childhood sweethearts on chrysanthemum

Red hickey.

The plastic bag in Xia Qing's hand fell to the ground with a "snap", she covered her lips in disbelief, her eyes were full of disbelief: "Su Ran, you..."

Su Ran didn't speak, but raised the corners of her mouth, turned her head, and kissed Ji Jingyan's lips heavily.

Chapter 42

The room was terribly silent, just as Ji Jingyan was about to push him away, Su Ran raised her hand to cover his head, and pressed it tightly to his lips.

Su Ran just kissed her lightly, then he turned his head and looked at Xia Qing with a smirk on his face: "What? Are you scared by me? Aren't you always curious about who I like?" He walked forward After a few steps, he leaned slightly to look at the angry girl in front of him, and said softly: "This is the person I have loved for many years, he is a man, and his name is Ji Jingyan."

Only then did Ji Jingyan come to his senses, grabbed Su Ran's arm, and reprimanded in a low voice: "Su Ran, what are you doing now!"

Su Ran was dragged back by him, but the words in her mouth still did not stop: "Didn't you say that my mother likes you? Then please tell my mother and your mother, tell them that I don't like you, I only like Ji Jingyan."

As soon as the words finished, Xia Qing raised her hand, and hit Su Ran's face with a "slap", especially loud in the quiet room.

Xia Qing's eyes were full of tears. Standing in the corridor, she shouted hoarsely: "Su Ran, you bastard!" After speaking, she turned around, slammed the door and ran downstairs.

Su Ran stood there, wiped the corners of her mouth, tilted her head and asked Ji Jingyan with a smile, "How is it? Was I handsome just now?"

Ji Jingyan grabbed Su Ran's arm, lowered his head with a wry smile: "Su Ran, why are you doing this..."

How could Ji Jingyan fail to see that this farce, for Su Ran, was his second coming out of the closet.

Su Ran looked at Ji Jingyan with a bitter face, kissed him on the cheek, and whispered in his ear: "Since you don't have the courage to take a step forward, then I will go forward for you. You don't have the courage to do it." I will do everything for you, so you just need to stay by my side honestly and don't leave me."

Ji Jingyan's eyes were red, he turned his head, gradually clenched the hand hanging by his side, pursed his lips, but still didn't say anything after all.

Coming out is taking responsibility for one's own happiness, but not coming out is taking responsibility for the happiness of one's family.Now that Shen Wanyan has only herself to rely on, how could he be willing to break her heart...

Su Ran saw the hesitation in Ji Jingyan's eyes, he collected himself, looked into his eyes and said, "Ji Jingyan, I will try my best to pave the way for the future of the two of us, and I will not let you be wronged, nor will I let you Suffering, so you don't need to mention the two of us with Auntie now."

In the future, you can marry a wife and have children, as long as you still have me in your heart, that is more important than anything else.

Ji Jingyan lowered his head, looked at their interlocking hands, but finally did not speak.

With too many unknown conditions, Ji Jingyan really couldn't make a promise to Su Ran. He didn't even know what he was afraid of, but he still couldn't tell Su Ran with certainty that he would have a relationship with him. a bright future.

Su Ran smiled wryly, and patted his head soothingly. Ji Jingyan buried his head in his neck, and finally stopped suppressing his emotions, sobbing softly.

Amidst Ji Jingyan's sobs, Su Ran vaguely heard him say: "Su Ran, I'm sorry..."

Su Ran's hands gradually tightened, and she didn't speak any more.

The next night, the two of them lay on the bed with their own concerns, leaning on each other tightly.Although they didn't say anything, they could feel each other's fiery hearts.

It wasn't until the next morning when he sent Ji Jingyan to the airport that Su Ran forced a smile: "Go home! Don't worry about me, just call if you need anything."

Ji Jingyan looked at the smile that Su Ran tried his best to arouse, even though he looked ugly, it warmed his cold heart.Ji Jingyan took a step forward, hugged Su Ran slowly, and whispered in his ear: "Wait for me, I will come back to find you."

Su Ran patted Ji Jingyan on the shoulder, signaling him to rest assured.Seeing Ji Jingyan's back gradually leaving, Su Ran put away the smile on the corner of her mouth, took out her mobile phone and looked at her parents' more than 30 missed calls, took a deep breath, and dialed back.

As soon as the phone rang twice, Mother Su's impatient voice came: "What happened to Xia Qing last night? Why didn't you answer the phone?"

Su's mother is very noisy. It seems that she is still on the train. Maybe she can't wait to come back after hearing the news?

Su Ran looked at the airport where people were coming and going, found a chair and sat on it, looking greedily at the back that gradually disappeared from his sight: "I asked Ji Jingyan to stay at our house last night, Xia Qing came to see me , I just saw the two of us kissing."

Su Ran spoke very easily. After the phone was silent for two seconds, Su Tengfei's voice suddenly came, his tone full of anger: "Su Ran, now you go home and sit on the sofa for me. Your mother will be home in about an hour, and then I will settle accounts with you."

"No need, Dad." Su Ran lowered her head to straighten her clothes, and said casually, "I'm at the airport right now, I'll pick you up right away in a while!"

Su Tengfei rejected him almost without hesitation: "No need, I think you're ashamed!" Then he hung up the phone.

Su Ran put the phone close to her ear, and slowly clenched it tightly, her eyes turned red.He sniffed hard and slowly, put down his phone, and stood up as if nothing had happened, but only his fists hanging on both sides revealed his unwillingness.

Su Ran was a little confused for a while, her parents in the past were always considerate in her heart, even if she made a mistake, no matter how angry they got, they would still choose to forgive herself in the end.But why, why they refused to understand themselves when it comes to Ji Jingyan?Why don't you just stand in his position and think about him?He obviously did nothing wrong, he just tried his best to pursue the happiness he really wanted, why did they think he was ashamed?

Now Su Ran no longer strives for social approval, he just hopes that his love can be blessed by his family.However, such a simple wish seems to have become a fantasy.

Su Ran believes that the purpose of love should be happiness, not fertility. As long as they can be happy, what about the same sex?Why can't people of the same gender be recognized by others?

All of this is the most cruel prejudice against homosexuality in this society.

Su Ran sat on the sofa, flipping through the photos of him and Ji Jingyan in the phone album over and over again, from elementary school to junior high school, and from high school to university, from youthful to mature, bit by bit, recording their happy moments once.

Because he was so engrossed in watching it, he didn't even notice that Su Tengfei came in.By the time he realized it, Su Tengfei had already snatched his mobile phone and dropped it to the ground without hesitation.Seeing this, Su Ran stood up and was about to speak when Su Tengfei raised his hand and slapped him mercilessly. Su Ran froze in place, and then, Su Tengfei's next slap came down mercilessly .

Su Ran turned her head, her cheeks were hot and painful, and her ears began to buzz.Su Tengfei raised his hand, and just as he was about to put it down, Mother Su hurried forward, covered Su Ran's face, turned her head and said in a crying voice, "Tengfei, you have a good talk with the child, don't hit him anymore."

Su Tengfei didn't answer, but just pulled her to his side, raised his foot to touch Su Ran, and said with a bit of hatred: "Su Ran, did your mother and I love you too much since we were young? , that made you so lawless? You fucking embarrass us both!"

Su Ran was kicked by him and staggered, her leg accidentally knocked against the coffee table, which hurt her heart.He frowned, held back the tears in his eyes, and said in a trembling voice: "I didn't kill anyone or break the law, I just like men, where did you lose your man? Since you can accept me, you can also accept Ji Jingyan, why? Can't accept the two of us being together?"

Su Ran's temper is exactly the same as Su Tengfei's. Both of them are stubborn to the point of death. It's useless for anyone to agree on a reason.

Seeing Su Ran's unrepentant attitude, Su Tengfei's anger increased again. He took off his shoes and threw them on Su Ran's body. His eyes were bloodshot, and he shouted loudly: "I like men! Are you still very proud of this matter? Your mother and I have worked so hard and saved you so much, is it just to listen to your words! Huh?"

Su Ran turned her head, bit her lower lip and stopped talking.

Seeing that Su Tengfei was about to raise his foot to kick Su Ran again, Su's mother hurriedly ran to Su Ran, pleading in her tone: "Su Ran, hurry up and admit your mistake to your father, hurry up..."

Su Ran's eyes were red, and a tear flowed slowly from the corner of his eyes, but he still gritted his teeth and said, "I'm not wrong, why do I have to admit it?"

Mother Su sighed, and out of the corner of her eyes, she saw the mobile phone that Su Tengfei dropped to the ground.She bent down to pick it up, and just as she was about to hand it to Su Ran, she saw a photo of Su Ran and Ji Jingyan kissing on the lock screen, in which the hickey mark on Ji Jingyan's neck was very obvious.

Mother Su closed her eyes in despair, touched the tears on her face indiscriminately, and said nasally in her voice: "Su Ran, let me tell you the truth! Actually, your father and I went to Ji Jingyan's place these few days In my hometown, I found you, Aunt Shen, and the three of us sat together and had a good talk about your two children. In fact, whether it is me, your father, or your Aunt Shen, we all hope that our children can be happy, and we also Trying to understand you, but we really can't figure out why you two boys have the desire to be together and have the so-called love in your mouth."

Mother Su took a deep breath, and then said: "Not only we can't understand, but many people in the society can't understand. When a thing can't be understood by many people, then it is wrong and incorrect. You You're still young, you haven't stepped into society yet, so you don't know how to tell right from wrong..."

"Mom," Su Ran didn't have the patience to listen to her, her tone was already hopeless: "Even though I'm still young and I don't understand anything, but with Ji Jingyan, I'm more sure than anyone else that I like him, I like the kind I like very much, and this is the most correct thing I have grown up to do."

Meeting Ji Jingyan was the best thing in his life; and choosing to fall in love with him was the most correct choice he had ever made.

Mother Su's eyes were full of tears, she didn't know what to say to Su Ran's stubbornness.Su Tengfei sighed, and slumped on the sofa a little tiredly. He pointed to the door and said calmly, "Get out."

Su Ran was taken aback for a moment, and saw Su Tengfei looking at him, his eyes were red, and he was full of anger: "I'm fucking telling you to get out, when did you admit your mistake, you know you did it wrong, you come back, otherwise you will come back I won't let you enter the house even if I die."

After hearing this, Su Ran almost gritted her teeth and said, "I said, I've never been wrong, never."

"Then get out!" Su Tengfei yelled at him hoarsely: "I will pretend that I don't have your son, you fucking get out!"

Su Ran clenched her lower lip, tears welled up in her eyes, Su's mother kept tugging on his sleeve, trying to persuade him to admit his mistake.But Su Ran clenched her teeth in the end and said, "Okay, I'll get out."

Chapter 43

When Su Ran ran downstairs in one breath, he realized what kind of decision he had just made.

He has no money, no ID card, and only a mobile phone with a broken screen.It's still very cold outside now, and the place on his body where Su Tengfei slapped him is burning hot.He sniffed, sat on the steps in the corridor, watched the snowflakes gradually drifting outside, and wondered if he should call Gu Anyuan.

"Su Ran." Someone called him behind him.

Su Ran turned her head, and saw Su's mother running downstairs in a hurry, her eyes were slightly swollen, she was pulling his arm, and said earnestly: "Go home and apologize to your father, it's so cold outside now, you Go home and admit your mistake, Mom will cook your favorite soup for you, okay?"

Su's mother's words were full of worry and concern for Su Ran. Su Ran's eyes were a little warm, and he pursed his lips, but he still didn't change his words: "Mom, I'm not wrong, I won't admit it."

Once he admits his mistake, he and Ji Jingyan will really have no future.

"Hey..." Su's mother was so anxious that tears fell again, and she said in a crying voice: "Why are you so stubborn, child! Is it so difficult to admit a mistake? Now the snow is getting bigger and bigger. If you don't go home, you Where can I go!"

Su Ran just wanted to smile and comfort her that she was fine, but once the corners of his mouth were raised, the muscles on his face would hurt. He took a breath, raised his hand to touch the tears from the corners of Su's mother's eyes, and comforted softly: "Will you I'm going to Gu Anyuan's house, don't worry, I'll call you in two days, just bring me my ID card."

Mother Su held Su Ran's hand, buried her face in his shoulder, sobbed softly, and didn't speak any more.

Su Ran looked at the heavy snow outside the corridor, barely holding back the tears in her eyes.For him, this is destined to be an extraordinary winter.

It was already afternoon when Ji Jingyan arrived home. As soon as he entered the house, Shen Wanyan greeted him with a smile, and asked caringly, "How is it? Did you have fun with your classmates?"

Ji Jingyan carried the suitcase, and replied in a low voice: "Well, it's pretty good."

Then Shen Wanyan asked for the first time: "What about Su Ran? How is Su Ran?"

The moment Ji Jingyan heard the name "Su Ran", Ji Jingyan paused while holding the luggage, he didn't expect Shen Wanyan to mention his name so suddenly.Ji Jingyan looked down at the suitcase, tried his best to hide his guilty conscience, and said, "I don't know, we didn't talk much."

"Oh," Shen Wanyan seemed relieved, and murmured in a low voice, "That's good."

Ji Jingyan's hand holding the luggage gradually tightened, and he pursed his lips, but he still didn't say anything in the end.

Not long after Ji Jingyan arrived home, Shen Wanyan hurried back to work. Grandma was not at home, so he took out his mobile phone and couldn't wait to call Su Ran.

The phone rang several times before Su Ran picked it up. Although her voice was a bit hoarse, she couldn't hide her concern: "Are you home?"

Ji Jingyan responded, but he listened carefully. There seemed to be the sound of a siren on Su Ran's side. He frowned and asked, "Are you outside now?"

Su Ran looked at the heavy snow flying all over the sky: "Well," he thought for a while and added: "Come out and help my mother buy something."

Mentioning Mama Su, Ji Jingyan remembered the farce that happened last night. He hurriedly asked, "Are uncles and aunts back? How are things going? Did you make things difficult for you? How are you doing now?"

Hearing Ji Jingyan's series of questions, Su Ran's nose started to sore again. He sniffed hard, pretended to be very happy and said, "It's nothing, they didn't blame me too much, they have already started to treat me Policy." After finishing speaking, he laughed dryly twice.

Su Ran spoke happily, but her nasal voice was very heavy.Ji Jingyan vaguely felt something was wrong, he tentatively asked: "Is it really all right? Then why is your nasal voice so strong." Ji Jingyan paused, and his tone increased: "Su Ran, don't lie to me. "

"It's really all right! Su Ran emphasized it again, trying to make her tone sound happy, "It's snowing here, I may be about to catch a cold, that's why the nasal voice is so heavy. "

Ji Jingyan still didn't believe it, and was about to continue asking him, when he heard Su Ran hurriedly said to him: "Stop talking, I'm going home, hang up first!" Then he hung up the phone in a hurry.

Ji Jingyan stuck the phone to his ear, he always felt that something was wrong with Su Ran, but he frowned and thought for a long time, but he still couldn't figure it out.

For some reason, Ji Jingyan always had a bad feeling about Xia Qing's matter.

Su Ran put down the phone slowly, and the snow fell on him in a flurry, with a biting coldness.He habitually touched his jacket pocket, which contained an unfinished pack of cigarettes.He took out a cigarette and was about to light it, when Ji Jingyan's face suddenly flashed in his mind.

Ji Jingyan doesn't like him smoking.

Su Ran's hand to light the fire paused, hesitated for a while, and finally put down her hand, and threw the pack of cigarettes into the trash can beside her.

Su Ran looked at Ji Jingyan's face on the phone in some confusion, his parents' disappointed tone and their grief-stricken faces filled his mind, he couldn't figure it out, is this what he has been pursuing all along?For the future with Ji Jingyan, does he really want to give up everything he has now?

But now he really has no way out.Even if there is darkness ahead, he can only choose to go on bravely, because he wants to be the only light in the darkness, a light that illuminates the future for him and Ji Jingyan.

When Gu Anyuan arrived, Su Ran was in a daze by the side of the road, with snow falling on his head and body.He hurried over, patted Su Ran on the shoulder and asked, "It's snowing so much, what are you doing standing on the street? Are you stupid!"

Su Ran still lowered her head, looked at the white snow on the ground, and said in a muffled voice, "Because I have nowhere to go..."

Gu Anyuan looked at Su Ran's ears that were red from the cold, sighed, and gently patted the snowflakes that fell on him: "My mother is not at home just now, let's go home, take a hot bath first when we get to my house, and then talk about it! .”

Su Ran responded, and it was the first time that she followed Gu Anyuan obediently and walked towards his house.

Su Ran felt that he might never come home again.

When Ji Jingyan was eating, he realized that he and his grandmother were the only ones at the table, so he couldn't help asking, "Where's my mother? Are you not coming back for dinner today?"

Grandma nodded: "Just called me and said that I will work overtime at work today, so I won't come back to eat."

Ji Jingyan took a bite of food, and muttered suspiciously: "When did my mother get so busy at work?"

"How can you be so busy?" Grandma said with some dissatisfaction, "A few days ago, your former neighbor came to see her, and she didn't know what to say. After coming back, she took a day off. Now she is going to take the I finished the leftover work, so I worked overtime."

Hearing these words, Ji Jingyan's hand that picked up the vegetables stopped, and his first reaction was Su Ran's parents. He quickly raised his head and asked, "The former neighbors? Are they a couple?"

Grandma shook her head: "I don't know, but I heard from your mother that she is an old neighbor who has lived across the street for more than ten years. After your father left, he has helped our family a lot."

The chopsticks in Ji Jingyan's hand fell to the table with a "click", and he couldn't believe his ears.

Xia Qing happened right after Su Ran's parents met Shen Wanyan. When he thought of Shen Wanyan's nervousness when she mentioned Su Ran's name when she picked him up, he felt that Su Ran's parents would not forgive her so easily. he.

Ji Jingyan wanted to go to work to find Shen Wanyan.

Thinking of the three parents sitting together and talking about his and Su Ran's future, Ji Jingyan began to feel uneasy.

Thinking of this, Ji Jingyan couldn't eat anymore, so he quickly stood up and wiped his mouth, picked up the clothes he put on the sofa and said to grandma: "Grandma, I'm going to work to see my mother!"

After finishing speaking, I didn't care about grandma's reaction, put on my clothes and hurried downstairs.

When he arrived at Shen Wanyan's unit, he happened to see her on the phone.Ji Jingyan thought for a while, took two steps forward, and hid behind the pillar. Shen Wanyan spoke very softly, and Ji Jingyan had to listen very hard to hear.

The person on the phone didn't know what happened, Shen Wanyan seemed to be trying to comfort her, telling her not to be sad, she would come back sooner or later, after all, they were all children.

Ji Jingyan frowned: What does this mean?Is a child lost?

There was another comforting meal after that, until the moment Ji Jingyan heard his and Su Ran's names, Ji Jingyan's eyes widened suddenly.

He heard Shen Wanyan say: "Don't be too sad, please persuade Su Ran's father, don't be so stubborn anymore, father and son both have the same temper, and there must always be one who bows his head first, just let him Your child!" She paused, and then said: "Tomorrow, you bring some money and clothes to Su Ran, and give him more money, after all, you can rest assured that he has money! I don't care about ID cards or anything. I really suggest that you give it to him, so as not to take the train to other places. I will watch over Ji Jingyan here, and I can't let him go to Su Ran. "

Ji Jingyan hid behind the pillar and couldn't believe his ears.

Although I don't know the ins and outs of the matter very well, but one thing is certain: Su Ran ran away from home...

Ji Jingyan got closer again, and Shen Wanyan's words clearly reached his ears: "... Su Ran waits for another two or three days, and if Ji Jingyan doesn't respond, he will give up. They are still in adolescence, and enthusiasm comes quickly It's too fast, so you don't have to worry about him going to a classmate's house for two days. And explain it to Xia Qing's mother. After all, it's not good for this matter to spread. Remember to give Su Ran more money. Don't let him be wronged outside."

The thoughts in Ji Jingyan's head gradually became clear, and he suddenly remembered Su Ran's strange nasal voice when he was on the phone just now.

From childhood to adulthood, no matter how many years he has experienced, Su Ran has always been like this, standing silently in front of Ji Jingyan, blocking all gossip for him.

As for himself, it seems that he has always been so at ease, accepting all of Su Ran's protection.

Ji Jingyan felt that he might never meet another Su Ran in his life, and never meet such a lover who regarded him as a treasure again.

Ji Jingyan made all the plans in his heart, settled down, and slowly walked out from behind the pillar, calling: "Mom."

Ji Jingyan held his breath, looked at Shen Wanyan who turned his head, the hands hanging on both sides were gradually clenched, his eyes were unprecedentedly firm.

Su Ran, this time, I will never let you fight alone again.

Chapter 44

Shen Wanyan looked at Ji Jingyan behind her, her eyes widened, and she hurriedly hid her phone behind her back, forcing an awkward smile on her face: "Ji Jingyan, why are you here?"

Ji Jingyan slowly walked in front of her, stood still, glanced at the mobile phone she hid behind her, and said, "Mom, you don't need to hide, I've heard it."

Shen Wanyan was taken aback for a moment, then put the phone in her coat pocket, and heard Ji Jingyan say in a low voice: "You also know that I lied to you when you got home, right?"

Shen Wanyan raised her head and asked back, "Is it about Su Ran?"

Ji Jingyan nodded.

Shen Wanyan said casually: "I see, actually when I saw your expression at that time, I knew you were not telling the truth, but now why are you telling me this?"

Ji Jingyan took a deep breath, and said what was in his heart: "Because I don't want to lie to you anymore, and I don't want to lie to myself anymore." Ji Jingyan paused, and said the next words word by word: "No matter how you stop me , I still like Su Ran, the kind of love that must be together."

Su Ran, I will work with you to find our future.

Shen Wanyan frowned, unable to believe what Ji Jingyan said.From childhood to adulthood, Ji Jingyan has always been a well-behaved and sensible child, and never let her worry about it. This is the first time that Ji Jingyan has violated his wish so strongly.

Of course, Ji Jingyan could see the surprise in Shen Wanyan's eyes, but he still chose to insist: "Su Ran and I are not impulsive in adolescence, we both face this relationship very seriously, it's nothing like a normal man and woman falling in love Two. Su Ran and I have known each other for more than ten years, and every cell in my body has a memory about him, so there is no way for me to forget him. "

Shen Wanyan looked at Ji Jingyan with a firm face, and her voice trembled a little with anger: "So... are you going to find him?"

Ji Jingyan nodded, and Su Ran's grinning smile flashed in his mind: "I'm going to find him, I'm going to tell him, I'm with him. Even if everyone doesn't want him, everyone opposes him, I won't give up he."

He also wanted to use all his strength to protect Su Ran's bright smiling face, just like he was desperately standing in front of him.

When Shen Wanyan heard this, she slapped him backhandedly, and asked in a cold voice: "Ji Jingyan, do you know what you're talking about?"

Ji Jingyan touched his hot cheeks, this was the first time Shen Wanyan hit him since he grew up, and it was also the first time that his mother was disappointed in him.

"Of course I know." Ji Jingyan didn't give in at all, "I've always been very clear about what I'm doing, what I'm talking about, and what I'm obsessed with."

Shen Wanyan sighed, her eyes were red: "You go home first, we can talk about this matter after I finish working overtime." After speaking, she turned around and was about to walk forward.

"I'm leaving soon," I said looking at Shen Wanyan's back, "That's why I came here to look for you, and I want to make it clear to you that even if I'm not with Su Ran, I won't get married , because I really have no way to form a family with a woman I don’t like, then she and I will be miserable, and you won’t be happy either.”

"Ji Jingyan!" Shen Wanyan yelled loudly, and she didn't care about the strange gazes that passers-by cast on them. Her eyes were red, and she said with hatred: "You have to piss me off to death to be satisfied, right?"

Ji Jingyan bit her lower lip, and looked at Shen Wanyan sincerely: "Mom, I want to follow my own wishes. Since childhood, I have only been selfish this time, I hope you can understand me."

Shen Wanyan's eyes were red, and she said coldly: "I don't understand your Ji Jingyan. If I can understand, I won't interfere with your affairs with Su Ran." She paused, and then said: "You Wait for me at home, don't go to Su Ran, understand?"

The two looked at each other in the air for a long time, but they still didn't nod.Seeing this, Shen Wanyan added another sentence: "If you go to him, don't call me 'Mom' in the future, I don't have such an ignorant son."

Ji Jingyan was startled, and looked up at Shen Wanyan incredulously. He couldn't believe that Shen Wanyan, who had always loved him so much, would say such words: "Mom, why do you always push me like this?"

"It's not that I forced you, it's your own stubbornness that forced me to do this."

After Shen Wanyan finished speaking, she took a deep look at Ji Jingyan, turned around and walked upstairs without staying any longer.

Looking at Shen Wanyan's figure going upstairs, Ji Jingyan's unwillingness was gradually magnified. This was the first time he had the idea of ​​fighting Shen Wanyan to the end.

Su Ran's condition was very bad. He slumped on the sofa, staring at the ceiling with empty eyes, and he didn't even take a bite of the rice on the coffee table.Gu Anyuan sighed deeply, and said, "You'd better eat a little bit, or your body won't be able to take it anymore. The ugly words come first, and I don't have any extra money to take you to the hospital."

Su Ran didn't speak, and didn't even give him a hand in his eyes. He still looked at the ceiling motionlessly, like a stone statue.

Seeing this, Gu Anyuan had no choice but to take out his mobile phone and said, "If you don't want to eat anymore, I'll call Ji Jingyan now and tell him everything."

Only then did Su Ran's frozen expression loosen a little, he moved his body, his voice was a little hoarse: "I can't eat, really." After speaking, his eyes glanced at his refrigerator, and he asked, "Do you have wine at home? ? I want to drink."

Gu Anyuan glared at him: "You still want to drink without eating? Are you crazy?"

Su Ran ruffled her hair a little irritably. In fact, he wanted to smoke, but Ji Jingyan didn't let him smoke, so he chose to drink.He is really suffering now, and wants to do something to temporarily forget all the troubles in his head, even if it is only for a second.

Gu Anyuan could understand Su Ran's mood, after all, he also came along this road.Gu Anyuan thought for a while and said, "Su Ran, I know this is painful, because I have experienced it too, but the more painful it is, the more you have to keep your head clear, because you have to figure out what to do next. Paralyze yourself The spirit is only a temporary relief, only when everything is settled can you get real happiness."

Su Ran smiled bitterly, and asked back: "Solve it? How to solve it? There is no solution to this matter, Gu Anyuan. If I choose to be with Ji Jingyan, I must disobey my parents; if I obey my parents' arrangement, I will I want to give up Ji Jingyan, but both sides are equally important to me, how do you ask me to solve it?"

Gu Anyuan looked at Su Ran's eyes full of despair, but didn't speak.

"I also thought about going out to live by myself for a while, and then coming back after they accept me." Su Ran continued, "But after all, that is the home I have lived in for 20 years. I really can't bear it..."

Su Ran's eyes were red, she leaned over and took out a tissue, blew her nose and said, "I really don't understand, is it so difficult to accept two men falling in love? Is it so difficult to understand? They are all living together anyway , is it necessary to be serious about whether it is a man or a woman?"

Gu Anyuan took a deep look at Su Ran, not knowing how to comfort him.Because what Su Ran said was the truth.People are like this, they will always only recognize what they are willing to recognize, because this is the so-called "principle" in their hearts.

The room was silent for a while, and then Su Ran asked again: "Where are you and Cheng Haoran? How are you two doing?"

Gu Anyuan smiled, recalling what he said to Cheng Haoran last night, he could only lower his eyes and say, "That's it! It's not much better than you two..."

Just halfway through the conversation, Gu Anyuan's cell phone rang suddenly, and the word "Ji Jingyan" on the caller ID was particularly eye-catching.He hesitated for a while, then said to Su Ran: "Ji Jingyan is calling."

Su Ran was startled, then said hoarsely: "Don't tell him I'm here with you, don't tell him anything."

Gu Anyuan responded, and pressed the speakerphone. Ji Jingyan's voice on the other side of the phone clearly reached the ears of the two of them: "Gu Anyuan, is Su Ran with you? His phone is turned off, and I can't reach him."

Gu Anyuan looked at Su Ran and saw Su Ran shaking his head silently at him, so he replied, "No, what's wrong?"

Ji Jingyan was silent for a while, and then said in a low voice: "Gu Anyuan, I already know about Su Ran, I will take the train back this afternoon, and I will contact you then."

Su Ran's eyes widened, Gu Anyuan was taken aback, and quickly asked: "Then how did you know? Who told you?"

"I heard my mother calling," Ji Jingyan replied, "Gu Anyuan, I know Su Ran will definitely contact you, so I will be the first to call you. Also, I hope you can help me tell him , no matter what happens, this time I will face it with him."

Su Ran's eyes were moist, this was the first time Ji Jingyan expressed his position so clearly.At that moment, he suddenly felt that everything he had done was worthwhile.

Gu Anyuan paused and asked, "What about your mother? Did she agree with you coming here to find Su Ran?"

"No," Ji Jingyan's tone was a little disappointed: "But there's nothing she can do if she doesn't agree. I still want to come to Su Ran. I don't worry about him."

Gu Anyuan and Ji Jingyan chatted for a few more words, Su Ran sat on the sidelines and listened quietly, although he didn't speak, but Gu Anyuan could tell that Su Ran's mood was much calmer than before, at least he would no longer question himself decisions made.

Ji Jingyan arrived in the early morning of the next day, and Su Ran was waiting at the train station early