still water deep sound

It was exactly four o'clock in the morning when the plane landed at EWR Airport in the United States.There is wind, and the body is cool.Although it was not the first time for Jing Ze to come here, he still felt that all this was strange.

Le Yutao sneezed, and Jing Sen put the coat in his hand on him: "Be careful of catching a cold."

The ten-hour flight has made the body and mind extremely exhausted.The three of them were walking on the brightly lit road, Jing Sen handed Jing Ze a cigarette, and helped him light it: "Do you still get used to it?"

Jing Ze sucked in a breath: "What? I don't feel anything, almost."

Jing Sen waved for a taxi home, and not long after getting in the car, Le Yutao fell asleep in Jing Sen's arms.

Jing Ze turned his head and glanced at Jing Sen. Jing Sen was leaning on the seat, his face buried in the shadow.Jing Ze opened his mouth, then closed it tactfully.

Jing Sen whispered, "What do you want to say?"

Jing Ze: "It's not good for you to do this..."

Jing Sen raised the corner of his mouth slightly: "I have planned the future for him, and raising a son may not be so hard."

Jing Ze frowned: "He's still young, what will happen when he grows up? When he finds out that you have someone in his heart...his character will be blown to death."

Le Yutao moved in Jing Sen's arms, and Jing Sen made a silent gesture: "Shhh..."

Jing Sen lived in a small villa, although it wasn't too big, it was exquisite enough to accommodate two people.Jing Ze stood at the door and looked at the decoration in the room and clicked his tongue a few times. Jing Sen was more capable than him, no wonder his father used him as a negative example since he was a child.

Jing Sen carried Le Yutao upstairs, turned his back to Jingze and said, "There is a guest room on the second floor, go to bed by yourself."

Jingze was not polite at all, went upstairs to take a shower and sleep.Before going to bed, he turned on his phone, and there was still the last text message Cheng Feng sent him in the message inbox.He hit the reply button: I'm here.After sending, throw the phone aside and cover your head and fall asleep.

It may be a strange place, Jingze started dreaming as soon as he fell asleep.He dreamed that when he first met Cheng Feng many years ago, they drank, played cards, kissed and made love.It felt very intense, with a strong flavor of youth, like a green wheat field under the scorching sun, and like the endless chirping of cicadas in August.

In the dream, Jing Ze was riding a broken motorcycle, and Cheng Feng was sitting behind him, with his firm arms tightly wrapped around his waist.Jing Ze drove him through narrow alleys one after another, and bought a large bottle of mineral water to pour over his head when he got hot.

Cheng Feng likes his foul language, he likes to hear his greetings to so-and-so's parents, and he likes to see him roll up his sleeves and fight with people when he is upset.Sometimes Cheng Feng looked at him as if looking at someone he had known for many years.Jing Ze still couldn't understand what he was trying to express, and even if he didn't speculate in a few words, he would make a fuss.

Many things just poured down through the time, like broken sunlight projected on the ground through the leaves.You can appreciate it, but you can't touch it, because those are originally shadows.Perhaps this is not the most moving paragraph, but it occupies his most moving years.

I don't know whether the dream is too long or too short, those shining scenes are all mixed together, scrambling to invade people's consciousness, it is hard to tell the difference.He left, and he was stepping back towards him step by step, the outline of his face became more and more blurred, and finally turned into Qu Jingshen's face.

After doing the same thing, Jing Ze rode Qu Jingshen on a broken bicycle and pedaled quickly in the rain.Qu Jingshen also hugged his waist tightly, and he freed up one hand to hold an umbrella for himself.Qu Jingshen continued to walk backwards, Jingze opened his mouth and shouted at him: "Rabbit...why are you here?!"

Qu Jingshen stared at him as if she didn't hear it.Jing Ze realized belatedly that no matter how much he yelled, the other party couldn't hear his voice.At this moment, there was a piercing whistle sound, and a large truck sped past. Jing Ze watched Qu Jingshen's body being run over by the truck.

Blood, full of blood... No Cheng Feng, no Qu Jingshen... Jing Ze felt that his chest was being pressed down by a big rock, and he couldn't breathe.In the end, he was awakened by the laziness of the sunlight from outside. The sunlight made his eyes uncomfortable, and he opened and closed them again.

Jing Ze quickly took the cell phone next to the pillow as if grabbing a life-saving straw, and there was an unread message on it.He pressed it: so fast?I'm leaving tomorrow, why don't we meet tonight?

Sender: Cheng Feng.

Jing Ze threw the phone aside after reading it, took the phone again, and dialed Xiao Bai's number.

It's early morning in China, Xiaobai was sleepy and woke up, he poked Fang Qicheng: "The phone, get it for me..."

Fang Qicheng pressed the answer button and put the phone by Xiaobai's ear.Xiaobai closed his eyes and said, "Hey, who?..."

Jing Ze said anxiously, "Xiaobai, let me ask you, did you call the rabbit?! I just did..."

Before Jingze finished speaking, Xiaobai interrupted him, who said, "I beat him, he's not at home, his uncle said he was home."

The big stone in Jingze's heart was finally put down, "It's okay, Xiaobai, you should keep in touch with him often, and I'll go back to him in two days."

Xiaobai said: "Oh, Brother Jing, hurry back, I'm sleeping, I'll go back to you when I wake up..."

The phone was cut off, and Jing Ze put the phone aside.Cheng Feng, he will see Cheng Feng tonight, but he can't tell how he feels.

Xiaobai didn't fall asleep right away, he rubbed against Fang Qicheng, and asked confusedly: "Qicheng... You said, the two brothers are quite alike, although Brother Jing is not as smart as his brother."

Fang Qicheng didn't say a word, Xiaobai's expression at this time made his whole body burn for some reason.Fang Qicheng crossed his legs between Xiaobai's legs and kissed his neck and chest.Xiaobai couldn't help moaning and moaning.Well, this time Fang Qicheng was very manly and pushed him in.

When Jingze went downstairs, Le Yutao was lying on the sofa in a daze, his face was almost deformed by a slap.Seeing Jingze going downstairs, he said listlessly, "Uncle, are you awake?"

Jing Ze said: "Well, why don't you hurry up and wait for the young master to freshen up? What about the ice cubes?"

Le Yutao rolled on the sofa: "I'm going to continue making ice, I left early in the morning. Brother-in-law, brother-in-law, I really don't have the strength to serve you..."

Jing Ze chuckled: "Did you get fucked?"

Le Yutao casually touched a pillow and threw it on it: "Fuck, that's called love love, it's so vulgar and ugly!"

Jingze: "Cut~ dry dry dry dry...is it vulgar enough, is it ugly enough, rub...do you think that you are really a good bird if you change your feathers?"

Le Yutao lay motionless on her stomach and said silently, "My day!"

Jing Ze was not in the mood to continue bickering with him, he threw back the pillow that Le Yutao attacked him, and went to find food to fill his stomach.

Jing Ze was still thinking about meeting Cheng Feng, so he took the initiative to sit next to Le Yutao after eating. "Hey, Leather Duck, are you familiar with the nearby terrain?"

Le Yutao said indifferently: "It's okay...Go ahead and sit over, don't come so close to me!"

Jing Ze reached out his hand to touch Le Yutao's butt and butt on purpose: "It's pretty up~~ hehe."

Le Yutao screamed, "Be careful, I told Jing Sen, fuck it, roll it, roll it..."

Jing Ze felt a little more relaxed, and said: "Okay, let's stop making trouble, let's go out for a while, see if there is any interesting place, I want to meet a friend tonight."

Le Yutao turned to look at him, and after confirming that he was serious, he said, "Oh, I saw your former concubine."

Jing Ze didn't deny it, and grabbed Le Yutao by the collar of his clothes and wanted to lift him up: "Hurry up and be a duck, or Mr. Humph will do you right now!"

Le Yutao clung to the sofa tightly, preferring to die than submit: "I'll go, Lord! Otherwise, I won't go if the muddy horse comes!"

Jing Ze is quite easy to talk about this time: "Master Pi! Electric grass mud horses are popular now, let Jing Sen buy one for you to play with, hurry up!"

Le Yutao swaggered down the steps Jingze gave him, and told Jingze, "Young Master is going to wash your face and change clothes now, anyway, I'm waiting anyway, so you can make a cup of tea for Young Master."

Jing Ze: "..."

Just kidding, Le Yutao honestly accompanied Jingze to walk around the neighborhood.Le Yu Taolei's foot was about to break, he curled his lips at Jingze: "Uncle, do you have anything you like?"

Jing Ze touched his chin: "Let's go to the bar, there are too many people, it's not suitable for reminiscing about the old days. Just that one called 'blackback', what do you think?"

Le Yutao rolled his eyes at him: "Uncle, why do I feel that you have time-traveled here?"

Jing Ze scolded: "I'll fuck you!" As soon as the words fell, Jing Ze took out his mobile phone and made up a text message and sent it.

Le Yutao: "Oh..."

Jing Ze: "Oh...you sigh!"

Le Yutao floated out a sentence that was completely different from his style: "How many old lovers have disturbed the hearts of new lovers. If time can go back in time, I hope that your love will be vigorous and thorough, for us who have not met yet , save that sadness."

Jing Ze patted Le Yutao's head comfortingly, hooked his shoulder, and the two went home together.

No matter which country you are in, big cities always have common characteristics.The flow of people is like a shuttle, and there is a lot of traffic.No matter how you look at the high-rise buildings, you can never see the endless neon lights.In order to avoid the noisy crowd, they made an appointment at eleven o'clock at night.I hope it will be quieter at that time, and I hope that the quietness at that time can calm down the turbulent mood.

Jing Ze left an hour early, Jing Sen wanted to see him off, but he refused.He walked step by step along the road towards the appointed place, as if he wanted to use this time to recall the past.Cheng Feng is like a cup of strong and spicy white wine, the strong taste is choking in the throat at first, but after a few cups, it will turn sweet and thick.

There were very few pedestrians on the road at this time, and the thought of 'will I meet a robber' popped into Jingze's head from time to time.Occasionally, a few private cars passed by him, and the people in the cars whistled at him, and he whistled back hooliganically.

The journey of 10 minutes unexpectedly took almost 10 minutes. Jing Ze stood by the side of the road and looked at the 'blackback' on the opposite side.There was still a light on inside, a dim, slightly ambiguous light.He took out his mobile phone and sent a text message: I'm here.

The text message was quickly replied: I'm here too, I'm inside, I didn't see you.

Jing Ze put the phone back in his pocket and strode towards 'blackback'.Just as he thought, there are very few people in this spot now.Jing Ze saw Cheng Feng at a glance, the outline of that face was deeper than before.

Cheng Feng waved to him like an old friend, and Jing Ze walked over like a child.

Cheng Feng smiled and said to him, "Englishor Chinese?"

Jing Ze said: "Long time no see." His voice was much lower than usual, Cheng Feng, he couldn't count the number of times he had thought of this name, and the time was flickering and flickering together, but he could only say this. few words.

Cheng Feng ordered two cups of coffee, "Long time no see, you have grown up."

Jing Ze nodded and asked, "How have you been these years? Why did you come abroad?"

Cheng Feng always had a smile on his face. Compared with many years ago, it was less sharp and more gentle. "I'm fine, how about you?"

Jing Ze said, "I'm fine too. Are you married?"

Cheng Feng lit a cigarette and handed one to Jing Ze: "I don't love women, you know that."

I don't know if it's because he's not used to the smell of cigarettes or something else, Jingze coughed violently from choking.Cheng Feng handed him a glass of ice water, "Why are you still as frizzy as before?"

Jingze's eye circles were a little red, and he drank a few sips of water in embarrassment.He raised his head and said to Cheng Feng, "Damn it, I thought I would never see you again in this life..."

Cheng Feng said, "How can you talk to the teacher like that?"

Jing Ze wiped his eyes and said, "What kind of bullshit teacher, I've fucked you before..."

Cheng Fengxiao said harmlessly: "To each other. Silly child, why are you crying?"

Jingze said: "Crying for your mother, I didn't cry, my god!" Jingze thought, it would be great if there was a bottle of strong wine at this time, and he drank it down, burning away all the grievances and hatreds.After so many years, what else is there besides memories?

Cheng Feng said, "I'm sorry."

Jing Ze looked up at him, what's the point of saying these three words?Jing Ze felt that he couldn't breathe, so he unbuttoned the two buttons of his shirt and cursed: "Fuck, it's too stuffy here, find a place to drink!"

Cheng Feng nodded and said, "It's been many years since we've had a drink together, let's go, I'll take you to a place."

The two walked in tandem, Cheng Feng was slightly shorter than Jing Ze.This scene seems to have returned to a certain night many years ago. The two of them were also in the same way. They were too bored after school, so they went out to find drinks.The meaning of "old lover" probably refers to the lover who is always in time.

Cheng Feng bought a lot of wine from the convenience store, and the two found a place to sit on the floor.Jing Ze didn't know what kind of foreign wine Cheng Feng bought, so he unscrewed the lid and poured it hard.Hot, spicy, bitter, sour, salty, and astringent come to mind.He turned his face and asked Cheng Feng, "Why did you leave without making a sound?"

Cheng Feng drank much slower than him, he said: "I was going to leave, it's just sooner or later."

Jing Ze sneered: "Fuck you, do you know that I'm lying there covered in blood, watching you leave?! Damn! Can you understand that feeling of despair?!"

Jing Ze firmly grabbed Cheng Feng's collar, tightened his fingers, not allowing him to flinch a little bit: "You don't understand you fucking don't understand anything! I liked you so much back then, I gave you a fucking dog Already!"

Cheng Feng broke Jingze's hand, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't..."

Jing Ze didn't allow him to finish speaking and then yelled: "I'm going to fuck you! You shouldn't be having sex with your own student, you shouldn't be in love with your own student, you shouldn't be fucking with me without saying a word." Let's go!...But what's the use of these apologies?! I'll stab you to death and say sorry to you, will you accept?!"

The tears couldn't stop flowing out, Jingze wiped them off with his sleeve carelessly.Yes, everything is over long ago, from the moment of leaving without saying goodbye, everything is over.He wasn't crying for Cheng Feng, he was just crying for his persistence for so many years.

Cheng Feng snatched the wine bottle in his hand, Jing Ze punched him in the face, and pressed him to the ground while Cheng Feng was in a daze.Jing Ze slapped him across the face, the crisp sound was very clear in the quiet night.

The corner of Cheng Feng's mouth was bleeding from the slap, and Jing Ze said: "This slap is the slap in the face that you left without saying goodbye. Do you think I don't know?! I know you were dating another man at the time, I fucking knew it..."

He thought that as long as he pretended not to know, he would never leave.Wearing all the rings, why don't you want to grow old forever?

Cheng Feng wiped off the blood from the corner of his mouth and said, "You are very similar to him, really."

Jing Ze didn't have the strength to slap him a second time, so he lay on Cheng Feng's body and wept, like a child who had been greatly wronged.Cheng Feng pushed him away and let him roll to the ground.

Cheng Feng said: "I have been drifting for so many years, and now I want to live a good life with him. Therefore, the wrong things I did before must be dealt with one by one."

Jing Ze got up from the ground and sat next to Cheng Feng. He asked, "How many people do you owe?"

Cheng Fengxiao was very bitter: "There are many people like him." How ridiculous, he felt that that person owed him a lot, but how many people did he owe?

Cheng Feng turned to look at him: "But you are the first."

Jing Ze took a sip of wine with a wry smile, the previous things became thinner and heavier.

The wind blows from all directions, but it can't blow away the silence between them.Is loved, as thick as blood, as spicy as wine, as strong as youth.It is strange again, like everything that cannot be obtained, cannot be seen clearly, and cannot be let go.

On the streets of a foreign country, recall the past of the motherland.Time is like a sharp arrow, piercing through the throat and piercing the heart, the wound will scab, but it will never heal.If you are here, please wait for me, finish singing this song for you, and give you the madness owed to you.

Empty wine bottles were lying crookedly on the ground, and the relationship between them was nothing more than drinking the wine.

Jing Ze calmed down the turbulent emotions in his heart, and calmly said to Cheng Feng, "It's very late."

Cheng Feng nodded: "It's very late."

Jing Ze said: "Then I'm leaving, goodbye." Jing Ze belatedly realized that since the wound had already become a scab, why bother to dig it out again with a knife?People are unwilling, regardless of love or not love.

Jing Ze left without looking back, his face was cold from the wind.The past is only warmer in the memory, and it is cold tears and pain in reality.Jing Ze suddenly missed his rabbit so much, fuck off his old lover, fuck off Cheng Feng.