed door, and nodded quietly.

He Chuan took his hand and placed a kiss on the back of his hand, "Don't worry, there will be a chance to kiss in the future."

Jiang Chen nodded again, "Bracelet and ring."

"Wait for me." He Chuan turned and entered the room.

Jiang Chen followed behind, stood at the door watching him go to get something from the cabinet, quietly raised his arm, put his mouth to the back of his hand, and tapped the place He Chuan had just kissed.

"Where's your ring?" He Chuan put everything on his hands, walked back to Jiang Chen and asked.

"At home." Jiang Chen looked down and saw that there was only one bracelet on his hand, feeling a little uneasy, "He Chuan, would you like to go home with me to get the ring?"

"I am willing." He Chuan replied immediately.

Jiang Chen asked very reservedly.

Going home with him meant more than simply taking the ring.

He Chuan took his hand and deliberately smashed another pair of beads with his own beads, "I am willing to go home with you."

He Chuan understood the meaning of the words.

Jiang Chen wept with joy, raised his head and hugged him, "Don't separate this time."

"We won't be separated again," He Chuan patted his back, "Never again."

Afterwards, Jiang Chen was silent all the way, and when he walked to the empty concrete floor, he couldn't help but secretly glanced at the open space.

They used to watch fireworks here, and they also parted ways here.

The extraordinary concrete land has brought beauty and pain, and I don't know which side to think about for a while.

"I..." He Chuan was about to speak when he was interrupted by Jiang Chen: "I'm fine, I just need to slow down..."

He came here today prepared for the worst, but he didn't expect the best result to be waiting for him.It is somewhat unacceptable to pull him from the eighteenth hell to the clouds at once.

"He Chuan, where are you going?" A young girl ran over from a distance and stopped in front of the two of them. After seeing Jiang Chen clearly, "Hey! You look familiar!"

"My boyfriend." He Chuan said.

"Jiang Chen!" The girl wore neat bangs, a black windbreaker, a brown scarf, a pure gray pleated skirt that just reached her knees, and paired with a pair of white socks and black leather shoes. She looked like someone from a cartoon. come out.

"Who are you?" Jiang Chen asked.

"We met each other when we were on the bus!" The girl recalled, "Hmm...it seems like the year before last?"

Jiang Chen remembered that there was a girl who said he was in the same town as He Chuan, and she had changed a lot after not seeing her for more than two years.

"He obviously just cried! He Chuan, are you bullying him again?" Seeing that Jiang Chen was not in a good mood, the girl said, "I've only seen him twice, and every time he's babbling. Why do you keep bullying him?" She turned to Jiang Chen again and said, "Hey, why don't you live with me."

"Ah?" Jiang Chen didn't know how to answer.

He is currently not in the mood to deal with other people's teasing, "He Chuan, I'm a little tired..."

"Go home." He Chuan didn't look at the girl from the beginning to the end, and drove Jiang Chen to the city center by bus.

The girl from abroad sighed on the spot alone: ​​"My boyfriend is back, and he is all in my eyes!"

Jiang Chen leaned on He Chuan's shoulder, looking at the continuous mountains outside the window, "Are you familiar with that girl?"

"No, she came to the store to buy fruit and told me that she saw my boyfriend." He Chuan explained.

"Ah."

He Chuan looked down at the person who had closed his eyes, kissed his forehead through his bangs, and said softly, "My world has always been only you..."

Jiang Chen hadn't fallen asleep yet, so he heard these words clearly, but he was really tired and needed time to relax.

He Chuan smiled lightly, leaned against Jiang Chen's head, closed his eyes, and waited for the bus to arrive at the terminal.

The two transferred cars and sat in the city center.

He Chuan stopped at the gate of the community, "Do I want to buy something?"

"No need." Jiang Chen couldn't wait to pull He Chuan in, as if he was afraid that he would run away.

When Tang Miao opened the door, she saw the two people standing at the door froze.

In the end, He Chuan said stiffly, "Hello, Auntie."

The woman reacted, "Hey, okay, come in and sit."

As the New Year approached, Jiang Yiming was also watching TV on the sofa. He turned around and found that Jiang Chen had brought a man back. At first he thought it was a friend, until his eyes fell on the hands of the two of them, "Jiang Chen, you..."

"Dad, Mom, I brought my boyfriend home." Jiang Chen was excited and nervous, observing the expressions of his parents.

"Hello, Uncle and Auntie." He Chuan nodded slightly and said hello again.

Jiang Yiming just nodded and continued to watch TV.

Tang Miao greeted warmly with a smile, "Come on, come on, sit down quickly, I'll cut some fruit."

The two sat on the sofa.

"Auntie, you don't have to be so polite." He Chuan thought he would be looked down upon when he came in, but Tang Miao was so enthusiastic, asking him what he wanted to drink and eat, which made him a little embarrassed, and shook his head politely.

"I'll call you Xiao He from now on, is that okay?" Tang Miao asked.

"Hmm..." He Chuan nodded in agreement.

Tang Miao walked to the entrance, took off the short white down jacket from the clothes rail and put it on, "What does Xiao He want to eat? I'll go buy it."

"I can do it." He Chuan kept his face stiff from the beginning to the end.

"Chen Chen, look at them," Tang Miao winked at Jiang Chen, "You are the only picky eater." After speaking, he walked out with his bag on his back and closed the door.

As the door slammed, the only sound in the room was the TV.

"Your mother doesn't say anything?" He Chuan was a little surprised.

"Maybe I want to wait for the person next to me to say..." Jiang Chen secretly glanced at Jiang Yiming who was still watching TV.

The three men sat silently on the sofa.

The atmosphere is even weirder.

He Chuan received Jiang Yiming's sneaky glances from time to time, and couldn't help but say, "Uncle, you can say whatever you want..."

"Is this your first time here?"

He Chuan let out an "ah".

"I didn't ask you." Jiang Yiming turned to look at Jiang Chen, "I'm so nervous that I'm here as a guest."

Jiang Chen realized that he was talking about himself, "...bring him here, I must be nervous..."

Jiang Yiming frowned tightly, and his eyes were sharper.

Jiang Chen poked his head out to block Jiang Yiming's sight, and said again, "Dad, my boyfriend." He wanted to gently hint to Jiang Yiming not to say anything excessive.

"I know, white-eyed wolf! Am I that unreasonable? Everyone has been brought home, how can I drive them out?" Jiang Yiming heaved a sigh of relief and didn't look at them again.

The two looked at each other and smiled.

After a few more minutes, Jiang Yiming still had no intention of speaking.

Jiang Chen stood up and said, "Dad, let's go in."

After getting permission, he dragged He Chuan into the room.

As soon as he entered the room, Jiang Chen hugged He Chuan and rested his head on He Chuan's shoulder. Now only physical contact can make him feel safe, "Some things are cherished only when they are lost. It turns out that it is true... "

"Before we broke up, didn't you cherish it too?"

"He Chuan, in my heart, I really haven't broken up with you. I have been in love with you for three years." Jiang Chen hugged him tighter, expressing his dependence, "I often send you messages, It's just that you don't answer me."

He Chuan was short of breath, pulled the person away, stared at Jiang Chen and asked, "What did you say?"

Jiang Chen lightly touched his cheek with his palm, and said with a smile, "Boyfriend, it's time to pull me out of the blacklist."

"Show me your phone." He Chuan spread his hands.

"No." Jiang Chen refused.

"let me see."

"Do not."

"Brother, I wonder how much I missed all these years."

"Show me—"

"I want to see."

He Chuan coaxed and lied a lot of good things, and finally got his wish.

When I saw a series of red exclamation marks, my heart tightened a little, and I went to the records, starting from the day he pulled Heijiang Chen.

Begin to recite the above content silently in your mind.

"I'm an idiot, I don't even know I've lost my memory, you're an idiot too, why didn't you tell me? Pretending to be seeing me for the first time and not being tired? I've been jealous of myself for so long."

"This time I will wait for you instead."

"First of all, this is not a breakup. We still like each other."

"8.3, I met my younger sister. He also has a boyfriend and quarreled with her boyfriend, but he was coaxed. I don't expect you to coax me if you are such a jerk. Give me another chance to coax you. ..."

"8.10, I went to see Bai Heyi today, I beg you to be jealous."

"August 8.11, I re-read The Little Prince and we discussed who the Prince and the Rose are, and you're right.

"I understand your love now, isn't it too late..."

"8.7, Happy Qixi Festival."

"8.8, it's the beginning of autumn, and it's still hot."

"8.20, I often watch The Little Prince."

"Will you hold my hand after reading it 100 times?"

"August 8.24, we went to Chongqing that day, and now I understand the look in your eyes. You actually hope that we have a future, right?"

"9.1, school starts, our school is only 14 kilometers apart, do you regret choosing the school so close?"

"9.11, will I meet you?"

"9.13, Happy Mid-Autumn Festival, does your school distribute mooncakes?"

"9.23, it's the autumnal equinox, wear more, don't catch a cold."

"10.1, happy National Day, happy you too."

"On 11.3, I didn't even say 'Happy Birthday', the wish I made last year didn't come true..."

"11.4, I remember that day was the first time you said you loved me.

"I heard your voice today, and I always think my boyfriend's voice is very nice."

"11.7, happy birthday, my He Chuan."

"11.8, in fact, I didn't fall asleep last night, I was afraid that when I woke up, I would find that you were gone.

"You asked if I would wait for you."

"I will, I will always wait for you."

"12.13, it's snowing in Nanjing, we agreed to watch the snow together."

"12.22, the winter solstice is here... I'm a little cold..."

"12.24, Christmas Eve tonight, you should be safe and sound."

"12.25, Merry Christmas, I still have the scarf you gave me."

"12.29, I still remember that it was snowing in our place last year. We walked in the school and said that we must go to see a heavy snow. During the exam at night, the classroom was powered off. You smashed my foot and carried me to the infirmary. Said that you like me more gone."

"Liberal arts students have a good memory, I can even remember these days."

"What to do, there are too few memories between us, I have thought about it many times."

"1.1, Happy New Year's Day."

"1.2, Happy Laba Festival, remember to eat Laba porridge."

"I remember you don't seem to like peanuts."

"1.8, this winter is also very cold."

"He Chuan, Nanjing is really cold."

"Winter vacation, I'm going home."

"1.18, today is a new year, what are you doing now?"

"1.24, Happy New Year's Eve, it seems that we can't spend New Year's Eve together."

"1.25, Happy New Year. No one took me to watch the fireworks this year, and the New Year's wish I made last year didn't come true."

"They just asked me why I didn't eat six glutinous rice balls. I don't have to go out to watch the fireworks this year, so I don't need to force myself to eat so much."

"January 1.27, I went to the temple today and met a fortune teller liar. When he said that my horoscope is very suitable for you, I suddenly felt that he was not a liar."

"2.4, it's beginning of spring, I miss you very much."

"2.8, Happy Lantern Festival, I hate glutinous rice balls."

"2.14, Happy Valentine's Day, today I saw people holding roses on the street to express their love.

"I have also received roses, so don't envy them."

"Oh, by the way, I have read "The Little Prince" three times 99 times."

"2.16, is it snowing in your place? The snow here is as small as ever..."

"2.27, school will start again..."

"Happy Arbor Day, 3.12. Isn't it weird? I'll send you all Arbor Day."

"Mainly to talk to you."

"March 3.28, you see it's still snowing in Nanjing in March."

"4.1, Happy April Fool's Day."

"I originally planned to say that I had let you go, but in the end I couldn't even tell a lie..."

"On 4.13, it started to rain in Nanjing. Does it look like snow to you?"

"4.30, the story of the sycamore tree is so romantic, but the sycamore catkins kept drilling into my eyes, nose, and throat, and it was not uncomfortable at all."

"5.1, Happy Labor Day. Speaking of this, I was told by my roommate that I can't clean up... This is a stinking problem that you are used to."

"5.4, Happy Youth Day."

"5.10, I wish you a happy life."

"5.11, the sycamore rain is really annoying, I'll just buy goggles."

He Chuan's hands couldn't stop shaking, and they continued to slide down.

"6.1, Happy Children's Day, jealous childish ghost."

"6.8, last year's college entrance examination, I owe you a sentence I like you."

"Can you give me another chance to continue saying that I like you?"

"6.25, happy Dragon Boat Festival, have you eaten zongzi?"

"Sweet or salty?"

"7.6, there are too many mosquitoes, and there are quite a lot of mosquitoes in your house. I will buy more toilet water and mosquito repellent when I go to your place in the future."

"7.9, we got together two years ago today, and I still keep that test paper with 99 points, it doesn't matter if it's long or short..."

"After another year, I realized that we were not together for a day or two, not a month or two, but four seasons of the year."

"It's a good thing you blocked me, otherwise you will bother me if I send you messages so often?"

"He Chuan, why do you like to speak ironically so much... When you begged me to leave, you must have been very sad..."

"They say that in a dream, if you dream of that person three times, it means that the person in the dream is forgetting you..."

"What about you? How many times have you forgotten me?"

Tears dripped on the screen, He Chuan couldn't read any more, turned the phone over, covered his eyes and said nothing.

Jiang Chen pulled a few pieces of paper and wiped away his tears, "Why are you crying? You are not allowed to see it, but you insist on it. You have waited for me for six years, so what is the two years I have been waiting for?"

"Jiang Chen, I'm obviously an ordinary person who couldn't be more ordinary." He Chuan never expected that Jiang Chen would miss him to such an extent. He opened the chat interface every day and saw a bunch of red exclamation marks and system prompts.

He had never experienced it before, and it was so uncomfortable that he scolded himself as an asshole in his heart, how could he do such a stupid thing, and he was happy that Jiang Chen never let him go.

"Then let's continue to love each other in an ordinary way..." Jiang Chen went to kiss the corner of He Chuan's eyes, tasted the salty taste, "Affection is not exclusive to you alone, I also have it."

"Actually, I thought about letting go. I can hold on to the memories of those 390 days and live the rest of the decades..." He Chuan said with a teary voice, "You obviously...you can leave me in the past and grab more Good future."

Jiang Chen grabbed He Chuan's hand: "I caught it..."

His voice became softer: "My best future."

The author has something to say:

Jiang Jiang is so nice T__T

Sticky Man is coming online soon hahaha