don't want to love you

The dead will never know how much pain a person living alone in the world must endure.

Maybe that person should be lucky, even though life is long gone, there are still people who want to be loved by others.

When I understood everything, I wanted to replace him and continue to fulfill the responsibilities and obligations of protecting the person we all love.I understand how self-deceiving I am thinking at this time, but I don't want to give up my only warmth to a person who no longer exists.Sure enough, people are greedy animals.

Today's piano lesson hastily ended in my embarrassment and bewilderment.

The person Zhongli loved has passed away, has his heart died with him? Not relieved.

［We are both from a music school, and we have a very good friendship. They appreciate each other's love from the beginning. Jane has a very good musical talent and a strong competitive spirit, but Zhongli has to inherit the family business and is forced to give up music. .In fact, when Zhongli asked me to teach you the piano, I did not agree. Later, I thought about who could make him let go of the knot in his heart. Sure enough, your eyes are very beautiful, and you are very similar to him, maybe. ] At that time, the teacher was very smart to stop, but we all knew it well.When I think of the teacher's words, I feel dizzy for a while. Fortunately, I am sitting on a chair to avoid the pain of falling.

That person named Jane, until the teacher left, I didn't have the courage to ask him the cause of death.

Since then, a tacit understanding has been established between me and the teacher. I didn't say a word about that matter. I just learned music quietly. When I was alone, I would play that one, [tears], I hope I can feel their love.

Zhongli is still the same as before, making me feel warm all the time.I didn't tell his deepest secrets because I wanted to love him with an alternate identity.

My eyes are indeed beautiful, the dark pupils are like obsidian, crystal clear without any impurities.Therefore, Zhong Li likes to gently imprint his thin lips on it for a long time.

After getting along for so long, Zhongli and I haven't had any in-depth communication, [Li, what do you do, I haven't even told me about you. ] [Xiao Yan, you are still young, and you don't understand even if you say it. ] [However, let me tell you about my past. ] [What kind of experience can Xiaojun have in the orphanage? Let’s not talk about it. I’m tired. ] Yes, I don’t understand his affairs, and he disdains mine, but he is still comforting himself. Maybe he just doesn’t want me to think of my past, so as to avoid pain.

A long and raging kiss disturbed my thoughts and took my breath away. My mouth hurt from being sucked, but it didn't stop.

Zhou Chen, a long-lost name, although we have only met once, what I remember of him is only feminine, like a poppy, making people afraid to approach him.

[Long time no see, does Xiaojun still know me? The longer I grow, the more beautiful I am, and I'm a lot taller. It seems that Zhongli has taken good care of you. ] I was a little surprised, we only met for the second time, a series of words seemed very familiar, but the care is true, I am well-clothed and well-fed every day, I will naturally grow a lot taller, even the hair that was a little yellow due to lack of nutrition All became black and thick.

[Yes, Li takes good care of me. ] I saw Zhou Chen nodded, turned around and walked to Zhongli's side, saying something I couldn't understand.

Seeing how engaged they were in the conversation, I didn't pay attention to myself, so I was about to go back to the room, but when I reached the stairs at the corner, the voice from my ear stopped me from moving forward.

[Li, do you really like Xiaojun? ] Zhou Chen said it both intentionally and unintentionally. [Hehe, how come, is he worthy? ] Exquisite face, uttering evil words, but it is so calm, [Xiao Yan is more and more like him, especially those eyes. ] [Enough, he is not worthy. ] Roaring violently, obviously touching a wound that cannot be touched.

[Then why do you keep him? Isn't it just to see Jane, who is only a shadow.Why can't you get out of the shadow of Jane's death? It's not your fault at all. Why should you impose these things on yourself. ] He didn't care about Zhongli, who was already a little angry, and further stimulated him.

[No, how can that bastard compare to Jane, even if it's just a shadow, I just want to destroy anything similar to Jane, they don't deserve to be like Jane. ] As soon as the words came out of my mouth, it was a bolt from the blue.I can't hear anything anymore, my ears are buzzing, it turns out that I am nothing in the end, I thought I pretended not to know, so I could continue to stay by his side, playing someone else's role, but everything is mine Wishful thinking.

With a sound of [咚], I, who didn't see the steps, lay down straight on the ground, my forehead and palms were numb, but it didn't hurt.

I struggled to get up, but fell down several times, and finally fell into an endless faint.

How much I want to just sleep like this and never wake up again, but my head hurts so much that it seems to explode. [Hiss, it hurts so much. ] The eyelids are heavy, and it takes a lot of effort to open them, blinking back and forth, but I don't know, the bewildered eyelashes are so attractive.

[Xiao Yan, you're awake] Eyes turned to the source of the voice, it was Li, although his expression was full of worry, but he could see the mockery in his eyes, why, I don't want Li to laugh at me, I'm not mean, [ah. ] I yelled like crazy, [Xiaojun, what's wrong with you, Xiaojun] Xiaojun, who is Xiaojun, my head hurts, [Ah, I'm not mean, I'm not mean. ] I twisted my body violently, waved my hands wildly, and with a bang, my consciousness became much clearer, but my cheeks were burning with pain.

[Xiao Yan, have you had enough trouble yet] What's wrong with me, why is my face hurting so much, tears are streaming down my face.I looked at Li, the red eyes were full of hostility, it was so scary, it was not Li, the tears were even more turbulent.

[Sorry, Li] I'm really crazy, it's not who Li is.

But Li's face softened a little, and his red lips parted slightly, [Why, I'm not crazy, who said you're not mean, you're mean, you know? ] The soul seems to be emptied, like a puppet with a broken thread. [Xiao Yan, tell me, tell me you are mean, be obedient, tell me quickly. ] Now who is crazy, me, or him.

[Xiao Yan, why don't you say, don't you love me? ] Love, of course I love you, how could I not love you, you are the first person to make me feel warm.

[I love you, I... mean. ] I mustered up the courage to say, Zhongli, you know?We are all people who are very close to the edge of the cliff. I rely on you to not stumble, but you, you jump into this deep pool by yourself, so I will fall with you.

Because, I am so afraid of losing you.