please let go

"Where are you going in the morning?" Tang Miao saw Jiang Chen going out as soon as he walked into the living room.

"I've made an appointment with a friend." Jiang Chen paused.

"I just came home yesterday, and my legs are still running around..." Tang Miao said.

Last night Jiang Chen went home and wanted to pretend nothing happened, but he still had some difficulty walking, so he was quickly discovered.

I had no choice but to tell the truth, and was scolded for two hours in the end...

Jiang Chen stepped to open the door, "Hey, it's almost there."

Tang Miao shouted again: "Wait!"

He was a little guilty, thinking that his mother had noticed the clue, so he froze on the spot and did not dare to turn his head, pretending to be calm: "What's wrong?"

"You wear too little, it's easy to get cold!" Tang Miao went to find another black fleece jacket for Jiang Chen to change into.

Jiang Chen looked down at his mother.

The woman just woke up, her face was still tired, her hair was casually scattered on her shoulders, and the mess created a lazy beauty.

He looks so good-looking, most of his genes come from his mother.

"Why do you have so dark circles under your eyes!" Tang Miao raised her head and held Jiang Chen's face carefully, "Didn't sleep well last night? There are so many bloodshot eyes..."

Jiang Chen patted his mother on the shoulder with a smile, "I stayed up late last night to play games."

"Mom, I'm going out then!"

"Be careful on the road, don't walk too much! Give way to cars!"

"Got it!" Jiang Chen closed the door and waited for the elevator.

Tang Miao came out again and shouted in the corridor: "Call me if you have anything to do! Don't hide it from me!!"

"Hey - got it -"

Jiang Chen didn't want his mother to worry about this, so he didn't want to say it.

He looked down at his legs again, a little irritated.

Damn, when will it be better...

Jiang Chen went to call He Chuan, "I'm going out."

"I'll pick you up."

"No, I'll take a taxi and I'll call you when I'm almost there."

After speaking, the phone hangs up.

An hour later, the car was parked on an empty concrete field.

Seeing the tall and straight figure, Jiang Chen wondered how long He Chuan had been standing there waiting.

As soon as he got out of the car and got out of the heater in the car, Jiang Chen shivered from the cold. Seeing that He Chuan was wearing very thin clothes, he asked, "Isn't it cold?"

He Chuan stared at him for two seconds, and the first thing he said was: "Did you sleep well?"

"It's okay." Jiang Chen responded casually.

In fact, he didn't play games at all last night. Thinking of meeting Li Yuxiu today, he kept wondering what Li Yuxiu would tell him.

Maybe they will scold Tang Miao and ask him to leave He Chuan.

He was even asked to persuade He Chuan to agree to a blind date.

Thinking of this, how could he possibly fall asleep.

I dare not face it until dawn.

He Chuan carefully supported him.

The two walked on the mountain road without saying a word.

There were not so many mosquitoes in winter, and He Chuan was by his side, but Jiang Chen was no less flustered than that night.

With every step, there is more fear.

He even wanted to turn around and run.

Jiang Chen came to this low house for the second time, and once he walked in, he found that the appearance inside changed drastically.

The walls have been refreshed, there are no peeling wall skins and spider webs, a layer of marble tiles has been replaced on the dark concrete floor, the furniture is as new as if it was just bought, and even the lights are several degrees brighter than before.

It seems that their lives are getting better.

"What about He Yi?" Jiang Chen asked.

"She went on a trip with her college classmates," He Chuan stopped at the door of the room, "My mother is in the back room, and she wants you to go in alone." There was worry in his eyes that he couldn't hide.

Jiang Chen didn't know what He Chuan was afraid of.

Is he afraid that Li Yuxiu will collapse again after seeing him, or is he afraid that he will shrink back after facing Li Yuxiu?

If Li Yuxiu insisted on He Chuan making a choice between the two, it might be He Chuan's life.

Jiang Chen could only touch He Chuan's cheek to comfort him, "I will be what I am when I go in, and I will be what I am when I come out."

No matter what, his feelings will not change.

"En." He Chuan nodded.

Jiang Chen's heart beat a little faster, he went in and closed the door, and saw a woman sitting by the bed.

Li Yuxiu was wrapped in a thick red down jacket, and was immersed in choosing vegetables.

The short hair on both sides ran forward from time to time, so she had no choice but to put down the vine vegetable in her hand, put her hair behind her ears, and looked up at Jiang Chen expressionlessly.

Jiang Chen thought that no matter what Li Yuxiu's first sentence was, it must be in a harsh tone.

He stood there quietly, no matter how anxious he was, he was unwilling to speak first.

After 1 minute, Li Yuxiu said angrily: "You are so delicate, if you were a girl, you might be able to marry Xiao Chuan and have a beautiful baby girl."

Jiang Chen didn't speak, and his tone was blaming him for having the wrong gender.

Li Yuxiu continued: "I still can't understand what two men can do together."

You can do a lot, you can hold hands, you can kiss, and you can accompany each other for a long time.

What ordinary couples can do, they can.

Jiang Chen listed countless things in his mind, but didn't say any of them.

"Xiao Chuan really likes you. He has always been sensible since he was a child. He never cried or made trouble, and he often comforted me in turn. But that time, even if he knew that he would be called ignorant, for you, he still admitted in front of me that he was Homosexuality. I thought two children could have a deep relationship? Use death to force him to break up with you."

"You definitely don't know... He knelt down and cried and said he didn't like the look in your eyes." Li Yuxiu choked up and wiped the corners of his eyes, "I have raised him for more than ten years, and I have never seen that kind of look..."

It turned out that the muffled sound in the recording...

It was the sound of He Chuan's knee hitting the concrete floor when he knelt down...

Jiang Chen felt very uncomfortable just listening to the voice, and couldn't even imagine what kind of eyes He Chuan would show at that time.

Li Yuxiu sighed, shifted his gaze to the vegetable basket, showing an expression of reminiscence, "I thought that as long as you were separated, he would forget about it after a while. But two and a half years have passed, and he hasn't changed at all. I am determined to think Let him find a girlfriend, and ask around to give him a blind date."

"He immediately called me and said a lot of good things. He just wanted to take care of me and He Yi, and he didn't care about other women anymore. Why didn't I know this was an excuse! His other thoughts are on you, the man. on the body."

"When I came back yesterday, Xiao Chuan knelt down in front of me again, saying that he no longer wanted to be with you, but told me not to force you."

"I forced him to call you here." The woman snorted again, "I really don't know what you did to him. He was afraid that I would speak too harshly and scare you and hurt your heart."

"His father often beat people. Xiaochuan was beaten countless times when he was a child. Iron clothes hangers were bent and wooden sticks were broken. He never knelt down and begged for mercy.

"He has only kneeled twice in his life, all because of you."

Jiang Chen felt panicked when he heard this, his hands were shaking so badly, he could only listen quietly.

"In my eyes, you are just like a delicate young master who can't bear any hardships. Xiao Chuan is different. He has suffered too much that his peers shouldn't have to suffer. Why is it so unfair..."

"It's not right for you two to be in Yemen, isn't it?"

"Actually, I also thought that Tang Miao couldn't be blamed for all the mistakes back then. She and I were both deceived. Even without her, that dead man would still go to other women. You see, even the person whose marriage certificate is tied He can run away, not to mention those of you who can't get a certificate. I can tell that he likes you so much, if you run away one day, don't want him, how will you let him live?"

"My parents died early, and after I got married here, the man also ran away, and there was no place to go. Now usually both children go to school, except for holidays, I stay here alone. I have children, I feel that You are lonely, you don't have a baby in the future, you say, if one of you two leaves first, what will the other do?"

"So I don't feel at ease in handing Xiao Chuan over to you."

Jiang Chen thought that Li Yuxiu was trying to persuade him to give up, so he knelt on the ground and looked at the woman sitting on the edge of the bed.

Li Yuxiu froze for a moment, then said coldly: "Do you think I will forgive Tang Miao if you kneel down?"

Jiang Chen shook his head, "I don't kneel down for my mother, the grievances between you...Auntie, I have no right to ask you to forgive my mother."

He lowered his head and looked down on the ground, "I kneel for myself, we have been separated for almost three years, and now I still want to be with him."

"Three years ago, you could say that we were young and didn't understand love, but now you can't question us. I know that He Chuan is afraid of the dark. From now on, He Chuan will turn on the lights in my house 24 hours a day. We feel lonely without each other. I I will spend the remaining decades with him."

"I also know that he has suffered a lot. He has lived through more than ten years of hard life. In the future, I will give him everything I can have, everything I can give, everything, and the best."

"Auntie..." He raised his right hand and raised three fingers, looked up with tears in his eyes, and said sincerely: "I, Jiang Chen, swear on my life, I will always love He Chuan."

Li Yuxiu also had tears in her eyes. She avoided looking at each other and raised her head to hold back the tears, "You are still limping, what are you doing kneeling up? Otherwise, Xiao Chuan must have thought I was bullying you again."

Jiang Chen silently stood up again.

Li Yuxiu looked at the young man who was still bowing his head, and continued: "Later, I got seriously ill again, and I thought about it a lot. My whole life is only a few decades. I have been happy, and I have been unhappy, but people are really too fragile. I know that day will be over."

She sighed again, brushed her hair, and started to choose dishes again, "You two...how to be happy..."

How happy, how come?

"Auntie, what did you say?" Jiang Chen couldn't believe his ears.

Did you agree with them?

Li Yuxiu waved his hand to signal him to go, "Go out...Xiao Chuan must have been standing outside and quietly listening to us."

Jiang Chen's mind went blank, he hadn't digested what Li Yuxiu said just now, his behavior became dull, and he walked to the door step by step.

As soon as I opened the door, I saw a standing person, and suddenly felt that I hadn't fully awakened from a dream.

he is dreaming...

Can you not wake up...

Jiang Chen was afraid to approach He Chuan, fearing that he would wake up the next second after hugging someone.

He had already experienced the feeling of falling heavily from the cliff, and his limbs resisted subconsciously.

He Chuan took a step forward.

Jiang Chen subconsciously took a step back.

Both were stunned.

Seeing Jiang Chen's dull expression, He Chuan closed the door first, and then took his hand, "Jiang Chen..."

"Jiang Chen!"

After being yelled at, Jiang Chen stared blankly at He Chuan, feeling both real and false.

Too many scenes flashed through his mind, seeing He Chuan sleeping on the lawn, seeing him and He Chuan fighting in the classroom, seeing him being dragged to run by He Chuan, seeing He Chuan curled up in a corner, seeing He Chuan smoked in the toilet, saw He Chuan lying drunk on the bed, saw He Chuan lying on the bed in the dormitory playing with his mobile phone, saw He Chuan standing by the desk lamp, saw He Chuan blinking at him before the exam, saw He Chuan He Chuan introduced glasses to people in the glass cabinet, saw He Chuan staring at him in the taxi, saw He Chuan holding roses, saw He Chuan crying and said he loved him, saw He Chuan standing under the fireworks, saw He Chuan When He Chuan turned around and left, he saw He Chuan standing in a sea of ​​flowers, and saw the oncoming car...

Jiang Chen had a terrible thought in his heart.

Did he die in that car accident?

He Chuan didn't want to see him for two years, so how could he come to him.

Maybe he was too sorry, what happened later was as beautiful as a dream he wove for himself before he died.

Jiang Chen even forgot to cry, looked at the person in front of him, and asked in a daze, "How long did it take to wake up from this dream..."