still water deep sound

Recently, the rain has been particularly abundant, and sometimes it rains suddenly at night without knowing it.Not the torrential downpour that is characteristic of summer, but light rain that stops and stops.Jingze hadn't been able to sleep well for many nights, he was so tired that he lay down on the edge of the bed and slept for a while.He was always worried that Qu Jingshen would call him suddenly, and he was also afraid that he would not be with him when he was in pain.

Thinking of this, Jingze opened the curtains to let in the damp and cool air in the middle of the night.Qu Jingshen is always like this, she would rather endure some pain than disturb him.He developed a low-grade fever in the previous two nights. If he hadn't slept lightly, he might not have squeaked even if he had the fever all night.I wanted to blame him, wanted to scold him severely, but seeing his pale and weak face, I couldn't open my mouth.

Jing Ze lit a cigarette and smoked it while hiding behind the curtain.The cigarette butts were stained by the rain, and the hospital was very quiet, and the street lamps cast a dim light.The scenery in the distance seemed to be covered with a layer of mist, making it difficult to see clearly.The Wanjia lights were turned off, and the cigarette had been burned out. Jingze flicked the cigarette butt down, then closed the curtains, and returned to the bed.

Qu Jingshen was still asleep, his complexion was not very good, although the sound of breathing was even, it still sounded a little weak.Jing Ze sat aside and watched him quietly, his mind was blank.Not as impetuous as usual, this kind of solitude is actually very beautiful.

Qu Jingshen seemed to feel his gaze, and gradually woke up.He glanced at Jingze and asked, "Why aren't you asleep?"

Jing Ze said in a low voice: "If you can't fall asleep, just wake up and sit down. Leave me alone and go back to sleep."

Qu Jingshen raised her bandaged hand, trying to pull Jingze's.But the wound was a little painful, and he could only stop in mid-air in a daze.Jing Ze hurriedly pulled it over carefully, and put it down gently: "Don't move around, it will hurt again."

Qu Jing looked at him with a deep wry smile: "How can you be so delicate? When I got chilblains on my hands in winter, I didn't think it hurt. This little injury..."

Jing Ze pressed his wrist to keep him from moving, and said with some reproach: "You can still lie on the bed with a small injury? You just don't obey. Does it still hurt? You don't even say it hurts."

Qu Jingshen knew that Jing Ze was a little angry, so she smiled flatteringly and said, "It doesn't hurt, it's gone for a long time."

Jing Ze didn't believe it, and asked, "Really?"

Qu Jingshen felt a little guilty from his stare, and said in a low voice, "A little bit, a little bit."

Jing Ze kissed his wrist, and said to himself: "You've lost weight again, I...I really want to scold you hard, but seeing you like this, I'm sure my heart will still hurt after scolding you."

Qu Jing comforted deeply: "If you survive a catastrophe, you will have future blessings. I have always believed in this. Before, I was always afraid that happiness would come too suddenly, and one day I would lose it. Now it is like this, let's trade it for this happiness."

Jing Ze touched his face, and said softly: "Silly, how can you think like this, do you know what is the most fulfilling thing for a man?"

Qu Jing thought for a while and said, "Have a career, have a reputation, have a virtuous wife and a filial son..."

Before he could finish his sentence, he was interrupted by Jing Ze.Jing Ze looked at him seriously and said, "It's not just these things, the most fulfilling thing for a man should be that he can make the person he loves happy, without worries or worries."

After finishing speaking, Jing Ze lowered his head in frustration, "It seems that I haven't done it yet. There is still a lot to learn and work hard."

Qu Jingshen wanted to raise her hand to touch Jingze again, but Jingze grabbed it swiftly.Qu Jingshen felt a little funny, looked at him equally seriously and said, "I feel very happy, especially when I wake up in the middle of the night and have you by my side. I... have lived for more than 20 years, and now I am the happiest."

If it is possible now, Jing Ze really wants to hold him in his arms. "Honey, do you think you've ever been unlucky?"

Qu Jing shook her head deeply, "Perhaps in the eyes of many people, I am unfortunate. Because people who are materially poor always feel sympathetic. When I first came here to go to college, I was very unfair. Why do others have me? No? Later I figured it out, if it wasn’t for something missing, how could I cherish things that others don’t care about.”

Jing Ze lay beside his ear, and said softly, "I'll buy you a big house in the future, okay?"

Qu Jingshen tilted her head slightly, put her ear to Jingze's face, and said, "It doesn't need to be too big, just enough for a family. I have to get well soon, and I have to open the door for business."

Jing Ze bit his ear lightly, and whispered: "Why are you so confused? Don't mention that. When you are well, I will take you to see the sea, and then live by the sea for a while."

Qu Jing deeply enjoyed Jingze's tenderness, and said in a low voice, "I haven't seen the sea yet, but I really haven't played with you."

Jing Ze rubbed his face, and continued: "In the future, if you have an idea, do it. Who knows when an accident will happen. Don't wait, life can't wait."

Qu Jingshen had never heard Jing Ze say such a thing, and he knew in his heart that his accident had dealt him a great blow.The more Qu Jingshen thought about it, the more uncomfortable she felt, and she said softly, "I don't believe in the promise that I will give you something after so many years. The only thing I can enjoy is now."

Jing Ze kissed his forehead and asked, "Do you like me treating you like this?"

Qu Jing nodded deeply: "I like it, but no matter how you treat me, I know in my heart that you care about me, which is more important than anything else."

Jing Ze sighed: "I really want to hug you, baby, get well soon."

Qu Jing said with a deep smile, "When it gets better, there will be no such treatment."

Jing Ze pretended to be angry, but looked at him with gentle eyes. "Well, I love you in my heart now. When you recover...I will love you physically too."

Qu Jingshen said: "I knew it, you would definitely say that."

Jingze continued the brainwashing work: "Baby, love is an attitude, and action is an action. If there is no action, what's the use of having a good attitude?"

Qu Jing was so angry that she laughed instead: "If you don't talk about these things, I can't talk about you anyway."

Jing Ze asked with concern: "Are you tired? Go back to sleep when you're tired. There are still several hours until dawn."

Qu Jing shook her head deeply: "I don't want to sleep anymore, I might as well talk to you."

Being a gentleman is really hard, Jingze couldn't bear it any longer, covered his mouth, gently nibbled, and thrust his tongue into his mouth domineeringly.After the kiss was over, Jing Ze was distracted, looking down at Qu Jingshen.Qu Jingshen's face was a little red, Jing Ze squeezed it lightly, and said in a low voice, "What's so blushing? I've kissed you so many times."

Qu Jingshen answered irrelevantly: "You haven't slept well these days, go to bed quickly, I'll be with you."

Jing Ze finally sat back on the chair, looked at him and shook his head: "I'm not tired, I know you can't sleep well at night, so I will spend more time with you."

Qu Jing smiled happily: "Well, thank you. Is it still hot outside?"

Jing Ze said, "Fortunately, it's been raining for the past few days, and it should be raining now."

Qu Jingshen said: "The clothes hanging at home...? You can go back and put them away tomorrow."

Jing Ze laughed and said, "It's already been put away, and you're only concerned about these things, and you don't care about me. These days, you've tossed it to death."

Qu Jingshen immediately said: "I...why didn't I miss you, I was also worried about you, you..."

Qu Jingshen didn't say anything about 'you', Jingze looked at him with a smile: "I'm kidding you, I know, it's the same." It doesn't matter if it's me to you or you to me.

Qu Jingshen was about to raise his hand again, Jing Ze: "...Why is it moving again? Can't hear? Come, let me check for you." Jing Ze bluntly blew into Qu Jingshen's ear until he Jingze left with satisfaction when his ears turned red.

Qu Jingshen was confused by him and didn't know what to do, so she stammered, "I...I want to touch you, the injury on my hand is fine."

Jing Ze said: "When you recover, you can touch whatever you want." Even though he said so, Jing Ze still grabbed Qu Jingshen's hand and put it on his face.Qu Jingshen could only feel the fingertips exposed outside the bandage. He touched Jingze's eyebrows, then touched Jingze's cheeks, and said slowly: "You are also thinner. You can't see it every day, but you can feel it." come out."

Jing Ze smiled at him softly: "You lie down, I can't eat or sleep well. Besides, it's hot and I don't want to eat,"

Hearing what he said, Qu Jing felt very relieved: "You see, you know it yourself. When you do things in the future, think of me more. If you are the one who has an accident this time, I will be the same."

Jing Ze chuckled: "I know, I know, I'm just learning, I'm learning slowly."

Qu Jingshen said, "You're smoking again."

Jing Ze said: "I just smoked one, I promise, when you recover, I won't smoke one."

Qu Jing nodded deeply, but her spirit was not as good as before.Jing Ze kissed him and said softly, "Baby, go to sleep, I'll be with you."

Jing Ze talked to him without saying a word, and Qu Jingshen just fell asleep unconsciously.Jing Ze helped him cover the quilt, and accidentally touched his knee, and his kneecap was obviously protruding outside.Jing Ze touched it lightly for a while, and a deep sigh echoed in the room.

The rain outside the window was still pattering, with a smell of damp grass.Jing Ze finished smoking the cigarette in his hand, lay down beside the bed, and fell asleep drowsily.The body is exhausted, but the consciousness is very clear.Many people have this experience, wanting to fall asleep as soon as possible, but subconsciously thinking about many things.For example, the past of failure, such as unfinished plans.One pile after another makes people unable to distinguish between the past and the future.In the end, I don't remember what I was like in the past, and I don't have any plans for how to go in the future.From this, Jing Ze discovered the limitations of life. He is not as fearless as before, but now he is afraid, feeling at a loss like never before.

Early the next morning, Wei Xiaowu came to the ward to see how Qu Jingshen was doing.In the past, Jingze could be woken up by the sound of him opening the door, but this time Jingze did not wake up for a long time.He slept deeply, covering his nose with the back of his hand, making his breathing a little rough.

Qu Jing woke up early, looked at Wei Xiaowu, and made a 'shh' mouth.Wei Xiaowu nodded, walked to the bed and asked softly, "Is it better?"

Qu Jing smiled deeply and nodded, "Well, it's much better. He's too tired, let him sleep more."

Wei Xiaowu looked at Jingze and said in a low voice, "I'll go buy him something to eat, you should have a good rest."

Qu Jingshen called Wei Xiaowu: "He likes to eat soup dumplings and drink soy milk."

Wei Xiaowu nodded, and gently closed the door when he went out.Qu Jing looked seriously at Jing Ze's sleeping face, not knowing what he was thinking, and frowning so tightly.Jingze had a dream, and dreamed that the car rolled over into the bottom of the ditch.He was dead, Qu Jing cried and called him deeply, he could hear him, but he couldn't wake up no matter what.The dream came to an abrupt end here, and he was awakened, staring blankly at Qu Jing and panting deeply.

Qu Jing asked him anxiously: "Jingze, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling uncomfortable?"

In the dream, Jing Ze couldn't calm down his sad and depressed emotions for a long time. He snorted and said to Qu Jingshen, "It's okay, baby, why didn't you call me when you woke up?"

It was no longer the relaxed tone he usually called 'baby', Qu Jing wanted to raise her hand to comfort him, but was suddenly stopped by Jing Ze: "Don't move!"

His tone was very blunt, and when he realized it, he hurriedly apologized to Qu Jing: "Baby, I'm sorry, I... Are you hurt, don't move around."

Qu Jing stared at him intently, her eyes full of worry.After a long silence, he asked, "Jingze, tell me what you dreamed about."

Jing Ze said, "I'm fine, just go and wash your face."

Jing Ze walked straight to the bathroom, and then Qu Jingshen heard the sound of rushing water.Seemingly feeling his sadness, Qu Jing's deep brows were also furrowed.It wasn't a question of whether he was injured or not. This matter had already left a shadow in his heart.It doesn't mean that two people can help each other solve it because of their mutual understanding. This kind of emotional experience is very lonely.

After more than ten minutes, Jing Ze came out of the bathroom.There was a lot of water on his short jacket, and the hair on his forehead was completely wet.Qu Jing looked at him silently, and Jing Ze spoke first: "Don't worry, it's fine. How is it? Do you feel better?"

Qu Jingshen said, "It's much better."

Jing Ze saw that he didn't ask, so in order to avoid his worry, he explained: "It was just a nightmare, and I'm fine now."

Qu Jing asked deeply: "What dream? Can you tell me about it?"

Jing Ze sat down by the bed, fed him some honey water first, and then slowly said: "I dreamed that you cried and called me, but I just couldn't wake up. I saw you were sad, but I couldn't comfort you. "

Qu Jingshen said, "Jingze, come over here."

Jing Ze leaned over, nose to nose with him.The two looked at each other seriously, and just as Jing Ze was about to kiss, his lips suddenly hurt.Qu Jing bit his lip deeply and hard, Jing Ze stared at him with wide eyes.Qu Jingshen said: "It hurts, right? It's just a dream. I'll wake you up."

Jing Ze snorted, but didn't get up, and said recklessly, "I don't know if the bite was broken, and heal it quickly, or I will write it down in a small notebook, and I will settle the score for you later."

Qu Jing imitated the way Jing Ze kissed herself, and kissed him delicately.After kissing his lips enough, he kissed his face and his chin.Qu Jing thought deeply, if this made him less afraid, there was nothing to be ashamed of.

Jing Ze said, "Honey, I'm very happy that you took the initiative."

Qu Jing took a deep breath, and bit him hard again before finishing. "Jingze, I know what you're thinking. But I really don't want this to affect you. I still like you who were heartless before."

Jing Ze said in a low voice: "It turns out that you like being bullied by me. If you weren't... sick now, I would definitely not be able to bear it."

Qu Jing asked seriously: "Do you feel it?"

Jing Ze rubbed against him somewhere, kissed his face and said, "It's a normal reaction if you have it, and it's not normal if you don't have it."

Qu Jingshen said: "Jing Ze, I love you. You also said last night that loving someone is to make him happy, so..."

Jing Ze gasped and said, "So, don't worry, I won't have nightmares when you recover. Now... I'll go and solve it first."

Jing Ze really felt it just now, but the moment he walked into the bathroom, that physical pleasure gradually faded away.He leaned against the bathroom door and squatted on the ground, wanting to smoke, but he searched all over his body, only to suddenly remember that the cigarettes were placed on the table outside.He knew the source of his emotions, as long as Qu Jingshen didn't appear in front of him alive and kicking for a day, he would always have trouble sleeping and eating.He didn't use this method to express or prove the depth of love, he just thought it was right to worry.He wanted to be tortured by nightmares until the day when Qu Jingshen recovered.

Wei Xiaowu brought up the meal and saw that Jingze was not there, so he asked, "Where is he?"

Qu Jingshen said: "It's in the bathroom, maybe it's smoking." Wei Xiaowu glanced at the cigarettes on the table and pretended not to see them.

Wei Xiaowu said: "I brought you some porridge, and I'll let him feed it to you later. I'll send the rice to them first, and come back later."

Qu Jingshen said: "Thank you, I have troubled you these days."

Wei Xiaowu was most afraid of others being polite to him, so he waved his hands as if fleeing: "I treat you as my brother, so don't be polite to me."

Jing Ze came out of the bathroom when he heard the door closing.Qu Jingshen said: "Come over for breakfast, don't be so sullen, be happy."

Jing Ze put the porridge that Wei Xiaowu brought to Qu Jingshen into a bowl, tested the temperature, and then started feeding Qu Jingshen.Qu Jingshen was very cooperative and ate obediently.Jing Ze helped him wipe the porridge stains from his mouth, and asked him in a low voice: "Baby, are you scared by me this morning? Normally, you would have said you were full."

Qu Jingshen said: "You know very well... I... am afraid that you will be unhappy. In fact, I am afraid that others will be unhappy because of me."

Jing Ze said with a smile: "Why aren't you happy? Why don't I show you a smile?"

Qu Jingshen said: "I'm really full now, you should eat quickly, the soup dumplings won't taste good if they get cold."

Jing Ze wolfed down his breakfast, and then went out to throw away the garbage made by breakfast.Qu Jing was lying on the bed, watching his back, listening to his footsteps in the corridor, and said in her heart, Jingze, we all have to live a good life.

After Jing Ze finished throwing out the trash, he planned to go back and spend time with Qu Jingshen.But just as he was about to open the door and go in, the phone rang.Jing Ze found a place with few people to answer the phone, and said in a bad tone, "What's the matter?"

Jing Sen still used his usual tone: "I heard from my mother that you have made progress. I want to make sure. I didn't expect that you are still so frizzy."

Jingze: "Cut~~ I'm too lazy to talk to you, I'll hang up if it's okay."

Jing Sen said: "Wait a minute, I will return to China in two days, Tao Tao is on summer vacation, and they are making noise all day long to go back."

When Jing Ze heard the news, he took a deep breath: "Don't let him come back, my wife is still sick, I don't have the time to chat with him."

At this time, Jing Ze heard the content of the conversation on the phone.Le Yutao asked Jing Sen: "Huh? What did my uncle say?" Jing Sen replied: "He said he would be happy for you to go back to play, and you are very welcome." Le Yutao: "Yeah! I just knew~ Darling, I'm going to pack my things Already~~”

Jing Ze gritted his teeth, "Jing Sen, you fucking... don't add fuel to the fire, add frost to the snow! Brother, I beg you, I really really don't have time to worry about right now."

Jing Sen said: "I have important matters to deal with, otherwise he would not be allowed to return to China. Alright, see you in a few days."

Jing Ze almost smashed the phone.As soon as he entered the door, Qu Jingshen asked him, "Who is calling?"

Jing Ze said with a bitter face: "Jing Sen, Le Yutao said that he will come to play in a few days. Baby, don't worry, I will definitely not let him get close to you."

Qu Jingshen said: "Don't be so sullen, just come, I just happen to be bored in bed."

Jing Ze kissed him and said, "Ah, compared to you, the leather duck is like a rag picker."

Qu Jing felt it was funny: "But your brother treats him as a treasure, you see, everyone thinks that his family is good."