Don't come here, I'm just an actor

This grill is where we first sat and ate together.Regardless of the inconspicuousness of this restaurant, it has a great reputation, and there are many people who come to eat, and it is open 24 hours.

Fortunately, there were not too many people during the day, and it didn't take long for our order to be packed.Now I can no longer sit and eat in the store, and being recognized by others should cause a commotion.

Park Xiansong drove me to a lake. I sat on a bench and ate chicken wings. The taste was still familiar, but I was short of beer. Zhou Kaichen strictly ordered me not to drink.

The sun is just right today, and it is already hot in May. Even if there is shade, my forehead is hot and sweaty.

Park Xiansong wiped my sweat with that napkin, "Where do you want to go after eating?"

"I don't know, I can't go anywhere without a mask now." Pan Bing has already warned me that there are many paparazzi who want to take pictures of me, and those who come out and go in should pay attention.

"Then I'll take you abroad. At this time, when you go to country X, the body temperature is just right. There are many brand stores there, which are suitable for shopping."

"Okay, let's go there then."

The shopping mall is full of beautiful things, and I don’t have a specific idea of ​​what to buy. I just go in every store and buy a few gifts for my family after shopping for a day.

At night when the lights came on, Park Hyun-song took me to ride the Ferris wheel, which is known as the world's largest.As the operation gradually rises, you can have a panoramic view of the city. On one side is the silent sea water, and on the other side is the city illuminated by the continuous flow of vehicles.

I took pictures with my mobile phone, but I couldn't find a good angle, and the photos I took were always unsatisfactory.

"Put the phone at this angle and try it." Park Xiansong surrounded me from behind, touching my hand to help me adjust the angle of the phone.Needless to say, the photos taken are indeed much better.

When I climbed to the highest point, I can see far away, and I can see the stars at a glance. Since I taught me to take pictures, Park Xiansong took the opportunity to hug me and tease me from time to time. I just want to enjoy the beautiful scenery and leave him alone.

"Xiaodong, can I take you to a big water park tomorrow?"

"Okay, you can arrange it." It doesn't matter where you go, as long as you can play, I would like to follow the doctor's advice to relax.

A sudden sound startled me, and my heart almost jumped out.Someone set off fireworks below, and the fireworks that were shot up were right in front of my eyes, and various colors bloomed in the dark night.There are not many opportunities to see the fireworks in front of me, so I quickly took out my mobile phone to take pictures.

After taking two pictures, I was kissed by Park Xiansong. I protested and wanted to push him away, "Hey, it's such a romantic moment, it's time to kiss and celebrate."

I endured his kiss, wondering for the first time what it was like when he kissed me.Sneakily opening his eyes, the fireworks applied make-up to Park Hyun-song, presenting various colors on his face.Eyebrows look good naturally, without messy and redundant fluff, thick and slender eyelashes, with eyeliner effect.Frowning, I reached out to smooth it out.

Park Xiansong slightly opened his eyes, and I was in the brown pupils, "Are you satisfied with what you see?"

"As long as you are satisfied." Park Xiansong said and deepened the kiss.He likes to hold my waist tightly recently, sometimes he seems to be so strong that he wants to bend my waist, just like now, he hugs my waist and clings to him tightly.

Pu Xiansong was still not satisfied, so he let me sit on his lap with my legs spread apart, and stretched my hands from the hem of the clothes, rubbing my skin.This position is too embarrassing, still outside, I don't feel safe, I twist my body and want to sit back.

"Hey, it takes 10 minutes from the top to the bottom. The glass is also specially made. You can't see the inside from the outside. Don't be afraid that someone will see it." He kissed my neck with a little urgency, and wanted to confirm something flustered.

I stroked his back to appease his anxiety. Park Xiansong bit my neck, and I was forced to bear it with my head raised.Tears were forced out of my eyes, the lights in the distance became halos of light, and Park Xiansong's panting sound was heard next to my ears, "Husband." I couldn't help murmuring. "Good, my husband is here."

The night is an excuse to indulge, and the hotel's luxurious king-size bed is our place to indulge.Park Hyun-song is like a pious believer, crawling at my feet, offering all his sincerity to me.

Lust is an instinct, and lust with emotion is poison, making you addicted and unable to stop.

Back in the capital, Zhou Kaichen was very satisfied with my condition, "With this situation, I won't be needed soon. It seems that Xiansong is a good tool, so let's continue to use it."

Zhou Kaichen's words were intended to be heard by Park Xiansong who was sitting next to him, but he didn't care when he heard it, taking it for granted.

I followed the crew to promote the film, and Park Hyun-song accompanied me throughout the whole process. The crew also noticed the relationship between me and Park Hyun-song. The director and other leading actors would occasionally tease us, but it was just a joke. .

With Park Xiansong accompanying me, my insomnia situation improved a lot at night. Zhou Kaichen also reduced the dosage of the medicine as appropriate, and suggested that if I don't have any problems, I can stop the medicine first.

Feng Feiran called me to ask how I was doing, and wanted to get together.Wang Zhuang made a move anyway, and posted the indecent photos he had held in his hand before, causing an uproar in the public opinion.At that time, I just broke up with Park Xiansong, and the whole state was not right, because Pan Bing ran before and after running.

Later, the public relations company suggested to call the police directly, and then hold a press conference to explain the situation.After all, there were many unequal treaties in the contract Feng Feiran signed, and Wang Zhuang forced him to drink with him. Wang Zhuang had already violated the regulations. The photos he released to destroy Feng Feiran became indirect evidence.

When the press conference was held, I didn't expect that Luo Hong would also go, and even boldly confessed his love on the spot, which really surprised everyone.Pan Bing and I were also very puzzled, Luo Hong basically had no contact with Feng Feiran, how did they fall in love with each other?Later, it was Doudou who told the reason, the first time she got drunk at the dinner party, on the way back Feng Feiran played drunk, hugged Luo Hong and kissed again and again, making Luo Hong stupid.After sobering up, Feng Feiran specifically apologized to Luo Hong, and the two gradually got in touch with each other.

Luo Hong had confessed his love before, but Feng Feiran felt that the difference between the two of such a simple young man was too great to be together.

Luo Hong didn't bother too much, but continued to get along as friends.When something happened to Feng Feiran, he admitted directly in front of the camera that he liked Feng Feiran. He believed that Feng Feiran had been forced before, and he was really a man.

Although Wang Zhuang has been taken to investigate and the truth has come to light, the previously discussed cooperation has been forced to stop, and Feng Feiran is also sad. Luo Hong has been with her for a long time, and he also took her with him when he was filming, which is very considerate.

The location was set at Feng Feiran's house, which should be said to be their home now.Pan Bing was busy bringing in newcomers and didn't have time, so Park Xiansong and I went.Feng Feiran was dressed in home clothes, and her long hair was casually tied behind her back.Luo Hong still looked shy, when I teased him and Feng Feiran, his face was as red as an apple.

Park Xiansong and I were waiting for dinner in the living room, Feng Feiran was the chef, and Luo Hong was helping.When Feng Feiran raised his hand to heat the oil in the pan, Luo Hong consciously brought the dish to her, and when it was cooked, Luo Hong immediately handed over the plate, such a "24 filial boyfriend".

I sat on the sofa and watched them in the kitchen with a little envy in my heart.

The hand hanging on the sofa was held by Park Xiansong, I didn't dare to turn around to look at him, I was afraid to see the affection in his eyes, and I didn't know how to respond.

"The food is ready, let's eat." Luo Hong came out of the kitchen and asked us to eat. I withdrew my hands and got up, walked to the dining table and sat down.Park Hyun-song sat beside me and helped me put away the dishes.

"Let's eat my cooking for the first time, try it and see if it suits your taste." Feng Feiran took off her apron and sat down, Luo Hong set the dishes for her.

"You're welcome." I picked up a chicken nugget, "Well, it's delicious. Knowing that your cooking is so delicious, I must have come here a long time ago."

"As long as you like to eat, I told you to cook for you a long time ago, but I haven't found a suitable opportunity." Feng Feiran picked up a piece of shrimp and put it in Luo Hong's bowl. Luo Hong listened to my conversation with Feng Feiran, silly In a daze, there was a smile on his face when he saw the shrimp in the bowl.Tsk tsk tsk, really everything is on the face, which can also make you jealous.

After dinner, the host didn't let me do anything, so I consciously sat on the sofa and continued to watch them show their affection in the kitchen.Probably because I didn't respond to Park Xiansong just now, he said very little today.

It was still early in the evening when I went back, I was exercising in the room, I stopped running until I was sweating all over, went to the bathroom to take a shower, and when I returned to the room, I saw Park Hyun-song reading a book.

I threw back the quilt and lay down, and turned off the bedside lamp on my side.Park Xiansong also turned off the light and lay down, hugging me from behind, his big hands wandering around my body, I grabbed him, "I'm a little tired today, I want to go to bed early."

"Xiaodong." Park Xiansong murmured my name with a little grievance.

I was fed up with this paradoxical state with him, thinking that if I still couldn't accept it, I would break up quickly, the pain would pass as soon as it hurt, and time would be a good medicine that could heal everything.But I really can't bear it, I still love it in my heart, how can I let go of the person I love deeply.I calculated all the possibilities and wanted to give myself an answer. Without an answer, it would be a dead end.

I stand in the middle of the balance, with love on one side and the unbearable past on the other, there is an imbalance wherever I go.

My brain was about to explode, and I didn't feel sleepy anymore, so I got up and wanted to talk to Pan Bing.

"where are you going?"

"I want to go out for a walk." I put on my clothes, wondering if I could have a drink with Pan Bing.

"I'll accompany you." Park Xiansong got up to get dressed.

"No, I want to stay by myself and be back in a while." I didn't dare to look at his expression, and hurriedly opened the door and went out.

Park Hyun-song, give me some time, I need to calmly think about our future.I used to want to forgive you for countless moments, but I cared too much about the past, it was like a thorn stuck in my heart, and I couldn't pull it out.

If I can't completely let go of the past, we will always torture each other, what kind of happiness is there in this kind of love?

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There is a thorn in my heart, every time my heart beats, he stabs me once, it hurts.