still water deep sound

The green leather train drives very slowly, and will stop from time to time on the road to give way to the express train.Qu Jingshen had some instant noodles for dinner, his stomach was already small, and he couldn't eat any more after a few mouthfuls.The night was getting deeper and deeper, and the lights in the carriage were dim, as if rusted, but more smoky than rust.

There are black and crowed unknown objects outside the car window, except for the unextinguished lights of people in the distance, nothing else can be seen.Occasionally, I pass by a certain city, and as far as I can see, the streets are empty, but the neon lights are still on.Although it is not as gorgeous as that city, it doesn't matter where you are whether you feel lost or not.

Qu Jingshen was tired from watching, so she lay down on the table for a while.The carriage was very quiet, and many people fell asleep soundly due to the exhaustion of the journey.The snoring came into the ears clearly, so noisy and quiet.Qu Jingshen suddenly felt that she had failed, but what would a country boy want?The thought made him fidget, want to go to the toilet to wash his hands, and want to buy a bottle of water.Obviously hands are not dirty, nor thirsty.

In the end, Qu Jingshen couldn't help but think that Jing Ze must have already left for a foreign country.When he thought of this, he felt that he was not up to date.Or the habits he developed since he was a child made him not know what to have and what to fight for.Empty back and forth, just by myself.

Jing Ze hung up Xiao Bai's phone, and threw the cake in his hand to pieces as if venting his anger.The delicate little cake was thrown to pieces and lay alone on the ground.The room was very quiet, unlike usual, Qu Jingshen was always here waiting for him to come back.

At this moment, Jingze received a text message, and the sender's name made him unable to open it.Cheng Feng, even for a while, Jing Ze called this name 'reunion'.Once eagerly hoped to meet again, but the other party disappeared completely.

Jingze's hands trembled when he opened the text message. The content of the text message was very short, just a few words: I'm doing well.

Jing Ze wanted to press the dial button, but he canceled it immediately after pressing it, and switched to the mode of replying text messages.He hastily typed a paragraph, then hastily deleted it.The last thing I sent was just a few short words: I want to see you.

It took a long time to send out the text message, but Cheng Feng didn't reply.Jing Ze threw the phone aside and lay down on the bed in a large font.He subconsciously flicked to the side with his left hand, it was empty and there was no one there.Jing Ze muttered: "Stinky rabbit, who did you learn to run away from home? Huh? See if I catch you and deal with you properly!"

At this time, the phone rang, Jing Ze couldn't wait to pick up the phone, glanced at it, and pressed the answer button a little disappointed: "Hey, what's the matter?"

Jing Sen said, "Have you decided? Do you want to come with me?"

Jing Ze was very conflicted, he really wanted to buy a plane ticket and fly to the city closest to Qu Jingshen's home.However, there was another voice in my heart shouting, anyway, it will be a long time with him, and there is no rush for these two days.

Jing Sen didn't wait for Jing Ze's response, and continued to ask: "I heard that he doesn't stay in one place very often, so it's fine if he doesn't want to go, anyway, there will be opportunities in the future."

Jingze said: "No, I'll go, the night is long and the dream is full. When is the ticket?"

Jing Sen smiled in satisfaction and said, "Tomorrow afternoon."

After hanging up the phone, the room became quiet again. Jing Ze flipped through the call list on his phone, wanting to go out and fool around, but he didn't know who to call.Shit, rabbit, you wait for me to catch you...

Qu Jingshen did not arrive in their provincial capital until the next afternoon.He came out of the platform following the flow of people, only to realize that the weather was not good.The sky is very cloudy and it will rain anytime.People come and go at the train station, and they all leave in a hurry.

Qu Jingshen stood at the exit and looked around. It was the northern city he took the train to from here three years ago.It seems that nothing has changed, and it seems that everything has changed.I don’t know when a bus station was built opposite the railway station, and there are also several cold drink shops and fast food restaurants, which were not there before.

Qu Jingshen stood there for a while before the wind started to blow.The wind was very cool, refreshing his cheeks and puffing up his shirt.Afraid of rain, he hurried to the opposite bus station to buy a ticket, hoping to get home before dark.

Before he could reach the bus station, big raindrops fell on his face and neck.When he trotted to the bus station, his shirt was half wet, sticking to his body, very uncomfortable.But these, compared to the ticket in hand, seem insignificant.

If the car does not reach their village, they have to go back and change cars again.It was raining heavily outside, and the glass windows were blurred by the rain.There were scattered pedestrians running around at the train station, and the cries of children could be heard through the windows.

All this made Qu Jingshen feel strange, as if no matter how close they were, they would feel out of place.Feeling tired, he closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Two and a half hours later, the bus arrived at the station. The rain had stopped and the air was very clear.Qu Jingshen waited for a long meeting at the station, but did not wait for the bus to their village.In the end, I had to rent a small van with someone, and the driver said that it would be delivered directly to the village.

The people in the car with Qu Jingshen were all migrant workers who had returned from work outside the city, and they spoke loudly and rudely.A particularly strong young man cut a watermelon, and after sharing it among his acquaintances, he asked Qu Jingshen, who was curled up in a corner, "Do you want to eat it?"

Qu Jingshen originally wanted to refuse, but seeing the enthusiastic face of the other party, she took it and took a bite, then gave him a thumbs up.

The young man asked carelessly, "Are you dumb?"

Qu Jing nodded with a deep smile, and the young man cut another piece of watermelon and handed it to him: "Here, eat it."

The journey was not boring, listening to their gossip, saying that people in the city look down on them from the countryside, and what is good about the people in the city. We don’t have a house in the countryside and can build it ourselves. Can the people in the city do it?

Someone asked Qu Jingshen: "Hey, where did you go to work and come back?"

Qu Jingshen took out her notebook and wrote, "I go to school."

"Hey, isn't it good for college students to stay in the city? What are you doing when you come back?"

Qu Jing smiled deeply and did not answer.This is often the case. People at home feel that it is better to go outside, while those outside are hindered by their living habits and cannot return home.

The road became more and more bumpy, and there were crops on both sides, and occasionally a small gas station and a small restaurant could be seen.But the sign has faded, stained with mud, and looks muddy.The wheat has grown to the height of the calf. Looking from a distance, the green people feel refreshed.

The driver put Qu Jingshen at the intersection of their village, "Young man, go in by yourself, and I'll see them off, otherwise we won't be able to make it back before dark."

Qu Jing nodded deeply, paid the money, and watched the van drive away.He remembered that there was a small shop at the entrance of their village, which is still there, but it is a little older than before.Qu Jingshen bought some nutritional supplements with the money she had left, and went home empty-handed.

Qu Jingshen was walking along the narrow road to the village, and there was a man on a motorcycle who kept circling around him.Qu Jingshen looked up at him, and he also looked at Qu Jingshen, as if he didn't dare to admit it: "You... are you that little mute?"

Qu Jing looked at him with a deep smile, and the young man quickly stopped the motorcycle: "Really! Are you back from school?"

Qu Jing nodded deeply, this is Daqiang who played with him since he was a child, and he hasn't seen him for several years.

Daqiang was very happy, "Come on, little mute, I'll take you home, I'll take you home anyway! ...Buying something to see your aunt?"

Qu Jingshen was not polite, and sat on the back seat of the motorcycle with her things.

Daqiang did not hesitate to bring out the enthusiasm of the rural people to the fullest, "Hey, let me ask you, are you looking for a partner? I got married the year before last, and now my son is over one year old."

Daqiang turned to look at Qu Jingshen, Qu Jingshen smirked, and Daqiang also smiled: "Hey, you haven't changed at all, little dumb, next time bring a daughter-in-law from the city back to show us!"

The motorcycle drove very fast, passing the road he was familiar with.The road is no longer the dirt road of many years ago. He still remembers that when he was a child, it was raining heavily when harvesting crops, and the cart pulled by his donkey sank into the soil, and his parents had to work hard to push the cart out.

Daqiang said: "It's just right, you are leaving after your uncle's harvest is over, so here is a good time to help."

Qu Jingshen said, "Hmm..."

Daqiang turned his head to look at him in surprise: "Hey, you can talk now? I can't call you dumb anymore."

Daqiang sent him to the door of his uncle's house, and handed Qu Jing a cigarette with his feet on the ground: "Smoking? Yes, you hurry home to see your uncle, and I will bring Haozi and the others to play with you tomorrow. "

Qu Jing nodded and shook her head deeply, he doesn't know how to smoke.Daqiang stuck the cigarette above his ear: "Don't give it to me, go back and smoke it for your uncle." After finishing speaking, Daqiang rode away on his motorcycle.

Qu Jingshen stood at the door of his uncle's house, her palms were covered with sweat.He pushed open the wooden door and went in. His uncle was bending over to feed the dog. When he heard the movement, he turned to look at him.

His uncle looked older than the previous two years, his hair was half gray, and he was really an old man in the countryside.Qu Jingshen's eyes were sore, and she called him in a crying voice: "Uncle..."

His uncle looked at him blankly and said, "Son, are you back?..."

Qu Jing nodded fiercely: "Yes."

His uncle hurried up to take the things in his hand, and shouted inside: "Fucking mother, Ah Shen is back!..." He patted Qu Jingshen on the shoulder: "It's good to be back, can you talk now? I should have known Uncle took you to see more places at that time, which is better than now."

Qu Jingshen wiped the tears from his eyes with his sleeve, and his uncle put his arms around his shoulders: "Silly boy, why are you crying, haven't you been back for two years?"

Qu Jing nodded deeply, his aunt is also old, the wrinkles on his face are obvious, and there are a lot of white hairs on his head.

Qu Jingshen called her: "Body... Aunt..."

Seeing him, his aunt couldn't help wiping away her tears, "Hey, Ah Shen is back, do you want to go?"

Qu Jingshen didn't say anything, his uncle's younger brother is now attending high school in the county town, and will take the college entrance examination in more than a year.

The house has not been renovated and is older.The lighting in the room was very dim, and the table for eating was made by his uncle himself, and the paint on it had been peeled off in sevens and eights.His aunt killed a chicken for him and stewed the chicken at night.His uncle took out Erguotou, and his uncle and nephew were chatting and drinking.

Qu Jingshen wrote: "Uncle, I want to stay at home for a while. I have finished reading the book and issued my diploma." Qu Jingshen went to show his uncle the diploma in his bag.His uncle took it carefully, stroked the red book, and muttered: "That's great, that's great... Just live at home, there is no shortage of food for you."

That night, he slept in his brother's bed.The light bulb in this room did not know when it burned out, so his aunt had to light a candle.Qu Jing looked deeply at everything that was both familiar and unfamiliar, at the dark beams of the house, and missed his parents a little bit.

When he was very young, there were no light bulbs in the countryside at that time, so oil lamps were used at night.Candles are too expensive, his mother is not willing to buy them.The kerosene lamp was very dim and could only illuminate a small area.His mother doesn't do needlework and doesn't even light the oil lamp. After eating and tidying up, she goes straight to bed.

Qu Jingshen dreamed intermittently all night, and was awakened by the barking of dogs in the yard when it was almost dawn.His uncle has already got up and is sawing wood in the yard.Qu Jingshen got up to help. He hadn't done this kind of work for a long time, so he was a little rusty.

His uncle asked him, "Ah Shen, what are your plans? How about I ask someone to find you a job in the county? At any rate, you are a college student, and there is no way you can't find a job."

Qu Jing buried her head in sawing wood. If his uncle really found him a job, he would definitely stay at home.Isn't this his home?Where else can he go.

Qu Jingshen said, "Uncle..."

His uncle stopped what he was doing and looked at him: "Huh?"

Qu Jingshen continued to call him: "Uncle..."

His uncle laughed: "Silly boy, your parents left early, and uncle has always regarded you as his own son."

Qu Jingshen didn't want to think about how true or false these words were. He only had these relatives left. If they disappeared one day, there would be no place to stay.

After breakfast, Qu Jingshen told his uncle that he wanted to go back to his house to have a look.His uncle gave him a broom: "It's been a long time since I cleaned it, you take it, and clean it if you can."

Qu Jingshen took the broom and walked around several small alleys before finding the gate of his house in a narrow alleyway.In the past few years, many people have built houses or repaired courtyard walls, and the roads have become narrower and narrower.

The lock on the door was rusted, and the key was pushed back and forth many times before it could be turned.The door creaked, and Qu Jing was covered in dirt.After Qu Jingshen came in, she closed the door, and the yard was covered with dead branches and leaves, with no place to step down.

Qu Jingshen swept a few times with a broom, but the more the leaves became more and more rotten, some of them had already rotted into the mud, and the withered petioles had already turned into mud.The wall is still an earthen wall, except for the addition of a gate, everything else remains the same.

The door of the main room was closed, and there was a small narrow window one meter away from the door. The paper pasted on it had long since rotted away, leaving only a dark window slit.Qu Jingshen stood under the window and looked in. The room was dark, the beams were newly added later, and the kang was already blackened by the fire.

Qu Jingshen opened the door, and there was almost nothing complete in the room.The table legs were lying, and the chairs were burned beyond recognition.He squatted helplessly on the ground to wipe away the hot tears that he couldn't help but turned into ashes. His family, his parents, and his younger brother were all taken away by the fire.And how much does Jing Ze know about this?But I think of him at the most helpless moment.

The jujube trees in the yard have sprouted new buds, and the Sophora japonica flowers have all fallen, and the faint fragrance of Sophora japonica flowers can still be smelled.His mother likes to eat steamed locust flower cake for him, dipped in some sugar, it is fragrant and sweet.But at this time, I smelled a familiar fragrance that seemed familiar, and there was only a bitterness in my throat that I couldn't swallow.

Qu Jingshen really wanted to lie on the ground and cry, at his house, in the arms of his parents.When he leaves here, he will face the cruel reality.Tears can't be stopped, from suppressing crying in a low voice to finally crying loudly.

I don't know how someone's cat jumped up to the wall here. It was yellow and white. It stood on the top of the wall and stared at Qu Jingshen who was lying on the ground.Qu Jing was deeply blindfolded, it seemed that the more he looked at the old things here, the more pain he felt.

After Qu Jing finished crying, she got up from the ground and patted the dirt off her body.The pressurized well in the yard has not been used for many years, and Qu Jingshen poured a lot of rainwater into it to press out the water.When the cat saw him coming out, it ran away.Qu Jing took a deep look under the wall, there was a dead mouse there.

Qu Jingshen didn't wash her face until the water came out.Although it is clear water, there is still a strong smell of rust in it.He watered some jujube and locust trees before preparing to leave.When locking the door, he thought, if one day he has money, he should repair it here.

Find a place where no one is around, have a good laugh or a good cry.Revisiting old places, re-rewarding old things, and bringing up old things again, which one does not make people feel sad.Qu Jing left without looking back.He pretends to be a person in his heart, and he loves deeply, without sweet words, without flashy decorations, just like the countryside, it is something with roots.He won't mention it to anyone, and he doesn't need others' sighs.

Jing Ze went abroad with Jing Sen, Le Yutao was not as noisy as usual, he was listless and lacked energy.Jing Sen was flipping through a fashion magazine, feeding Le Yutao some lemon juice from time to time.

Le Yutao asked Jing Ze: "Second, will you stay abroad if you find that person?"

Jing Ze drooped his head and was not in the mood: "I don't know, leather duck, I miss my rabbit, it's soft in my arms, it's delicious."

Le Yutao didn't even play game consoles with enthusiasm, so he responded casually: "Oh, two, if I break up with your brother, can we still be friends?"

Jing Sen went to the toilet and didn't hear this at all.Jing Ze took the magazine and flipped through it, felt bored and threw it aside: "What are you thinking about, we will play games together in the future."

Le Yutao said disconsolately: "Oh, but this broken game console is too difficult to play, so I'll give it to you."

Jing Ze said, "I don't want it."

Le Yutao put away the game console: "Grass mud horse, grass mud horse...don't pull it down."