I will die the day I want to die

Recently, I always think about the past, but I can’t remember clearly. I asked Xie Ji, do you still remember the poems you read to me?Xie Ji put down the document in his hand, hugged me into his arms, and said softly: "Are you talking about that mayfly?"

Before I had time to think, he said softly, "Those eyes of yours that never tired of looking at me hide in drooping and melancholy eyelids, because love has waned."

The French windows of the balcony let in a lot of sunlight. He hugged me and gently wrapped his arms around my heart. The sunlight that fell on my body turned around and smiled at him.

Xie Ji paused for a moment when he embraced me. My mind has been in a state of chaos lately, and I can’t quite notice what he’s thinking. Rubbing my face, he sighed and said: "Actually... After I found out that I like you, I can remember everything. I love you but don't know it.

"I used to think that if I hated you, I couldn't like you a little bit. It's wrong to like you. I can only hate you." He paused, buried his face in my neck, and said in a muffled voice: "I am the real Idiot, I don't know how to worry until you leave..."

I stretched out my hand to hug his back, stroked it, and felt happy in a daze. Maybe I have been happy all this time, so I also feel happy in a daze.

"No hurry, no hurry." I comforted him in a low voice, "I remember that you will never stop loving you... I was so sad before, you kept chasing me, you obviously liked me but didn't want to be nice to me, I so sad…"

He didn't speak anymore, just kissed me softly next to my ear. Feeling this tenderness, I suddenly remembered a poem I heard when passing a certain platform many years ago——

I've loved it for too long, and it's become unpopular, like an old song.

I don't speak anymore, I think, if he really loves me, then forgetting him is my greatest revenge for him.

I really, love too long too long.

If he doesn't love me, then I'm going to die.

If he loves me, then I forget about him and let him watch me slowly wait to die.

The sun that fell on the carpet climbed up a little along my feet, with warmth, the man behind him carefully kissed my forehead, which reminded me of his atrocities to me a year ago, I was chaotic I want to avoid it, but I always love him in my heart, and I am willing to be touched by the corner of his lips.

I thought, let me die the day I want to die, so that he can also be freed.

I'll take revenge on him secretly, isn't it too bad?

I don't think I'm bad, I just want him to remember me longer, that's all.

The author says:

Shu Shu's content probably ends here, and the end is very abrupt, but the little guy is also cautious.

He won't trust Xie Ji's love, he doesn't think Xie Ji will come to love him if he gets sick, but he knows that Xie Ji must like him a little bit, and he wants to take revenge on Xie Ji with this little liking , but it will not cause too much harm to Xie Ji, he is just a stupid cat who wants to scratch Xie Ji's palm gently before he dies.