one of a kind

To be honest, I don't know why I'm still angry, but I really don't want to see him.Ever since I entered Moshang Pavilion, I have hated others to mention my previous life, and I want to erase it.

I don't need others to feel sorry for me, and I don't need others to pity me. I tell myself again and again, and forget the past over and over again, just to let myself breathe a sigh of relief and tell myself that there is nothing I can't live in today.

These years, I thought he was living well in other places. When I even forgot about such a person, when I was desperately telling myself that I can live in this world by myself, he appeared and told me that I am His anticipation and motivation made me feel that my previous self was like a joke.

At that moment, all the confidence I was hanging on collapsed almost instantly. I seemed to suddenly recall the saddest days, as if I had experienced the pain of the cloud falling to the ground again, and I looked at him. It reminds me of my previous grievances, blaming my status as a bastard, blaming my mother for leaving early, blaming my father for not caring, and my grandparents ignoring me. Those dark things took root in my heart and grew into towering trees.I can't control them, they grow so uncontrollably that I can't control them.

At one point, I even wanted to abandon all self-cultivation, strip off all clothes, and ask him, am I still the one you remember?Do you regret all these years?I even want to kill his expectation with my own hands, so that he can see clearly that the person in front of him is not the simple and stupid kid who wanted to be a hero when he was five years old, but the person in front of him is full of unwillingness, incomprehension and resentment. man.

I lay quietly on the bed, pretending to be asleep without moving, but thoughts were churning in my heart. I knew he was watching me in the dark.He was always like this, he was like this when he was young, always letting me, spoiling me, pampering me, afraid that I would get angry, and afraid that I would ignore him.He treated me with sincerity, and even though there was an interval of ten years, I could see through him at a glance.But I dare not accept this sincerity, I am terrified, afraid of losing it again, afraid that I will lose my self-cultivation when I lose it, so I don’t want it from the beginning, you go, I don’t want it, I can do it alone .

The sky suddenly appeared, and it was early morning before I knew it.I opened my eyes and asked the maid to wait for me to get up.Except for the sound of my movements, the room was once so quiet that you could hear a needle drop. I knew he must be overwhelmed by panic, so I didn't want to say anything more, and Ben also made up his mind to let him leave.

I asked him to come and have breakfast with me, maybe because he was afraid that I would get angry again, but he didn't refuse, and he didn't dare to get too close to me.When I got close to the table, I staggered, I didn't raise my eyes, I just quietly stirred the porridge in the bowl.

He was terrified that I would get angry, so he straightened himself up immediately, knelt down and apologized, I didn't speak, didn't let him get up, finished the porridge silently, put down the spoon before looking up at him, I said softly: It's useless.

This time he didn't say a word, and he didn't look up at me, as if he didn't respond, except for his slightly trembling body.I think he must be very sad. He only wanted to see me for so many years, and he must have regretted being treated like this when he saw me full of joy.Very good, then quickly recognize the reality and leave quickly, lest the ending be lonely, lest you and I be embarrassed.

I let him hang out for a few days, ignoring him and not letting him get close to protection, until the monthly family hall meeting began.I changed my clothes and washed it early in the morning, thinking that if I behaved well today, I could ask my father to let him go.I know I can, as long as I show a little weakness, and my mouth is sweeter, they will be very easy to talk to.If I pretend to express my sincere gratitude, they will feel like my family has grown up, and they will be comforted, but I don't want to.After all, having a good life doesn't mean having a good heart, but I need to be like this today, as long as I can achieve my goal.

As soon as I entered the room, before I looked up, I heard my aunt teasing: One, it's rare to see you come so early.

I untied the cloak on my body and hung it up for the servants, and smiled with the corners of my mouth: "The last few times it happened to be cold in the twelfth lunar month, and my body was not as good as that of my brothers and sisters. I caught some wind and cold, and I had a severe headache, but I thought it was not a big deal. I didn't mention it, but it's my nephew's fault that the church meeting was late, so I won't do it next time.

As soon as my voice finished speaking, she heard another sentence: Your delicate body should be well maintained, and you are a martial arts practitioner at a young age, which is too useless.

I ignored her, took my seat, and then handed her the tea served by the servant, "Auntie said that it is a blessing, no better than Auntie."

"It's better than I say, it's far worse than your brother and sister." She replied again, like others, she prefers elder sister and elder brother, and mostly ignores me.

I smiled, pushed the tea like her again, and said: "My aunt is tired after talking so much, drink some water so that my uncle won't feel bad."

Her face changed slightly, she glared at me, and wanted to continue to say something, but when she raised her eyes, she saw the frowning man opposite, so she closed her mouth.

The relationship between their husband and wife quickly came to discord, most of the reason is because she is not picky, she also knows the reason, but it is not so easy to change when she is used to being tough, I pretended to be puzzled and took the new tea served by the servant and slowly After taking a sip, he took a breath.

I don’t know if it’s the root cause of my illness in the first few years when I first arrived at Moshang Pavilion. I’m extremely afraid of the cold. In the early spring, I still wear clothes that look like the twelfth lunar month of winter. To me, the saying that martial arts practitioners are not afraid of the cold seems like a joke to me.I sighed, and when I was thinking about how to ask my father to leave in private, I felt a warm quilt on my lap. I didn't even have to look up to know who it was. How could my servants have him? Half careful, I sighed, as if annoyed: "It's troublesome, go down."He left quietly.

Halfway through the meeting, the things that should be said are almost over, so we chatted about trivial matters. Usually, I will leave at this time, but not today.Because of my cooperation, the atmosphere in the class was very good. After all, I am used to being mean and indifferent on weekdays, and it is not easy to get a couple of nice words from me.

"Second brother, have you named your Shadow Guard?" An Qingyi looked at Wen Yi'an and opened his mouth to ask.

"I wanted to get it, but I asked Ying Er later, he said that he remembered Xiao Shi's name, so I asked him to use it." Wen Yi'an replied with a smile.

"How can you follow the temperament of the subordinates so much, besides, the body guard always asks the master to give him a name. The second younger brother is a bit indulgent." An Qingyi frowned and taught.

Before Wen Yi'an could reply, my father laughed and said: Among the three children, Qingyi's personality is the most like mine, but it's a pity that Qingyi is a daughter, if it's a man, it's a shame, it's a pity.

"It's not a pity, brother, we Qingyi are women who don't give in to men. Besides, children's sexuality needs to be the same. It's okay to be gentle and gentle. From now on, this Moshang Pavilion will be handed over to him. Qingyi It’s good to help you again.”

Before my father finished speaking, my aunt ended the discussion for my elder brother and sister. She really loved them very much. My father lowered his eyebrows and smiled, then turned to me and asked, "Where is one? For you Has the shadow guard got a name?"