Heart has a thousand knots

Come on, go out to eat. "

"I'm not hungry." I said lazily, "You go." I have no appetite, I just want to lie down quietly.

Jiang Qiuyue didn't move.It was very quiet in the room.I can hear the monotonous beating of my heart in my chest, interspersed with the tick-tock cycle of the second hand.

"I have a flower / planted in my heart / budding to be released / morning and evening / I am eagerly waiting / someone with a heart to fall into a dream..." Anita Mui's sexy and affectionate singing voice drowned the silence of the room .The ringtone of Jiang Qiuyue's mobile phone has always been the song "Women's Flower" that she never tires of listening to.

"Well, I'm back. Tell me." Jiang Qiuyue glanced at me, hesitated, "Okay, I'll be here in a while."

"The shopkeeper asked us to have dinner together, and Xiaobai is back." Jiang Qiuyue asked, "Do you want to go?"

Get up, tidy up briefly, and bring Sichuan-flavored sausage to Han Shu.At this time, if I don't go, Han Shu's sensitive nose can sniff out some stories again.

After dinner, Xiaobai proposed to sing.Jiang Qiuyue and Han Shu walked ahead, while Xiaobai and I were one step behind.

"Where's your dimple, how's it going?" I asked Xiaobai.She smiled: "I will woo her on Valentine's Day." "Good luck." I stretched out my hand and gave Xiaobai a high-five.

Han Shu's singing voice reveals a gentleness in the low voice, a beautifully sad "Female Flower", expressing the loneliness under the beauty.Jiang Qiuyue served wine with her mesmerizing singing, and one beer bottle after another was empty in front of her.Her brows and her faint sighs always easily arouse my melancholy and make my heart ache involuntarily.

Holding down her hand that was about to pour the wine again, I put down the bottle, and I got up.Han Shu handed over the microphone.

"I am fascinated by you day and night / I am always worried about you / There is no room for missing / It has been the sea / Even though I am suffering in every way / After all, I think you are the best / I can’t control the ups and downs outside / I miss you in my heart / I just want to be with you Together/I want you to see my determination/believe in my tenderness/understand the love I give you/in a blink of an eye/youth is like a dream/time flies by without turning back/and I give everything without reservation/God knows/when, where, and why Break up / As long as you can love, you must love enough..."

When I was in college, I only took music for one semester. When I left Chengdu, I left that guitar in the rented house.My singing voice is pure amateur level, just clear, without modifiers, but my heart sings along with the melody, expressing my affection.Just looking at her like this, while singing.

Xiaobai applauded, and immediately put the microphone in Jiang Qiuyue's hand again.Jiang Qiuyue didn't move.A pair of blurred eyes, looking straight at me.Every time I drink, her eyes are always full of charm, which makes my heart have nowhere to escape.He pulled her up from the sofa, wrapped his arms around her waist, and pressed her rosy lips against hers.She twisted and my arms were firmly around her.After struggling for a while, Jiang Qiuyue calmed down, grabbed my shoulders, and kissed me together.

Later, when I thought of kissing Jiang Qiuyue so boldly in front of others, I was a little surprised myself.Maybe it was the piece of music that was fermented by alcohol, which made me act so recklessly?

I am willing to face her every day, hug her to sleep every night, and keep the beauty she gave me.As long as there is a future with her present, she will never leave it.

(38) You must pity me and I pity you

Rain, Waking of Insects, Vernal Equinox, Qingming, Grain Rain.When summer comes, there are more and more orders for Buyue.During the day, I am busy in the company.In the evening, accompany Jiang Qiuyue out to socialize.

In terms of business, I don't know how Jiang Qiuyue's thin body can release so much energy. She handles the wine table with ease, and wins one big deal after another.Her courage is heartfelt admiration.For this, I am full of admiration for her.In "A Dream of Red Mansions", Sister Feng's pungentness, Sister Lin's agility, and Sister Bao's exquisiteness are all gathered together.

When I got home at night, I was too tired to talk or move.In the sleepy interval, my body was floating in a void, and a voice in my brain anxiously asked myself: Are you happy in this kind of life?

For a long time, I even lost the desire to kiss her, let alone make love to her.I doubt that if things go on like this, I will enter menopause early.

Several times, I fell asleep in the tub, a muddy mess.I think Jiang Qiuyue loves me so much, she often drags me to bed while sighing.When I was dreaming in the middle of the night, or even when I woke up in the morning, I got used to reaching out to touch her and closing my eyes.At that time, Jiang Qiuyue would gently wrap her arms around my shoulders, put her arms around me, and put her face against mine.

Can money bring more happiness and a more solid sense of security?When I was conscious, I asked myself, especially Jiang Qiuyue.

Seeing my tired face, Jiang Qiuyue told me to go home and rest in peace.She is dealing with all kinds of people outside, can I go back and rest with peace of mind?Often after get off work from the planning department, I would cheer up and accompany her to social events as an assistant.

On the eve of New Year's Day, when work was a little looser, Jiang Qiuyue and I went to Dielianhua to sit together.

I haven't been to the store for a long time, so Han Shu was a little surprised when he saw the two of us: "I knew you two were coming, so I went to see Xiaobai together."

"What happened to Xiaobai?" I asked.

Han Shu sighed: "Why else? The business is gone, and love can't be found. I still soak in cold water in winter, and I made myself sick."

When I opened the door, the person who appeared in front of me surprised me—is this Xiaobai?Tousled hair, thin pale face.Seeing it was us, she grinned with dry lips and moved out of the way.I kicked away the beer cans and dirty clothes on the ground, took Jiang Qiuyue's hand, and walked in.

In such a situation, I don't know how to comfort Xiaobai.Everyone knows that people who are broken in love need the most time to dilute the pain in their hearts.Time is the most poisonous medicine.There is no sadness that cannot be faded by time.It's just that even a skilled luthier can't play the corresponding tune for the skin-wrenching and heart-wrenching pain of falling out of love.

"When I'm better, I'll go and see her quietly." Xiao Bai's eyes were a little hollow, and his voice was hoarse, "Then, get out of here."

In the past few months, I don't know what happened between her and Liang Bingyu.Been busy with work, busy with entertainment.

"Has she been here?" I asked, feeling a little upset.

Xiaobai shook her head: "She didn't know that I was still in Shanghai. When we met for the last time, I told her that I would leave immediately."

Before leaving, I asked for Liang Bingyu's phone number.When I saved it, I felt a little familiar, and I couldn't remember where I saw it.

If you see her, don't tell her that I am still in Shanghai, Xiaobai told me, you just need to tell her that I am fine and have a new girlfriend.

Jiang Qiuyue sighed on the side: "Why are you all doing this?" I took her hand and squeezed it hard.

When I was sleeping at night, Jiang Qiuyue looked at me and said, "I didn't realize that you can still be a Yuelao." Touching my head, I smiled awkwardly. So many obnoxious women.

"Be like your ancestors, love all living beings, sacrifice your life for love." Jiang Qiuyue's displeasure in his tone, I understood it.

"Let's go together, okay?" I hugged her and pressed it against her ear, whispering.

Jiang Qiuyue twisted her body slightly, and smiled lightly: "Aren't you afraid that others will tell you to rake your ears?"

My hand, groping behind her head, gently bit her earlobe, her body trembling, like a current of electric waves, transmitted to my hands, and spread to my whole body in an instant.

Outside the window, the dew is deeper; inside the window, the love is tender, and the spring is beautiful and charming.

After get off work the next day, I stood in front of the famous university on Handan Road.When she got off work, Jiang Qiuyue said "I'll wait for you to come back for dinner" and went straight home.

Jiang Qiuyue is an extremely intelligent woman.Between advance and retreat, grasp the proportions just right.

"Big designer, the weather seems special today, right?" Liang Bingyu greeted me when she saw me, and then looked up at the sky.This girl, I laugh.

Walking on the campus, stepping on the dry leaves all over the place, I feel very kind.The four years of university, in retrospect many years later, will still be clear and vivid.

After walking for a while in silence, Liang Bingyu couldn't help but said, "Tell me, why are you looking for me today?" After all, this girl is as clever as the second of the Liang family.

"Xiaobai—" I paused and said, "You guys, is there no tomorrow?"

"I'm not sure whether I love her or not, and how much I love her." Liang Bingyu frowned and sighed, "It's better to let her go than this. There should be someone beside her who is sure to love her."

"Now, don't you miss her at all?" Thinking of Xiaobai's haggard appearance, I really want to tell her what kind of pain and torture the other party is enduring for her.

"Yes. But the better she treats me, the more guilty I feel. I'm afraid I won't be able to bear it, so let's do it sooner." Liang Bingyu smiled, a little sad, "Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain."

Silence again.Consoling others is not my specialty.Only, be a good listener.

"What about you, do you want to stick to it?" Liang Bingyu broke the silence and asked me.Nod vigorously.Xiaoshi has faded out of my emotional life, and I can't live with anyone else except Yueyue in my heart.

Will also be old-fashioned, take pity on the people in front of you.

If you contact Xiaobai, tell her that I am fine.Liang Bingyu said, I know, she has never been short of women.She smiled, with the same cold smile as this season.

Stepping on the cold wind, I started to walk back