my ten boyfriends

My third boyfriend is called capricious.

After breaking up with Timidity, I didn't think about being in love for a while.After graduation, I started working officially.I stayed in the internship unit for half a year and worked in the finance department.The scale of this private company is small, and I came here because I thought that such a unit would be easy to get a job with, but after working, I feel that the atmosphere is very comfortable, and there are development prospects, so I can work for a long time.

I stayed and became a regular and signed a formal contract.At this time, it is natural to work hard and gain a firm foothold, not to mention a failed relationship that has just ended.

After working for one year, I have adapted to the current job very well, and I have also been loved by my boss. My salary has been raised by one level, reaching a level that is not ashamed to say.At this time, I also figured out the local homosexual situation, knew a few gay bars, and locked the target, ready to fall in love again.

This time my mindset has changed.This has something to do with my mother always brainwashing me recently.My mother has a lot of friends circles, and has followed a lot of chicken soup public accounts of love families. By chance, she joined a vulnerable group care association as a lecturer, and she practiced with me every day.She told me, don't think that a bad relationship has anything to do with gender, that is, between men and women, there are many breakups and divorces, and I don't see any role played by the difference in gender, but it's just that the two people are not suitable.She also used herself as an example, saying that she and my dad were in love at the beginning, but my dad suddenly said that he had found true love again, said sorry for me leaving, and cheated with confidence.

I understand that my mother wants me to raise my confidence in love, and doesn't want me to cheer up because of my inferiority because of my sexuality, and move on to the next relationship.I couldn't bear to tell her that these words had played a role for me, but they played a role that she definitely didn't want to know.

I no longer vaguely blame timidity for breaking up with me because of my sexuality.Even if the timidity is a woman, she may break up because she wants to take the postgraduate entrance examination and I go home to work. Even if they are all in the same place, they may not be able to agree on the house property.This is true between men and women, let alone in the more complicated gay circle?

That's right, under the indoctrination of my mother's chicken soup, I completely lost confidence in love.I feel very sorry for myself, why can't I have a good relationship?But I figured it out again in a flash, love is just love, and I didn't say that there must be a result.I've been happy with them and that's enough.

This is great, I am also used to self-comfort by chicken soup for the soul.

I entered a gay bar.This is a relatively clean gay bar that I learned after lurking in local post bars and QQ groups. Of course, this is not clean, it still looks like a group of demons dancing wildly.The expressions of the people here are as if they are going to hook up with someone at any time. To be honest, I don’t think this is any different from an ordinary bar—anyway, if you want to have a good relationship, no one plans to start here.

Every time I know that people like us are actually no different from normal sexuality, it makes me happier for a while.I don't dislike these people either, I'm actually here to find you.I plan to find a long-term partner with no third party in the middle. It should be easier to find. Besides, I already have a goal.

I met Ren Ren in the group.From my observations, he has a bit of a temper and a straight temper, but he is easy to get along with, he doesn't have too much thoughtfulness, he is not an old fritter, and occasionally complains about the current chaos in the gay circle, and his three views are relatively positive.I added him as a friend, chatted with him privately for a few days, and I made an appointment to meet here today.

I was a little uneasy. Although I had sent photos to each other, it was always weird.I ordered a glass of lemonade and waited for him at the appointed place.Willfulness comes, he is about the same age as me, he lives by himself, his parents are divorced and he doesn't care about him, he graduated last year.He looks very ordinary, but there is an unspeakable charm in his expression. We only talked a few words, and my impression of him on the Internet emerged in my mind. After comparing them one by one, the shadow of this person was clear in my mind.

I plan to keep in touch with him, and I want to take him out and make an appointment for a midnight snack.He is number zero, seeing that I wanted to ask him out, but thought that I wanted to drag him to bed directly, so he took me to his house.

The house where he lives alone is unspeakably empty, which is different from my house.My mother is very skillful, and my house is full of her handicrafts.I can't help but have a good impression of capriciousness, as if sympathizing with me.

We went to bed.After sex, he started to smoke, I pulled out his cigarette, and then said that we should date for a while, not based on feelings.Like I thought, Wayward agreed.

At the beginning, we were in a decent relationship.He likes to play with his petty temper, and he does it in a special way, but the way he does it is cute.I could see that he was trying to restrain himself at first, but as I tolerated him, he couldn't help it.And when I fell in love with timidity, the best thing I learned was tolerance.

I don't lack love, I just want to be good to others.When capricious plays petty temper, I want to satisfy him with everything.He loves tofu with crab roe, so I took him all over the city to find the best one.When he was in school, he liked to eat rice noodles, which were very thin and could be eaten by boiling them in water. However, they were all thick rice noodles locally, so I got into the habit of looking at rice noodle shops wherever I went.He also likes to eat raw pan-fried buns, and I have found many places like this. Of course, these are not what he asked me to do, but my spontaneous actions after hearing his longing expression.

He loses his temper and is inexplicably angry. I always don't know where I offended him.Maybe he didn't ask him out because he was out for the weekend, maybe he didn't say good night to him, or maybe he ignored him by accident?I know some places, and some places, but he never said why, he didn't even answer the phone, and he would contact me as if nothing happened after a few days when he was in a better mood.

Sometimes he is willful.At noon, he would say that he didn’t want to eat it, and I would try out his favorite dishes one by one. He pouted, not interested at all, and just said he wouldn’t eat it. If I persuaded him, he would suddenly explode , Shouting: Are you annoying!

These are petty caprices, and once in a while, they don't bother me.He wasn't like this when we first met him, but after getting along for a long time and trusting me, he was willing to expose his temper to me.However, any tolerance is not endless, and my love for him is not that deep-I am here to fall in love, not to be abused.

But I still like him a little bit, so it's just not like usual, any tantrum will coax him.I started to pretend that I didn't understand why he was angry, and I didn't take care of him first when I was busy.Wayward people are always sensitive, he even rushed straight to my office, stared at me like that without saying a word.

My office is a business office. Because it is a private enterprise, the space utilization rate is very high. In the cubicle, everyone can't see who is sitting down, but the distance is really small.I can feel the curious eyes of my colleagues when Ren Zhi rushed to my side like this. If Ren Ren was a woman, they would definitely understand what gossip is the first time, but right now, they are just curious and skeptical.

I am out of the closet, and I seem to be very courageous, but my courage is for my mother, not for the society.I was very angry, and turned to him coldly, dragged him out of the business building, and asked him what he was doing here.

Wayward was terrified, no matter how violent he was in the past, I never treated him like this, so I quickly softened and changed the subject.I was in such a rush to get back to work that I couldn't say much more.He came to me in the evening, flattering me, and I suddenly realized, could it be that I was used to him like that before?

After I thought this way, I no longer put him first in everything.Mainly at this time, my mother started to practice with me and talked to me about sexual relationships.Her own brainwashing changes one day at a time. One day she has to be tough and the next day she has to bend down properly, one day she has to be self-reliant and self-reliant, and the next day she has to rely on others appropriately.I only listen to what I want to hear.

It's only been a while since I've been self-willed and settled down. Maybe my temper is inborn and it's not so easy to change.At this time, my career is on the rise again. My former boss intends to resign and return to my hometown. If I work hard, I am likely to become a supervisor, and no matter how bad I am, I can also become a team leader.I am young, when I don't fight hard at this time, when do I not fight hard?However, self-willedness has been idle, and he does not seek to make progress at work, and always complains about why I don't have time to accompany him.

I was gradually exhausted physically and mentally, and I had no time or energy to deal with him.He noticed it, and instead pestered me even harder, even going to work to find me from time to time.

As my colleagues looked at me strangely every day, I also had the idea of ​​breaking up.Since it wasn't suitable, I said it bluntly, so I asked him out and said bluntly, let's break up.

He broke the glass in the restaurant and wanted to fight with me, but fortunately he didn't say anything he shouldn't have said. Maybe this is a way of self-respect at the last moment of self-willedness.Then, he begged me again, saying that he would never do anything that bothered me again.I didn't feel moved, didn't believe him, and broke up firmly and thoroughly.

He came to me a few more times after the breakup and I never relented.To soften even a little bit is irresponsible to us.He stopped coming, and I deleted all the groups I added.

My boss finally dismissed the idea of ​​returning to my hometown and resigning, and said that he would promote me.But I began to think about leaving my job. It had nothing to do with what my colleagues thought of me, but the place was too small to hold my heart.

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