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Qu Jingshen's body was still very weak, and her recovery was extremely slow due to her poor foundation.This is a living torment for Jingze, the feeling of seeing his baby lying on the hospital bed but helpless is really terrible.Sometimes, Jing Ze was talking to him, but he turned his head and fell asleep.The room suddenly fell silent, only Jingze's sigh remained.

Jing Ze felt that the ward was too stuffy, so he left the room and walked aimlessly in the corridor.There was a window at the end of the corridor, Jingze stopped there, staring at the dark green trees in the distance in a daze, his mind went blank.

When Su Jing came out of the bathroom, he saw Jing Ze's back, so he went up to say hello.Jing Ze said lightly, "It's you?"

Su Jing said: "I happened to pass by here and saw you, don't worry, he will be fine."

Jing Ze stretched his waist: "It's a lie to say that I'm not worried. I either feel it or I don't feel it. There's nothing to hide."

Su Jing smiled and said, "There are many things that you thought you couldn't make it through at the time, but you gritted your teeth and made it through, and when you think about it again, you don't think there is anything wrong."

Jing Ze raised his eyes and looked at him: "It's like how many things you have experienced. If you want to talk about it, come and listen."

Su Jing looked into the distance following Jingze's gaze, and said casually: "A few years ago when my business was not going well, I still lived on the street. At that time, all the company's money was spent by the person I loved and trusted the most. It was taken."

Jing Ze looked at him in disbelief: "I didn't expect you to have experienced such a thing."

Su Jing smiled gently: "Yes, I didn't see it. I hated him at the time, and even thought about finding him one day, so I might as well kill him and then commit suicide. During that time, I lived in darkness, sleeping during the day and drinking at night... " Having said that, Su Jing closed his eyes, as if he never wanted to look back on that painful life.He started to understand many truths from that time. He said that many things in this world are difficult to define. In fact, the most difficult thing to define is the human heart.

Jing Ze said, "And then, did you find him?"

Su Jing shook his head: "I didn't find it, but later I heard news from a friend that he died in a car accident."

Jing Ze sighed and asked, "Do you... still love him?"

Su Jing thought for a long time, "He is married, and he said before leaving me that he must get back on track and lead a normal life."

Jing Ze snorted: "What is a normal life? Many people are living a normal life, but they may not be very happy."

Su Jing nodded: "Yes, life is too limited, no matter how you choose, you can't be perfect."

Jing Ze picked up a piece of chalk from nowhere and threw it through the window.He said: "In the past two days, I have been very depressed. Sometimes I am happy and sometimes sad. But in front of him, I still have to pretend that nothing happened, I have to smile happily, and I have to talk to him calmly... But when I saw him like that It makes me feel uncomfortable."

Su Jing said: "People are like this. After experiencing a major event, their emotions can't be calmed down for a long time." Su Jing looked at him and asked: "Are you afraid of losing? It's okay if you don't get it. Once you get it, you don't want to let it go. People are like that."

Jing Ze said: "I've been thinking for the past two days, how can you determine whether you love someone or not? Love is not all honesty, but selective avoidance. For example, I am in a bad mood now, but I can't let him know."

Su Jing shook his head: "I can't teach you these, because I don't know how. It's useless to think carefully, because you can't guess what the other party will do."

If it wasn't for being in the hospital, Jing Ze really wanted to yell at the sky: "I didn't expect that I would have today..."

Su Jing said: "You should be quiet for a while, I'll go back first."

Jingze's world has returned to peace, and judging from his understanding of himself, this incident is bound to become a turning point.But where this turning point will lead him, he has no way of knowing.When I was a child, I always thought that I would never grow up, play the most naughty pranks, and ride the most majestic war horses.But when he was admitted to university, he knew that no matter how smart he was, he couldn't count time and couldn't keep time.At that time, he thought, the game world is also very good, there is always something fresh in Huahua World.But the time in college passed quickly, and four years passed in the blink of an eye.The counselor asked him to go to graduate school or even go abroad, which could be easily done given his family conditions, but he refused.Like many of my peers, I graduated, packed my things and went home.Then he became a jobless vagrant, drinking five and six all day long, without much dream, and living like this for a lifetime is not bad.

But this time Qu Jingshen's accident made him involuntarily feel a certain emptiness in his heart.He thought, this is not something that can be explained by emotional problems alone.The moment the car rolled down the ditch, he felt that life was really fragile.In those few short minutes, he subconsciously remembered only a few people.It's so simple that it makes people very scared. Will his life be like this in the future?Many people have become his passers-by, and he has become a passerby of many people along with the crowd?

Jing Ze couldn't figure it out for the past few days. He wanted to express his confusion to Qu Jingshen, but because his body hadn't recovered, he swallowed the words again.When he thought of this, he stopped for a while and thought again, probably Qu Jing was deeply hurt, which made him become weaker as well.

Unable to find an answer, Jingze had no choice but to go back to the room.He sat on the chair beside the bed, held his chin to look at Qu Jingshen, and whispered to himself: "Baby, be good, get well soon..."

Jing Ze touched Qu Jingshen's face, it was cold, he got up and turned up the temperature of the air conditioner.As soon as he sat down, Qu Jingshen moved uneasy.Jing Ze's nerves, which had just been relaxed, immediately tensed up again.He asked in a low voice: "Baby, what's the matter? Wake up, do you want to drink water? Or is there something wrong?"

After Jing Ze called the meeting, Qu Jingshen opened his eyes and looked at him in confusion.Jing Ze asked worriedly, "It hurt again just now, didn't you?"

Qu Jing wanted to raise her hand to touch Jing Ze's face, but as soon as she moved, the wound on her hand began to throb.Jing Ze put his hand away and apologized in a low voice: "It's my fault... I don't know how to take care of others, I... don't be angry."

Qu Jing shook her head weakly: "Don't be angry, it was just a dream."

Jing Ze leaned over and kissed his forehead, and asked softly, "What's the dream? It's just a dream, don't think too much about it."

Qu Jingshen said: "I dreamed that when we fell, your face was covered with blood. I tried to wipe it off for you, but I couldn't move..."

Jing Ze was distressed, but his expression remained the same as before, and he comforted him patiently: "Dreams are always the opposite. I'm not doing well. Don't worry. What you should worry about now is you, take good care of your body."

Qu Jingshen said: "Although the dream is fake, the feeling of loss is real."

Jing Ze raised his hand to touch his face: "It's rare to see you vent your energy before, is it because of this incident?"

Qu Jingshen said: "If you don't tell me, I feel... I don't even have the right to worry."

Jing Ze lowered his head and admitted his mistake: "I'm sorry... From now on, no matter what happens to me in the future, I will tell you."

Qu Jingshen said: "I'm not like this... because I have an injury on my body, I'm negotiating terms with you..."

Jing Ze coaxed softly: "I know, I know, you care about me, and I know it in my heart."

Qu Jing nodded deeply, and finally let go of her hanging heart.Qu Jingshen said: "Didn't the doctor say that you will be able to sit up in half a month, don't worry."

Jing Ze was puzzled: "Weren't you sleeping at that time? How did you know?"

Qu Jing smiled deeply: "How can I sleep every day, most of the time I just close my eyes and feel tired."

Jing Ze complained a little, frowned and said: "You can't sleep, you can talk to me with you. I feel sorry for you."

Qu Jingshen said: "You haven't had a good rest these days, I don't want to...Jing Ze, this time it was an accident, don't blame yourself too much."

Jing Ze said: "I acted recklessly, I deserve it. Baby..." Jing Ze called him, but didn't know what to say.

Qu Jingshen: "Huh? I want to drink water, please pour some for me."

Jing Ze hurriedly got up to help him pour water, and patiently fed him with a spoon.Qu Jing asked him deeply: "Do I look bad?"

Jing Ze nodded truthfully: "The doctor said that you lost a lot of blood, you need to take good care of it. When you recover, I will feed you delicious food every day."

Qu Jingshen said, "You've lost weight too, and you don't know how to shave your beard."

Jing Ze stroked the newly grown stubble on his chin, "Is it manly? I won't shave, I'll keep it for you, and shave it for me when you recover."

Qu Jingshen said, "Then I don't know when we will wait."

Jing Ze gently scratched his nose: "Soon, well, let me think about it, when this summer is over, you will be fine."

Qu Jingshen said, "It will take a long time."

Jing Ze said: "I will accompany you, if you are bored, I will relieve your boredom."

Qu Jing asked deeply: "How do you relieve my boredom?"

Jing Ze said: "As you like, I will do what you say."

Qu Jing smiled deeply and said, "You were not like this before."

Jing Ze's voice immediately raised his voice: "The past was the past, and the present is the present! Do you know that this time you had an accident, I was almost scared out of my soul by you."

Qu Jing asked deeply, "Then who is sitting here now?"

Jing Ze said: "Two of the three souls flew away, and only one is left here to accompany you. If you don't take good care of your body, this one will disappear sooner or later."

Qu Jingshen said: "If not, I wouldn't wake up."

Jing Ze said lightly: "How dare you?! Be careful that I hold grudges, and someday I will deal with you."

Qu Jing listened deeply and smirked, and said after a while: "Jing Ze, it's good to have you."

Jing Ze couldn't believe his ears, he had been introspecting many times in the past few days.Hearing such words now, instead of being comforted, my heart became even more entangled. "Are you sick and stupid?... I am such a... bastard, you are willing to follow me, I am very lucky."

Qu Jing was deeply relieved: "You finally know that you are an asshole..."

Jing Ze said: "I've already slapped myself several times, I'll keep the rest for you, you can slap as much as you like."

Qu Jingshen said, "Stop beating, my hands hurt."

Jing Ze kissed him: "Actually, it's great to have you. I told my mother about our affairs. If you want, you can get married abroad when you have a chance."

Qu Jingshen was a little surprised: "Why did you tell her now? What did she say?" Qu Jingshen met Jing Ze's parents once, and in the calm days afterwards, he made him think in his heart that Jing Ze's parents probably thought he was just play.But now, looking at Jingze's expression, he knew that he was very serious this time.

Jing Ze looked at him seriously, and said, "My mother told me that choosing a mate is a big deal, so let me think carefully about it."

Qu Jing deeply agrees: "For a lifetime, how can it be so easy to just finish it."

Jing Ze said: "Perhaps my current decision seems naive. I have thought about a lot of things in the past few days. Baby, if you don't want to be with me forever, I really don't know what to do in the future."

Qu Jing asked deeply, "Are you proposing marriage?"

Jing Ze said, "We've been sharing the same bed for so long, what do you think?"

Qu Jingshen said: "If you really think so, when the time is right, let's adopt a child. Otherwise, it will be just the two of us when we get old, and we will be lonely."

Jing Ze said, "You're still sick, why are you worrying about it again? We'll talk about these things later."

Qu Jing smiled deeply at him and stopped talking.Jing Ze asked with concern: "Are you tired? Then sleep for a while, and I will sit here with you all the time."

Qu Jing shook her head deeply: "I'm not tired, and my spirit is much better than the previous two days. I was just thinking, the shipment that left..."

Jing Ze glared at him: "Don't worry about these things, Su Jing is taking care of them. Qi Cheng also woke up, but a lot of bones in his body are broken, so he has to lie down for a while."

Qu Jingshen said: "Why are you so careless? It's okay this time...just in case next time..." Qu Jingshen didn't dare to think about it, if there were any troubles, he was afraid that he would not be able to bear the blow.

Jing Ze said: "You shouldn't be like this when you are young. You should think less and do more. Even if you fall, you still have a chance to get up. But when you get older, you don't dare to take such risks lightly."

Qu Jing sighed deeply: "Isn't it okay to live a good life? You have to toss about these things..."

Jing Ze chuckled: "You don't understand what a man thinks."

Qu Jing gave him a deep look: "It's like I'm not a man, it's okay if things are done, but if it's not done, it's not worth the loss."

Jing Ze followed him and said, "Okay, okay, you are my man, okay? Don't think about these things, close your eyes and go to sleep now."

Qu Jingshen also felt a little tired, so she obediently closed her eyes.Jing Ze was watching by the side, and after a short meeting, he heard the sound of even breathing, and thought he had fallen asleep.Jing Ze leaned down and kissed him many times on the cheek.Only he himself understood what was hidden in these kisses.Not only love, but also something that even he couldn't explain clearly.

Jing Ze carefully closed the door of the room and walked to Fang Qicheng's ward.Fang Qicheng was bandaged in many places, and his leg had a plaster cast.However, this is very lucky.Xiaobai sat on the side and guarded Fang Qicheng, when he saw Jingze coming in, he asked, "Brother Jing, is my brother alright?"

Jing Ze nodded: "Well, I woke up just now, had a conversation with me, and fell asleep again."

Fang Qicheng opened his mouth, wanting to say something, Jingze made a pause gesture with his hand: "I don't blame you, and don't blame yourself."

Fang Qicheng sighed: "I'm not reconciled either. Fortunately, something like this happened, and they didn't dare to act rashly again."

Jing Ze asked, "Who are these people?"

Fang Qicheng said: "It's hard to explain in one word. Those who are in high positions in the system have also started to intervene in these businesses in the past two years. But every time there is a big deal, they get a lot of kickbacks. I didn't expect it to be the same."

Jing Ze asked: "Has it always been like this? Is it like this for everyone?"

Fang Qicheng nodded helplessly: "Everyone understands it, but there is nothing you can do about it. They can just pick a little thorn, and they can destroy the thing you have been planning for a long time."

Jing Ze cursed: "I, fuck! No one cares about these grandchildren?!"

Fang Qicheng said: "Everyone knows, it's no surprise. You can ask Jing Sen, he should know better than me."

Jing Ze cursed again to vent his anger, and then said helplessly: "I knew about these things before. When my father was not abroad, he would sometimes help others. But once you get involved in this kind of thing, it's hard to get out. "

Fang Qicheng sighed and said: "It's not easy to do things in China. Before your brother didn't go abroad, I could at least talk to him about things. But now, I can only do things based on old relationships."

Jing Ze nodded: "Then you should take good care of your wounds, and I will talk about these things in detail later."

Jing Ze wanted to smoke while walking in the corridor, so he went downstairs to the supermarket to buy cigarettes, and also bought some food by the way.The sunlight outside was very poisonous, mixed with the noisy chirping of cicadas, which made Jingze even more upset.He found a place with shade and squatted on the curb to smoke.Although I was very worried, I didn't want to go back and felt depressed.One after another, the cigarettes were smoked very quickly, and he decided to go back when there was not much left in a pack of cigarettes.

Who knew that just as he opened the door of the ward, Qu Jingshen woke up.Jing Ze put the things away and asked gently: "Woke you up?"

Qu Jingshen said, "No, you smell very strongly of cigarettes."

Jing Ze chuckled: "I'm addicted to cigarettes, I've smoked a few."

Qu Jing asked deeply, "Are you worried?"

Jing Ze said: "Of course I'm worried, you're still lying on the hospital bed, how can I not be worried?"

Qu Jingshen said: "I didn't mean that worry, you have something on your mind..."

Jing Ze waved his hands carelessly: "What's the matter, I'm like... how can I have something on my mind? Just kidding."

Qu Jingshen said: "Jingze, you know, I have this personality, I..."

Jing Ze interrupted him: "I know you don't blame me, but...well, baby, I went to buy your favorite cake just now, how about I feed you some now?"

Jing Ze carefully smashed the cake and fed him bit by bit.Qu Jing opened her mouth cooperatively and ate slowly.But he felt very uncomfortable, he had never seen Jing Ze like this.He hoped that Jingze would treat him as usual, instead of always being cautious.

Jing Ze asked, "Is it delicious?"

Qu Jing nodded deeply, but did not continue eating.Jingze's hands were frozen in midair, and he stiffly put the cake on the table. "Baby, don't you want to eat? Do you want some water? I'll feed you."

Maybe it was because she was sick and fragile, or maybe she really felt wronged in her heart, but Qu Jingshen shed a few tears unknowingly.Jingze panicked all of a sudden, he wiped his face with his hands indiscriminately, not knowing where to put them.Jingze said, "What's wrong with you? Baby, why are you crying? Tell me..."

Qu Jing took a deep breath, "Jingze, don't feel like you owe me this incident...it will make me very uncomfortable."

At this moment, Jing Ze felt overwhelmed with discomfort, he clenched his fists and slammed them on the table with a muffled sound. "Fucking... I fucking hate that I'm useless, can't suffer for you, and can't make you happy."

Qu Jingshen said: "It's enough for you to be with me, really... I don't blame you at all, because no one puts me at ease like you do."

Jing Ze said: "Reassurance is not enough, I will learn slowly in the future, you believe me, huh?"

Qu Jing nodded deeply: "So, don't act like this in front of me. If you are unhappy, just tell me."

Jingze suddenly felt a little sore in his nose. He deliberately looked out the window, and after a long meeting, he turned around and said, "Okay, I won't hide anything from you in the future. Are you happy now? Then show me a smile."

Qu Jing smiled softly, Jing Ze seemed to be pulled by something in his heart.The reason why it didn't hurt enough before was because the love wasn't deep enough.Even among the closest people, some things still have to be said.