don't want to love you

Li stood aside and didn't say anything, just looked at me quietly, which made me feel a little overwhelmed.

[Sorry for treating you that way. ] Li said with a guilty face.

Such an arrogant person actually said sorry to me, should I be surprised?But what he said before has been deeply imprinted in my heart and cannot be erased.

[It’s okay, it’s all over. ] Some things have passed, you should not be in the memory, just remember to teach yourself a long lesson.

[Well, I asked someone to cook porridge, let's drink some later! ] I nodded, really hungry.After a while, Li walked up to me with the fragrant porridge, scooped a little with a spoon and blew it on my mouth before delivering it to my mouth.In this way, it took a long time to simply drink a bowl of porridge.

In the past few days, Zhou Chen often came to see me for my illness. I had to apply cold ointment there every day, which was sticky and extremely uncomfortable.Fortunately, the pain has eased a lot, but I can walk around freely.The hands were still wrapped in thick gauze, and they didn't feel anything, just hanging limply on both sides, like a perfect decoration.

The lawn of Zhongli's house is vast, and I would walk around here in my free time, feeling the natural fragrance.I have never experienced it before, it turned out to be so comfortable.I also understand that some things are destined not to be my own, and it is useless to fight for them.Now I just want to stay by his side, I am content to see him, as long as he still wants me.

[Xiao Jie, why are you here, don’t lie down properly. ] The breeze blew by, the green grass danced, and the sound from the ear became even more pleasant.

[My injury is almost healed, I don't want to lie in bed every day. ] When I was in the orphanage, I could only go out occasionally, but here it is different, I can go wherever I want.Even if it's just one person at a time, it's also very enjoyable. [Well, it's good to go for a walk, by the way, Zhou Chen came and said he wanted to see your hand. ] Speaking of hands, my heart trembled violently. Although I pretended not to care on the surface, how could I really not care.

[Well, let's go now! ] Always have to face, isn’t it? I put my hands weakly on the table, watching the layers of gauze fall off, the fingers are still slender and shapely, but the withered yellow skin covered them, and there is a deep dark brown Scars become wounds that can never be erased.

[The epidermis is growing well, but I can't say how well the bones have recovered. As for why I don't feel it, it should be because I hit the tendons. Now I have to wait for the bones to grow out slowly. I have to take the medicines I prescribed on time. Massage your hands to help restore consciousness. ] While talking, I changed my dressing, and the black ointment was applied to the back of my hand.

[I see. ] After taking the good medicine, Li wrapped the gauze for me, her handsome face showed no trace of impatience or disgust.

That's good.

Time is always passing by quietly, but Zhongli's care for me has not changed, and I have never dared to think of taking care of me better.My hand injury has healed, and the thick gauze has been removed, but the ugly scar has not disappeared, and I still don't feel the slightest.

Li stays with me every day, massages my hands from time to time, and feeds me three meals in person.

At first I was really not used to it. With the lessons learned from last time, I dared not expect anything extravagantly, but I was unwilling to refuse it. Unexpectedly, it became a habit again.

But I don't know, Li is actually used to it.

[Li, you are with me every day, do you have nothing to do?What about your work? ] I asked suspiciously.

[Don't worry, someone else will take care of my affairs. ] I sat in the warm embrace, a little drowsy, and I often fell asleep while chatting. [Oh, Li, I wonder if you will abandon me one day. ] Li likes me sitting in his arms, and my body is very thin, Li always picks me up effortlessly.

Li took my hand away, as if muttering, [I won't. ].

[That's good, Li, you know, I'm so happy now. ] After saying this, I fell asleep with a sweet smile hanging from the corner of my mouth.

In my sleep, warmth surrounds me.

[Xiao Yan, wake up. ] Slowly opened my hazy sleepy eyes, the golden light stimulated my pupils, which made me wake up quickly.

On the opposite side is Li Zoom's handsome face, with pretty lips smiling happily, [Well, what's wrong? ].

[Xiao Jie, we will go to Italy in two days, when we wake up, we will go out for a stroll. ] After hearing this, my eyes widened suddenly, and all the surprises were written on my face.

[Italy?Why did you suddenly go to Italy? ] Li might be amused by my naive expression, and the smiling phoenix eyes are slightly narrowed, exquisitely exquisite.

[I've wanted to take you there for a long time, why, Xiaojun doesn't want to go? ] After all, he still showed a pitiful and lovely appearance, such a Zhongli made me sink.I hurriedly said, [I don’t want to go, but I was too surprised just now. ].

[Scared me, I thought Xiaojun didn't want to go. ] After finishing speaking, he let out a slightly exaggerated sigh of relief.

Soon we had a good meal and went out together.

It was the first time I went out with Li, and I was in a good mood, and the haze in my heart for many days was instantly swept away.

Zhongli's home is located in the suburbs, the surrounding environment is very good, without the hustle and bustle of the city.We walked side by side, and the fallen leaves under our feet made a slight 'rustle' sound. It would be great if time could stay at this moment forever.

We talked and laughed all the way like this. After walking for about half an hour, I felt a little tired.

Li quickly realized, [What, are you tired? Sit there and have a rest. ] Looking in the direction of his finger, there is a stone chair, I nodded and walked there.

[I can’t even remember how long it’s been since I’ve been so comfortable, I can feel everything quietly. ] I leaned my head slightly on his shoulder, listening to what he said.

[Then I will often accompany you to relax like this in the future, otherwise I will be suffocated. ] I imagine our future in my mind, simple and beautiful.

[Okay, if you want. ].

[How could I not want to, as long as you don't find me annoying, or you don't want me anymore, I won't be thinking about entering your heart, I just want to be by your side and look at you quietly. ] I was intoxicated in it and naturally said such affectionate words, but I don't know how Li feels to me now, it shouldn't be bored.

I looked into the distance with both eyes, and greedily sniffed the unique faint fragrance of Li.

We are like this, snuggled up to each other, I don't care if Li doesn't answer my words.

Afterwards, we wandered around for a while, and went back around noon. We had to prepare some daily necessities when we went to Italy, but it was nice to go with Li.