don't want to love you

When I let go of all my self-esteem in an attempt to please Li Xin, my heart instantly felt relieved. Wouldn't it be great if I could make Li Xin feel better in this way and prevent him from loathing me?

Li's emotions have long been out of control, and he roared, [Yes, you are a lowly, dirty body, how can you compare to Jane. ] Dirty, so in your eyes I am like this, my voice is so hoarse that I can barely utter any words, but I still resist the pain and say slowly, [I am dirty, low, and I don’t deserve you Love me, but I didn't expect too much. ] I just want to play the role in your mind well, but I didn't expect that it was really so unbearable in your opinion. The last sentence exhausted my strength, and I didn't even have the strength to close my eyes and rest.

[I've raised you for so long, so I should have some rewards, right? ] I looked at him suspiciously, [What return? ] What can I have in return? Before I could figure it out, my body was dragged off the bed.He had no strength to resist, his legs were so weak that he couldn't support his weak body at all.

Just like that, being dragged from upstairs to downstairs, that touch of pure white is so dazzling.

[Xiao Jun, play it for me again, tears, you played it very well last time. ] I lay on the ground, pressing my trembling hands on the keys, it was so messy and irregular, the notes couldn't be put together no matter what.

With a hiss, the pajamas on his body were taken off, and his naked body shivered on the cold floor, curled up weakly.Li locked my body with his amazing strength, making me unable to move at all.A purplish red thing was exposed under the untied belt, and I stood up. The tearing pain made me faint for a moment.

[啪] It hurt so much, I opened my tired eyes, my cheeks and body ached like fire.Li Junmei's face was a bit ferocious, the place where he joined kept going in and out, the blood between his buttocks dried up and then became wet, circulating back and forth.

The body's soaring made my heart hang, and the next moment, my knees slammed on the floor, [Play me the first piece, don't you like to play it? ] The flexible tongue licked my earlobe, and said calmly.

My head is so dizzy, and my eyes are burning, sore and dry. I want to relieve it with tears, but I can't squeeze a tear.

[Why don’t you play it? If you don’t want to play it to me, then who do you want to play it to? Tell me! ] Clinging to the keys with both hands, unable to move, [Since you don’t want to play, don’t play it anymore, unfortunately you won’t be able to hear it in the future. ] What do you mean, I turned my head in horror, he smiled beautifully, but he was as poisonous as the other shore flower.

[Ah] I screamed heartbreakingly, and the hands that were firmly clamped by the piano cover turned from pain to numbness and then to loss of consciousness.

Darkness came upon me and surrounded me.

I kept asking why I was an orphan, why I couldn't get anyone's love, I longed for warmth, even if it was just a hug.Before I met him, I snuggled up in my corner all day.I like sunshine, it brings me the only warmth, although it is formless warmth, but I am also content.After meeting him, I became greedy little by little, from longing for warmth to longing for love. Sure enough, greedy people will have retribution.

The sunlight entered my pupils bit by bit, it was very warm but also hurt my eyes.

[are you awake? ] His swarthy eyes rolled, it was Zhou Chen, only him.Raising his hand, the thick gauze was stained with mottled blood, [Is my injury serious] asked timidly, afraid that he would not be able to accept it, [The bottom has been cleaned, be careful not to get infected these days. ] Why answer the question.

[I mean my hand. ] Ethereal words, the air is a little frozen.

[Well, your hand is very serious, but the bone is not completely broken, and the chance of recovery is not impossible, but the process is very painful. ] After hearing it, I was pleasantly surprised, and there is still a chance of recovery.

[Thank you, I will cooperate with your treatment, no matter how painful it is. ] I don't want to be a useless person, and I don't want him to look down on me.I don't hate him, I won't hate him, because he gives me the only warmth.

[Don't hate him, because his personality is split, and I have been trying to find a way to cure his disease. ] Split personality? [Why is this happening? ] [You should also know about Jane. Since his death, Li's personality has been often unstable, and he has been controlled by drugs. This time, maybe something stimulated him to do such a thing. ] I was very surprised, after thinking for a long time, I finally asked, [Jane, how did you die. ][It was cancer, and Jane didn’t tell anyone at that time. He deliberately wanted to break up with Li, saying that he would go to Warsaw to participate in the Chopin International Piano Competition, and by the way, he would not come back after studying there. Li was definitely unwilling, but he wanted to take over the family. I can't go together because I said I'm willing to wait for him, and I can go to him when I have the ability.Jane didn't want to, so she left without saying a word. On the day of the music festival, Jane performed on it. At that time, she played tears, and Li listened to it from the audience, but she fell down on the piano in the end. Li was decadent because of this. I feel sorry for Jane, I don't even know his life, and I don't even get together in the last days. ] I sat on the bed blankly, with an indescribable feeling in my heart. He had suffered such pain before, and I had no reason to hate him and blame him.

[Thank you for telling me this, where is he now. ] I wanted to care about him and let him let go of the past, but I didn't care that I was the one who was hurt, and I was the most innocent, but it didn't matter to me, I only wanted the person I loved to be good.

[He's been outside all the time, he blames himself for being so badly injured. ] Blame yourself?Does that mean he still cares about me?

[I don't blame him, without him, I would still be in the orphanage now, without any warmth. ] I said it word by word, and my voice was a bit loud, and Li outside the door should be able to hear it.

[You can rest first, or I will ask him to come in and you can talk. ] To be honest, I didn't know what to say when I saw him. After hesitating, the door was opened, [Zhou Chen, you go out first, I will have a few words with Xiaojun alone. ] Zhou Chen nodded and went out, the air was silent, I didn't dare to look at him, and I didn't dare to move around because the lower body hurt so badly.

[You should hate me, does the hand and there still hurt? ] No, I don't hate you, I looked at him excitedly, but the pain in the cone reminded me how much pain I suffered.

[I don't hate you, I will become better, I just hope you don't look down on me. ] I just want these extravagances.