childhood sweethearts on chrysanthemum

.Among the bustling crowd, he saw the boy in the black coat at a glance.

Ji Jingyan is like a ray of bright sunshine in winter, driving away all the cold for him and warming his already cold heart.

Su Ran began to no longer be afraid of facing the road ahead, because no matter how bumpy the road ahead was, Ji Jingyan would always hold his hand and walk with him firmly.

Because Ji Jingyan was by his side, he was fearless.

Chapter 45

Ji Jingyan has been calling Su Ran non-stop since he was on the train, but the phone of the other party is always turned off.Just when he walked out of the train station and was about to make another call, he saw Su Ran who was waving and smiling at him in the crowd.

Standing where he was, Ji Jingyan also waved to Su Ran through the turbulent crowd, and gave him a brilliant smile in return.

Through the severe cold and layers of smog, the winter sun shone on the smiling figures of the two, and on the white snow on the ground, illuminating the future path of the two of them.No matter how many obstacles there are in the middle, they can hold each other's hands and go on bravely and firmly.

As soon as Ji Jingyan walked in front of Su Ran, Su Ran casually took the suitcase in his hand and asked, "Have you had breakfast?"

Ji Jingyan looked at Su Ran's side face, smiled and shook his head.

Su Ran held the suitcase with one hand, and naturally took Ji Jingyan's hand with the other hand, and put it in his jacket pocket, his voice was full of tenderness: "Then let's go have breakfast! Gu Anyuan said he The steamed stuffed bun shop downstairs is pretty good."

With great difficulty, Ji Jingyan moved his gaze away from Su Ran's face, held Su Ran's hand behind his back, lowered his head in response, and then said, "Then where will we live in the future? Can't we stay at Gu Anyuan's house all the time?"

Su Ran smiled, her tone full of teasing: "Hey, are you, a three-good student, running away from home too?"

Ji Jingyan rolled his eyes at him: "You don't welcome me? Then can I go back now?"

Su Ran quickly grabbed his hand tightly, but she still refused to give in: "Since you're still here, why go back? Just stay by my side!"

Ji Jingyan chuckled, not breaking Su Ran's little thoughts, and obediently followed behind him.

Su Ran carefully glanced at Ji Jingyan from the corner of her eyes, the smile on the corner of her mouth could not be held back, she looked like a fool immersed in happiness.

Many passers-by who came and went cast strange glances at the two of them, but the hands they held in their pockets never separated.

As much criticism as they can withstand, they can have as much happiness.

During the meal, Ji Jingyan glanced at the suitcase and asked, "Where are we going later?"

Su Ran gave him a bun: "Today my mother will come to give me money and ID card. Let's rent a house outside. After all, we can't live in Gu Anyuan's house all the time."

Ji Jingyan took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun, and shook his head quickly: "She won't bring you an ID card, my mother told my aunt. I have an ID card here, and if you rent a house, you can use mine." After finishing speaking He glanced at Su Ran, and then found that Su Ran's right cheek was swollen.

Ji Jingyan put down his chopsticks, looked at Su Ran's face with a frown, stretched out his hand to touch it lightly, and asked, "What's wrong with your face?"

After hearing this, Su Ran avoided his hand in a panic, and quickly said, "It's nothing, you can eat quickly!"

"Uncle wouldn't be beating you, right?" Ji Jingyan said bluntly: "I remember when you got into trouble when you were young, uncle would beat you."

Su Ran grabbed Ji Jingyan's hand, put it on the table, grinned and said, "Since you also know that this is not the first time he has dealt with me, so you don't have to worry about it, I'm so resistant, after two days The face is fine."

Ji Jingyan held his hand behind his back, interlocking his fingers.

When the person you love deeply is by your side, you can really go forward bravely without fear of wind and rain.

Time passed quickly, and it was the New Year in a blink of an eye. This was the first time that Ji Jingyan and Su Ran did not spend the New Year at home.

During this month, Ji Jingyan took over a lot of tutors, running around in different families every day.Su Ran became a salesman, because of his good looks and eloquence, his performance is also very good.Although Su's mother kept sending money to Su Ran, the two of them never used it except for renting the house once, enjoying their hard-earned happiness in a small rental house by themselves.

Except for Su Tengfei, the two parents had called them. Su's mother was constantly worried about Su Ran's health, while Shen Wanyan ordered Ji Jingyan to go home again and again. Adhering to his own principles, he is also trying his best to persuade her to accept his sexual orientation and his love with Su Ran.

On the day of New Year's Eve, Su Ran called Su Tengfei. Although Su Tengfei's tone was still not very good, it was the first time since Su Ran left home that the father and son had spoken a few words calmly.

Su Ran knew in her heart that although her father had a bad temper and was stubborn, he really loved her more than anyone else.Su Ran resisted him so resolutely, and hoped that those who loved her would also accept the one she loved.

When Ji Jingyan got home, Su Ran was sitting on the bed in a daze.Ji Jingyan stood outside the bedroom thinking for a while, then tiptoed to the bedside, and shoved his cold hands into Su Ran's clothes.

Su Ran was so frightened that she turned around and saw Ji Jingyan standing behind him with a smirk on her face.

Su Ran gave him a blank look, and muttered: "Aren't you naive..." He reached out to hold Ji Jingyan's hand, and asked, "Why are your hands so cold? Did you not wear gloves when you went out just now?"

Ji Jingyan pouted and sat beside him: "I was in a hurry to go out, so I forgot to bring it." After speaking, he drew his hand out again, trying to stuff it under his clothes: "You are so hot, warm your hands."

Su Ran raised her eyebrows and glanced at him, then grinned rascally: "My crotch is the hottest, do you want to stuff it in?"

……

Ji Jingyan kicked him mercilessly: "I'll go to your uncle!"

Su Ran yelled, sitting on the edge of the bed and covering his second brother with a twisted body, said in pain, "Ji Jingyan, this is related to your lifelong happiness, how can you do it..."

Ji Jingyan rolled his eyes, ignored him, got up and went to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

Ever since Ji Jingyan and Su Ran had thoroughly confirmed their cohabitation relationship, Su Ran gradually revealed her true nature, and she was no longer cautious as she was when chasing Ji Jingyan, and began to have sex with him slowly.Ji Jingyan endured it if he could, and blocked it if he could. Occasionally, when it was too much, he would give him a fatal blow like just now.But fortunately, Su Ran's second brother has a strong ability to resist blows, and Ji Jingyan was not affected when he was on the bed.

Su Ran stayed by the bed for a while, then walked into the kitchen, looked at Ji Jingyan who was washing the vegetables, and asked, "When you went downstairs to buy vegetables just now, did the aunt in the supermarket look at you? Did she talk to you?"

Ji Jingyan didn't even raise his head, and said while washing the vegetables, "I'm only twenty, how come you become an aunt in your mouth?"

Su Ran took another two steps forward, leaning against the door frame, and looked obsessively at Ji Jingyan's pretty side face: "She is so old and ugly, and she strikes up conversations with you every day, like playing mahjong downstairs in our house before." She looks like an old lady!"

Ji Jingyan chuckled, then turned to look at Su Ran: "Are you jealous? Just because people always talk to me?"

"Well, it's because of this." Su Ran admitted generously: "Do you think she knows we are a couple? If she doesn't know, let's kiss in front of her tomorrow!"

Ji Jingyan looked at him with the eyes of a neuropathy: "Are you sick? People saw what you did on your neck that day, and they kindly reminded me that I bought a scarf at her house to wear before I dared to go to class. .”

"She's doing this as a way of selling, just to get you to buy her scarves." Su Ran curled her lips with disdain on her face: "I didn't realize that, she's not very old, and she can play tricks."

Ji Jingyan looked at Su Ran speechlessly, for his inexplicable jealousy, Ji Jingyan really didn't know what to say...

But later on, I don't know what Su Ran did to the little girl in the supermarket downstairs. Afterwards, every time the little girl saw Ji Jingyan, she seemed hesitant to speak, and her eyes were indescribably subtle.

Later, when asked what Su Ran said to the little girl, Su Ran thought for a while, and then said casually: "I told her that you are allergic to women, and you feel like vomiting when you talk to her, so every time you After I come back from the supermarket, I have to kiss you for a long time, so that you don't feel sick."

Ji Jingyan: ...

He really felt that Su Ran's IQ had degraded by more than one notch...

After the new year, time flies, but fortunately, the two schools start at about the same time.The day before he was about to leave, Su Ran held Ji Jingyan in his arms and told him in a low voice: "After returning to school, you are not allowed to be with other girls, you are not allowed to talk to other girls, you are not allowed to look at them, and you are not allowed to let them look at you."

Ji Jingyan smiled, and leaned into his arms again: "What about the boy? Can the boy just look at it casually?"

"Then it's even worse," Su Ran said in an emphatic tone: "You are not allowed to change clothes in front of your roommate, I will call you every day, and I will visit you when I have time on weekends, you are not allowed to mess around!"

Ji Jingyan hooked his neck, kissed him hard on the lips, and said in a hoarse voice: "I only mess with you, Su Ran."

Su Ran took a deep look at Ji Jingyan, bowed her head and kissed him.

Because Su Ran cherishes Ji Jingyan too much, he is afraid that his favorite Ji Jingyan will be snatched away by others.So even if it was only for a second, he was unwilling to separate from Ji Jingyan...

For Su Ran, Ji Jingyan is his whole world.

For four years in college, Ji Jingyan's roommates all knew that he had a super clingy girlfriend who would call him every day and sometimes take a train for more than ten hours to see him on weekends.When everyone was envious of their strong relationship, only Ji Jingyan knew how he persisted every night after meeting Su Ran.

Many things happened in the past four years. For example, Cheng Haoran still failed to resist Gu Anyuan's fierce pursuit and agreed to be with him; for example, Shen Tang finally let go of Su Ran, found a satisfactory boyfriend, and planned to get married after graduation.

To say that the biggest achievement of the past four years is that the parents of the two of them finally began to slowly choose to accept the love between him and Su Ran.After three years, they finally lived up to their hard-earned courage and all the hard work they had put in.

With their determination and courage, they broke the so-called "principles" in the hearts of their families.

In the winter of his senior year, Su Tengfei finally let go and asked Su Ran to take Ji Jingyan home for the New Year. Shen Wanyan and Su's mother had already bought groceries the day before and were waiting to take them home.

Su Ran pulled the suitcase and walked out of the dormitory. There were snowflakes floating in the sky, just like when he left home three years ago. The difference was that when the snowflakes fell on him, it was no longer cold, but refreshing. warmth.

As soon as he walked downstairs, Su Ran saw Ji Jingyan standing not far away. In the heavy snow, he was like a quiet and beautiful picture.

Su Ran stepped on the white snow, walked up to Ji Jingyan step by step, and stood still.Looking at his red ears from the cold, he stretched out his hand from his pocket and put it on his ear, and said softly, "When did you come here?"

Ji Jingyan's eyes were bright when he saw Su Ran. He took Su Ran's hand and said with a smile, "It's not long since I came here." Then he looked down at his watch and said, "It's almost time, let's go home! We Mom told me just now that the meal is ready, and uncle is on his way to pick us up."

Su Ran nodded, took Ji Jingyan's hand behind her back, interlocked his fingers, and repeated it with affectionate tone: "Well, Ji Jingyan, let's go home!"

The snowflakes fell slowly, blurring the figures of the two people who were drifting away in the snow.Su Ran felt the temperature in his palm, looked at Ji Jingyan's reddish side face, and gradually reflected Ji Jingyan's quiet appearance when he and Ji Jingyan first met in his mind.

In that noisy neighborhood, the voices of grandparents chatting about homework, mixed with the voices of uncles and aunts playing mahjong, are noisy but extremely warm.At that time, the sun had not yet set, Su Ran was grinning and covering her painful chrysanthemum, the setting sun hit Ji Jingyan's body, outlining a layer of beautiful golden border.He stretched out his hand to Su Ran, his voice was clear, with a slightly awkward southern accent:

"My name is Ji Jingyan. I just moved here. Nice to meet you."

From that moment on, the gears of their fate began to turn slowly.From ignorance to ignorance, from youthfulness to maturity, they have witnessed each other's growth and also witnessed each other's love.

Thank fate for allowing me to meet such a beautiful you, Ji Jingyan, you are my entire youth, my entire world, and my entire love.

Ji Jingyan, I will love you with my whole life.

The author has something to say: this is the end of the text, thank you little angels for your support over the past month, thank you (╯3╰)

Tomorrow I will update an episode about Su Ran and Ji Jingyan in real life, interested little angels can take a look O(∩_∩)O~~

write to them in reality

Why doesn't our society accept homosexuality?

Because in our culture, procreation is regarded as the purpose, ignorance is regarded as purity, ignorance is regarded as virtue, and prejudice is regarded as principle.To see love should be the attitude of one soul to another, not the reaction of one organ to another.

——Chai Jing "Seeing"

Write to them in reality:

Time flies, and in a blink of an eye I have been writing this article for more than a month.Thanks to the encouragement of the little angels, I was able to persevere.But when this article was finished, I suddenly had a wonderful feeling, as if I spent more than a month feeling the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of the two of them for more than ten years.

It's a pity that they are not together in real life. For the convenience of explanation, I will call Su Ran's prototype Gongjun and Ji Jingyan's prototype Shoujun.There are bridges in the novel that I imagined to promote the development of the plot, so I want to write here the real things they have experienced in the past ten years.

In fact, I hardly changed the content before I went to university. The biggest change is the content after Gong Jun and Shou Jun came out of the closet.Their parents did not agree to the two of them being together, and they still did not agree after a few years.Gong Jun's parents introduced him to many girls from colleagues' families and took him to see a psychologist, but according to what Gong Jun told me, these were of no use at all. His cooperation was just to make his parents feel at ease.

After coming out of the closet, Shou Jun was not much better than Gong Jun. Although his mother never introduced girls to him, and never took him to see a psychiatrist, she played the family card with him day after day.Shoujun loves his mother very much, and the death of his father in the third year of high school made him cherish his only mother even more. He couldn't bear to let his mother be sad and shed tears every day, so he began to choose to avoid Gongjun and escape from this In his sophomore year, he chose to apply to be an exchange student.

After Shoujun left, more than half of their contact was broken.Gongjun's state can't be said to be very bad, but it's definitely not very good, and his addiction to smoking is getting bigger and bigger.During Shoujun's absence, his parents kept enlightening him, and the psychiatrist continued to treat him. At the same time, he also wanted to understand some things, and gradually began to doubt the relationship between the two of them, and gradually understood the reality. and ideal gap.It wasn't until Shoujun came back with his girlfriend who was abroad that Gongjun woke up like a dream.

People who have really loved each other find a way to become ordinary friends. The two of them went from good brothers to close lovers, and finally became slightly alienated friends. Only then did I know that sometimes reality is really cruel.

When I met Gong Jun, he had just entered his senior year, so all the stories were over.Gong Jun and I met in a group of fellow villagers. He is a very active person with an ordinary appearance but a very charming personality.When I first met him, he had a girlfriend, who was in line with his usual aesthetics, white, tall, and thin.When they were together, they were tepid, and after graduating from senior year, it was nothing.

I have met Shou Jun, although I am not as familiar with Gong Jun, but because of the relationship between writing novels and drawing materials, I can be regarded as a relatively good friend now.Shou Jun's dance is very good. It was because of his excellent grades in the high school entrance examination that he didn't become a special student.And he himself is similar to what is said in the novel, a very good person, a typical "child of other people's family".Shoujun seldom talks, and he is not very willing to share his feelings.I didn't chat with him very much, only on QQ and WeChat, so most of Shoujun's thoughts in the novel were figured out by myself, and some plots may be relatively blunt.

I remember I asked Shoujun what he thought of this relationship, he said it was beautiful, he would miss it, but he could only miss it.

There is also the girl Shen Tang, who is also real. I have seen her photos, she is very beautiful, she looks carefree, with the boldness and informality of a girl from the Northeast.In fact, I like her character very much, I can afford to love her, and I can let go of her.

I like to read Tanmei novels, and Gongjun found out that I was a rotten girl only after reading Tanmei novels, and then we gradually got to know each other, and he began to slowly tell me the story between him and Shoujun.The story is very long, spanning many years, but it is plain and warm like a long stream of water.

They have known each other since kindergarten, they are in the same class in elementary school, and in different classes in middle school. The relationship between the family is upstairs and downstairs, and the relationship between parents is also very good. The two of them grew up slowly in such an environment, and gradually, They had strange feelings for each other.

I think sometimes love is like this, not vigorous enough, but every detail warms each other's heartstrings.

I remember a passage that Gong Jun told me that impressed me very deeply: He said that he had seen a movie, which was from a foreign country. In the world of that movie, only homosexuality was recognized by society, while heterosexuality was It's the one that gets ostracized.In the movie, a little girl happened to fall in love with a boy. This is a very normal thing in our world, but in the movie, she was subjected to unprecedented prejudice and exclusion. This is a microcosm of our society. The most frightening thing is not the human heart, but the prejudice in the human heart.

I asked Gong Jun about the legalization of same-sex marriage, and he said he didn't care.If two people can really be happy, it doesn't really matter whether there is legal recognition.But even if one day China can really support same-sex marriage, it will only be legally recognized, and social prejudice will follow one after another, so there is no difference.

Regarding same-sex marriage, what needs to be changed is not the law, but the so-called "principles" in people's hearts.

Now that they have graduated from senior year, they have not chosen to take the postgraduate entrance examination or go abroad for further study, but have found suitable jobs in different places.Because the internship is very busy, I only contacted occasionally, just like ordinary old classmates, no one crossed the line again.

It sounds like a very sad story. Shoujun’s lack of bravery, and Gongjun’s learning to let go, led to today’s unsatisfactory ending, but I changed it to happy ending in the novel.I also really hope that in real life, they can bravely pursue their love like Su Ran and Ji Jingyan in the novel, and use all their strength to pursue a happy love.

Perhaps all love may not have a happy ending like a novel, but I believe that all love will not be disappointed by the years.

Here, I also hope that the little angels who read the article can be brave enough to be themselves, stick to their choice, stick to what they love, and stick to everything they love.

The author has something to say: This article is completely over here, and I am very grateful to the little angels for their support all the way, thank you for your company all the way (╯3╰)