please let go

There was a burst of autumn rain and a burst of cold, and it was the beginning of November in a blink of an eye. He had been in N University for two months. After the military training, he lived a life of three points and one line every day, teaching buildings, cafeterias, dormitories, and did not go to other places .

Everyone has a new campus life, and Jiang Chen's contact with his high school classmates is not so frequent.

In the evening, Ji Jingnian moved his phone in front of Jiang Chen: "Handsome guy, look, there's another woman on the confession wall trying to get you!"

"It's a pity that the famous grass has an owner." He Zhou said leisurely.

Ji Jingnian asked, "Hey, what school is your partner in?"

"It's not far from our school, it's in this district, the University of Chinese Medicine." Jiang Chen replied.

"Wow! How nice? We can see each other anytime." He Zhou felt something was wrong again, "Then why don't you go out on a date?"

"He's busy." In fact, Jiang Chen couldn't see his partner at all.

Life without He Chuan didn't change much, but he was less interested in doing everything. Later, Jiang Chen gradually understood that thing is called "desire to share".

"Dear mother! There was a confession in the female dormitory. A man was holding a bouquet of roses from the boss, confessing his love to a female." Chao Chen rushed into the door, gesturing the size of the bouquet of roses with his hands.

"And then? Did it work?" Ji Jingnian asked.

"It's done!" Super Chen was as excited as if he had succeeded in his confession.

"Isn't it? How long have you been together since the start of school?" Ji Jingnian was somewhat displeased with this kind of fast-food relationship, "That brother is not just for fun, is he?"

He Zhou expressed his disapproval, "Maybe...they have known each other for a long time and just confessed their love today?"

"That's right, besides, which girl doesn't care about roses, they are beautiful and romantic."

He Zhou laughed and said, "Don't talk about girls, I like them too."

Jiang Chen heard the conversation, put his hands on his shoulders unconsciously, and stopped again.He hates roses the most, but he not only collected 100 roses, but also tattooed one on his body.

People often accept confession not because they like roses, but because they like the person who gave them.

Jiang Chen's cell phone rang, and apart from class news, he occasionally received messages from Chen Yunkai, but this time it was from someone else.

[He Yi]: Brother Jiang, is it cold in Nanjing?

[Jiang Chen]: It's okay.

If He Chuan asked him, he would definitely say cold, but when He Yi asked him, he could only say "it's okay".

Jiang Chen was a bit awkward in typing, and he typed the keyboard several times before sending it out.

[Jiang Chen]: How is he doing recently?

【He Yi】: He has been fine recently.

[Jiang Chen]: Good.

There was no more message from the other side, Jiang Chen looked at the screen, not knowing whether to be happy or sad.In the past few months, no matter what he did, he often thought of He Chuan.

Tomorrow is his birthday, He Chuan will definitely remember it, but he may not celebrate his birthday.

Jiang Chen was a little depressed, but he could only compromise, as long as he knew that the other party was doing well, it was enough.

Even though he thought so, he also had a glimmer of hope, hoping to receive He Chuan's blessing the next day.

It was Chen Yunkai who called at twelve o'clock.

On the other end of the phone was a boyish voice, "Son! Happy birthday!!!"

The lights in the dormitory were already turned off. Jiang Chen sat on the bed, closed the curtains, looked at the desk lamp in front of him, and said in a low voice, "Keep your voice down, my roommate is already asleep."

Ji Jingnian yelled in the dormitory: "Are you two sleeping?"

First, the thick dialect accent replied to him: "Not yet!"

Then came the soft male voice, "Me neither."

"Jiang Chen, you are not kind! Happy birthday!! Let's go out and celebrate tomorrow weekend!" Ji Jingnian said in a tone of blame.

"Medium!" Chao Chen roared.

Jiang Chen opened the bed curtain and saw the darkness outside, his heart warmed, and he said "OK" with a smile.

Ji Jingnian's voice came from the other side of the bedroom, "I've wanted to say it for a long time, are you afraid of the dark? Why do you always turn on the lights when you sleep?"

Jiang Chen knew that the blackout curtains were not 100% effective, so he could only truthfully say, "I'm used to it." Then he was a little embarrassed, and asked if it affected everyone.

"Oh, that's not true." Ji Jingnian said.

He Zhou also said: "It's good, it's convenient to go to the toilet when you get up."

During the call, there was silence on the other end of the line. After Jiang Chen said "Hello", Chen Yunkai asked, "Do you sleep with the light on every night?"

"Ah."

"I know He Chuan is afraid of the dark, but why do you sleep with the light on?" Chen Yunkai asked forcefully.

"I..." Jiang Chen really didn't know how to explain.

Since when can he not sleep with the lights off?It seems that since the Chinese New Year, he has found that if he goes to sleep without turning on the light, he will easily suffer from insomnia.The surrounding environment is too dark, and he will feel uneasy, which has reached the point where he cannot sleep at all.

Chen Yunkai persuaded: "You... why don't you go see a doctor?"

"The problem doesn't lie here." Jiang Chen stared at the glowing desk lamp, knowing that what he needed was not a doctor, and afraid that Chen Yunkai would worry, he added, "It's not a big problem."

With a long sigh at the other end, Chen Yunkai said in a helpless tone: "Okay, got it, remember to pick up the courier."

The next day Jiang Chen still received birthday wishes from those few friends.

[Shen Chong]: Happy birthday!I misremembered the campus area, the gift may be late hahaha!

【He Yi】: Happy birthday, Brother Jiang!

[Baiheyi]: Happy birthday~ Remember to look at the presents!

[Tang Miao]: Chenchen, happy birthday!

[Tang Miao]: transfer 18888.00

[Jiang Yiming]: transfer 18888.00

Jiang Chen thanked them one by one, but in the end he replied to Jiang Yiming with one word more than last year.

He didn't receive that person's blessing all day, Jiang Chen watched the numbers on the phone screen jump until zero, Jiang Chen was convinced that the wish he made last year was impossible to come true.

He sent a message to He Chuan, and reached out to touch the desk lamp beside him. The orange light was reflected in his palm, but he couldn't feel any warmth.

Jiang Chen couldn't help thinking of that note, maybe He Chuan's words came true.

He began to be afraid of the dark, and he fell in love with it.

On November 11th, Jiang Chen still couldn't help dialing the first number in the address book at 4:[-] pm.

"beep--"

"beep--"

It turned out that his mobile phone number had not been blocked.

Will he take it?

"beep--"

Hurry up!If you don't answer it, it will automatically hang up...

"beep--"

The call is connected.

Both sides did not speak, Jiang Chen almost lost his grip on the phone, held his breath, and listened carefully to the movement over there with his ears.

There was the sound of water, footsteps, and vague conversations.

The two sides remained silent for dozens of seconds.

A voice he hadn't heard in four months came from the phone, "Happy birthday."

Before Jiang Chen could speak, the phone on the other side hung up.He didn't dial back.

He Zhou, who was sitting across from him, saw it, blinked and asked, "Have you had a fight with your partner?"

"No." Jiang Chen shook his head.He always thought that he would learn to let go, but after hearing the sound for just two seconds, he regained everything.

He went to send a message to He Chuan, but he still received a system notification that he had been blocked by the other party.

"Ugh…"

"Can't stay at home, go out and play?" Just after class was over that day, Ji Jingnian walked out of the classroom and patted He Zhou on the shoulder.

He Zhou shook his head, "I didn't sleep well last night, go back and catch up on sleep, you go to Chao'er."

Chen Chao also shook his head, "There are activities in my club..."

Ji Jingnian had no choice but to look for the last candidate, and he didn't even give Jiang Chen a chance to say no, "Let's two married people go out and have fun."

"Your thoughts are really filthy!" Super Chen and Ji Jingnian moved several meters away.

"Ah?" Ji Jingnian didn't understand: "I'll just go out to have a meal with Jiang Chen, and then wander around, where's the mess?"

He Zhou smiled without saying a word.

Chen Chao found out that he had misunderstood, and smiled awkwardly.

It was Ji Jingnian's turn to fight back: "Wow~ your thoughts are really dirty." Then he turned to Jiang Chen and said, "It's done!"

"Yeah." Jiang Chen glanced at the numbers on the phone's lock screen.

It's already October [-]th...

After dinner at night, Jiang Chen met the person he most wanted to see.At the intersection opposite, He Chuan was being supported by a boy with brown hair, and the two boys accompanying him were chatting and laughing.

He subconsciously wanted to rush over, but Ji Jingnian grabbed him and yelled, "You fucking die? This is a red light!"

Looking at He Chuan across the street, Jiang Chen was in a state of anxiety. A passing truck was driving in front of him, blocking his view for a few seconds was torture for him.

It's been four months.

Not seen for four months.

He really missed He Chuan.

Thoughts were on the verge of breaking out, Jiang Chen didn't want to take his eyes off that person.

"Your friend?" Ji Jingnian followed the eyes and saw the four people, but unfortunately the other one had his head down and couldn't see his face.

As soon as the green light came on, Jiang Chen rushed over, ran in front of the people, and excitedly grabbed He Chuan's arm, "He Chuan!"

The blue hair on the side asked: "Who are you? His friend?"

Jiang Chen nonsense said: "His brother."

He Chuan frowned upon hearing the sound, and looked up at him.

No matter how many times you look at that face, it will make people's heart flutter. Jiang Chen suppressed the urge to hug He Chuan, feeling a little at a loss.

Even after drinking, He Chuan's eyes were so clear that he was not drunk at all.If it wasn't for Jiang Chen's strong smell of alcohol, he wouldn't believe that this person was drunk.

The man supporting He Chuan kept looking at him, and asked with a smile, "Jiang Chen?" The brown-haired man tilted his head slightly, and the earring on his right ear was shining under the street lamp, shining brightly, which made Jiang Chen move away. out of sight.

"Know me?" Jiang Chen felt a little uncomfortable.

The man with the earrings smiled and introduced himself: "My name is Pei Ash."

The blue hair on the other side asked: "Brother?"

"Yes." Jiang Chen said.

He Chuan shouted unhappily: "What is it? He is my boyfriend."

Except for Pei Aishu, everyone present showed expressions of surprise.

"Damn..." Lanmao elbowed the boy wearing glasses next to him: "Did you hear that?"

One sentence seemed to bring them back to the past.

Looking at the man with his head down, Jiang Chen's eyes were sore, he couldn't tell whether He Chuan was drunk, and said softly, "You still know I'm a boyfriend..."

Ignore people for four months.

As a boyfriend, when will he come out of the blacklist?

"Why are you here?" He Chuan leaned closer, smelling alcohol all over Jiang Chen's face, so close that Jiang Chen could kiss him if he only moved an inch forward, but He Chuan turned his face away and just said "I'm sorry" .

"I..." The people from Jiang Chen also saw him, knowing that he would only embarrass He Chuan if he stayed here, rushing over to find someone was his first reaction, and leaving was what he should have done.Just as he turned around, his hand was held again, and he heard He Chuan say, "I miss you very much."

Jiang Chen suppressed that uncomfortable energy to look at He Chuan, ignoring their gazes, pulled him into his arms, and said to Pei Aishu, "I'll take him away."

"No." He Chuan wanted to push away, but Jiang Chen grabbed him tightly.

The man with blue hair and glasses who accompanied him saw that He Chuan wanted to resist, and wanted to pull him back, "No, he doesn't want to."

Pei Aish stopped Lan Mao and said, "Come on, we don't care about other people's affairs."

"But..." Lan Mao hesitated to speak.

He Chuan buried his head on Jiang Chen's shoulder, "I think..."

Jiang Chen didn't hear clearly, he lowered his head and asked, "What?"

"Ouch..." He Chuan vomited, all on Jiang Chen's clothes.

Jiang Chen: "..."

The people present frowned upon seeing this, Jiang Chen took out a tissue from his bag, and went to wipe the dirt off He Chuan's body first.

Ji Jingnian at the side handed over another pack of paper, "Let's go back and change our clothes soon..."

Lan Mao was still a little tangled and wanted to stop Jiang Chen.

"I'm his boyfriend, and I won't hurt him." Jiang Chen turned to Ji Jingnian and said, "Can you bring me two sets of clothes tomorrow?"

Ji Jingnian froze for a moment, nodded and said, "Okay."

"I'll send you the location later." Jiang Chen supported He Chuan's waist, keeping out of everyone's sight.

After entering the hotel, Jiang Chen first took off his dirty coat and threw it on the ground, then put him on the bed, went into the bathroom to turn on the hot water and came out, then bent down to grab the coat on the floor, took out his phone and sent Ji Jingnian the location and room number.

While turning on the hot water, Jiang Chen helped He Chuan take off his clothes.This person wore as little clothes as before, and he was stripped clean without taking off a few clothes.

When Jiang Chen took off the last layer, he was still a little embarrassed, but after thinking about it, he had touched it anyway, so why can't he see it?

The bathtub was almost full of water, Jiang Chen helped him into the bathroom.As if appreciating a work of art, he constantly explores with his eyes and hands.

He Chuan closed his eyes and breathed slowly, his chest rose and fell rhythmically, and water droplets were still hanging on his eyelashes. The water droplets accumulated little by little and reached a certain weight, leaving a small waterway on the skin.

The ink painting seemed to come alive, the pine tree seemed to tremble in the wind, and the mountain seemed to be crumbling. When I took a closer look, I found that the mountain was still indestructible.

Jiang Chen swallowed several times in disbelief, trying his best to let go of distracting thoughts.The water in the bathtub flew around and splashed on him, and his clothes were more than half wet. After sitting in the bathtub, he accidentally stepped on the meat, causing the drunk man to scream in pain.

It was not easy to bear it for so long, the rising steam made him unable to bear the heat in his body, so he pressed his lips against his lips without hesitation, and started the kiss that he had always dreamed of.

He Chuan frowned and didn't push him away.

Jiang Chen didn't do anything else, just turned off the water, dried himself, ignored his own things, and continued to wipe the water droplets as if nothing had happened.

When I walked out of the bathroom, I felt a little cold. I put the person on the bed and wrapped him in a quilt, put on a bathrobe, and turned on the heater.

After Jiang Chen stared at the sleeping He Chuan for a few seconds, he took off his bathrobe and climbed onto the bed, got into the same quilt, and hugged the person beside him.

Before the heater even worked, his face was hot, and he felt the most real temperature, which was also the most intimate contact between the two of them ever.

He wanted to do something, but he could only think about it.

Jiang Chen couldn't fall asleep, he kept touching the ink painting with his hand, and drew back and forth along the scar countless times, and finally woke him up.

The person who woke up pressed his painful head. The alcohol hadn't passed yet. He was taken aback when he saw Jiang Chen, and he was a little confused, "We?" Opening the quilt, he found that Jiang Chen didn't leave any clothes for the two of them, "You..."

"Don't go, stay overnight..." Jiang Chen pushed him down and lay on top of him, "I..."

He Chuan clearly felt the changes in Jiang Chen's body regardless of any fabric. He didn't know whether it was the stimulation of alcohol or a physiological reaction. He said with difficulty in a hoarse voice: "Get up..."

One wanted to leave, the other wanted to stay, and began to pull on the bed. Half of the quilt on the bed was kicked to the ground, and the sheets were wrinkled out of shape.Touching the waist for a while, touching the legs for a while, the skin became hotter and hotter, and the fire that ignited became hotter and hotter, even if a splash of cold water was poured on it now, it would not be able to extinguish it.

"Grass..." He Chuan was a little annoyed, wondering who had drunk the wine.His head was a little dizzy, and he couldn't use his strength, but his hands were caught instead, "Jiang Chen, am I too used to you?"

"That's right, you're used to it." The more Jiang Chen looked at it, the more he felt reluctance to let go, and he hated He Chuan's heartlessness for not giving it to him all night.

"What's the use of us doing this?" He Chuan asked.

"I know, but I..." But he couldn't help it, what could he do.The growth in the past few months is all fake, he Jiang Chen is still the same Jiang Chen, the Jiang Chen who likes He Chuan to death.

He Chuan found the right opportunity, took advantage of the time when he was absent-minded, bent his knees and pressed Jiang Chen's abdomen, and then broke free from the shackles and turned over.

The positions of the two changed instantly, and it was Jiang Chen's turn to be restrained, but he didn't panic, just looked at He Chuan in a daze, and said with a tearful smile, "The eyes are so beautiful..."

After looking at each other for only a second, He Chuan let go of his hand and released the restraint on Jiang Chen, "Come on..."

The two returned to the original position, Jiang Chen knelt on the bed, looked down at the ink painting below him, without any desire to hide his eyes, "Teach me."

He Chuan: "..."

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