Heart has a thousand knots

look. The sister-in-law smiled, "Go to accompany others, come all the way." "

In the small courtyard, Jiang Qiuyue and An An each held a cannon to compete whose cannon could shoot farther.Standing aside, watching her quietly while the fireworks flickered.Her smile is cold.

After setting off the Lianzhu cannon in her hand, An An looked at the large fireworks on the ground, and then at Jiang Qiuyue.Jiang Qiuyue spread her arms and shook her head.

"I'll do it." Walk over and remove the wrapping paper from the leads. "Momo, call your brother." Jiang Qiuyue was a little worried, and I smiled: "Stay back, just watch." When I was young, I often played with my elder brother and cousins. I am no stranger to games played by boys.

The lead wire made a "chichi" sound, dragging them back to the courtyard wall, waiting for the loud noise to come out.

A bunch of sparks burst out of the fireworks tube, and shot rapidly into the night sky, exploding in the air, and a colorful flower umbrella opened in the night sky, and then fell into the darkness like silk rain.One after another, the fireworks bloomed one after another, beautifying the night sky.

Jiang Qiuyue put her hands on her ears, stood next to me, and looked up at the fireworks.Father and elder brother also came out when they heard the sound.My hands that were ready to move did not wrap around her waist in the end.

"Momo, watch carefully, don't get angry." Father urged.Then I went to watch the gala with my eldest brother.

After the fireworks were set off, An An's excitement disappeared, and she drooped her head: "It will be gone so soon." I took out two red envelopes, and his eyes immediately brightened. "Give it all to me?" he asked.

"The small one is for you, the big one belongs to grandpa." I handed the red envelope to my father.Father didn't take it over: "I have money to use. The one you left for me last time hasn't been moved yet."

"Dad, take it." The elder brother said, "Momo's heart." Then the father took the red envelope.

Parents and children all over the world are roughly like this.Children's contributions to their parents are enjoyed with confidence.Once the children pay back a little bit, the parents are as embarrassed as accepting bribes, and they are reluctant to accept it.

(36) But will keep his eyes open all night long

After watching the gala for a while, I was a little bored.The audience's requirements are getting higher and higher, and their tastes are getting more and more tricky. "Go to bed," I said to Jiang Qiuyue, "It's cold on the ground."

"Don't have to wait until twelve o'clock?" She was a little surprised.

"No, there is no such custom. Sleep if you want." Father smiled, "It's different from the north."

My father burned a lot of charcoal in the kitchen, it was red, and he put it in a big iron basin, and asked me to bring it into the room, so that I could put it next to the bed and roast it.

Jiang Qiuyue slept outside, so she was closer to the brazier.Her hands and limbs were cold.Lying on the edge of the bed, she stretched out her hand, enjoying the warmth of the brazier. "Momo." She turned her back to me and called. "Huh?" Pulling the quilt towards her, he put his hand through her waist and hugged her.

"Your dad is so nice," she said.Her father had passed away for many years.

"Can't it be your father?" I laughed, "It's so clear."

She was silent. "Missing the baby?" I asked in a low voice.The way she looked at An An, the sister-in-law also noticed it.

"Momo, will you treat him as your own child in the future?" Jiang Qiuyue turned around and looked at me.It turned out that she was still worried about this.A woman who is a mother will have this kind of thought, right?

"I hope to have this opportunity to treat him well with you." I also looked at her seriously and said.

"In the future, if things go well, I want to bring my child to Shanghai to go to school." She touched my face, "I didn't go to college, I hope he can get into a better school."

"As long as you are good to the child, do your best." I said, grabbed her hand, breathed a sigh of relief, and started rubbing.

"A few days ago, I had a quarrel with him on the phone." She said, "I always quarreled about my child. It's been more than ten years, and it's like a dream. Momo, I'm not a good woman. I owe too much to my child. " Jiang Qiuyue let out a long sigh, making people unable to resist kissing her.

"Always noisy?" I asked.

She smiled wryly: "Yes, when she was pregnant, she also fought." What kind of bastard man is this? !I'm angry, no matter how difficult the conflict is, I can't be rough on a woman, let alone pregnant with his child!

"Okay, it's okay now, don't stare." She pulled out her hand and touched my face, "Look at you, are you going to eat people?" If I witness her being bullied, I think I can really eat people.From elementary school to middle school, I fought with boys several times.For myself, but also for other girls.I can't just turn a blind eye to any boys who are rough on female classmates.

The lights on the table were very bright, and the eyes were a little tired from the dizziness. Jiang Qiuyue reached out to turn off the lights.The room was suddenly dark.I stood up and turned on the light again. "What's wrong?" Jiang Qiuyue looked at me.

I pulled her hand out of the quilt and faced the light of the desk lamp.There was a faint scar on her wrist.Just now, when she turned off the light, my gaze was fixed on her hand. If it wasn't for the sleeve slipping off, I don't know when I would have noticed.When I was with her before, the light from the bedside lamp was so soft that I couldn't see it at all.

"Tell me, what's going on?" I pointed to her wrist.

"It's all over." She wanted to withdraw her hand, but I held it tightly, not loosening: "Tell me, I want to know."

"When I divorced him, I kept it." After hesitating for a while, she said.

"Do you have to use this method?" My throat felt a little dry.

"You don't know what kind of person he is." She sighed again, frowning, "There's no way to make sense. If I could get a divorce easily, I wouldn't have made such a decision at the time."

"Don't do such stupid things in the future." I stared into her eyes, "Promise me."

"Okay." She nodded.

"No matter what happens, it can't be like this," I said, still looking into her eyes.A person who is loved by others, her life is never just her own.Anyone and anything cannot be the reason for us to give up our lives.Death is not terrible, what is terrible is not knowing how to live.

"Yes." Jiang Qiuyue nodded again.

"Momo..." In the darkness, she called me vaguely.Try to hug her tightly, use my body to give her warm strength.Until, her breathing was slow and steady, and she fell into a deep sleep.

After twelve o'clock, people began to set off firecrackers outside to welcome the New Year.Sporadic artillery battles hit the tranquility of the night.The person in his arms frowned slightly.After waking up in the middle of many nights, what I saw was always these two eyebrows that could not be stretched, full of melancholy.

But will keep his eyes open all night long, and repay his life without raising his eyebrows.I sighed softly in my heart, no sleepiness at all.

There are unread text messages in the phone, from Yu Xiaoman and Xiucai.Xiaobai also sent his blessings, telling me that he will return to Shanghai in just two days.There is another one, an unknown number, saying: "Have you returned to Sichuan? Happy New Year!" After replying, that number did not send any more messages.

(37) Blossoms can be folded straight

On the third day of the Lunar New Year, Jiang Qiuyue and I were going back to Shanghai.So, I went back to Dujiangyan with my father and elder brother.

Saying goodbye to my family, I ran into a middle school classmate when I was boarding the Shuangliu airport bus.Seeing me, she was surprised: "Shen Momo!"

"2B!" I called her nickname, and I was also very surprised. I haven't seen her since I graduated from high school.All in all, it's been almost eight years.

"I thought you wouldn't recognize me," 2B looked me up from head to toe, "only my hair has grown, and nothing else has changed." Briefly talking about recent situations, I realized that she has already married and has children in school. It's kindergarten.

"What about you, are you married?" 2B asked me.I shake my head.

"Freedom is good." She sighed, "Women, you can only be a princess for one day in your life, and a queen for ten months, and then you will be reduced to a nanny. No, you have to ask for instructions when you get together with friends. Hey, you are coming back for a party right?"

I said I don't know. 2B's mouth opened into a circle: "No way? Yang Xiaoshi is in charge of the organization, and it's tomorrow, in Waihe. How could she not notify you?" I shook my head again, smiled, and looked back at Jiang Qiuyue.

2B asked: "This is?" I said: "The boss of our company, come to Sichuan to see the market situation." Jiang Qiuyue reached out to 2B, smiled: "Jiang Qiuyue." After a few polite words, the car came.

I told 2B that I was very busy with work and I was going back to Shanghai, I hurriedly waved to her and got in the car.

The air is a little dull until the double flow.I wanted to say something, but seeing Jiang Qiuyue staring out the car window, I didn't know what to say.

"Do you want to stay?" Jiang Qiuyue broke the silence in the waiting hall, "Anyway, I'm not in a hurry to go to work these two days."

"What are you staying for?" I felt a little inexplicably irritated, did I say I wanted to stay?

"Don't you want to go and have a look?" She looked at me, then turned her head to look at the signboard with an indifferent expression.Pulling her shoulders, he said in a low voice, "I never thought about going to the party. I thought about it just now, and I think about it now."

"Whether you want to go or not is your business, not mine." She didn't look at me and lowered her eyes.

Suddenly, a trace of pain struck the atrium clearly and blatantly.Slowly, let go of my hand.Jiang Qiuyue, the woman I am in love with, how will she define our relationship?Who am I to her?Who is her now?Who will be her in the future?

In front of my eyes, there are many figures.Will the feelings I identified eventually turn into a joke?

"Let's go!" Jiang Qiuyue pulled my wrist so badly.The broadcast announces boarding.

Back in Shanghai, I threw myself on the bed and fell asleep with my head covered.After waking up, seeing the sky was still early, I closed my eyes again.When I woke up again, it was dusk.Jiang Qiuyue sat on the edge of the bed, watching me quietly.

"Are you awake?" Seeing me open my eyes, Jiang Qiuyue said, "Get up."